it's sunny with you

When seeing the pupils of the person below him constrict because of this movement, Shen Haoyi felt Le Qing's tight and stiff body against the skin.The ease and joy that Shen Haoyi's playfulness had just now disappeared, and his heart sank to the bottom of the valley.At this time, he suddenly realized that Yueqing was different from him, at least he could not accept the same-sex closeness without any grievances, maybe his sexual orientation at this stage could still be the opposite sex, and at this time he could get back on track.

Shen Haoyi put his hand next to Le Qing's face and stroked his face with his thumb, feeling his tense nerves relax, and stared blankly at him with penetrating eyes.Le Qing's appearance is not outstanding, but he is pretty and good-looking. The advantage is that he has such a clean and sunny personality, which probably attracts many people's likes.At least the girl who took him by the corner of the stairs admired him.The smile on the corner of his mouth is always so sincere, and it feels very comfortable and relaxed to stay with him.Shen Haoyi suddenly realized that because he liked him, he irresponsibly confessed to him, yes, kissed and hugged him, and it was too selfish to break him off unconsciously.

If Yueqing hadn't met him, she would be able to have a family and carry on the family line like ordinary people.No matter how unhappy heterosexuals are, they are blessed and well-meaning by all when they get married.Instead of letting Leqing bear the pressure and abuse about homosexuality.These he could have avoided.Thinking of this, Shen Haoyi suddenly felt that from the very beginning, he shouldn't have allowed himself to approach Le Qing again and again.

Unlike him, Yue Qing has a choice.This point is very clear, but he can't help approaching him.Shen Haoyi discovered that his sexual orientation was homosexual since he was a child. At that time, he didn't know what kind of disease he had.Be careful to bury it, thinking that it can be covered up for a lifetime. In middle school, Haoyu was the first to discover his sexual orientation. He accidentally found the piles of books about homosexuality in the deep cabinet of Shen Haoyi's room to question. Shen Haoyi did not deny.His younger brother, like most people, tried to make him get rid of or treat this "disease".Then hate, repel, abuse.

The closer the person is, the more painful it is to hurt someone. It is undoubtedly the reaction and practice of the spoiled brother who is as disgusting as the others.After two years, Haoyu finally understood him.Those two years were enough to break the heart.If there is a loss, there must be a gain, Haoyu inadvertently exercised Shen Haoyi's ability to bear.Later in high school, even if his sexual orientation was exposed at school, he would not fluctuate in any reaction to other people's reactions.

As Shen Haoyi grew up, he gradually realized that too many people do not understand the small group of homosexuals, there is too much pressure and pointing, and some people with excessive sense of superiority despise.Gradually, he who didn't talk much at first became more silent. He planned to live alone like this, but he met Chen Zhijin in his junior year.Shen Haoyi didn't know that Chen Zhijin was chasing after him, but what he knew was that he was heterosexual.Unknowingly being entangled by him like this, even harsh words and cold wars showing disgust failed to drive Chen Zhijin away.Shen Haoyi didn't know if it was too lonely to persist alone for so long, or if he accepted him.Unknowingly after graduation, Shen Haoyi began to care about him to take care of him and protect him, and then it was over.

The door of his heart was closed tightly again and even put on a heavy lock. Shen Haoyi didn't expect that after meeting Le Qing, when he unconsciously approached him instinctively, he would automatically and slowly unlock the heart lock, yearning for the time Le Qing spent together.Yue Qing probably depends on him or just has a crush on him, it is okay if she lets go of him in time.However, remembering that he would never see him again, Shen Haoyi felt a deep sense of reluctance and nostalgia in his chest.

"Haoyi, Haoyi..." Xiao Leqing became anxious, and raised her hand to pat his face. Just now, Shen Haoyi was talking well, but in a blink of an eye, Shen Haoyi was staring at him, his eyes dimmed and rolled over him. Incomprehensible grief and pain.Intuition probably recalled bad memories.Or remember who?It wasn't that Xiao Leqing was fussy or didn't believe Shen Haoyi's words, after all, after looking at the photos, she knew that she looked too much like that person. Even when Shen Haoyi looked at him affectionately, she always had the illusion that he was looking at someone else.

I don't know how long it took, Xiao Leqing felt Shen Haoyi's caressing hand withdraw from his cheek, but met the vicious upturn of his mouth, and there was a playful smile in his deep eyes.Xiao Leqing gasped in shock, it's not that she has never seen Shen Haoyi smile, on the contrary, at least once or twice a week, she is quite familiar with his smile.When he is in a good mood and his brows and eyes are soft, it can barely be regarded as a smile, and there are also gentle smiles. Xiao Leqing has seen his smile with the biggest angle of showing two rows of teeth.After spending so much time together, I have never seen him so frivolous.

Sure enough, as expected, he saw Le Qing's slightly fearful eyes.Shen Haoyi didn't dare to act rashly in the past, always afraid that his actions would scare him, now that he thinks about it, it's better to just expose it like this.From now on, if Le Qing relies on Shen Haoyi to destroy her dependence on him, if Le Qing has a slight liking for him, she will destroy her liking for herself.Tearing away the things in his secret heart, making him hate himself completely.

The smile on Shen Haoyi's face deepened, and he couldn't bear to see the disgust that might rise in Le Qing's eyes, so he let go of the hands supporting him and put his whole body weight on him, leaning on him, rubbing the contours of Le Qing's ears and whispering, "Le Qing Qing, don’t think I’m just a threat when I say I’m going to you, do you know why I left when I came back from the ride?”

Saying that, Shen Haoyi felt the body of the pressed person tremble, and the kiss slipped back and forth on his neck, while Shen Haoyi slipped his hands into his clothes and walked on him wantonly, while dawdling under his legs ambiguously, he continued: " At that time, I only heard the sound of your panting, and there was a reaction when I went down. My mind was full of thinking about loving you. When you fell asleep last night, I touched and kissed you all over, and now I just take off your clothes like this Enter you and continue what you did on the sofa that time. Leqing, you know what it is. It doesn’t matter if you don’t know, I’ll let you know now.”

After finishing speaking, he bit his chest, and when he was in the rebellious period, when people around his classmates abused him for being gay, he would use such a vile smile to mock the other party and fight.This is the first time Shen Haoyi treats Le Qing with such a bad attitude, if he wants Le Qing to struggle and push him away like last time, he can let go.But now, Yueqing just lay there quietly without moving.Shen Haoyi hesitated, pulled down his trousers and reached for a claustrophobic place with his fingers.If she can't accept such a rash action, Le Qing will definitely push him away.

Originally, Shen Haoyi's playful eyes looked dangerous like a different person, and the tension made Xiao Leqing tense involuntarily.Hearing whispers in his ear unconsciously relaxed his nerves, remembering that when he said he was going back in the evening, Shen Haoyi suddenly said to wait for him at the intersection ahead, Xiao Leqing was very tired and didn't care.After hearing Shen Haoyi say that he had kissed his whole body and so on, Xiao Leqing just wanted to say why she slept so deeply and didn't feel these things at all.

Shen Haoyi didn't dare to think deeply about what happened after Le Qing hated pushing him away.If it was just a confession, Xiao Leqing would be indifferent after not accepting it, and she would calm down when they meet again in a certain year.And hastily made it to this point, which meant that after Leqing pushed him away, she didn't want to see him again.Now Shen Haoyi really wants to tell him not to treat sportswear as daily wear even on days off.Most of the sportswear pants have elastic waists and they fall off as soon as they are pulled. It is very unsafe if Leqing meets a pervert she can't beat when she goes out, and she doesn't even struggle.Now is not the time to talk about this, and I can only suppress my thoughts.

Xiao Leqing looked at the white ceiling, Shen Haoyi was clearly preparing to fuck him, wasn't he?Why is it heavy like a farewell? Xiao Leqing always feels that there is an invisible mountain on Shen Haoyi's back restricting him.The feeling of depression and pain that spread out from Shen Haoyi made his heart tighten and ache.It was true that he said that he was not a threat just now, but in the end, even if he wanted to scare him into fleeing, he would have underestimated him too much.

"I've been groping my fart, if I have the ability to stick my fingers in." Xiao Leqing was touched back and forth on the chrysanthemum, and cursed n times when she wanted to complain and suppressed it.As soon as Shen Haoyi stopped moving, he pulled back his hands and hugged him tightly by his waist, still laying his head on his ear without looking over.Xiao Leqing didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Hao Yi, can you be more rigorous in your performance? Let's not say that you are distracted, at least take off your pants to show that you are like this..." Xiao Leqing was speechless when he was explaining the essentials of acting.He felt close together somewhere.Shen Haoyi actually reacted.I knew about homosexuality before. It doesn't matter if a man responds to a man's hug.But when you feel it, the shock and wonder are another matter.

The words Xiao Leqing disappeared from his throat caught Shen Haoyi's attention, he turned his head and let go of his arms when he realized these words, he stood up abruptly and walked out.When he stood up, the temperature left Xiao Leqing and he felt cold. Only then did he realize that he had taken off all his clothes when he was in a daze just now, leaving his underwear again, which was in stark contrast to Shen Haoyi who was neatly dressed with a slightly messy jacket.Xiao Leqing felt uncomfortable no matter how she looked at it. Seeing him turn around and walk away, she intentionally provoked him, "Hey, didn't you hurt me? Why did you leave again? Did you finally see clearly now, and think that there is too much difference between my body and yours? Not me." Xiao Leqing originally wanted to say the name of the man in the photo, but couldn't remember his name, so she had to use that one instead.

Obviously Shen Haoyi understood, Shen Haoyi sighed and called his name and turned around, "Le Qing." Seeing his eyes darken and striding forward.The man who had seen him go and come back approached with a livid face.Xiao Leqing looked at his angry eyes at a loss, Shen Haoyi walked up to him, Xiao Leqing's eyes darkened and she added some weight.With something covering his body, he vaguely heard the sound of footsteps going away.Pulled off the thing on the head only to find that it was a quilt.And Shen Haoyi has disappeared. "Sneaking so fast." Xiao Leqing muttered, pulling the quilt and continuing to cover her head, being submerged in darkness.

Every breath echoed in my ears, it was like a small world that belonged to me.I can't feel the passage of time, my eyes are full of such darkness, Isolate from the turmoil of the outside world, and just stay like this without thinking about anything.Gradually, I felt the lack of oxygen, and tried to breathe the last oxygen. When I really couldn't hold on, I suddenly lifted the quilt, and it was like being reborn.It is an essential medicine for treating insecurity and loss.

While trying to breathe and immerse herself in her own world, Xiao Leqing seemed to hear someone calling her name, just like in a dream, the voice was hazy and unclear.Suddenly eyes brightened and breathed fresh air.After Xiao Leqing's eyes got used to the darkness just now, there was a bright light in front of her eyes, and she squinted her eyes unaccustomed.

The author has something to say:

In the past few days, I have been chasing other people's literature, and found that I am not one or two points worse than others, whether it is writing or story fluency. I feel inferior and frustrated, and I have no intention of writing. After today's hard work, I finally finished writing.I'm a little sorry for the characters in the pen, unfortunately, I urged me to write about them.