Soccer

The two were sitting on the sofa, and Ronaldo was still recuperating.Yuan Xi finally decided to talk to him, she was the one who was indifferent first, it was her problem, give each other a chance.

"Pauline, let's call you that. After all..." He spoke first to break the silence between the two.

"it is good."

"You know I have a lot of friends and a lot of family, and you... Pauline, I want you to try to..."

"Impossible, I can't do it." Yuan Xi looked at him, fixed her eyes on the diamond earrings he had been confusing her, and was suddenly amused.Sure enough, everything cannot be forced.The exposure of her identity brought too many things, including painful memories and mental torture. She was very tired, and suddenly she didn't want to hold on any longer. Maybe...

"The royal education I have always received, I have a completely different lifestyle from you, your family, and your friends. Now it seems that I can't get along."

Chris felt a little sad, his persistence seemed a little ridiculous now, his family and friends were just that in her eyes, but she saw deep sorrow and despair in her eyes, she tried to smile, but it made him feel even more sad.It occurred to him, as Heidi had reminded him, that Pauline might have lost control of her emotions recently, that her mental state was not stable.

The voice that was originally as clear as spring water in the mountains became fragmented at this moment, and her voice was very low. She seemed to be shrouded in endless fear and despair, as if she had returned to that day, "Getting along with your family, I can barely do it, but I need to be more independent , Private living space. Friends, I can’t do it, and I don’t need friends. I have already paid the price for my stupidity, isn’t the person who hijacked me back then my grandpa’s friend,” she suddenly became emotional, There were tears welling up, "He pinched my neck and asked me, why don't you play football, why are you not Brazilian, why? Because of you, your father has no son, you are not worthy to be a descendant of Garrincha. What about me? , Heidi, Jing Gong, what are we, defective products, why, why I must play football. I never need friends like this. I have Lily, Heidi, enough. More It's a burden to me."

The shadow of childhood brought her serious mental trauma. For a long time, she didn't even dare to hear the name Pauline. She was like a frightened bird, terrified and cowardly.

Everyone felt that she had given up on football. On the one hand, as soon as she got close to the stadium, she would think of the sentence, you are not worthy to be a descendant of Garrincha. For Yuan Xi, she was almost out of breath. The surname is stuck and can't break free.Like a drowning person, no matter how hard he tried, he still couldn't break free.And when she escaped back then, she was hit on the leg, and it was too late to find out that her body was no longer suitable for strenuous exercise and intensive training.

But who would understand her?They don't understand, what happened to her?

Every night after she got out of trouble, she would wake up from her sleep, feeling suffocated by her neck being strangled, and that crazy and ferocious face was the shadow of her childhood, and she cried countless times to despair.

But Grandpa and the others don't understand her, thinking she is escaping.Fearing that she would drop out of training and force her to go to the court for adaptive training, she had a more serious stress reaction, vomiting, and falling asleep. Sure enough, he could only escape.Unworthy to be a Garrincha's offspring had been her nightmare, until now.She would still be awakened from the dream.

Mom was finally angered and took her back to China, never to set foot on Brazilian soil.That was her demon.

The quarrels between her parents and her grandparents' hatred of iron and steel have aggravated her stimulation step by step. When she was found to be slightly autistic and moderately self-harming, it was too late.

All this is too cruel for a child who is not yet ten years old, she is almost going to destruction step by step.She became lonely and desperate, even the love of her parents could not save her lonely and cold heart, she lived in her own world, refused to communicate with anyone, and refused their approach, even though they tried their best , she will not respond.Even after being sent to the Institute of Psychology and getting to know Lily and Heidi, it was already too late. It was already hard for her to trust anyone, and she was extremely wary of people and refused to approach them.She set a safe distance for everyone, even her parents and close relatives, could not cross the line she set, even if she got a belated apology, it was too late for Yuanxi.She can't do it anymore.

For them, childhood trauma almost ruined their lives to a great extent. They could have had a more satisfactory and carefree life, but in the end they took another path.

That's why when Yuanxi only expressed the idea of ​​converting to religion, the fear of Garrincha and Bailey's family, when Heidi wanted to leave Japan, and the panic of the Gong couple, when Lily wanted to become a singer, Luther Although Vichy and Romanov were reluctant in every possible way, they still agreed.

As parents, they failed to protect their precious children. Before they realized it, they had already suffered great harm, which had already caused irreparable consequences.

Things have come to this point, there is no way to recover.

Even if he is cold by nature, how could Yuan Xi be so calm and restrained so close to ruthlessness.

Chris was silent for a long time, not knowing how to comfort her, what he could do, he could only try his best to coordinate, Pauline had already made a huge compromise, and he couldn't ask for more.

The author has something to say:

Once the update is completed, the idea at noon is finally finished

I almost can’t write this anymore. I want to lock the text and change it tomorrow. Now that I’ve finished writing, I should be able to write the text tomorrow. At this point, I don’t know what to write

This chapter, cry everyone

I can only get off work after nine o'clock today, and I am so angry that I don't want to update. My whole body is not good.He's... pissed me off

When I got home around 09:30, I actually had an idea at the end, but my mentality was too bad, I couldn’t calm down to write, let’s change it

I was so angry yesterday that I couldn’t sleep, I wandered around all morning, let’s talk about it in the afternoon

I may just write fifty or sixty chapters, and I'll end happily. After all, I'm so lazy and I don't know how to write long novels, but it's not necessarily true. In case I ramble

I have finished several articles recently, some are okay, some feel completely different from what I thought, the phone is almost out of battery, after washing my face, I will update the two chapters together, come on