[Zhang Yunlei] The heroine is a white lotus whore

The Korean mini can only be released after bigbang has finished playing the song.And bigbang is going strong this time.Both blue and fantasticbaby have been unanimously praised by the company's internal staff.

The president was also very satisfied, and decided to let both fantasticbaby and blue participate in the singing competition.

In this way, Yunran's singing time will be set back again.

So instead, the Japanese single came out first.Although this song is still lolita-style, it has gone dark.

As soon as the MV of this song came out, it aroused extensive discussions among netizens.

"twe********さん: Really or not? Did the little angel become a fallen angel?"

"mit********さん: Even this is so cute!"

"son********さん: The eyes have also become dark! Is the cutie stimulated by something?"

"tan********さん: The returning Zoey-san has grown a lot!"

"pat********さん: Zoey-chan is so cute!! The blackened girl is even cuter!! Why is the screen so dirty?"

"LAN********さん: Great reversal, Zoey-chan with blackened eyes is even more beautiful!!"

"mar********さん: Sure enough, people who are still good-looking are good-looking! By the way, the sound source this time is also very good? Is no one playing it? Strange??"

"yrc********さん: Renmeige is sweet and talented, she is indeed the most perfect girl in the history of human evolution!"

Yunran didn't care about everyone's opinions after the transformation.But the company is very concerned that the sudden blackening will cause dissatisfaction among fans.

After all, the power of otaku should not be underestimated.But even so, is it a compliment?

It is probably because the tsundere attribute has flourished in Japan, and everyone has a special affection for cute girls who are hard-hearted and soft-hearted, so with this light, Yunran was able to make a way in the cruel Japanese circle.

In short, the first test of the water was successful, and Johnny felt a little relieved about Yunran's transformation, and was willing to give more initiative to Yunran.

Yunran took over the power to dominate his own development model, and drastically changed almost all the original songs in his album, and added a lot of rock and jazz that Yunran would never use in Japanese albums before.

A few changes may make everyone feel that it is just a girl's attempt, and the changes are nothing more than developing one type of loli into another type.

And Yunran changed all the music on a large scale, suddenly changing the original fresh and cheerful style of music to sad and decadent.

As a result, when the song was released, it was resisted by many fans.In their hearts, Yunran is still a young girl who has just debuted, and many people are not used to it when she grows up.So when passers-by feel that Yunran's new album is very musical, with more comprehensive development, and Yunran's style of music is less restricted.

Instead, fans have become very resistant to these changes.

The higher the voice of external resistance, the more depressed Yun Ran became.She really doesn't care what others say about her.But she finds them annoying!

Turning on the TV means fans boycotting themselves, and turning on social software is also boycotting themselves. When they arrive at the company, fans will even boycott themselves downstairs in the company.

At the beginning, Yunran could write a few more depressed and gloomy songs while listening to the negative voices of others in the hotel.

But as the voice of protest became louder and louder, every time Yunran picked up the pen and wanted to write something, listening to the voice of crusade against himself on TV, the hand holding the pen couldn't help drawing on the paper, Finally paint the entire paper black.

When she came back to her senses, the whole paper had been scratched by the pen, and the black pen print had even been printed on the next page of paper. Yun Ran helplessly rubbed the frown between her eyebrows, Remove the top sheet of paper vigorously, and then roll it into a ball.

But it was impossible to vent the nameless anger in Yun Ran's heart.Throwing away the crumpled ball of paper rubbed in his hands, Yun Ran began to lean back on the chair in a daze.

In fact, she didn't want to be in a daze, because in her mind, the whole house and everything placed in the house had been smashed to the ground by her. Her manic heart made her want to destroy everything, but she had never She didn't want to cause trouble to others, so she could only sit here blankly.

In a daze, he wanted to let himself go and calm himself down, but the scenes of being abandoned and disliked by others kept playing in Yunran's mind like slow motion.

This feeling of being unable to escape and escape made her extremely uncomfortable. She even wanted to hit her head with a hammer so that those boring scenes would stop being replayed continuously.

Because Yunran's symptoms were not serious when he was in Korea, the doctor did not prescribe many medicines, but told Yunran to consider MAOIS as much as possible.

That is, cognitive therapy, such as alternative treatments such as: guided imagery, yoga, hypnosis, herbal medicine, massage, relaxation therapy, aromatherapy, chiropractic, biofeedback therapy, etc.

As the saying goes, heart disease needs heart medicine and medicine, and the person who tied the bell needs to be untied.For mild depression like Yunran, the best treatment is through psychotherapy.

Yunran followed the doctor's orders and went to the hospital on time, and seemed to have recovered a little.

But since she came to Japan, she hasn't sought out a psychiatrist.It happened that such a thing happened, and Yunran couldn't even get out of the door, and was so irritable that he died.

Yunran sat blankly on the chair for a while, her head began to ache from the repeated images in her mind, and her temples throbbed.

Yunran immediately found out the medicine prescribed by the doctor. It seems that the initial dosage of this medicine is one pill three times a day.

Yunran took a sip of the black coffee that had been chilled for a long time on the table.

Along with the cold coffee, the medicine flowed to Yunran's stomach where he hadn't eaten a single grain of rice in a day.I don't know if it was because the sudden mixture of ice-cold coffee and medicine irritated her stomach, or because the side effects of the medicine came immediately.

In short, Yun Ran only felt nauseated, and she rushed to the toilet immediately, throwing up in a daze, but since she hadn't eaten all day, she couldn't vomit anything at all, she could only vomit some acid liquid from her stomach.

After vomiting, Yunran only felt dizzy for a while, his eyes were even white, he couldn't see anything clearly, his hands and feet were numb, his mouth was even numb, the root of his tongue didn't respond, but the tip of his tongue could still feel the sourness of stomach acid Bitter.At that moment, Yunran felt that he was already dead?Holding on to the wall of the toilet, he stood quietly for a long time before recovering.

He rinsed his mouth with water and wiped his mouth.Yunran walked slowly back into the hall and sat on the ground.

The entertainment news on TV is still criticizing Yunran's failure in transformation this time, with sharp words, as if Yunran is not a transformation of music style, but has changed from a singer to a dancer without clothes.

The mobile phone on the table kept ringing, and I knew it was a call from the company's senior management, but it was because I gave myself the freedom to make songs, but I was messed up by myself, and I wanted to reprimand myself.There is no need to listen at all.

Yunran sat on the ground, waiting for the effect of the medicine to take effect, and calmed down his sad and sad mood of wishing to die.

But on the contrary, the quieter it is, the more prominent the disharmonious voice scolding myself on the TV, and the harsh ringtone of the mobile phone.On the contrary, Yunran couldn't calm down at all, and wanted to smash things more and more.

Even so, Yunran didn't want to turn off the TV. She wanted to know how these unrelated people could magnify this matter infinitely?

Obviously it has nothing to do with them!If you don't want to watch it, you don't have to watch it, and if you don't want to hear it, you don't have to listen to it!I didn't persecute them, so why did I scold myself?

Obviously thinking this way, thinking that it was all their fault, but the thoughts involuntarily deviated from the original track.

It's my fault!Is it the songs I wrote that influenced everyone?So why on earth should I live?Obviously no one expects me to live in this world!

No one is mine, no one is willing to do anything for me?So what am I doing alive?

This idea kept filling Yunran's whole mind, and after slowly eroding Yunran's whole thinking, suddenly, she woke up, and she realized that such an idea was too dangerous.

By the way, the doctor said that if you have suicidal tendencies, you can increase the drug to more than 200mg/d.How much is that?Yunran's brain is completely unable to calculate.

I just took out a handful from the bottle based on my feeling, stuffed it all in my mouth, and then poured cold coffee into it, hoping to get the medicine into it.

The coffee flowed out along the rim of the cup and the corner of his mouth, onto the white silk shirt Yunran was wearing, leaving a large brown stain.

But Yunran just wanted to swallow all the medicine in his stomach, and stop thinking about that dangerous thought.Don't think about anything anymore. I came to this world alone, and I have to leave this world alone, so there is no need for anyone to disturb my life halfway.

Whether you really want to be nice to yourself, or want to get something from yourself, nothing is important, as long as you forget all this, let all these messy things stay away from yourself, and then leave without any worries, this is enough up.

These medicines are proof that after drinking these medicines, I will settle down, and I will no longer think of those bad house memories, just be quiet like this, knowing to forget, I am satisfied.

The coat of the capsule melted away quickly, and Yun Ran took another big gulp of coffee, sending down all the remaining medicine in his mouth.Lying quietly on the ground, motionless, it seemed that all his strength had been exhausted.