Bamboo Horse Cultivation Manual [Rebirth]

"I just want to be stronger."

Liang Tao, 13 years old.To this day, I have not made a single friend.

When he was a child, Liang Tao hadn't developed the character that everyone hates now.Like other people of the same age, he also has a happy family from outsiders.

His father and mother regarded him as everything to them, and wished to dedicate everything to Liang Tao, so that he could grow up happily and carefree.

The father is a company employee and the mother is a housewife.At the moment Liang Tao was born 13 years ago, the family was still happy and full of warmth.

In order to earn money to support the family, his father was busy in the company all day long, and his mother, who had not found a job after being pregnant for ten months, had more free time, so in Liang Tao’s childhood memory, he always followed his mother and worked with her. Live in that small but warm home.

At that time, Liang Tao didn't know what "entertainment" was. His mother spent a lot of time teaching Liang Tao to read and write, talking to him in a gentle voice, patiently teaching and telling him that "0 is a circle and 3 is like an ear".

Whenever Liang Tao learns a new knowledge, his mother will show a beautiful smile, touch his face with her soft palm, and tell him "you are awesome, you are a good boy of mother".

Liang Tao likes this feeling very much, so every time he studies, he is very active.He believes that this is "life" and learning is his daily life.

Until one day, his father came back from get off work and brought Liang Tao a toy.

It was a small train that could run and bark. It had a dark green long and narrow body, with a row of wheels underneath that could turn when batteries were installed.

Liang Tao, who was only four years old, was attracted by this small plastic toy the moment he saw the toy running.He liked the baby so much that he immediately held the train in his arms and giggled non-stop.

Seeing Liang Tao so happy, his parents looked at each other and smiled.

Liang Tao still remembers that scene to this day. At that time, his mother stood beside him with a smile, watching his father hold him in his arms, and the feeling of rubbing against his face with a rough face with stubble, it was very itchy. Very annoying, but very comfortable.

On the second day, Liang Tao's interest in toys still remained unchanged.No matter when he was dressing or eating, he held the toy tightly in his palm.She had been quietly looking into her mother's eyes, but now she finally changed her target.

Whenever the little train makes a little noise, he will giggle and laugh non-stop as if he has encountered something happy.When his mother finished the housework and came to teach Liang Tao with a picture book, Liang Tao sent out a signal of resistance for the first time.

"I do not want!"

Looking back now, this sentence is like an apocalypse, igniting a peaceful family with the smell of war.

The mother was very embarrassed at that time, chasing after Liang Tao with the album, trying to make him put down the toys and sit down quietly.Liang Tao thought this kind of chasing game was very fun, and he ran around the room with toys in his arms.

In the end, his mother finally caught him and took him back to the desk. He was also holding the train with a smile, and he didn't pay any attention to the books.No matter what his mother said, he didn't listen.

So that night, father and mother had a dispute in front of Liang Tao for the first time.

"Don't buy any more toys." My mother said to my father.

My father felt that Liang Tao was still young and should enjoy a full childhood. It was a pity that he could only read picture books every day without a single toy at home.So Liang Tao rejected his mother's proposal under Liang Tao's eager eyes.

The mother believed that her father's behavior had disrupted her plans and ruined her hard work for so many years.As the two of them rushed forward with one sentence, the two sides became more and more angry, and neither of them would back down, and finally they broke up after a quarrel.

My mother is a very strong character, with a cold heart under her weak appearance.On the third day after Liang Tao got the toy, when Liang Tao tried to reach for the toy, his mother smashed the little train to pieces in front of Liang Tao.

"If you want a toy, you don't want a mother."

Liang Tao sat on the ground and wailed loudly, but for the first time, his mother didn't come over to comfort him in time.

That night, when his father came home, Liang Tao rushed to his father with a red nose and told him that his mother had broken his toy.Father was very angry, and quarreled with mother again, and the quarrel became more and more fierce, and the sexiness was three points stronger than yesterday.

Liang Tao was startled by the words and expressions of the two adults.He stopped crying and sat tremblingly on the ground, looking at the two adults at a loss.Don't understand what's going on here.

The next day, my father bought a new toy for Liang Tao.Liang Tao was very happy, but since then, whenever his mother saw Liang Tao holding a toy in his hand, she would never approach him again.It seemed to be silently punishing Liang Tao for his disobedience.Liang Tao was very happy holding the toy, but seeing his mother no longer taking care of him, his mood fell into an unprecedented low ebb again.

So at night when his father came home from get off work, Liang Tao put the toy in front of his father and said, "I don't want the toy anymore."

Father was surprised and angry.He asked his wife what she had done to Liang Tao, but the wife just sneered, touched Liang Tao's face, and said, "This is my son."

Standing in front of his parents, Liang Tao tried his best to smile at his mother.It's just that the smile was more worrying than crying. My father was very angry when he saw it, saying that his mother's behavior would make Liang Tao lose his childhood.Mother ignored it as if she had never heard of it.

The father said that a happy son is more important than anything else.He doesn't need a genius, he just needs his baby to grow up happily.It is because of this that he works so hard to make money to support his family, just to let his children live a better and happier life.

It's a pity that in reality, everything cannot go as one wishes, because people will always have disagreements, even if they are husband and wife.

Living with his mother since he was a child, Liang Tao, who was used to the boring life with no entertainment but only books, chose his mother in the dispute between the two adults.Brand new toys were placed on the cabinet, and Liang Tao restrained himself from touching them under his mother's gaze.He began to study with his mother again and listen carefully to life.

Time passed by slowly, and the toys on the cabinet unknowingly accumulated a layer of dust. At the same time, the dust accumulated was also the father's love for home.

The time to get home from get off work was getting later and later, and Liang Tao had less and less time to see his father every day.In the originally very warm home, the temperature of family affection has gradually become cold.The communication between father and mother is almost invisible.

Liang Tao thought that the scene of him studying hard could entertain the two adults, but it turned out that his father's smiling expression became more and more tired in his words "Mom taught me a lot of things today".

It wasn't until Liang Tao was six years old that he found that his eyes became a little blurry.After telling his parents, his father took him to see a doctor.The doctor and the father said, "The child is short-sighted and needs to be fitted with a pair of eyes."

Because of this simple sentence, this precarious family, barely maintaining a hypocritical peace, finally collapsed completely.

After returning home, his father beat his mother, and Liang Tao cried out from his mother's yelling.He rushed over to stop his father, said that his father was a bad guy, accused him of beating his mother, and kept beating his father with his hands and feet.It was obviously an attack without much strength, but it was like a heavy hammer weighing tens of thousands of catties, smashing father's heart into pieces.

After another half a year, Liang Tao suddenly found that he could not find his father.His mother told him that she divorced her father, and from now on, only Liang Tao lived with his mother.She reassured Liang Tao that even if the father was gone, he would provide the living expenses of the mother and son on time, because "the court ruled in this way, and he dared not refuse to pay the money."

Liang Tao couldn't understand what this sentence meant, and stretched out his hand timidly, pulling at the corner of his mother's clothes, with a panicked expression.

Then, the mother and son moved home.Mother felt that the living expenses could not take care of Liang Tao, so she found a job in a nursing home.Because of her high academic qualifications and professional counterparts, she was welcomed by the director of the nursing home as soon as she entered.

Liang Tao lived in the staff building of the nursing home with his mother.Although he has less time to see his mother every day because his mother has to go to work, he still has his own books.

As long as he studies hard, his mother will touch his head at night and say he is "awesome".Liang Tao feels that such days are also very happy.

After entering elementary school, Liang Tao has always maintained the first place in the grade.Until the age of ten, he met several good classmates.Liang Tao no longer went home directly after school, but started to take long detours to the park with his classmates to play.

As a result, the time to complete homework gradually became later, and even began to be too short to do homework, so I could only climb to bed on time under the watchful eyes of my mother, not daring to say "I haven't finished my homework yet".

The next day the teacher called him to the office and asked him what was wrong.Liang Tao lied, saying that he forgot to do it.Because of the good impression left over the past few years, the teacher believed his words.

Having tasted the sweetness of lying, after school, Liang Tao, called by his classmates, went to the park to play with them again.He was nervous the first few times, but after getting used to the troubles brought by the lies, he gradually became calm and proficient.

It's a pity that this kind of behavior can't be hidden for long.Although his mother was usually very reassuring about him and would not deliberately check Liang Tao's homework and ask him what he had learned in school today, the scores on the test paper could not be faked.

"These questions are not difficult. You must have been careless." After studying the exam questions, his mother extinguished Liang Tao's sophistry with one sentence.Seeing that Liang Tao had lied, my mother went to the teacher the next day.

The teacher told Liang Tao's mother the fact that "recent homework can't be completed on time".In front of all the teachers in the office, his mother slapped Liang Tao several times. After questioning him several times, Liang Tao cried and explained why he didn't finish his homework.

Just like the toy incident that year, the mother said a word to Liang Tao, making Liang Tao fall into an ice cave on the spot.

"If you want to continue wasting time playing games with those classmates, get the hell out of this house."

Liang Tao could only choose his mother, and then cut off relations with his friends.

His mother told him that those children came here to drag you down on purpose and to harm you.The decline in grades is the most direct evidence.

Because in fact, only Liang Tao's grades dropped in that exam, and no one else did.Mother took advantage of this and continued to brainwash Liang Tao in the next period of time.Let him think that he will become like this because of those classmates.

So Liang Tao began to listen to his mother's lies, unilaterally stayed away from those people, and even voluntarily severed contact with those classmates.In their puzzled eyes, tell them not to pester themselves anymore, saying that they are uneasy and kind, deliberately dragging themselves down.

After saying these words, those students really started to stay away from Liang Tao.Therefore, Liang Tao was once again convinced of his mother's preaching, and understood that they really had "bad intentions and were not worthy of association".

His spare time has increased again, and his academic performance is getting better and better.In the sixth grade, the teacher secretly found him and told him how many places there were in the grade, and he could be recommended to enter No. [-] Middle School directly.

Liang Tao told his mother the good news, and his mother taught him, "Only by making yourself the most powerful person can you do such a thing. If you were delayed by those people in the past, the person who is sought by the teacher now They will become them." Liang Tao had an epiphany, feeling that he understood the truth of life.

In the summer vacation after graduation, Liang Tao had more free time because he had no vacation homework.

The mother has a strong working ability, and has been promoted from a small employee to the management of the nursing home.

One day, the mother came home from get off work and told Liang Tao that she saw two children in the nursing home today.One of the children was in a single-parent family, and the mother had mental problems. The only child was left at home to take care of himself and his mother.Say "this child is really sensible".

Because it was the first time he had spoken good things about other children in front of Liang Tao, Liang Tao was suddenly curious about that person named Ye Li.

Since the mother said yes, he must be a very good guy.

A month later, Liang Tao came to No. [-] Middle School.

Although admission is recommended, if you want to be admitted to the experimental class, you still need to take an exam to confirm your learning level.On the day of the exam, Liang Tao came to his exam room and was looking for the seat number. Liang Tao found Ye Li's name in the seat list on the blackboard.

Not sure if it was the same person, Liang Tao followed the seat number and looked for it. He was a tall, thin, handsome boy with a deadpan expression and a very indifferent look.The attitude of being serious and rejecting others is exactly the same as that of Liang Tao.

Hesitatingly thinking about whether to go forward and talk to Ye Li, but Liang Tao, who hadn't spoken to anyone proactively for so many years, didn't know how to speak. A few voices came, the content of the discussion was very familiar, Liang Tao even thought they were talking about himself at first.

Turning his head, he saw two students gathered together, looking at Ye Li's direction, and speaking ill of Ye Li.

"Why did Ye Li come here? I don't want to go to junior high school and have to study with him. It's really bad luck."

"That's right, he has such a bad temper that he doesn't respond to anyone who talks to him."

"Probably in his eyes, the most important thing is to be number one in his studies. Every time he finishes the exam, he will quarrel with Qiu Mu in the class. It's really annoying to watch."

Ye Li didn't seem to hear, and sat in his seat ignoring those two people.Not long after, he suddenly got up and left the classroom.Looking at the back of Ye Li leaving, Liang Tao thought to himself, so besides himself, there is another person named Ye Li in this world who thinks the same as him.

Maybe they will have a good chat.Maybe they could become friends.

The summer vacation passed quickly, and Liang Tao was successfully admitted to the experimental class.To his surprise, he only got No.3.Among the two people who tied for first place, one of them was Ye Li, and both of them also entered the experimental class.This made Liang Tao's interest in Ye Li even stronger, and his anticipation and excitement were unbearable.

He wanted to talk to Ye Li as soon as possible, tell him "we are the same kind", and then muster up the courage to try to say "can you be friends with me".

The same single-parent family, the same study hard every day and strive to be the first, the same is alone at home, and the same withdrawn personality that is not welcomed by others.No matter how he thought about it, he felt that he and Ye Li would definitely be able to chat.

On the first day of school, Liang Tao stood not far behind Ye Li, trying to strike up a conversation with him.

Ye Lizheng was chatting with a person he seemed to be very familiar with, and Liang Tao quietly pricked up his ears to listen.

"These courses are really a waste of time", "Compared with this, I want to run for class president and know more people".

Liang Tao's attempt to walk over, and the hand he raised to say hello, suddenly froze.

He discovered that the "similar" he imagined was actually not the same, but a "heretic" that was diametrically opposed to him.

The enthusiasm that mustered was cooled by half in an instant, and for a while, Ye Li's performance also confirmed Liang Tao's conjecture.

Ye Li, who should be rejected and hated by his classmates, actively ran for the position of monitor, but within a week he became the ideal "good monitor" in everyone's mind.When answering questions in class, he was more than relaxed, and he never quietly read books and previewed the content of the next class after class, but ran around the school.

Being ordered by the teacher and pestered by the classmates, and still showing that he never gets tired of it, is really stupid.

Just wait until the next test and you will see how stupid your actions are.

Whenever Ye Li talked to other classmates, Liang Tao would secretly look at Ye Li with disapproving eyes, hoping that Ye Li would wake up immediately and stand in the same world with him again.

But who knew, he was the first to understand the cruelty of the facts, and the first to be hit.

The classmates in junior high school were obviously not as easy to talk to as the elementary school students who had known Liang Tao for six years.

Not long after school started, Liang Tao was blocked in an alley by several classmates and beat him.

The next day, I complained to the teacher, but the teacher dismissed him perfunctorily as "I know".When he came to the class, no one came to ask him "how did you get hurt".It seemed that everyone was smiling when they looked at him, and the voices whispering seemed to be mocking him.

When Ye Li approached him, Liang Tao was extremely angry at himself as a "betrayed fellow". He wondered why I was the only one who suffered such a thing, but you could stand and talk without pain in your back.

After arguing for a few words, he was slapped severely by Ye Li.At that time, Liang Tao even heard several classmates sitting in their seats watching him being beaten, and then laughed happily.

At that time, I only felt that my eyes were dark, and my whole body was bone-chillingly cold, as if I had fallen into an endless abyss.

That afternoon, my mother came to the school and had a big fight with the parents of those students.Back home, his mother taught Liang Tao that he "shouldn't have anything to do with those bastards," but Liang Tao remained silent.

A week later, the results of the monthly exam came out. Due to various reasons, Liang Tao's thoughts were disturbed. In the end, Liang Tao only got the fourth in the class and the tenth in the grade.

The string called reason in my heart finally collapsed.

"Why didn't you take the first place in the exam!" The mother smashed the exam paper on the table: "Did you study hard in school? Did you hang out with some dubious people again! You are wasting your time! Understand!"

"I do not have."

Liang Tao lowered his head, and his head fell heavily to the ground.

"What about Ye Li? It's the monitor of your class. How much did he pass?"

"The number two in the class and grade." Liang Tao remembered clearly: "The person who ranked first is two points lower than the one in terms of ideology and politics."

Mother sighed deeply: "Why did you do so poorly in the exam?"

"sorry."

My mother said: "The other classmates are fine, but Ye Li, he has worked harder than you, right? He lives alone, and he has to do the laundry and cooking by himself. He also serves as the class monitor in the school. In his private time, It must be less than others. In this case, he can take No.2, why can't you!"

"I——!" First he made an excuse unwillingly, and then his shoulders slumped like a deflated rubber ball.The back is bent, and the head is lowered as if it is about to stick to the floor. "I don't know either."

"It seems that he is studying!" Mother said: "How could I raise you like this--the parents of those students who beat you a few days ago have already apologized to me. Don't do this to me again. It’s a stupid thing. It’s fine if you don’t study well, but how can you be so stupid in interpersonal communication! Didn’t you come here to ask you two questions, and even said something like ‘what if you learned how to rank ahead of me in the exam’, most people would say this Talk? Why is your EQ so low!"

Liang Tao raised his head in shock, not daring to answer: "What? But—!"

The mother looked very tired: "When dealing with this matter, that Ye Li ran up and down. He talked and acted in an orderly manner. Every parent said he was good. I saw it too. There is indeed a way. Since you are with him If you are in the same class, learn more from him.”

"..." The fists on the table were tightly clenched, and Liang Tao lowered his head, not daring to let his mother see his expression.

Why?

Why?

Obviously they are all the same person, so how can Ye Li be praised by so many people, but he should be hated by so many people?

It's just that the first month of junior high school puts on a little bit of pretense, so everyone was deceived by him.In fact, that Ye Li was just like him, cold, withdrawn and dark, why didn't everyone understand?

It's unreasonable that his mother even asked him to study Ye Li!

"Ye Li is a person who always misses in class and handles homework casually. He talks to his classmates whenever he has time and doesn't take his studies seriously. It must be a coincidence that he can do so well in the exam." Liang Tao muffled.

"Being able to study easily shows that he is smart. Being able to talk to his classmates shows that he is very popular." Mother said, "Can't you understand that?"

"..." After a deathly silence, Liang Tao suddenly said, "What do you want me to understand?"

"I became like this, didn't you teach me?"

The mother stared and asked, "What did you say!"

Liang Tao raised his head, looked at his mother, and said, "I said, I became like this because of you!"

Mother slapped the table hard: "Tell me again!"

"I won't say it. If you say it again, you will definitely hit me again." He raised the corner of his mouth, showing a mocking smile: "I'm not that stupid yet."

At the age of 13, he finally had his first confrontation with his mother.

"You said Ye Li is good?" Liang Tao said, "Then I will prove that he is not as good as you said at all."

Everyone knows nothing and understands nothing.Only he knows what the truth of the matter is.

The mother said angrily: "Don't continue to do stupid things."

Liang Tao: "Who is the stupid one?" Being deceived by Ye Li and still saying good things about him, who is the stupid one?

Mother sighed heavily.

How could she raise such a stubborn and ignorant guy.

The next day, a giant poster appeared on the school bulletin board.

A group of classmates huddled around the bulletin board, pointing.

"Ye Li? Is that the monitor of the experimental class, the one who got second in the monthly exam?"

"His mother turned out to be crazy..."