I may have had a fake childhood

"Mr. Mu, are you free today? I have some data here, please take a look. We will use it in two days."

5 minutes before getting off work, Song Zeqi stood at the desk and looked at Juxing, who was listlessly buried in the computer, frowning. Although he had a cold look on his face, his hands between the seams of his trousers betrayed his nervousness .

It's just that Jupiter didn't see it at all.

"Sorry, Mr. Song, I have something to do tonight, it may be inconvenient, can I watch it when I come to work tomorrow?" Rubbing his sore and swollen eyes, Ju Xing hurriedly stood up and replied apologetically.

"It's all right, if you have something to do, go ahead and do it first, don't be in a hurry for the time being, but next time, as long as you can master it well." Song Zeqi glanced at him, and finally turned around and left, moving his hands to his belly tightly. He held it tightly, biting his lip, and a sternness flashed in his eyes.

Jupiter, you are hiding from me.

Yes, Jupiter is really hiding from him.

In fact, there is nothing to do in the afternoon, but facing you Song Zeqi at work has already made him very uncomfortable. He doesn't want to be free when he is off work. It is real freedom, physical and mental freedom.

Although I promised the manager that I will do things well and learn from the designer Song Da, thinking is one thing and doing is another.

Looking at the back of Song Zeqi leaving, Ju Xing let out a long breath, slumped on the chair as if suddenly relaxed, and quickly started to clean up the things on the table after two seconds. Since entering this company, he has never I have never left work by stepping on it. I always wait until the company is almost empty before walking downstairs slowly. Even the people who check in downstairs joke that they are really in charge of the company every time they see him. , regards work as a belief, and is a rare and outstanding employee.

But since Song Zeqi joined the company, almost every day at 05:30, Jupiter has already clocked in.

During this period of time, everyone in the department knew that there might be an accident at Juxing’s family. He not only stepped on the clock to go to work, but also stepped on the clock to leave work. He was usually in a state of exhaustion and even didn’t want to talk. The person who used to always ask him to work overtime would now They also asked a few words and said they wanted to return to work, but since Jupiter didn't ask for leave, he wouldn't agree to this.

It's just that he still can't accept Song Zeqi's face and voice.

As long as you see it, as long as you hear it, you will think of the person who is tired of playing and doesn't want himself.

It's really cheap and hypocritical.

Song Zeqi, who had already walked to the door of the office, turned his head and saw Ju Xing, who suddenly lost his strength, was shocked and clenched his hands. He knew, he knew everything.

But he really should know, after all, he hasn't even changed his basic statistics, and now he is so active, almost every day after get off work, he invites him to have dinner together, and if he can't make appointments for private affairs, he will make appointments for business, but this makes Jupiter avoid him even more.

Song Zeqi almost gritted his upper and lower teeth, you agreed to come to me in the first place, why do you do everything possible to avoid me now, and pretend you don't know me at all.

There was only one reason he could think of, and that was that Jupiter regretted it.

He doesn't like himself, just like everyone else doesn't like himself.

Thinking of the information retrieved from the system before, Song Zeqi's eyes flickered. Could it be that he wanted to come out of the small world first so that he would mistakenly think that he likes him and relax his vigilance.

Here Song Zeqi is still wondering, while Ju Xing has already packed up and trotted to go home.

He didn't think about avoiding Song Zeqi all the time. He said that he would work hard in the future and would not worry about that matter anymore.

It's just that he needs time, a time to calmly face Song Zeqi's face, a time to treat Song Zeqi as only his colleague.

After nearly a week like this, Jupiter was finally ready, but Song Zeqi disappeared out of thin air.

The manager only said that he had asked for leave, but he was a person from the head office after all, and the manager didn't know the specific itinerary, nor did he know why he would not come after the leave, but no one needed Song Zeqi's specific information The itinerary is enough, he has already left the general system and procedures, what they have to do now is not to find someone but to work hard to learn how to apply it.

Although the current Jupiter is still not fully adjusted, he knows that he still has work and only work is left. He can use more work to numb himself, and one day he will forget it like he forgot other people. that person's.

Without the help of the chief designer, it was still difficult for Jupiter to fully understand the new system. During this time, he spent almost all his food and lodging in the company, but he couldn’t hold on for the past two days, which caused him to feel completely overwhelmed when he came out of the bathroom. They were all a little dizzy, and almost bumped their heads directly into the manager's arms, and were finally stopped by the manager to go back to rest.

Jupiter is stubborn but has no choice but to agree to go back to rest after finishing the tasks at hand today.

Unexpectedly, after this treatment, it was midnight again. I rubbed my temples, planning to deal with the last night in the company and go back tomorrow to take a week's vacation.

Standing up and turning his stiff neck, he walked towards the tea room with the coffee cup in his hand. There was still a circle of brown marks in the cup from which he had just drank coffee.

With a slap, the eyes were completely dark, and Juxing froze in place for an instant, blinking his eyes a little bit confused.

What's going on, maybe it's a power outage.

The mobile phone is still on his own table, and there is no lighting on his body.

Before he got out of the office area, and he didn't know whose desk it was, Jupiter was leaning against his hard arm and neck and cervical spine that just happened to move.

Maybe there is a problem with another line. Generally, the power supply will be restarted in less than 3 minutes. After all, they are the technical activity department here. If the power is cut off for more than 5 minutes, many newly written programs will automatically disappear because they are not saved. , resulting in immeasurable losses.

It’s just that something is wrong with the power outage today. Looking at the little lights outside, there has never been a power outage in their technical department before. Jupiter stood up straight and planned to go out to see the situation. He just took a step out tentatively. I heard footsteps from far to near.

Someone should have come up to check the situation. Could it be that the power outage won't be able to come in a short time.

Fortunately, I have almost finished it and saved it, otherwise there will be problems again.

The sound of approaching footsteps was muffled, neither like the sound of leather shoes nor like the sound of sneakers, Ju Xing frowned and opened his mouth and asked, "Is anyone there?"

There was silence, not even the sound of footsteps just now.

Jupiter immediately became vigilant, today is Friday, and everyone even went back early, that is to say, a lonely person like him has no concept of time.

There are not many people who can stay in the company. If it is an inspection, why did they deliberately hide their voice after hearing themselves speak.

It can only be said that some people may take advantage of the chaos to make bad things happen.

I frowned, I'm not so unlucky.

I roughly estimated the location of the footsteps just now, and held my breath even more, for fear of attracting the other party's attention.

He is not a strong person, he has no strength to restrain a chicken, and he has survived for several nights. If something happens to him, he may not be able to fight with a single finger. The only thing he can do in this meeting is Hide and wait for someone to leave before calling the police.

Simply, the stars and stars outside could not shine in front of him at all, but set off the darkness in front of his eyes, and he could not even see his fingers.

Still holding the coffee cup in his hand, he didn't dare to act rashly, but just made a voice, telling the man that someone was here, but he didn't know if the man would find him.

Taking advantage of the situation, he squatted down directly, wanting to move to the nearest desk to avoid it first.

His body stiffened suddenly, Ju Xing stood up slowly, the warm body in front of him blocked his way forward.

After laughing twice, Jupiter took two steps back and said softly, "Uh, can you pretend that I'm not here? Don't worry, I will definitely pretend that I'm not here. Do whatever you want."

Jupiter is worthless, and the people who can escape the company's security are not simple people. Who knows what they have committed before. At this time, saving their lives is the best choice, even if they identify the criminals afterwards.

And he swears that he really didn't see anything, let alone pointing it out, he definitely can't do anything.

But obviously the prisoner didn't want to accept his suggestion, and grabbed his elbow with one hand, with precise direction and fierce force, which made Jupiter tremble in fright, and the cup in his hand fell to the ground with a clatter.

With a bang, some of the shattered fragments even jumped onto his ankle, drawing a bloodstain.

Gritting his teeth and forcefully resisting the pain, Ju Xing still wanted to struggle and laughed along with him: "You really don't care about me, do whatever you want, really."

The prisoner didn't seem to want to do anything, just quietly grabbed his arm like this.

Jupiter's intuition is not quite right, but this will be caught by someone, and he dare not act rashly. Just like this, facing each other in the dark, Jupiter doesn't even dare to make a sound, because no matter what happens next, it will never be worse than it is now. The prisoner grabbed his hand.

It's just that the man obviously didn't stop here, he let go of his hand a little, and Juxing immediately took two steps back and turned around to run, even feeling uncomfortable when his sneakers stepped on the broken glass.

Before turning around, he was hugged by someone, and finally realized that the matter was more serious than he imagined. Jupiter would not care about it and started to struggle directly. He greeted the man's face with both hands, but he didn't expect that the man was more serious than he imagined. Tall, does he have a keen sense of others, so he can't find his way in the darkness.

Instinctively bent his knees and was about to kick the man's vitals, who knew it would be easily dispelled by the man, and even staggered at his feet and crashed directly into the man's arms, as if throwing himself into a hug, the back of his head was crushed Pressing on the man's chest, a strong smell of tobacco rushed into his nose, and Juxing was choked up and coughed violently.

Hastily stretched out his hand to push back, and shouted in panic: "Who are you, you..."

Before he could finish a sentence, his mouth was blocked for no reason. The smell of tobacco just passed to Jupiter along the opened lips of the two of them. Just now, the head was hit and the dizziness was dizzy, and the lips were kissed extremely uncomfortable.

Insufficient strength can only be used cleverly, Jupiter grabbed a piece of flesh on the man's arm and turned it around, but the man still tightly hugged his ecstasy as if he was completely unconscious.

It was as if he was suffering in hell, his legs were clamped between his legs by a man, his hands were firmly tied behind his back, his mouth was tightly blocked, and tears flowed from the corners of his eyes.

The strength of Juxing's struggle slowly became weaker, and even a lot of strength was relieved from his body, and he collapsed into the man's arms and wept silently like this.

The man felt the tears being wiped on his cheeks, as if he was in a panic, he moved his head and stretched out his hands to help him wipe the tears in a panic, but he didn't speak.

Tears are like a flood that has opened its gates and cannot be stopped.

One of Juxing's hands was let go, and he stretched forward to grab the man's wrist, swallowed, and said with a sob: "It's you, Song Shanglu."

Who else would use such extreme means to appear but him, who else could make himself feel so familiar.

Sure enough, the hand on his butt paused, and even the hand that wiped his tears and began to pinch his face slowly left. Jupiter yanked his wrist to pull him closer, his voice hoarse but But it was extremely fierce: "Why did you come to me until now?"

For a long while the man still didn't speak.

Jupiter was a little impatient, he let go of the man's hand and wiped away tears indiscriminately: "If you don't want to say it, forget it, if you don't want to look for it, you don't want to look for it, it's not like you can't find it without Jupiter..."

"Ah, it hurts, why are you pinching me?" Naturally, in the darkness, Jupiter's staring eyes and the hand that was hastily covering his waist could not be seen.

"I...I..." Finally the man opened his mouth, but this anxious speech was even more stumbling, and he couldn't continue after only one word.

"Talk to me slowly." I didn't expect to be such a useless person in real life. Fortunately, I have already prepared myself for what that person will definitely give me, and I have positioned my significant other as I met a short and rich inspirational figure, but the person who can touch and hug me is quite tall and tall, with a good figure, which is still a bit comforting.

Not as bad as imagined.

The tears stopped, but the anger came up all of a sudden, almost burning out his sanity.

Jupiter kept telling himself in his heart not to fight, not to fight, not to fight, then he finally calmed down and didn't start the fight directly.

"I'm in the hospital." The man finally said it after being slapped by Jupiter. The two of them were so close that Jupiter could even feel the ambiguous aura he sprayed on his face.

It made my legs a little weak, and I grabbed his hand that had been inserted into my pants and took it out with a disdainful tone: "It's not easy to say, but it's pretty quick to do this, do I agree?"

The man choked up for a moment and didn't speak, he didn't dare to say anything, he was afraid of Jupiter.

He was afraid that Jupiter would hate him.

It's just that Jupiter refused to let go, and shook his hand vigorously: "Speak."

"I can not hold it in."

He really couldn't help it, as long as Jupiter was by his side, he couldn't help it, let alone two people who were in such close contact.

It was obviously not a good word, but the corners of Juxing's mouth curled up uncontrollably, he forcibly suppressed the smile in his tone, and deliberately said rigidly: "Why are you hospitalized?"

The man stopped talking again, this time he really didn't want to talk.

Feeling the refusal breath exuding from the man, Juxing sighed and said softly: "Song Shanglu, you come to me, it means that you want to spend the rest of your life with me. You know everything about me, but I don't even know your name." I don't know, I don't even know what you look like, let alone other things, how can I feel at ease with you when you say it."

"Song Zeqi, my name is Song Zeqi." The man's voice was serious, like an elementary school student answering a teacher's question in class.

"Look, I know your name right now..." Ju Xing always felt that the name was familiar, as if he had heard it somewhere, suddenly a flash of inspiration struck him, and he froze for a moment, scratching Seeing the man's hand tightened slightly, his tone was a little out of control, "What did you say is your name?"

"Song Zeqi, we met before." The man's voice was a little scared, as if he was afraid that Jupiter would regret it after he knew who he was.

"Are you Song Zeqi?" Ju Xing was particularly surprised. He didn't expect it to be that Song Zeqi, but he thought that when the two met that day, Song Zeqi's all kinds of softness were quite similar.

When I was nervous, I didn't notice that the voices of the two were quite alike.

But I have some doubts. In order to understand the system, Jupiter investigated Song Zeqi, but he couldn't compare the excellent man with 360 degrees and no dead ends in the data with the man in the pantry who looked more socially phobic than himself. If they are connected together, they can't be compared with the man who sneaked up on him in the middle of the night but stumbled as soon as he spoke.

"I'm sick." The man gritted his teeth, since he intends to be with Jupiter, let him know everything, if Jupiter minds, if he minds.

The man clenched his fists tightly, he would never allow such a thing to happen.

"What did you just say?" His voice was so gritted that Jupiter couldn't hear what he said.

Song Zeqi took a deep breath, he knew that Jupiter should have the right to know about some things.

If he couldn't accept it, no, he had to accept it, a sense of tyranny rushed into his heart instantly, and the corners of Song Zeqi's eyes were a little red with irritation. Fortunately, there was no electricity yet, and Jupiter couldn't see the horror on his face.

"It hurts." The hand on the waist tightened by two points, and Juxing struggled slightly uncomfortablely, Song Zeqi's hand was almost embedded in his own flesh, compared to what he just said, Juxing still cared more about Song before Zeqi said he was hospitalized, why was he hospitalized.

Thinking of what the last world system said, Jupiter's anger disappeared in an instant. I was a little worried, and I was really stuck, just like before. As long as he appears, as long as he is willing to say, then I am willing to believe it. Understand why so many people turn a blind eye to their significant other, because as long as he is still by their side, it will be fine.

Jupiter sighed, and he quickly grabbed his clothes and wanted to get closer to touch him, shaking his head and asking: "What's the matter, why did you end up in the hospital, let's go out first, it's too dark, go out and let me see what's wrong with you ?”

Song Zeqi grabbed his messy hands and said in a low voice, "Jupiting, I love you."

Ju Xing was stunned for a moment, and the corner of his mouth suddenly curved into a beautiful arc: "Well, I know."

As I said, as long as you come to me, no matter what you say, I will believe you. If you say you love me, I will believe you. If you say you will not leave me, I will believe you.

In the dark, Song Zeqi held Juxing's hands tightly, and under the cover of black, his voice sounded like a sudden fork, hoarse and dim: "I'm sorry for dragging you into the small world privately, it's all my fault."

Jupiter did not speak, although in the end he did fall in love with him as he wished, but it is undeniable that this approach was really wrong.

Song Zeqi did not expect Juxing to respond to him, and even secretly hoped that Juxing would not speak, otherwise he would not be able to muster up the courage to tell Juxing the disease that he had been avoiding and concealing.

"Social disorder." Song Zeqi's voice seemed particularly confused and helpless in the darkness, and it stopped in Juxing's heart for a while, tangled and uncomfortable.

His hand unconsciously grasped Juxing's arm and gradually tightened, his nails were almost deeply embedded in Jupiter's flesh, even with such pain, feeling his discomfort, Jupiter was unwilling to push him away.

Juxing fumbled on tiptoe and hugged him tightly, originally wanted to press his head and give him a warm feeling on his chest, but finally gave up because of the difference in height between the two.

Song Zeqi supported his buttocks with two arms, hugged him and put him on the desk behind him, his feet flying in the air made him look extremely insecure, his hands were empty, and he hugged the other party's neck tightly.

"Shanglu."

The voice suddenly softened, and accidentally touched the other's cheek, Ju Xing pressed the back of the man's head tightly in his arms, and the two embraced without any gap.

My name is Song Zeqi, an orphan.

Not because I was abandoned by my parents and became orphans, but because I watched them die before my eyes and became orphans.

Not a conspiracy, not a disease, just a simple car accident.

In my memory, the beautiful woman held me tightly in her arms, and the man who could always lift me above his head with one hand hugged my mother and me, and said, "Zeqi, it's okay, trust Dad."

I hid in the space supported by my mother and him, staring in fear and feeling the shaking of the taxi. I believed him, because my father never lied.

He is a grown-up, a grown-up who knows everything.

But my mother is too weak, she is afraid, tears keep falling on my face, making my eyes itchy, I keep rubbing my eyes, it seems that there is a tendency to cry, but I know that It's not that I want to cry, it's just that I want to cry habitually, just like wanting to cry after yawning.

In the end, it turned out that my father did not lie to me, and I was really fine, but my parents couldn't open their eyes no matter what.

Our family has money, but no one.

As a seven-year-old who could not live independently, I was sent to the local orphanage, where there were children like me, but some of them were different from me.

Although I am an orphan, I do have money, and I even have a lawyer who can take care of my daily expenses, but no one has been taking care of my daily life.

When the night is approaching, I always dare not sleep. I can't forget the last desperate look of my mother who looked at me with tears in my eyes. I can't forget that my father suddenly raised his hands to embrace my mother and me during the last violent shock. I can't forget that my mother didn't know where she hit and tried her best to suppress it, but she still couldn't suppress the pain overflowing from her mouth.

The children who just came in are so fragile, but they will persist until they find new friends, and then gradually forget everything and gradually integrate into the new environment.

But I will always be a special case, because I am not like them.

Every month, someone will send me a lot of food, clothing and even playthings. Children don’t know anything, but just because of this, they know that they are not the same as me, and gradually they are unwilling. play with me. .

My parents taught me that if I have good things, I should remember to share them with my good friends. Although we are not friends yet, the dean’s grandfather said that we will live together for a long time, so I went to find them with my things, but in exchange But it was all kinds of pushing and disdainful looks from them. Some even stepped on the food I handed over to the ground, spit on it, and rolled their eyes and said it was not rare.

At that time, I was still young and didn't know what I did wrong. I stared at the mess in the empty yard and slowly squatted down, picking it up bit by bit and slowly putting it away.

Although I can no longer eat, wear or use it, the lawyer uncle said it was sent to me by my parents who are far away in heaven, and I was reluctant to waste it.

They hate me, I can understand the disgust in their eyes when they look at me, so I try to stay out of their sight as much as possible.

But after all, those children and I live together, and there are always chances to meet whether we are eating or sleeping.

Even though I kept my head down and tried not to attract their attention, they still showed up with sarcasm and it got worse.

There are even people who destroy my clothes. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I will find that the new clothes that the nurse sister put on my bed have turned into rags.

At that time, I was even more unwilling to say a word, so I could only press these clothes to the bottom of the box with my lips tightly pressed, and change out again.

Anyway, there will be new ones at the beginning of every month.

But things are far from being as simple as I imagined. When the school starts, although I don’t have the pick-up from my parents now, and I can’t go to the old school, but fortunately, the new school is not far from the orphanage, so I can go there by myself. .

Before, I felt that someone was watching me when I was trying on the new school uniform and schoolbag, but I didn't pay much attention because I was in a hurry.

I didn't expect that they, who were also children, would unite and beat me up. I was dragged to an abandoned warehouse behind before I stepped into the orphanage after school that day.

I didn’t go back to finish my meal that day, and the clothes on my body were so torn that I could hardly wear them. What’s more serious was that I had injuries on my arms and legs, and many places were worn out with blood, so I didn’t have the strength to stand up.

The sky gradually darkened, I curled up in the corner of the warehouse and watched the black shadows slowly come in from the door, sprinkled on my feet, and moved my body carefully, not to be swallowed by the darkness.

The physical pain and the fear of the dark, and most of all the fear of the children who ate and lived with me finally made me uncontrollable, leaving the first tear since my parents left, just because my father said that I He is a man, no matter what happens, he shouldn't cry.

But I couldn’t bear it anymore, it’s obviously not my fault, I really want to get along with them, I’m willing to share all my things with them, but why do they still hate me, so hateful that I can’t wait for me to disappear kind of.

Because of my dullness and indifference, I was not very popular with children before, but there are still many people who are willing to make friends with me, but I didn't expect that it would be so bad after changing the environment.

I lay on my lap and kept crying, as if I wanted to cry out all my grievances in the past few days. Not only did I cry, I also yelled loudly, called Dad, called Mom, told them to take me away, I told them no If someone likes me, it is better to take me away directly.

It was not my parents who took me away that day, but the dean’s grandfather.

As for why it is not the nurse sister, because the nurse sister does not like me, as for why I am not very clear, I only vaguely remember that she said to me when she seemed to be holding my clothes, why should a child living in an orphanage Dress better than her.

I don't know how to dress well, but at that time I was already very familiar with the disgust and dislike in other people's eyes, so I just kept silent and pretended I didn't hear anything.

The dean’s grandfather was already very old, and I was crying so much that I almost fainted. I rolled my eyes and looked at the grandfather in gray sportswear standing in front of me, panting and grinning.

I can even now think of the metal on his teeth gleaming in the setting sun, dazzled my eyes like the most powerful fireworks in the night sky.

I raised my eyes and looked up at him with my arms covering my eyelids. I saw that he squatted down and wanted to hug me, but because of his body, he didn't have a chance to act in the end, so he just turned around.

I was very scared at the time, I thought he was leaving too, and I clenched my fists tightly and stared at his back, thinking that if he wanted to leave too, I would pounce on him and bite his leg hard.

Grandpa didn't leave, he just turned around because he wanted to sit next to me.

Because he backed away immediately, it's just because people are old and slow, but he did get closer to me.

His shoulders were much taller than mine, and his arms rubbed against my shoulders. Grandpa turned around and smiled at me. I thought he was going to talk, but he didn't speak either. He just stretched out his arms and held my shoulders to watch the sun set with me.

In that warehouse, through the hole without a door, you can't see the sun at all, you can only see the orange light fading little by little.

The shade came bit by bit, but I felt very warm in my heart, because my grandfather's arms were very hot, and the heat was slowly transmitted through the place where we were next to each other.

It was the orphanage that my grandfather took me by the hand that day.

Since that day, Grandpa didn't ask anyone to apologize to me, but first asked me if I would like to live with them.

I shook my head in fear. I didn't want an apology from them, but I didn't want any more contact with them either.

Grandpa frowned and touched my head and told me no, children just want to stay with their friends.

Since I was a child, I don't want to trouble others, but I really don't want to trouble those people.

No matter what grandpa said, I just didn't want to look up. In the end, grandpa had to sigh and say it was fine.

He told me that since the values ​​​​are different, it is not a good thing to force them together.

I don't know what values ​​are, and I don't understand what my grandfather said, but I just don't want to live with them, and I don't want to associate with them.

I didn't leave the orphanage, I just changed a room and lived next door to my grandpa.

I know that my grandfather actually has a son and a grandson, but they are all far away, and sometimes they won't come back during the Chinese New Year.

So my grandpa and I became relatives, like the kind of relatives that the teacher said in class, they depended on each other, which is not actually counted, but that's how I felt in my heart.

I thought that with the protection of my grandpa in the future, I would be like my parents by my side, I just need to study hard.

But I didn't expect Grandpa to leave at all.

It was a winter, I came back from school, happily held up a test paper with a perfect score, and wanted to tell my grandpa that I had won the competition, and I could play the game console that the lawyer uncle gave me at the beginning of the month.

But instead of my grandpa, I saw a row of kids who had bullied me angrily and abused me.

They have also grown up, they will not hit me, but they will scold me.

They said that I was a drag on grandpa. If it weren't for me, grandpa wouldn't get sick, wouldn't be sent to the hospital, and wouldn't leave.

In the end, they said that grandpa just hated me and didn't want to care about me, but they didn't know how to tell me, so they left by themselves.

I don't want to hear it, but they just want to repeat it in my ears.

I fought that day, the first time I fought, my head was broken and bleeding, which was worse than the last time they beat me.

Because last time I protected the place where they hurt me when they beat me, but this time I wanted to find them desperately like crazy.

In the end, the nurse sister pulled us away. The nurse sister always looked at us with unfriendly eyes, not only me, but also them.

But she was always more malicious towards me. She also said that if it wasn't for me, grandpa wouldn't have left so early.

After my grandpa left, I moved back to the place I was before, and continued to endure their dislike for me, but I didn't move my hands or even my mouth anyway.

I left the orphanage at the age of 11, because when my lawyer uncle came to deliver things at the beginning of the month, I told him that I would go to a boarding middle school.

It's not my home anyway, it doesn't matter where I live.

Uncle Lawyer didn't have any objections to these minor issues, and the procedures were even handled very quickly.

But in the new environment, I was still not very popular, but this time they didn't dare to show it too obviously, because I entered the school as the first grade.

Later I found that as long as I was good enough, even if they didn't like me, they wouldn't dare to say it out, and they even tried to perfunctory me as much as possible, because they needed me.

I also learned to pretend to them, even if I saw that they didn't like me and were forced to please me, I didn't say it and even solved the problem for them friendly, but no one found that we actually hated each other.

Later, I gradually became better, and the love shown by the people around me became more sincere, but I still couldn't believe it. After all, people's hearts are unpredictable, and who knows that one day they will suddenly disappear.

In the eyes of others, I am that lofty and even omnipotent designer, and I am the only one enjoying the darkness in my heart.

I started a company, but I never appeared as the person in charge of the company, only a few times as a designer inside.

It's not because of anything else, it's just that I didn't know why I did it in the first place.

These things about Song Zeqi were told by Song Zeqi after he took Juxing home that night. Seeing that his mental condition was not good, Juxing wanted to rest at the company for a night. After all, he was worried about driving in the middle of the night. , but Song Zeqi was unwilling, as if he felt particularly insecure outside, even though he held Juxing's arm tightly, he still felt that he would leave at any time.

It seems that only when Jupiter is in his own domain and under his control, he will feel relieved.

After knowing the story of his childhood, Juxing didn't comfort him, and didn't even comment on whether those people were good or bad, but just put his arms around Song Zeqi's head and said softly: "It's okay, I will be with you in the future.

Just like two children hugging each other for warmth, Juxing thought that it would be great if he could meet Song Zeqi earlier, when Song Zeqi was rejected by everyone or when he lost all his relatives.

No matter at any time of these two stages, there will be one person who will suffer a little less harm, right?

But it's not too late to meet now.

Regarding being pulled into the world of fairy tales, Ju Xing is reluctant to blame Song Zeqi half a point. After all, although he can't empathize with Song Zeqi's fear that he doesn't like him, he expresses his understanding. past hurdles.

For love, the two of them are like fledgling novices, and they need to grow through constant running-in.

After going back, Song Zeqi was always afraid that Jupiter would blame him for going late, but said that he was affected by the energy fluctuation of the small world, and finally went to the hospital. Misunderstand.

Although Jupiter also feels