refuse to be a teacher

At the bottom of Xixin Valley in early winter, there was an endless rain.Xue Erjin's wound caused by cutting his arm outside the valley, although it was gradually healing when he returned to the house, the boiling blood in his body was still running high fever without any scruples, almost threatening to tear his fragile face. Limbs and limbs burned alive until they were exhausted.

He fell into a nightmare, and when he fell asleep, his whole body was burning hot, so once he closed his eyes, his mind was filled with one after another grotesque and scattered figures.

At first, the elder brother took his little hand and stepped over the rotten and broken limbs step by step, looking out from the mountain of corpses and the sea of ​​blood.

Then he smiled slightly, lowered his head, squatted beside Xue Erjin, and said to him softly and lowly:

"...Don't be afraid, brother will protect you."

Since then, every time I wake up from a dream and open my eyes, there are ghostly cages one after another in front of me.

The blood relatives of the original companions left one after another, and the only thing left was the weak half shoulder of the elder brother.His big warm hands stretched out, his fingers stretched out, and gently held Xue Erjin's, and he opened his mouth over and over again, promising him: "Don't be afraid, I will always be here."

"Don't be afraid, Erjin."

"I'm on this road, waiting for you to come back."

I'm on this road, waiting for your return.

But he walked a long, long way alone, with no one in front of him or behind him.

Xue Erjin felt that she was in an ice cave, but at the same time she was in a stove.After four years of torment and pain, when he finally stretched out his hands trembling, a snow-white blurry figure finally appeared, standing silently beside him, as if in a room full of darkness. The last star of the lamp is so bright that it is dusty, and it is also warm to the bone.

Xue Erjin seemed to have grasped something, and with that strength that could almost crush a person, she tried her best to keep him, longing for him to need him...or just simply, wanting him.

A person who has been walking alone in the shadows and dark corners for a long time, suddenly sees a light, and is desperate, rushes up, rushes up, holds it, and holds it firmly in the palm of his hand, just begging for the star A little bit of halo can drive away the loneliness entrenched around him forever.

But what good is that?What does not belong to him will not belong to him after all.

Yan Jue once taught him to read, teach him to practice calligraphy, taught him to hunt, and even told him many easy-to-understand and difficult-to-understand truths with a serious face.

He said to him: "If you want to learn something seriously, you should respectfully call me 'Master' first."

So Xueer agreed.If you really hold him in your heart and take care of him, everything will be fine - as long as Yan Yao is still by his side, you won't leave him alone.

Xue Erjin really showed his heart and tried to deliver it to him wholeheartedly.

However, at this moment, Yan Jue turned around resolutely, and coldly refused: "I have lived in this world all my life, not to be raised by people day and night."

Yes.

Yan deceived him that he didn't like this.

Yan Jue didn't like being trapped in a cage.

Yan Hao doesn't like him.

He doesn't like him, looks down on him, and even has a hint of disdain for him.

Xue Erjin closed his eyes tightly, and the frightening blood all over his body was like a ferocious beast breaking free from its chains, trying to break through the most primitive shackles of his body, tear him up and swallow him, and bite him to the head In a different place, there is not half a piece of residue left.

But he can't wake up——

Such a rainy night.He seemed to be lying in the coldest corner of the world, suffering from the bitter cold. The liquid in his blood vessels was constantly being suppressed, and it was suppressed inside his body for a long time, as if it would never be able to escape.

He tried to open his eyes, but he couldn't open them no matter what.He wanted to speak, but his lips were weak and dry, unable to make any sound.

He felt extremely uncomfortable, even on the verge of death, but at this moment of despair and helplessness, someone gently embraced him, and the warm palm silently pressed against his already sweaty back, like an elder brother stretching out at the beginning. The big hand in front of him.

Someone was bowing their heads and kissing him, tender and reverent.Someone was holding him with open arms, cherishing and loving him.

That must be the best dream Xue Erjin has ever had since she became conscious.He was a little unwilling to wake up, and even sincerely hoped to be the happiest ordinary person in this illusory and invisible dream.

After that, I no longer need to stay trapped in this desolate small valley, watching that almost ridiculous attachment day and night.

—but how could it be true?

His poor elder brother, who was so cowardly to the bone, was being played with in his hands recklessly.As long as he accidentally made any out-of-the-ordinary move, the world would be turned upside down, his body would be smashed to pieces, and there would be no way to survive.

The shadow brought by death is like a huge net covering the sky and covering the sky.None of them has the ability to break it free, but they want to hold up their palms, cross the closely intertwined net in front of them, and touch the blue and bright sky outside, the vast and boundless mountains and rivers.

Xue Erjin tried her best to stretch out her hands, wanting to go out and have a look.However, when he woke up from the dream, Yan Jue's indifferent side face was still in his eyes.

At that time, he was really uncomfortable and out of breath.He walked over, hugged Yan Jue's soft body completely, and hugged him desperately into his arms, with unreasonable strength, but his voice was extremely broken, like the last whimper of a lonely dog ​​when it was parting.

"...Don't go, don't go! I won't let you go!"

"I like you, Oryu!"

"It's the kind of love that wants to spend a lifetime together."

Yan Jue was in his arms, startled, struggling, hesitating, and then gradually lost strength and courage.As if he was finally tired, he stretched out his hand and said to him helplessly: "...I will take you out, let's experience a different life outside together."

"You have nothing to fear," he said.

Hearing this, Xue Erjin suddenly froze.

After a long while, he shook his head, hugged Yan Jue's hands tightly, and unconsciously let go of them.

——Yan Hua said, you don't have to be afraid of anything.

The elder brother also said, don't be afraid, I will always be there.

Xue Erjin raised his eyes to look at Yan Hao, only to feel that everything was both familiar and unfamiliar.

He let go of his hands, knuckles one by one, and slowly retreated from the edge of Yan Jue's snow-white robe.

He didn't have that kind of background in his heart, but he was terrified and fearful, walking on eggshells in everything.Yan Jue was also the one who never kept his promise, so he made a decisive decision on his relationship and never turned back easily.

"...Are you leaving?"

At the bottom of Xixin Valley, there are 49 aura barriers, each of which is as majestic and unbreakable as a chisel.

At that time, Xue Erjin refused to give up, so she kept asking him: "...Aren't you staying here to be my master?"

Yan Jue didn't turn his head back, just holding the long sword in his hand blankly, and answered him in a low voice: "I said I would take you away, but you refused to go, who can blame you?"

"Let's go together?" He stood still at the edge of the enchanted light circle, and said with a blank expression, "...out of the cage of Xixin Valley, the outside world is vast and endless, and you are free to feel at ease—— At that time, I will be your master again and teach you how to read and practice martial arts day and night, wouldn't it be good?"

What a wide land and a long sky, free and easy.

Why doesn't he want to give up everything, accompany the person he loves, and let the world be his home?

But if he just left without hesitation and left his elder brother alone to resign himself to fate, what kind of unpredictable result would it be?

Xue Erjin looked at him from a distance, her throat was already aching: "No... I can't go, I..."

"You don't want to go, I have to go." Yan Jue waved his hand, signaling that he didn't need to say more, "Anyway, you don't listen to what I say, and you can stay here alone if you like."

"You...you don't want to leave, okay?" Xue Erjin choked up, "I am willing to call you Master, every day, every year, as many times as you want, as long as you don't leave, I am willing to do anything! "

Yan Jue turned his back to him, wearing a clean robe like ice and snow in the extreme cold of winter.His sharp yet feminine features, when he made any expression similar to contempt, were so mean that they were almost cruel.

"No need." He said, "Who cares about your two names that you have to be familiar with?"

That's all for this.

He finally brushed off his sleeves, turned around and took heavy steps, bit by bit into the endless darkness that could not be seen in the distance, creating an insurmountable gap with the person behind him.

Yan bullied away.

He will never come back.

Xue Erjin froze in place, until he came back to his senses later, he was the only one left in the whole silent Xixin Valley.

He finally got scared, so he shouted hastily and helplessly: "...don't go, don't go!"

"Hoyu, don't go!"

"Or jade!"

No one paid any attention to him.

No one even looked back at him.

This time, Yan Jue left without leaving any traces.

Xue Erjin's whole body trembled like a shudder, and those bloodshot eyes closed and opened at that moment, as if trying to confirm something forcibly, and felt that everything in front of him was disordered, false, unrealistic.

He suddenly began to regret—why did he agree to Mo Fuqiu's request?Why would he be willing to suffer so much for his cowardly elder brother?

Why?

He can leave and stay by Yan Jue's side forever, even if Yan Jue doesn't like him, there is at least one person who will lead him and accompany him so that he won't have to suffer the pain of loneliness.

He shook his head desperately, breathed heavily and stretched out his hand, along the gap left when the 49 barriers were broken, trying to catch up with Yan Jue's footsteps when he left, followed him, hugged him without hesitation, and held him with his fingers. Interlocking each other, ear to ear: "Master, take me with you, okay?"

Xue Erjin was probably crazy.

is crazy.

His eyes were red, his throat was trembling faintly, and he clearly had an expression of extreme horror, but his slender five fingers stretched out mercilessly, splitting, tearing, tearing the wound that had just healed up between his arms. It was bloody and bloody, hot blood gurgled down the broken place, and the surrounding intact skin was scorched red.

As if he didn't feel it, he coagulated the constantly beating blood in the palm of his hand, allowing it to change and expand rapidly, and finally gathered into a sharp short blade.

Then, with all the strength in his body, he raised the edge of the blade, facing the edge of the enchantment, almost losing his mind, and swung it down fiercely——

There was a bang, and there was an uproar.

The sound that rolled from the ear was not the sound of the aura barrier breaking.

Someone laughed lowly behind him.Slow and slow, more like pity than ridicule.

"It's funny, Xue Erjin."

His voice was hoarse, but also heavy, like a boulder that had been pressed down by a mountain pass in vain.

"You should take a look in the mirror."

"The way you look now is really ridiculous."