Don't Pick Up Boyfriends From the Trash Bin

After hanging up the phone, 061 asked him: "...do you want to take a look?"

Chi Xiaochi: "Of course."

No matter how many doubts there are, the identity of this "little uncle" has been verified by Dong Ge's mother, so there should be no difference.

Half an hour later, Chi Xiaochi was wrapped in a long black down jacket, sitting by the half-frozen ornamental pool at the entrance of the sports school, waiting for the arrival of this unnamed uncle.

Dongge's hair has not been cut for a long time, it is shoulder long, and is simply tied behind his head by a black hair band.

Chi Xiaochi had nothing to do, so he took off his hair tie and put a little ball on his head.

This is the hairstyle that Lou Sifan used to comb Dong Ge back then.

Dong Ge doesn't like to cut his hair. In order not to affect the competition, Lou Sifan will always go to his dormitory before the competition to give him a bun.

From the age of 19 to 24, he and Lou Sifan had an underground love affair for five full years.

During this period, Dong Ge felt that she was fairly happy, but occasionally she was dissatisfied.

Aside from He Changsheng who always looms between them, he has one other thing on his mind.

——Dong Ge actually doesn't like being down there.

But every time I mentioned it to Lou Sifan, Lou Sifan smiled and said, next time, I will let you next time.

That tone was completely coaxing him like a child, and when the so-called "next time" will come, God knows.

Dongge mentioned it a few times, but stopped talking.

He explained to himself, forget it, it hurts anyway, Lou Sifan might not be able to bear the pain.

However, as time went by, Dong Ge's mentality gradually changed.

He always suspects that he is too sensitive, but the "friendship" between Lou Sifan and He Changsheng is really long, even after Lou Sifan and him are secretly together, most of the time, Lou Sifan and He Changsheng will still go in and out together .

Dong Ge always followed behind Lou Sifan like a little follower, staring at He Changsheng in a daze.

Why doesn't he know how to avoid suspicion?

Does he have no other friends?Why do you have to occupy Brother Lou's time?

However, their behavior did not exceed the rules at all. They were truly a pair of friends who respected each other.

What makes Dongge even more unbearable is that Lou Sifan always compares him with He Changsheng, nothing else, only the skating skills that are of great significance to Dongge, and finally comes to the conclusion that you are not as good as Changsheng, Still have to work hard.

He Changsheng was like a needle, wedged in Dongge's flesh, causing him pain and discomfort from time to time.

Later, even if Lou Sifan didn't mention it, Dongge would unconsciously regard He Changsheng as an object of comparison and competition.

Obviously one is a pair skating and the other is a singles skating, and the majors don't conflict at all, but Dong Ge just can't help but want to compare with He Changsheng.

This kind of negative emotion kept growing in the petri dish that Lou Sifan personally built.

Dongge hates He Changsheng more and more.And this emotion reached its peak one day.

It was a weekend.

As usual, Lou Sifan went to the pair skating training ground to practice and chat with He Changsheng, and Dong Ge followed Lou Sifan as usual.

Since yesterday, Lou Sifan's mood has been inexplicably bad, and he didn't even eat a few bites in the morning.

Dong Ge was afraid that he didn't have enough heat, so he got up and left after skating for a while, went to the vending machine, bought a can of hot coffee, feared that the coffee would be cold, held it in his hand, and slid back quickly.

As soon as he walked to the sidelines, he saw Lou Sifan's face turned dark towards He Changsheng, and he put on a questioning posture: "I came to see you yesterday, who is the man with you?"

Dong Ge stopped and listened carefully.

He Changsheng's attitude was very indifferent: "It was introduced by a friend, just have a meal with him."

Lou Sifan followed closely: "Just eating?"

He Changsheng said calmly: "I haven't been in a relationship for so many years, try dating. It's just staying together, and I didn't say that we must be together....Why are you so nervous?"

Lou Sifan suppressed his emotions and smiled softly, but the smile seemed stiff no matter how you looked at it: "I don't have my check, I don't worry about it."

He asked again: "Since it's a date, why do you want to find a man?"

He Changsheng glanced at him: "You discriminate against homosexuals."

Lou Sifan said: "...I didn't. I just didn't expect you to..."

He Changsheng: "...'Also'?"

Lou Sifan: "I know of two or three pairs in our team. It's not unusual."

He Changsheng: "Oh."

Lou Sifan paused, and asked tentatively, "Would you rather be on top or below?"

He Changsheng: "...the horoscope has not been written yet, but you have a long-term plan for me."

As a friend for many years, this question was not considered an offense to He Changsheng.

A little smile appeared on He Changsheng's Wannian Bingshan face: "I didn't think about it, and I didn't plan to try it lightly. I might prefer to be on the top. If I like it enough, it's not bad to be on the bottom."

Lou Sifan said: "If you are good with others, it's better to be on top."

He Changsheng said, "Why?"

Lou Sifan said in a joking tone: "It's so embarrassing to be down there, and it still hurts. Even if you want to be down there, you have to find someone who can hurt you."

The coffee that Dong Ge was holding seemed to have turned into a piece of iron, sticking to the palm of his hand, making him shiver all over.

... "How embarrassing to be down here."

... "It still hurts."

He knew it.

Dong Ge suddenly felt that the self who took that kind of pain and regarded it as happiness was like an idiot.

Because of this, he had a fight with Lou Sifan.

After learning the reason for his anger, Lou Sifan coaxed him patiently, admitting his mistake, saying that he just said it casually and wasn't serious.

Although they reconciled in the end, jealousy and a sense of crisis have already crept into Dong Ge's heart.

He has been accused by his parents since he was a child, so that there is a deep-rooted concept imprinted in his heart.

——I am not likable because I am not good enough.

As long as you are good enough, someone will like you.

Even though she has already won countless domestic and foreign grand prix championships at a young age and set a domestic record, Dong Ge still feels that it is not enough.

Shortly after this, Dongge ushered in an important international competition.

While he was preparing for the competition, something happened: Lou Sifan took him to play with He Changsheng.

Since the last conversation, the frequency of Lou Sifan looking for He Changsheng has increased significantly, and his reasons are very good.

Lou Sifan said gently to Dong Ge: "Changsheng is good at choreography, let him give you more guidance, your grades will be greatly improved."

During this practice, He Changsheng played a set of 4T3A jumps on a whim.

Because it was just practice, He Changsheng completed this set of difficult movements for one person quite easily.

Lou Sifan was also quite supportive, and said with a smile: "Changsheng, your score for this set of moves can break the Asian record."

He Changsheng said: "Don't talk nonsense. It's fine to dance in private, I may not be able to perform so well on the spot."

Lou Sifan smiled, turned to Dongge and said, "Look at you, senior congratulations, you have to study hard, you know?"

Sitting on the sidelines, Dong Ge lowered his head to tie the laces of his skates: "...Well, I know."

A few days later, when the coach discussed tactics with him, Dong Ge didn't hesitate at all: "4lz3T."

The coach advised him not to take any risks. Although Dongge's jumping level is already among the first-rate, this movement is too difficult. For Dongge, stability should be the first priority, and he can easily gain points in the successive steps.

Dong Ge stubbornly said: "I can do it."

Since He Changsheng can do it, then he can too.

...It was a decision that Dongge regretted for the rest of his life.

As He Changsheng said, playing on the spot and playing in private are two different things.

Under the pressure of the away game and the atmosphere of the game, Dong Ge insisted on withstood and perfectly completed the most difficult 4lz move.

The problem is with the second action.

Because he couldn't control it well when he landed, he lost his center of gravity, and the ice blade tilted, and he fell heavily on the ice.

Dongge's coach sighed regretfully, regretting that he might miss the trophy this time.

But soon, he realized that something was wrong.

Dong Ge was lying on the ice, even if the accompanying music played, she couldn't get up.

He exclaimed, and after signaling to the referee team, he rushed into the arena.

Dong Ge was shivering from the pain, curled up into a ball, sweat dripping into the ice, and murmured: "...my feet, my feet."

... The final diagnosis was a severe Achilles tendon tear.

The coach comforted him, it's okay, take a year off, regroup, no one in this line of work has any injuries.

But Dong Ge saw deep regret in the coach's eyes.

This regret crushed Dongge.

In the next few days, he refused to talk to anyone who came to visit him, even Lou Sifan.

Facing Dong Ge's cold face, Lou Sifan said very gently: "I know you're not feeling well. If you don't want to see me, I'll come back in two days."

Perhaps because of the extra sensitivity in the wound, Dongge realized many details that he hadn't noticed before when getting along with Lou Sifan.

——Lou Sifan is too gentle.

He is so gentle that it is almost false, as if he can tolerate all the bad behaviors of Dong Ge, self-willed, proud, and silent.

Dongge used to think that gentleness is an extremely beautiful character.

He never got angry with Dong Ge, never accused Dong Ge of his faults, never bickered or quarreled with him, he was simply a perfect lover.

But, if you think about it carefully, is a lover who doesn't quarrel, jealous, or lose his temper really a lover?

Even at such a time, Lou Sifan still comforted him calmly and calmly, as if pushing him away indifferently with gentleness, and drew a line of "we are not familiar" between them. Chu River and Han Realm.

Three days after Dong Ge was admitted to the hospital, He Changsheng, who had just finished his competition, came to see him.

He Changsheng's tone was full of dissatisfaction: "How did you make yourself like this?"

Dong Ge looked at him, and asked hoarsely, "Where is Brother Lou, did you come with you?"

He Changsheng was cold, and he was really angry when he heard the voice: "Can he accompany you all the way? Think about what you should do."

Hearing these words, Dongge was suddenly filled with grievance and sourness.

He whispered, "He can."

After saying these two words, he asked himself again: "...can he."

He Changsheng frowned two beautiful willow-leaf eyebrows: "Huh?"

That was the first time Dong Ge opened up and talked so much with He Changsheng.

He talked about his love with Lou Sifan, and confessed his jealousy for He Changsheng. At the end, he couldn't suppress his emotions, and wept softly as he twisted the corner of the quilt.

... I'm jealous, I'm guilty, I'm impulsive, but am I really so guilty?

After He Changsheng listened, his expression was a little strange: "Is that so?...He never told me."

Dong Ge didn't react for a moment: "...what?"

He Changsheng said: "I have always regarded him as a friend, and I also thought you were the younger generation he took care of."

He asked again: "When did you start? Brother Lou never mentioned it to me, you and him..."

Dongge froze in place.

... didn't mention it.

What is "not mentioned"?

Isn't He Changsheng a good friend of Brother Lou?

Brother Lou won't let Dongge announce their relationship, well, Dongge won't say anything, won't do anything, and won't even have any intimate behavior with Lou Sifan outside.

After all, in this social context, homosexuality is still a minority and cannot be exposed to the sun and talked about freely.

And Dong Ge's personality is introverted, and she is not a person who is willing to show her affection generously in front of others.

But he always thought that He Changsheng knew about it.

If Lou Sifan hadn't mentioned it, what would the past five years be?

If I hadn't mentioned it, why would I be jealous of He Changsheng who knew nothing?

Seeing that Dong Ge didn't answer, He Changsheng let out a sigh of relief, and simply said, "I understand. I will keep a distance from Brother Lou in the future, I hope you don't mind."

He Changsheng left, leaving Dong Ge alone in the ward in a daze.

About half an hour later, Lou Sifan called.

Dong Ge struggled to pick up the phone.

The mobile phone is still the one that Dongge went out to buy over the wall. The quality is very good, and Dongge is nostalgic, and I have been using it until now.

Lou Sifan's phone number was once the first and only number inside.

He picked up the phone: "Hello."

The man on the other end was furious: "Why did you say that to him? Didn't I tell you not to say it? Are you going to destroy me?"

Dong Ge paused: "...Who are you?"

For a moment, Dongge couldn't recognize whose voice it was.

Next, Lou Sifan said a lot of words, as if he concentrated the anger that had not been vented for five years in this hour, turned into transparent bullets, and hit Dongge head-on and face-to-face.

On the phone, Lou Sifan said sincerely and heartbrokenly: "You should thank Changsheng. He was bullied when he was young and had psychological shadows. I protect you because of him. What about you? I helped you and took care of you when I was young. You Is that how you repay me?"

Dong Ge always thought that Lou Sifan just didn't like him enough.

But he didn't expect that Lou Sifan didn't even regard him as a human being, but just a useful prop.

——When he was young, he was a poor doll that he used to curry favor with He Changsheng and show his kindness and compassion.

——When he grows up, he is a useful and free blow-up doll.

According to Lou Sifan's accusation, Dongge did ruin Lou Sifan and the "friendship" he had carefully maintained for so many years.

Lou Sifan liked He Changsheng so much, and tried his best to please him.

Due to emotional projection, He Changsheng noticed the bullied Dongge, and Lou Sifan also started to pay attention to him.

Originally, he just wanted to be a good brother and take good care of his "little brother" Dongge, but he didn't expect to get drunk that night and make him ride a tiger in a daze.

It was Dong Ge that caused Lou Sifan to make such a difficult choice, it was Dong Ge that forced him to make a choice between morality and He Changsheng.

For "responsibility", he "made sacrifices" and stayed with Dongge to "make up for his mistakes".

He also knows that this "can't give Dongge happiness", but he doesn't want to be Chen Shimei, and he can't break up if he wants to break up. He can only use "kind reminders" to let him know how good He Changsheng is, and signal him to retreat.

Only a fool like Dong Ge would advance despite difficulties and never retreat.

Hearing his righteous accusation, Dongge didn't even have the strength to get angry.

He lay on the bed, his tone was so calm that he surprised himself: "Since you don't like me, why didn't you say it earlier."

Lou Sifan on the phone said, "Didn't I keep reminding you?"

Immediately, he said with pain again: "I have already taken responsibility for you, isn't that enough? You should also consider my feelings."

Dong Ge said weakly: "But you are so kind to me...you have been praising me, saying that I am good here and there..."

Are these even fake?

Lou Sifan said: "I said it, but it was just an ordinary compliment, and you thought too much. Think about it, from the beginning to the end, did I say 'I love you' to you?"

Dongge fell silent.

After a while, he said softly: "Okay. I see."

He hung up the phone politely.

From the age of 11 to the present, a full 12 years of anticipation and admiration turned into a dream within an hour.

Twelve years, to Dongge, is half a lifetime.

Now that the words have been spoken, Dong Ge has no intention of begging for nothing to get back together.

He's not that cheap.If you have no intention, I will rest.

He comforted himself like this, lying on the pillow, and the big drops of tears wet the pillowcase into a dark color.

...why does it hurt so much.

...the Achilles tendon has never hurt this much.

Dong Ge was so painful that he couldn't breathe, he grabbed the chest of the hospital gown tightly, and murmured to comfort himself.

...It's okay, it's okay, without him, I still have skates.

After a year, Dong Ge, who has suffered from severe anxiety disorder, returned to the ice rink.

However, the sequelae of a severe torn Achilles tendon and his no longer calm mood made him never return to the state he was at this time last year.

He jumped six moves in a row, all of which failed.

He knelt on the ice, crying like a child.

Those team members who had laughed at his arrogance were all moved, but there was no Lou Sifan in this group.

...He didn't even look at Dongge again.

Half a year later, Dong Ge, who was admitted to the psychiatric department, found an ice rink that belonged to him in the confusion, broke through the thin ice, and fell into the ornamental lake.

Chi Xiaochi withdrew himself from the memory of the moment before Dongge's death, and looked back at the ornamental pond behind him.

The ornamental lake where Dongge was buried was not very deep like this pool. If Dongge still had a little bit of desire to survive at that time, he only needed to pour a little strength into his legs and stand up.

He untied the tied ball head, and his thick black hair was blown up by the wind. The black hair set off his white skin, making him look like a little girl.

Chi Xiaochi wiped his face and said seriously: "I'll fuck him."

061 strongly agrees: "Yes."

At this moment, a pair of leather shoes entered Chi Xiaochi's field of vision.

Someone asked softly, "Dongge? Is that you?"

Chi Xiaochi entered the state in seconds.

He raised his head, his eyes were the same as Dong Ge's when he was a child, melancholy and vigilant.

The person in front of him was a handsome young man, with red lips and phoenix eyes, but he had a unique air of purity and elegance, which made people feel comfortable just looking at him.

Noticing Dong Ge's inquiring eyes, the visitor stretched out his palm and said politely, "My name is Dong Feihong. If you don't mind, you can call me Uncle."