[Japanese Drama Doujin] Actually I Don’t Care About You

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At the dining table, Watanabe looked up at Kobayashi first, then took some food to eat, then looked at her again, and finally, under the questioning eyes of Kobayashi, he said, "Yayoi, let's have a child."

Xiaolin actually decided not to have children a long time ago, but she didn't feel much disgusted after hearing what Watanabe said, so she put down the bowl and chopsticks and asked, "Suddenly, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing, you see, our age is suitable for having a child now, and we will be 50 years old when he becomes an adult." Watanabe said hesitantly. I don't want to force it anymore, if she falls in love with someone else, even the child may not be able to keep her.

Many of Xiaolin’s thoughts are pessimistic, even if she refuses to have children, because she has no confidence in becoming a qualified mother, because she cannot guarantee that her children will feel that being born in this family is great, and she always feels that being born in this family is great. It is too heavy to be in charge of his life after giving a life.

"But we haven't considered the issues after that. If you want a child who doesn't think about anything, isn't this child too pitiful?" Xiao Lin said too assertively, she knew that Watanabe would not ignore these things, But she still said that, unreasonably and capriciously, "And after having a child, if you love him more than me, what should I do?"

Kobayashi has clearly expressed her reluctance, and even has a tendency to want to quarrel, so Watanabe put aside the topic of children, and comforted her with a smile, "Then we don't want children, let's stay together forever."

It's like this again, Xiao Lin regretted it after saying those willful words. She was angry that Watanabe was too kind to her and was always patient, and she was even more angry that she was pushing forward and always hurting this person's self willfully.

"Why don't you blame me, why don't you get angry?" The torment caused by every self-blame before broke out in Xiao Lin's heart at this moment. She didn't know why she was crying, but she just shed tears, "Liu Tai, you always You said yes to me, I think I know it is not, but I still feel that you are perfunctory me!"

"I hate this!" After finishing speaking, Xiao Lin stood up from the dining table and ran out of the door, leaving behind a soft closing sound.

Watanabe sat at the table in a daze for a moment, but didn't react the moment Xiao Lin left, and when he was about to get up to chase after her, there was no sign of her in the room.

It turned out that he wasn't the only one who felt uneasy, she felt uneasy too.

He was obviously arguing, but Watanabe couldn't help but curled up his mouth and smiled. He immediately went to the bedroom and took out Kobayashi's coat, picked up the key from the entrance, and opened the door to find the person who had run away.

Watanabe stopped at the door just as he stepped out, and the person who just ran out squatted at the door and huddled into a small ball. She also noticed that the door was pushed open, and looked up at him with teary eyes.

Xiao Lin pursed his lips and explained in a crying voice, "I have nowhere to go, so I can only stay here."

Watanabe squatted down and wrapped the coat in his hand around Xiao Lin, looked at her and said sincerely, "Let's make up, please come in." After he finished speaking, he wanted to help Xiao Lin stand up, but the other party did not follow his strength get up.

"I'm sorry, forgive me." Kobayashi looked into Watanabe's eyes, and stood up with Watanabe's hand after the other nodded.

Watanabe pulled Kobayashi into the house, returned to the dining table, and after she sat down, he squatted in front of her, "I also did something wrong, and it's not wrong for you to say it. I'm sorry to make you feel I'm uneasy, no matter what happens in the future, I will tell you clearly and tell you what I think in my heart, can you accept me who is more nagging than I am now?"

"Yeah." Xiao Lin nodded and agreed, while raising his hand to wipe away the tears that came out.

Watanabe is a person who doesn't want to have disputes with anyone. He will choose to take a step back every time there is a conflict, because he feels that arguing can't solve any problems.It's the same every time he has a different opinion with Xiao Lin, he always takes a step back subconsciously, because he cares about her and doesn't want to argue with her, as long as he obeys, he originally thought so.

But now he knows, it doesn't matter to quarrel, who doesn't have time to quarrel?

Does the quarrel mean that you don’t care about you? No, it’s because you care about you very much. If you care about it, you don’t want to hide it. No matter what, you must convey this feeling, even though it looks like you don’t care about you.Because it is impossible not to express yourself, but you have to reconcile in the end. After a full understanding, you should also understand at this time.

so-called pets

It happened suddenly.

Although the world is impermanent in the first place, it would not be too strange for a mature social person to happen, but this incident has indeed exceeded the upper limit that ordinary people can accept calmly.

When Watanabe opened his eyes in the morning, there was no sign of Kobayashi on the bed. He stretched out his hand and scanned the vacant half of the space, wanting to find out if there was still temperature on the quilt to estimate how long she had been up, but he touched an unexpected spot. Something, something hot and fluffy.

There was only one thought left in his not sober mind for a moment, what ran to the bed?Watanabe sat up, put on the glasses on the bedside, and lightly lifted the bulging quilt on Kobayashi's side.

Lying under the quilt is a kitten with snow-white four-legged fur and pure black fur.It curled up in the bed and slept soundly, unaware that its owner had noticed that it had sneaked into someone's house.

"Where did you come from?" Watanabe couldn't help smiling when he saw the huddled kitten, and he raised his hand and rubbed the top of the little black cat's head with the back of his hand.

It also noticed that someone was touching its head in its sleep, but instead of opening its eyes vigilantly and blowing its fur to fight back, it scratched its forehead with its front, trying to wave away the human disturbing its dream.Watanabe looked at the veritable little lazy cat, and didn't disturb its dreaming, so he got up and packed up the scattered clothes thrown in the bedroom last night, then changed into a loose gray-blue top and off-white trousers, and went to Washed up in the bathroom.

Today is the first day of the three consecutive holidays. Before that, Xiaolin has been working overtime. Every day when she gets home, she can’t wait to sleep to death. After handing over the project in her hand yesterday, she finally turned on the vacation mode. The two of them spent a rare night together. time.The first snow of this winter just fell in Tokyo three days ago. Watanabe and Kobayashi also discussed early that they would go to a hot spring hotel in the deep mountains of Gunma Prefecture together during this vacation.

After Watanabe finished washing and preparing breakfast, he finally realized that something was wrong.

Xiao Lin usually should come out to eat at this time, and she especially got up earlier than him today, so she should come back even if she went out for a morning run.

Watanabe opened the shoe cabinet in the entrance and found that Kobayashi's shoes were still there, turned around and went to the cloakroom to check, and there was nothing missing from her.It was as if he had been thrown into the river in mid-winter, uneasiness made his hands and feet sweat, and fear took away all the warmth from his body.Watanabe stumbled back to the bedroom and took out his carry-on to call Kobayashi, not caring about cleaning up the messy room he had turned over.

First there was a beeping connection sound, and then a ringtone sounded.Watanabe calmed down a little when he found that Kobayashi's pocket was not turned off, but then he found that there was also a slight buzzing and vibration in the room, and Kobayashi's pocket was placed under her pillow.

Watanabe looked at the call reminder marked with two periods on the phone screen, and his heart sank to the bottom of the water.

"Where did you go?" He asked himself so softly, and hung up the phone weakly.

"Meow——" The black cat sleeping on the bed finally woke up, let out a long cry, and then opened its mouth wide like a yawning human, while stretching its forelimbs.

It looked at Watanabe sitting in front of the bed, who was depressed, blinked his emerald green cat eyes, and barked softly twice as if he didn't understand why the human being in front of him was so depressed.

Before Watanabe turned his attention to it, the black cat let out a 'meow' as if it had been frightened first, arched its body high and hostile, and all its hair including its tail exploded stand up.

The meowing finally brought Watanabe back to his senses. As if he had remembered something, he turned his head to look at the black cat that appeared in the bedroom inexplicably, and eagerly held it up in front of him, "Isn't it?" Did she bring you in? Where did she go?"

A cat can't open its mouth to talk, it's like asking a cat to help, but it can't help anything, and the snow-footed black cat in front of him can't answer his question.

But Watanabe faintly felt that there must be some kind of connection between the cat that appeared suddenly and the missing Kobayashi, or that the current situation was that she was making an excessive joke with him.

"It's too much, just leave without saying a word, leaving me alone." The sudden thought made Watanabe let go of the assumption that Kobayashi was in danger, and his heart was occupied by grievances, so he said with a pursed mouth .

The black cat looked at the man who was crying while talking, and struggled with its paws. Watanabe held it in front of him. It swung its limbs so wildly that it flew off Watanabe's glasses and left a mark on his face. There were three light red marks.

Watanabe let go of the hand holding the black cat because of the burning cheeks, and bent over to cover his face.The black cat jumped aside, looked at the human it had accidentally injured, retracted its exposed paws, and cautiously approached him a few steps, as if to check on the other person's condition.

The tingling sensation was the strongest when he was left behind, and Watanabe quickly recovered. Compared with the unexpected reaction to the injury just now, it seems that all the strength in his body has been sucked out of him now.