Bamboo Horse Cultivation Manual [Rebirth]

"You better not do that again."

When he said this, Ye Li had a rare "popularity".Although he was still indifferent, his tone of voice and the curvature of his eyebrows and eyes were much softer than when he was in school.

Qiu Mu asked puzzled, "Why?"

Ye Li: "Although I don't want to say that, it really bothers me that you did this."

Qiu Mu nodded: "I see."

But even though it's troublesome, it's true that I actually got help.After getting the money, Ye Li was very happy. With an extra bento for lunch, his stomach was full.

So he just kept going.

Ye Li leaned slightly on the cabinet behind him, assuming that he planned to have a serious talk: "Many people have come to help me before."

Qiu Mu: "Yes."

This is normal.

"But after a long time, they all thought I was troublesome."

"......Um."

This seems to sound normal too.

"My father died when I was three years old." When talking about this matter, Ye Li's tone was very calm, as if he had already gotten used to this reality, and he could no longer feel the sadness in his heart. "After going to kindergarten at the age of four, my mother suddenly became abnormal-you know what I mean."

Qiu Mu nodded.

"I was not sensible at that time, and I didn't know that my mother was 'ill' until I heard it from others." Ye Li said: "When she was in the first grade, she could no longer take care of my life. Neighbors and classmates saw that I was dirty all day long and didn’t have enough to eat, and when they heard about the situation at home, they volunteered to help me.”

Qiu Mu listened carefully.

Ye Li lowered his head, with a tired expression on his face: "So I thought they really wanted to help me, but I just felt that I had grasped the straw and relied on them without thinking about anything, just like relying on my mother before— —but that was my naivety.”

"It's okay to help once or twice. If the number of times increases, they will feel impatient and start to stay away from me. Seeing me is like meeting the plague god, and they are afraid of being entangled by me."

"If you can't persevere, don't treat me so well in the first place." Ye Li closed his eyes half-closed, and said in a low tone: "If you can't bear it to the end, don't give others hope. I don't want to feel that a person is good, and then be treated by others." One-sided dislike - I've had enough of it a dozen times now."

"......Um."

"Do you understand what I mean?" Ye Li looked at the "peer" in front of him, fearing that he would not understand these things, and became irritable: "Those classmates in the school used to be very kind to me— ——Especially that Ma Bin, he was the one who first offered to help me in the class. But can they give me food once, twice, three times, or four times? Can they keep supplying me? Of course I am very grateful to them for their willingness Help me, but they are the first to say to me, "You are so troublesome" and "Why should I feed you?" After all, I still have to learn how to cook and feed myself. "

Qiu Mu felt that she seemed to understand what Ye Li wanted to say.

Gaining the kindness of others time and time again, and being disgusted by others again and again.People who were still strangers suddenly approached me with a kind and friendly face. After a few times of contact, I finally believed and recognized the other party. ", and then unilaterally stayed away from Ye Li without warning.If things go on like this, Ye Li, who has been hurt many times, gradually becomes distrustful of others, and he is unwilling to accept other people's "kindness" on the spur of the moment.

After all, the only one who can be relied on is yourself.Attempts to cling to others to obtain "benefits and convenience" are only temporary illusions, and no one will treat him sincerely except himself.This is the cruel and true conclusion that Ye Li, who is only ten years old, has drawn from countless experiences.

"..." So, after understanding Ye Li's thoughts, and deeply understanding what his previous behavior looked like in Ye Li's eyes, Qiu Mu couldn't help feeling frustrated.

Ye Li finally said, "If you understand, don't bother me anymore."I thought that the words have been said for this kind of sake, no matter whether Qiu Mu can understand or not, there is no need for me to continue talking with Qiu Mu.

He thought that no matter what, Qiu Mu must have suffered such a heavy blow from his words, and now he must be very wronged in his heart, thinking that he doesn't know how to flatter.That was enough, and it was even better for him.Instead of letting Qiu Mu vent all her "good intentions" on him and then stay away from him, it's better to get away early and leave without feeling lost afterwards.

Feeling that the time was almost up, Ye Li walked to Qiu Mu, turned off the gas and opened the lid of the pot, carefully put the cloth on his hand, and took the vegetables out of the pot.Qiu Mu suddenly raised his hand and grabbed Ye Li's arm.

Ye Li was startled, almost knocked over the hot dish, and gave Qiu Mu an angry look: "What are you doing!"

"Not on a whim."

The voice was a bit low, Ye Li couldn't hear it clearly, so he couldn't help but impatiently said: "What?"

"I said, I didn't act on a whim." Qiu Mu raised his head, looked directly at the boy in front of him, and said, "I won't be like others, who find you annoying and leave you alone."

Ye Li: "Why do you—"

Qiu Mu said: "Really, I won't."

His eyes were very sincere, and although his tone was not full of momentum and exaggerated persuasion like those speakers, he contained a lot of sincerity in every word: "You are just a child, what can you do? Troublesome things will make me find you annoying."

Rather, seeing Ye Li being so sensible, Qiu Mu was even more reluctant to let go and leave like this.

If he is not gay, the person he liked in the previous life was not Gu Yu, but a girl.Then he would definitely pursue the other party desperately at that time. If everything goes well, he might marry the other party after graduation.So at this time, the children born are almost as old as Ye Li.

It is simply impossible for him to change his sexual orientation, and he will still look for Gu Yu in this life and never look back, and it is impossible to have children in the future.It doesn't matter if you raise Ye Li as your half child and let go of that little "father's love".

Anyway, I was too busy.

Ye Li rolled his eyes at Qiu Mu: "Do you not understand human language?"

As for Qiu Mu's appearance of being white and clean, and living a carefree life, it is estimated that he is not as good as him in doing things.Are you still talking nonsense, "You are just a child"?

Let Qiu Mu touch his conscience and say, in the school they are in, from top to bottom, how many people are like him, who study while doing things, are proficient in washing and cooking, and take care of themselves? Anyway, by the way, he can serve a grown-up elementary school student well?

At least Qiu Mu was not like this. Like many other students, he was kept at home by his parents and family as a treasure, and no one was willing to let him suffer.

Ye Li didn't know that the person in front of him was an "old monster" wearing a child's skin, and obviously he couldn't guess that the other party already regarded him as his half son.He gave Qiu Mu a disdainful look, and when the left hand carrying the plate passed by, he intentionally bumped Qiu Mu who was stuck in place with his elbow, and walked out after the collision: "Don't get in the way."

Qiu Mu rubbed her chest and followed out: "Why are you so angry?"

"Leave quickly. I won't treat you to dinner—there aren't many dishes left." Ye Li unceremoniously issued the order to evict guests, then walked to the inner room, and began to call "Mom, Mom" ​​softly.

When Qiu Mu heard this, she couldn't help being curious, and walked over to take a look.

I saw a thin woman with thinning hair and a pale face half leaning on the head of the bed.No matter how Ye Li shouted, it was as if he didn't hear him, his eyes were fixed on the front.At first glance, the black and white pupils are staring straight ahead, like a close-up shot of a ghost in a movie, which makes people feel a little creepy.

This mental state, one can tell at a glance that it will not be a normal person.

It is probably impossible to expect the other party to go out to work to make money, or to take care of the housework at home.

And even though sitting so obediently now, it seems very reassuring.But when Qiu Mu entered the door before, the things thrown everywhere and the dirty utensils could only be caused by the mother in front of him.

Maybe he will be mentally disturbed every now and then, doing things at home that give Ye Li a headache.

——Is it because Ye Li was sleepy like this this morning to suppress his mother's crazy behavior, and he couldn't rest all night.Then in the morning, there was no time to clean up the house, so I hurried to school?

Qiu Mu walked into the room under Ye Li's disapproving gaze, and said to the thin woman, "Auntie, it's time to eat."

The voice is gentle, with respect and love.Ye Li couldn't help being slightly taken aback, looking at Qiu Mu's side face, he couldn't figure out what Qiu Mu meant.

Qiu Mu said to him: "Are aunts always like this?"

"..." Ye Li came back to his senses, and said, "No. It just happens occasionally, and then I can't listen to anything."

"Can I feed her?"

Ye Li opened his eyes wide: "What?"

Feeding is of course not something to be surprised about. What is surprising is that Qiu Mu's tone and attitude, why does it look like he is going to feed his mother with the bowls and chopsticks himself?

"Yes?" Ye Li said, "That's what I did."

Qiu Mu said: "Then go and help me catch some food."

help you?Catching food?

Ye Li hesitated a bit: "No, you..."

Qiu Mu said: "There is a ready-made labor force standing here, there is no reason not to make good use of it?"

That being said...Ye Li took a step back, and walked out of the room hesitantly under Qiu Mu's gaze.Not long after, he came over with a small bowl full of meat and piled high with rice, and said, "Myself..."

"Go and eat." Qiu Mu took the small bowl, her movements and tone were very natural: "Otherwise, the food outside will be cold later."

"..."

After being silent for a while, Ye Li watched Qiu Mu feed his mother with food between chopsticks.I stood there thinking for a long time, but I couldn't figure out what kind of attitude and words I should use to face Qiu Mu.

In the end, he was awakened suddenly by Qiu Mu's questioning sound, and then ran out of the room as if fleeing.