Nian Fan

What kind of person is the mother in memory?

Liu Nian remembered the beating he had received when he was a child, and he slapped him hard for no reason.

The mother would beat him, and after the beating, she would hold him and cry, saying over and over again, "I'm sorry son, but mother loves you."

Liu Nian raised his head and answered cautiously, "I know, Mom."

Gradually, in his childhood impressions, all the memories related to his mother were condensed into this sentence, and he also believed that his mother loved him.

But today, out of nowhere, his father who hated him so much said to him——I am the one who loves you, and your mother is the devil who killed our family.

Liu Nian didn't even have time to distinguish the truth from the falsehood. His first reaction was for the rest of his life, whether he would really inherit that terrible gene, and whether he would lose control and go crazy.

Liu Nian felt that his life was a human tragedy, and he had already made up his mind - he was finished.

He understood that he should push the innocent Yifan away, not let her take this risk with him, and not let her suffer for him.

But he really can't do it.

He trembled in fear, he begged humbly, he couldn't imagine how he would survive if Yifan really didn't want him anymore.

But his Yifan kissed him, drawing the shape of his lips over and over again, and she kept saying "I love you" between her lips and teeth.

Liu Nian grabbed Yifan's hand, "Should I believe it?"

"Is it important?" Chen Yifan sighed, "Liu Nian, do you understand the answer you want?"

Liu Nian shook his head blankly, his eyes wandering.

"You don't need an answer. Whether this matter is true or not is meaningless to you." Chen Yifan hugged him tightly, "Your mother has passed away for many years, and your father has also missed your entire growth process after all... They did give you life, but only life."

Liu Nian was a little lost.

Chen Yifan squeezed his fingers, and smiled lightly, "Don't think about it, okay? Believe me, it's not worth your sadness or sadness. Your beautiful life has nothing to do with the darkness of the past."

"But...I mean if...if I really have that kind of gene..." Liu Nian looked carefully at Chen Yifan's face, very uneasy, "Will you be afraid of me, or hate me?"

"I love you, and I love you, Liu Nian. I love every inch of your skin and soul, including all the genes you mentioned." Chen Yifan's smile was as warm and comfortable as a spring breeze, "Your good and bad It makes you the man I love deeply. I hope you are better, not because I will love you more perfect, but I hope you can be happier and happier."

Fearing that he wouldn't believe it, Chen Yifan hurriedly lowered his head to look into Liu Nian's eyes, "Will you let go of my hand and stop loving me because I can't accept the truth of Mei Heng's death and feel depressed?"

Still rational, Liu Nian shook his head without hesitation, "No."

Chen Yifan smiled, "Then I am the same."

Liu Nian looked at her for a while, then suddenly grinned, "In fact, I have always known that I have many flaws in my character, and I even almost lost you because of it. I think you may not understand my anxiety and my inferiority complex .”

Chen Yifan stared at him with clear black and white eyes, with infinite warmth.

Liu Nian hugged Yifan tightly, "Remember? When I was crazy about taking the Utopia for the adventure, you once said that I was stubborn and arrogant, and that I was greedy for power, but in fact, I was full of heart and lungs, only extreme low self-esteem and insecurity."

"I am jealous of Mei Heng and Liu Qingyang. They are confident and generous, but I am just a poor creature curled up in the dark. They have been loved and loved by their parents since they were young, and they grew up happily, while my childhood left me with nothing but pain. Memories and paranoia and shortcomings."

Chen Yifan hurriedly explained, "No one said that..."

Liu Nian smiled, as if confiding these would make him feel a lot easier, "Yifan, do you know? You are my light. You shine into my dark life and bring me so much brightness and warmth. Although I know that your light also bathes other people, and even they get much more than me...but I just fell in love with you. Of course I know that I will never be better than Mei Heng, or even Liu Qingyang. I know that I I am not good enough for you, I know that you will like Mei Heng and appreciate Liu Qingyang, I have never expected to have you, and I even think that if I can spend my whole life silently guarding and pursuing you, that would be enough. But I actually chased you, We actually got together."

"Liu Nian, I don't allow you to underestimate yourself!" Chen Yifan met his eyes and said very solemnly, "Don't think like this, and never think like this! I know you have suffered a lot, but all living beings suffer, and no one The life you envy can be happiness from the beginning to the end. The Mei Heng you envy lost his life at the youngest age, and his parents also left after a few years of struggling in the world. The Liu Qingyang you envy has fallen in the family and his father passed away... …And you, you still have a flamboyant career that is just getting started, and you still have me.”

Chen Yifan held Liu Nian's hand, and took his hand to caress his face, "Liu Nian, you still have me. Thinking about me, do you think everything will not be too bad?"