Goddess routine

Mo Xiaobei didn't know what other long-distance couples were like, but she thought that maybe no one had ever gotten along so strangely like them.

Since going to college, she has vaguely felt that she has changed a lot, but it was after she went to work that she really realized that she had completely changed.

She can't keep up with her logic and ideas more and more. She understands her idea of ​​wanting to be excellent all the time, but she can't agree with it.

In addition to the fact that financial books are really difficult for her to understand, there is another point that she hates things about numbers.

Not everyone can become a mathematician like Hua Luogeng, and not everyone who has studied science can invent the light bulb.

Mo Xiaobei was very distressed, he was even more nervous when facing Su Ziqing now than when facing her math teacher in high school.

In the first month, she only thought that what she said was a joke, so she put the financial book she sent on the side of the coffee table without turning a page.

When she went to look for her full of joy next month, her cold sentence "Where are the books" knocked back all her joy.

She bowed her head to admit her mistake, and then she was scolded again, saying that she was not motivated.

She's becoming less and less like her.

She also became less and less like herself.

When she was scolding her for being unmotivated, the scene when her mother scolded her dad suddenly appeared in Mo Xiaobei's mind.

Every time her father lost in gambling, and when her mother caught him climbing over the wall and entering the house with red eyes, he would always be like her, with his head hooked, as if he knew he was wrong.

Sometimes she stood by the side, and she also hated her father's way of being a dead pig who was not afraid of boiling water.But she never thought that at some point, she would become exactly like her father. In the eyes of others, she would be a person who does not seek to make progress.

She felt that she had been stabbed countless times in her heart.

Although she is very grateful to her father for giving birth to her and raising her, she still has some resentment towards her father in her heart.

As I got older, this resentment deepened.

Especially when she was in college, she wanted to study double degrees, learn taekwondo, and learn musical instruments, but in the end she got stuck because she didn't have money, and her parents didn't have money.

The pocket money they gave her was not enough for her to spend, so how could they let her learn these "full-fed" things.

When she was in college, the girl who lived across from her was always well dressed and could do whatever she wanted.

If you want to learn painting, you enroll in an art class; if you want to learn a small language, you go to an educational institution to sign up; if you want to play guitar, you join a guitar club; if you want to learn billiards, you go to a club by yourself.

Living as he pleases makes Mo Xiaobei envious.But at this time, the resentment towards her parents is the deepest.

Speaking of these grievances, they always say that she is young and does not know how to be considerate of her parents and make money difficult.

The children of the poor are in charge early.

In fact, I have to be at home.

She hated some of her father's mannerisms, but she didn't expect that in her eyes, she had already become such a role.

But in fact, why didn't she gradually become like her mother?

She would sometimes tell her about her mother, and when she listened to it, Mo Xiaobei sighed in his heart.

Of course, she didn't dare to tell her these things.

Some of the sharpness on her body is more and more revealed, and it is easy to stab people.

Mo Xiaobei actually doesn't like to deal with people who show their sharpness and start confronting people after a few words, but because it's her, she tolerates it.

Su Ziqing was also driven into a hurry, otherwise, with her usual gentle temperament, she would not have noticed the abnormalities of the people around her, and she would only focus on studying hard, reading documents, reading books, and learning hot yoga.

Su Ziqing's daily life is full and compact, but there is less and less left for her.

Even Mo Xiaobei sometimes had to make an appointment to come here to see her.

It must be impossible for her not to collapse.

But she endured it, and sometimes she couldn't make an appointment to accompany her, so she could only go there to help her clean the house and cook, and then stare at her back looking at the documents in a daze.

Of course, in order not to let her find that she was in a daze, she still held a... miscellaneous book wrapped in a financial book cover.

Or a collection of classics and history, or prose poetry novels, anyway, it is impossible for her to finish reading that thick financial book.

Su Ziqing didn't care about her, but sometimes when she fell asleep on the sofa with the book in her arms, she covered her with a blanket, stared at her quietly for a while, kissed her lips or cheeks, and walked to the desk again. sit down.

Three and a half years passed in this way.

Su Ziqing's temper gradually became the same as her mother's. When the two of them were eating, they were sometimes so indifferent that they couldn't say a word.

Mo Xiaobei is getting more and more Buddhist. Apart from eating vegetarian food and reciting Buddha, she has a shrine to offer at home, her temper is so good that there is nothing to say.

She doesn't get angry, doesn't fight or rob, doesn't complain or grumble, she just knows to work hard, and when she follows them to the workshop of their company for translation and inspection, all the old and young men who work there like her.

Seeing her coming, no matter whether they are married or not, they should smile and talk to her, and then ask her, "Mo Gong, you have a boyfriend. Do you think I am suitable for you?"

Mo Xiaobei could only smile lightly, making jokes with them to bypass the matter.

But as I got older, more and more people asked about this kind of thing.What makes Mo Xiaobei more difficult is that her mother is also asking her whether she is willing to get married.

Sometimes I heard her say that she didn't have a boyfriend yet, and I could hear her long and plaintive voice through the phone. "Oh, Xiaobei, women are worthless after 28. If you don't hurry up and find a boyfriend while you are young, what will you do if all the good men are picked away later?"

"I get it, I get it." Mo Xiaobei always replied like this, thinking in his heart, it turns out that a woman picks a man just like picking a cabbage, as long as the genes of the species are compatible, there is no need to consider whether they are compatible or not. There is no love.

Her mother is in her hometown, the mountains are high and the emperor is far away, and Mo Xiaobei can earn money to support herself now, sending some money home regularly every month, her mother will not threaten her to get married.She cut off one of the family's sources of income, so she is still living at ease.

After more than three years, Su Ziqing gradually became more and more familiar with the work content in the unit, and did not need to work overtime.Although sometimes she would bring some documents home, it was obvious that she spent a lot more time with her.

Mo Xiaobei is a person who is easily satisfied. Seeing that she didn't threaten him to do things that he didn't like her, and he spent more and more time with her, he felt as happy as if he had won the lottery.

Every time I go to see her, I always make a detour to the vegetable market to buy a bunch of vegetables, and go to her residence in advance to prepare meals and wait for her.

Apart from not being able to bear her a child, Mo Xiaobei can almost comment on 24 filial girlfriends in other respects.

But because he was used to her being nice to her, Su Ziqing had already forgotten what she was like before, and slowly took this matter as a very normal thing.In addition, she has a lot of things to do at work, and gradually sometimes she will not pay attention to her words.

She didn't know that Mo Xiaobei had been hurt many times by her unintentionally.

If the unintentional injury is a stab in the back, then one thing that happened later is an open injury.

In April, when there were less than [-] days left in the college entrance examination, Su Ziqing's father suddenly fell on the three-foot podium while giving a lecture to the students.

The students in the classroom were terrified. Fortunately, the dean who was passing by and inspecting saw her and sent her father to the hospital in time.

When Su Ziqing received a call from the hospital asking her to visit her father, she had just finished a meeting. When she walked out of the office, the sunlight outside made her eyes hurt.

Hearing the news that her father was hospitalized, she felt that the sunlight outside was stronger, which made her tears flow down slowly.

Putting everything aside to find her father, when she found the hospital, there were a few familiar people around, including a few faces she knew so well, and a few faces she didn't recognize.

"Ziqing, you are here. The hospital couldn't contact the immediate family members, so I was so anxious that I could only call the people in Mr. Su's mobile phone contacts one by one. The few of us usually have the closest contact with Mr. Su , and it’s also close to the hospital, so I rushed here first.”

When a slightly chubby fair-skinned woman saw her, her eyes lit up, she came up and took her hand, happy and excited, "Ziqing, I haven't seen you for so many years, you have become so much more beautiful! You are even more beautiful than before." !"

Su Ziqing saw that she looked familiar, but he didn't recognize who she was for a long time.

"I'm Anji, you don't remember!" Seeing her puzzled eyes, the woman smiled and said, "I'm working in a bank in the county right now, which is close to No. [-] Middle School. Usually, when Teacher Su is free , I took my children to learn calligraphy from him.”

It was only then that Su Ziqing recognized that the fat girl in front of her was An Ji, who was tall and thin back then. She also knew that she got married, gave birth to a child, and settled down in the county town.

"I'm not like you guys. I don't have any big ambitions. I never thought about getting ahead. As long as I live happily, I'm happier than anything else."

She still loves to laugh, and when Su Ziqing looked at it, she remembered that when she was divided into classes, she asked herself to write in her notebook to encourage her to learn words well.

In a flash, so many years have passed.

Su Ziqing felt her eye sockets were hot, and her mind suddenly recalled the awkwardness she had when she and Mo Xiaobei first met.

Her nostrils were sore, so she went to check on her father first.

The few people waiting outside the ward glanced at each other, but couldn't tell what was going on with her father falteringly, so she had to run to find her father's attending physician by herself.

After listening calmly and solemnly to the doctor's explanation of many messy points, he finally summed up two words from his mouth.

Stomach cancer.

The author has something to say: This article is only now on the right track.It will be over in about twenty or thirty chapters.This article was conceived when I was just in college, and the real structure was completed after graduation.

I made a phone call to someone yesterday, and when everyone chatted and chatted and lamented that the time passed too quickly, suddenly every plot after this article came out.There is almost no part about love in this article. Most of it is my nonsense, because maybe this article is really linked to part of my youth.It's my best memoir.

So just watch the fun and don't complain.