Bamboo Horse Cultivation Manual [Rebirth]

After waking up, Ye Li saw the text message from Qiu Mu.

【Grandpa woke up, if you want to come over, please bring grandpa's clothes and toiletries too】

"..."

Ye Li tapped on the keys with his fingers.

[Okay, I'll go there right away. 】

After closing the phone, Ye Li sat in silence for a long time without moving.

Then he suddenly sighed deeply, stood up, and looked around his bedroom, as if he wanted to keep all this in his heart.

Put away the phone and go upstairs to tidy up the old man's clothes.

There is a painting hanging on the wall of the old man's bedroom.

This painting is very familiar to Ye Li, because it was drawn by him half a year ago, stroke by stroke, and given to the old man.

Although Ye Li had confirmed it to Qiu Mu in advance before sending it off, Qiu Mu took a look at it and said "the painting is very good", but facing the old man with a high appreciation of art, Ye Li felt that things of this level were still very good. Oops.

Besides, like Qiu Mu, the old man would only say "very good" no matter what he gave, so asking Qiu Mu felt like asking for nothing.Ye Li could only keep drawing over and over again until he had drawn a work that he thought he could handle.

Qiu Mu said to this, "You might as well show all the stacks of paintings to grandpa, grandpa promises to be happier", and got Ye Li's grumpy "Are you kidding me?" as an answer.

When the old man received the painting, it was exactly as Ye Li expected. He took a closer look at it and said with a smile, "Not bad, not bad".

Ye Li knew that the old man would be happy to accept it, but he couldn't help heaving a sigh of relief when he actually saw it.

Then this painting was framed by the old man and placed in the room, where it was hung together with a group of calligraphy and famous paintings by famous calligraphers and famous paintings who don't know where it is, but it feels like it has gold content.

After staring blankly at the painting for a long time, guilt surged into my heart again.

No matter what the old man thinks, Qiu Mu is the only son of the Qiu family, and this matter will not change.

No matter how far Ye Li goes, satisfy his desire.Or take a step back and leave everything as it is.

Someone will always be hurt by it.

You obviously trust him so much, you obviously helped him so much, do you really want to continue?

......

With a bag full of daily necessities, Ye Li returned to the hospital.Looking at the old man sitting on the hospital bed, surrounded by the old man's children.Ye Li knocked on the door and walked in, greeting the elders sitting inside.

Thoughts were surging in his heart, but not much emotion could be seen on his face, Ye Li said to the old man, "Grandpa, how do you feel?"

The old man smiled at Ye Li: "Xiao Li is here, come and sit."

Ye Li paused for half a second, put down his backpack and walked over: "I brought you some change of clothes, things, and toiletries. If there is anything else I need, I'll get it for you later. .”

Unaware of Ye Li's half-spoken and then immediately replaced vocabulary, the old man smiled and said: "It's okay, grandpa will be discharged from the hospital in two days."

Ye Li silently observed the old man's expression for a while, not sure what was going on in the old man's heart, he was a little apprehensive, but at the same time he let out a sigh of relief.

Anyway, "get away with it", right?

Qiu Mu sat on the side, seeing that Ye Li's state today still did not return to his usual state, wondering if Ye Li was still thinking about "I caused grandpa to fall", so he was uneasy.He said: "Xiao Li, your complexion is not very good, are you tired from staying up too late? I don't feel energetic."

Ye Li: "No, I'm fine."

The old man recalled what Qiu Mu said in the morning, "Xiaoli cried yesterday", and said cheerfully, "If you are tired, just say it, it's okay with Grandpa, if you feel unwell, go home and have a rest, and lie down. "

This amiable appearance seems to be a hundred times gentler than treating her own son and grandson.

Ye Li shook his head again and again: "It's really fine."

The old man and Qiu Mu looked at each other, both showing expressions of "Ye Li would really answer like that", as if he knew Ye Li's thoughts well.

In the end, Ye Li still couldn't say a few words, and was half pushed and half forced by Qiu Mu and the old man to go home and rest.Qiu Mu said that he would go back and change his clothes, and followed Ye Li to the nearby bus station to take the bus.

On the way, Qiu Mu said: "Grandpa didn't blame you, don't think too much about it."

"..." Ye Li: "No."

The point is not this.

Qiu Mu: "?"

Ye Li: "Did Grandpa tell you anything?"

Qiu Mu was puzzled: "What do you mean?"

Ye Li: "..."

Qiu Mu: "Grandpa is not angry with you."

Ye Li asked back: "How do you guarantee it?"

Although the old man's attitude towards him just now has not changed much from usual, if Ye Li was in the position of the old man, maybe he would do the same.

Because there are Qiu Mu and Qiu Mu's parents present, if the old man still has a little "compassion" for him, he may be reluctant to let Ye Li be "besieged and accused" by so many people, but choose to have a private relationship with Ye Li. Talk one-on-one, and then straight to the point and warn Ye Li not to cross the line.

As for the current performance, it is just a superficial effort so that Qiu Mu will not see something wrong.Even Ye Li can easily do this kind of ability that is hidden in his heart, let alone an old man who has worked for most of his life and struggled in society for decades.The means will only be more clever than him.

Qiu Mu didn't know that Ye Li had so many thoughts in his head in just a few seconds, and said with a smile, "Because I lied this morning, Grandpa told me himself."

"lie?"

Qiu Mu said: "I lied to grandpa that you were crying, and said some bad things about you, and then grandpa scolded me angrily, telling me not to 'stimulate discord'."

Ye Li glanced at Qiu Mu in surprise: "Really?"

Qiu Mu nodded: "Of course, so don't take it too seriously. No one will blame you for this, it's just an accident."

Ye Li: "..."

The fall was indeed an accident, but the fact that the old man saw Wen Qiumu's clothes and then turned around and left was not an accident.

Even if the old man is not angry with him anymore, the key point "Ye Li has plans for Qiu Mu" is still not resolved.

He couldn't ask the old man face to face. If the old man didn't take the initiative to bring it up, the matter would always be like a buried time bomb. The bomb stayed in Ye Lili's heart, and he was always worried that it would explode at any time.

Qiu Mu thought Ye Li could feel at ease by saying this, so she patted Ye Li on the shoulder and didn't say anything more.After all, not only Ye Li has troubles, but Qiu Mu also has a lot of troubles to solve.

The two people with different thoughts in their hearts fell silent at the same time.

Two days later, the old man was discharged from the hospital.

Qiu Mu's mother looked at Ye Li who was busy up and down, and said to him: "Does Xiao Li want to go to Shanghai to study?"

Ye Li was taken aback: "Shanghai?"

Both Qiu Mu and the old man's expressions changed slightly.

Ye Li didn't see anything wrong, he didn't know what Qiu Mu's mother meant when she suddenly said this, and replied in confusion: "I probably won't go, after all, my mother is here..."

How is this going?Ye Li looked at Qiu Mu inquiringly.

Qiu Mu bit the bullet and said: "Ah...Actually, we will go to Shanghai in a while." I wanted to find a suitable opportunity to talk to Ye Li again. Mom raised it.

Ye Li was still a little puzzled, and didn't understand the point they wanted to express: "Did you take a vacation in the past?"

But what Qiu Mu's mother just said was "go to Shanghai to study".

"Grandpa is not in good health, so I want to go to a hospital in Shanghai for treatment." Qiu Mu didn't know what to say, and wandered around near the center of the topic.

"That's right." Then there was no other way, Ye Li said: "Then study...?"

"..." In front of grandpa and mother, what could Qiu Mu say.

Qiu Mu's mother said: "We plan to let Mu'er High School study in Shanghai."

Ye Li's calm expression suddenly cracked.

"what?!"

"..." Looking back and forth between Qiu Mu and the old man's face, Ye Li couldn't help but said, "Why suddenly..."

Qiu Mu said apologetically, "Well, the medical conditions in Shanghai are better, so grandpa went there..."

"..."

Ye Li suddenly fell silent.

He thought in his heart that the doctor's diagnosis for the old man at the beginning was "no big problem, just rest for a while."

Ye Li is very clear about the character of the old man, he would not be happy to ask him to hire a nanny to take care of him at home, and prefers to be alone.A few years ago, when I went to Shanghai for a new year, I could scold Qiu Mu's parents on the phone, and I would never leave my hometown willingly.

But now he voluntarily agreed to "go to Shanghai for treatment"?No matter how you think about it, it is unlikely that you will leave for such a reason.

After thinking about "as long as the old man leaves here, then Qiu Mu has no reason to stay and study", Ye Li felt that he seemed to understand the reason.

Sure enough, do you still mind what he did three days ago?Although he didn't say it on the surface, he still didn't want to have any more contact with Qiu Mu.So with this method, Qiu Mu was asked to return to Shanghai to study, but because of his mother, he could only choose to stay here...

Jiang was still old and hot, he didn't say anything, everyone looked good, and the matter was settled irresistibly.

"..." Ye Li glanced at the old man and Qiu Mu, and said with a smile, "That's right."

But the heart was howling silently, being torn into small pieces.

It may be very difficult to see Qiu Mu in the future.

The old man also saved face for him, at least he didn't embarrass him. When we get along with each other, it's still the same as before, and his attitude hasn't changed. Obviously, there is no need to accommodate him at all...

Ye Li said: "Shanghai is indeed better than here, I hope grandpa can recover quickly."

The old man looked a little embarrassed, he said: "It would be great if Xiaoli went too, I can find a way about your mother..."

"..." Knowing that he couldn't agree, Ye Li thought.

No matter whether the incident happened a few days ago or not, it is impossible for Ye Li to agree to this kind of thing that will bring a lot of trouble to others.

Qiu Mu, Ye Li, and the old man knew it all well.

"It's okay, don't bother. My mother was selected because she was lucky enough to live in the orphanage. It's not good to go to Shanghai. If you are not a local, you won't be able to enjoy the policies—and now you live in a good place, so there is no need to move."

He politely refused, but he was thinking about something else.What the old man said was just being polite, he still knew that he had to be sensible.

Qiu Mu didn't know why he was a little silent, he sat aside and didn't participate in the topic.Ye Li understood that the matter was a foregone conclusion, so he could only force himself to accept the fact with a pale face.Several people ended this topic with their own concerns. A dinner, on the surface, everyone seemed to be having a good time, but in fact, they were not very happy.

At night, Ye Li approached Qiu Mu: "Are you going to study in Shanghai?"

Qiu Mu was about to talk to Ye Li about it: "I don't really want to go."

Maybe it's because Gu Yu is still here, Ye Li thought.

"But Grandpa and the others all want you to go there."

Qiu Mu smiled bitterly: "I know, it's because grandpa is going there for treatment, so it's difficult. He has gone to Shanghai, and I have no excuse to stay."

Ye Li said: "Do you know why Grandpa suddenly changed his mind and is willing to go to Shanghai?"

Qiu Mu said: "It's mainly because of my study problems. My mother and they want me to study abroad in university."

Ye Li: "..."

Questions about reading?Qiu Mu studies so well, it doesn't matter which city he goes to study.If you work hard, you can basically get into domestic universities, and if you work harder abroad, it may not be a problem.

Because no one told Ye Li that students from some international schools would find it easier to go abroad to study in universities than other ordinary schools, and the starting level would be higher, so Ye Li, who hadn't thought of this at all, thought that it was an old man. It was intentional to let Qiu Mu transfer to another school and separate from him.

At the beginning, I was thinking in a wrong way, and now it is easy to get distracted no matter what I think.

"So...Grandpa went to Shanghai because of your study? Let you study high school in Shanghai, and then go abroad for university." Ye Li asked the purpose of this sentence, thinking with Qiu Mu and the old man. completely different.

Qiu Mu nodded: "Yes, otherwise, I wouldn't have left my hometown, and went to Shanghai for treatment. It's completely unnecessary."

Ye Li: "..."

Qiu Mu said: "I don't really want to go back to Shanghai to study. So I will try to convince my parents."

It is probably useless to persuade Qiu Mu's parents. The person who really wants Qiu Mu to stay in Shanghai is the old man.Ye Li said, "What about grandpa?"

Qiu Mu: "Let's lie to him. You and I usually go to school, and Aunt Huang only comes here when she cooks in the morning, noon and evening. No one can take care of grandpa in daily life. Blood pressure problems have always I can't control it. If I go to Shanghai, I will hire a 24-hour nanny to watch over my grandfather's diet, and it will definitely be better. So before that, I pretended to listen to them and went to Shanghai to accompany my grandfather for a while , and then find a way to come back."

"..." Ye Li: "Are you sure you can come back?"

Qiu Mu took it for granted: "I will definitely come back."

"..."

Qiu Mu was puzzled: "You don't seem to believe me?"

Ye Li: "That's not what I meant."

Qiu Mu said: "But..."

Ye Li couldn't see the old man walking towards him, and took two steps back calmly, getting a little further away from Qiu Mu.

Qiu Mu: ""

Ye Li lowered his head: "Let's talk about things tomorrow, I'm going back to my room."

Qiu Mu couldn't figure it out, looked at Ye Li's abnormal behavior and said in a daze, "Oh, oh..."

"..."

Because of grandpa, huh?

Close the door and lean back against the door panel.The strength of the legs was gradually withdrawn, they slid down the door panel, and then squatted on the ground weakly.

Should we desperately try to keep Qiu Mu?Up to now, Ye Li no longer cares about his face.Even if it is the worst way to let Qiu Mu know his intentions, it is fine to let the people around him know that he is actually gay without any preparation and foreshadowing, as long as he can keep Qiu Mu, he can do anything.

He has awareness and the courage to abandon everything, but he has no determination to disregard the health of the elderly in order to realize his wish. He is not so selfish.

Just seeing him holding Qiu Mu's clothes, his blood pressure rose and he fell into a coma. If he were to say "please don't take Qiu Mu away" in front of the old man again, how angry would the old man be? look.

He honestly pretended not to know anything, and watched Qiu Mu leave.In this way, except that he will be heart-piercingly sad, everyone can live in peace.The relationship on the surface can still be maintained as it is, at least there is a chance to call and chat with Qiu Mu, maybe when he grows up, he can go to the place where Qiu Mu is to find him.

As long as you don't take that step and don't make the old man angry.

"..."

But why does my heart hurt so much.

Thinking of not seeing Qiu Mu in the future, Ye Li felt as if he was about to stop breathing.The lungs seemed to have been sucked out of all the air, shrunk into a ball, the internal organs were being burned by the fire, the temples were constantly beating, and there was a sound of desperately struggling to survive from the throat, as if trying to shake the stomach. As if all the organs in the body were vomiting, he retched continuously.

It's so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable, I don't want to do this, I don't want Qiu Mu to go.

In the past, he always claimed to be rational, calm, and not emotional, but in fact he was not as strong as he imagined.

Calm down, calm down.

Keep taking deep breaths to keep your mentality from collapsing. Only by calming down and thinking can you find a way out of things.

Thinking about the good, isn't it a very "sensible and correct" thing for Qiu Mu to leave here to study in a place with better conditions?

Liang Tao once asked him similar questions when he was in junior high school, and he answered the same way.

This is for Qiu Mu's good, this is for Qiu Mu's good.

Trying hard to instill this idea into my brain, to convince my heart that is constantly in pain.But the desire for Qiu Mu, which seems to be born with the desire to survive, can't be fooled at all, but can't accept this explanation anyway.

He doesn't want Qiu Mu to leave, wants him to stay here, knowing that this is wrong, knowing that this choice may have a negative impact on Qiu Mu, but he just wants to keep Qiu Mu by his side selfishly.

This thought made Ye Li feel ashamed.

Taking out his mobile phone, Ye Li found Liang Tao's contact information.

Taking a few deep breaths to keep his throat from trembling and tightening, he pressed the phone button.

It should be morning over there, Liang Tao will answer his call.

Please, hurry up.

Beep beep, beep beep, on the sixth beep, Liang Tao's surprised voice rang on the other end of the phone.

"Ye Li?!"

Ye Li moved his Adam's apple up and down, covered his throat with his hand and said, "Hello."

Liang Tao: "Why did you call me? I, I can't believe it, haha!"

Ye Li: "Yes."

Liang Tao: "What's wrong with you? Your voice seems a little hoarse."

Ye Li: "Is it convenient for you to answer the phone?"

Liang Tao: "Convenient, very convenient!" He said quickly.

Ye Li said, "Really...how have you been recently?"

Hearing this sentence, Liang Tao's voice subconsciously lowered a little bit: "Well... that's it. I have already spoken English relatively fluently, and there is no problem in normal communication. The study here It's easy and doesn't feel too stressful."

Ye Li listened carefully, as if he wanted to use Liang Tao's happy life there to convince himself that letting Qiu Mu leave was the right choice.

Liang Tao and Ye Li were talking about their own affairs, and they were very happy that Ye Li was still willing to remember him, and even called to say hello.

"Did I talk too much?" Liang Tao said, "Isn't the overseas phone bill very expensive... Sorry, because I haven't talked to anyone like this for a long time, so I said it unconsciously." too much."

Ye Li stared at the wall in front of him, his eyes were not focused together, and he emptied his mind absent-mindedly, as if he was not thinking about anything: "How long?"

"Well, after coming here, I'm not happy at all." Liang Tao said in a nonchalant tone, what still caused him great pain until now: "I have no friends, no one to chat with, and I feel that I am surrounded by this world. It’s like throwing it away, and I feel muddled every day, hehe..."

"..."

Liang Tao: "But when I was in China before, I didn't feel much better than now, so think about it and let it go, anyway, people like me..."

His voice was getting lower and lower.

There was a long silence on both ends of the phone.After a long time, Ye Li suddenly sighed.

"Is my original suggestion wrong?"

"what?"

Ye Li closed his eyes, and the world seemed to be plunged into darkness. In the silence, he could only hear his own voice in his ears: "Is it at that time, I should suggest you to stay?"

"...Yeah, maybe."

Liang Tao was silent for a long time, then said slowly: "During the two years in junior high school, I was actually waiting for someone to tell me 'you should stay'. I waited for a long time, but no one said that to me. Whether it’s you, mom, or dad, everyone seems to think that I should leave. I don’t want to leave at all. Although life in China is bad, it’s better than it is now.”

"I'm sorry." Ye Li covered his eyes with his hands, his expression tired: "I didn't understand what you were thinking at that time."

"It's okay." Liang Tao smiled and said, "I'm very happy that you still remember me."

"..."

Liang Tao asked: "What's wrong with you? You feel a little strange now, what happened?"

Ye Li's voice was hoarse, and he couldn't bear his emotions: "Qiu Mu is leaving, I want to convince myself that it's for his own good to let him go, but I can't lie to myself."

Liang Tao understood.

"You want him to stay."

"Yes." Ye Li said, "I wanted to call to confirm that you were doing well there, but unfortunately you didn't."

Liang Tao said, "Yes."

"What should I do?" For the first time, Ye Li did not use his own thoughts to make a decision, but sought advice from others. "It's the right thing to do."

"I think you should let Qiu Mu stay." Liang Tao's answer was unexpectedly fast, almost as soon as Ye Li's words fell, he answered.

"..."

Liang Tao: "Qiu Mu must think so. Maybe he is looking forward to your retention just like me."

As soon as these words came out, Ye Li suddenly opened his eyes.

Qiu Mu, he said that Qiu Mu must think so.

Yes, no matter what Ye Li thinks, no matter what the old man thinks.

Qiu Mu's thoughts are the most important.

Regardless of Ye Li's personal emotions, at least try to protect Qiu Mu so that Qiu Mu can live happily.

How could he self-righteously decide to stay for Qiu Mu because of his own personal reasons, while ignoring Qiu Mu's thoughts?

As far as the result is concerned, after all, it was because of him that all this happened now.Qiu Mu had to face such a choice because of his actions.

At least, you have to take on this part of the responsibility and win some right to choose for Qiu Mu.

Ye Li's eyes gradually became firm, and he said, "I understand, thank you, Liang Tao."

Liang Tao smiled happily: "It's okay, I'm very happy to be of help."

Ye Li: "Do you still use QQ? If you want to chat with someone, just come to me and I will accompany you."

Liang Tao said in surprise, "Really!"

Ye Li: "Well, there are many things in the past, I'm sorry."

Liang Tao said with a smile, he didn't care at all: "It's okay."