[Entertainment bts] Bulletproof driver group

When Kim Tae Woo first came to Seoul, he was not as lively as he is now, which was a bit annoying.At that time, he was just a taciturn child, a skinny little boy, and he didn't talk to other people very much, and he never said a word when he was bullied by other trainees. This situation lasted for nearly two days. It didn't get better until they moved into their dormitory.

Everyone thought that his character was just like this at the beginning, and it was a bit pitiful for such a young child to come to Seoul alone without knowing anyone, so they helped him out a few times and sent away those trainees with malicious intentions .

The little guy doesn't like to talk, and most of them are on guard against outsiders. In the entertainment industry, such a shy temper is undoubtedly unbearable, even if his overall strength is strong, the possibility of making a debut is very slim.

If it wasn't for the deliberate enlightenment of his brothers at that time, and the caring care of him by the brothers in the dormitory, which made him let go of his defenses step by step, and gradually let go of the shackles that once imprisoned him, I am afraid that there will be no shining on the stage at this moment. Kim Tae Woo.

He rarely talked about his past, and the members only knew that his hometown was in Gwangju, but he never mentioned his school and family situation.

Jin Taiyu didn't hide it deliberately, but the memories of the past are really not good for him. Even though he has realized his dream and has a new life, for him, those things from the past are still engraved in his heart Scars that cannot be touched.After so many years, he thought that the pain and despair at that time had been almost forgotten, and the reason why he kept concealing it was not because he was afraid of hurting the scene, but because he was a little hard to tell about his past self.

However, Jin Taiyu also knew in his heart that it was impossible to keep this secret for a lifetime, but he never thought that it would be discovered under such circumstances.

A celebration that was supposed to be joyous and joyful turned into embarrassment because of a long-hidden secret.Min Yoongi and Kim Namjoon didn't say much after they went back, but their faces were still grim, and Kim Taewoo also ate with his head down and didn't say a word.

They found out that the atmosphere between them was not right, and they didn't want to ask too many questions in front of the manager, but their original interest in celebrating had dropped.This unsatisfactory meal ended in a hurry. Because the interest was really low, it was rare for everyone to eat too much.

Seeing that the faces of these boys were not right, he also guessed that something serious must have happened just now. The manager sighed and didn't ask any more questions. After paying the money and sending them back to the dormitory, he turned around and left, letting the group of boys solve it by themselves contradiction.

Jin Taiyu put on his slippers silently, bowed his head and said nothing.Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, Jin Shuozhen hurried forward and grabbed Jin Namjoon's arm, and asked, "What happened? Was it a quarrel?"

Eight boys lived together, and it was normal to have conflicts. Basically, the problem was solved after a fight, and the fight continued.However, the stagnation of the atmosphere is a bit scary now, even Kim Namjoon, who has always been mild-natured, is frowning with a serious face, clearly something has happened.

Before Jin Namjoon could speak, Min Yoongi couldn't help but snorted coldly. He raised his eyes and looked at Jin Taewoo who kept his head down and didn't say a word. He felt even more angry in his heart, and said, "Brother Seokjin, you don't know what to do." Why don't you ask Jin Taiyu to see what happened to those injuries on his hands?"

Jin Shuozhen was startled, frowned and walked forward, ignoring Jin Taiyu's struggle, grabbed his left hand and pulled off his sleeve.Sure enough, there were hideous wounds all over his wrists, which were obviously caused by suicide by cutting his wrists more than once.

Jin Shuozhen looked at the scar on his hand angrily, and the person who has always been gentle could not help but get angry at this moment: "Jin Taewoo, you... what's going on?!"

He was silent all the time, and the members who were frightened by the noise came over to try to persuade him to fight, but before they could speak, they were frightened by the terrifying scar on Jin Taiyu's wrist and froze.

Kim Tae-woo usually wears a watch, and the members seldom notice his wrist, but a few days ago his watch suddenly broke down and he had to repair it, the members didn’t care too much, who would have thought that it would be like this under the watch .There is a medical box under Jin Taiyu's bed. In addition to various medicines, there is also a concealer. Park Jimin once made a joke of him at the beginning. Now that he thinks about it, he probably uses this to cover the wound on his body.

Jin Taiyu really didn't know how to deal with it, and instinctively wanted to escape, but his silent reaction made everyone present even more angry, even Park Jimin, who has always been gentle, frowned and said, "Taeyu, what happened?" ? What happened to the wound on your body?"

There was a long silence, Jin Taiyu closed his eyes, as if he had made some decision, for the first time he mustered up the courage to tell about his past.He took a deep breath and clenched his fists tightly. His nails pierced the skin of his palm and blood flowed out. He resisted the pain and anxiety, and didn't dare to look at them. He just lowered his head and said softly:

"I... I have attempted suicide at least four times, without success."

He paused, seemed to have remembered something, and said with a wry smile: "It's not because of any emotional entanglement, nor is there any family dispute. It's just a way for a cowardly and stupid patient to get rid of the pain. Because in my country In the past three years, I have been subjected to campus violence by my schoolmates for a long time."

For Jin Taiyu, those bad things in the past are always a wound in his heart, once touched, it will be unbearably painful.Although now he has gradually got rid of the cowardly and silent appearance in the past and has gradually become stronger, those memories are not so easy to forget. He thought he didn't care anymore, but now he thinks about it again and brings it up again. Still couldn't help but turn pale and tremble all over.

He lowered his head and didn't dare to look at everyone's reaction. Everyone in BTS was his family member, Kim Tae Woo, and it was precisely because he cared that he didn't have the courage to face it.

Everyone was silent. The frequent occurrence of bullying incidents in Korean campuses is no longer a one-time or two-time event, but it never occurred to Kim Tae-woo, who looks lively and cheerful, that he has also experienced such things in the past.

What kind of bullying and humiliation can force a person to suffer so much that they even give up their own lives...

Jin Taiyu didn't want to hide it any more, he also knew that this was not a good memory, but a desire to tell him suddenly rose in his heart.He tried to relax himself, closed his eyes and spoke again: "I was a taciturn and skinny kid at the time, and my classmates didn't like me very much. I was isolated at first, and then gradually developed into beating and scolding. I didn't Dare to resist, but only give in again and again, the result is that such beatings and bullying intensify."

"Punching and kicking are the norm. It's not uncommon to even burn myself with cigarettes. Once they dragged me to the bathroom and buried my face in the sink. If it wasn't for a teacher passing by, I'm afraid I... After narrowly escaping from the dead, I once talked about it with my parents, but how could a man who keeps going out and doing little things and a woman who is dressed up and busy making fools of himself every day, care about my useless son. They stubbornly thought that all of this was my fault. I was young and didn't understand it. I just thought that they gave up on me and took a knife in a moment of pain. That was the first time I committed suicide by cutting my wrist..."

Looking at the hideous white wounds on his wrist, he couldn't help but chuckled, and said slowly: "I don't know where I got the courage. The nanny who has been taking care of me at home found out in time and sent me to the hospital. At that time, I didn't With the slightest desire to survive, all I want to do is to die early and get rid of it early, and the wounds that followed were caused at that time."

Things were not as light as he said, and the bullying that happened in school was far worse than what he said.He used to have many burns on his back and waist, which were burned by those people with cigarettes. They would stab his body with compasses. Seeing him in such pain made him more excited, and the bullying became more frequent and cruel.

At that time, he had very serious world-weary thoughts, and his depression was so severe that he couldn't control his thoughts of dying even after taking medicine. He almost committed suicide and self-mutilation when he saw the right opportunity. Later, he even had to tie him to the bed. Once he has a tendency to self-harm, he has no choice but to inject him with sedatives. Although these students who bullied him have been severely punished by the law, such a bad situation has not changed much.

If it weren't for the auntie who took care of him every second, coupled with the gentle guidance of the nurses in the hospital, he might have turned into a tombstone by now.

"Later, I accidentally heard a hip-hop song, and was suddenly attracted by the lyrics full of violence and blood. My aunt discovered this and found me a lot of CDs. However, in order to prevent me from suicidal tendencies again, I followed the doctor's advice. I listened to a lot of healing songs, and the effect was surprisingly good. Later, I inadvertently received an interview invitation, asking me to come to Seoul to participate in the selection of trainees. I didn’t think much about it, but I just wanted to get rid of this place, so I hurriedly and Auntie just said that and packed up her things and went to Korea, where she became Dahei's trainee."

He paused, feeling that tears had gathered in his eye sockets at some point, and hurriedly wiped them away with his head down.Perhaps it is precisely because of this painful memory that Kim Tae-woo has developed the habit of facing everything alone, and has always been uneasy and vigilant when dealing with strangers. When protecting himself, he will habitually show a sharp side, that is, In order not to let yourself get hurt again.

The price of becoming strong is to personally kill the stupid and cowardly self in the past.For Jin Taiyu, it was quite a bargain.

Jin Taiyu chuckled lightly, and after telling these things about his past, his mood unexpectedly relaxed a lot, as if the shackles that had bound him for a long time were finally broken, and he couldn't help but feel a little relieved.

Everyone was silent, didn't know how to respond, and was afraid that the expression of sympathy and pity he unconsciously showed would hurt his self-esteem, and the atmosphere suddenly became awkward.Jin Taiyu seemed to be a normal person. Speaking of these things made him feel a lot easier. Without the shackles in his heart, he also began to open his heart and pour out all his thoughts.

The members didn't bother, and only reacted after he finished speaking. They felt very complicated. On the one hand, they really felt sorry for what happened to him, and on the other hand, they were angry that couldn't be concealed. All the people who had passed him were beaten severely before they could relieve their anger.

Min Yoongi was the first to react. Seeing the kid still smiling, he felt even more complicated in his heart. He wiped his wet eyes, stretched out his hand and rubbed his head, sighed, and said, "Stop doing stupid things again. We will always be a family, we have agreed to realize our dreams together, we must walk the flowery road together, and we must not lose a single person."

Jin Taehyung also spoke suddenly, and patted him on the shoulder solemnly, with a very serious tone: "For the sake of your misery, I will not bully you in the future."

Kim Taehyung always has the ability to turn the atmosphere around, and as his close relative of the same age, Park Jimin also approached him with a serious face, and also reached out and patted him on the shoulder.Jin Taiyu's original emotion disappeared in an instant, leaving only full of helplessness, which made him raise the corners of his lips again, looked at Jin Taehyung and smiled, "It's as if you have bullied me."

Seeing that under such circumstances, the three uneasy children in the maknae line started to fight each other again, as the team leader, Kim Namjoon quickly stood up and drove them to the room, saying: "Okay, okay! , It’s good to clarify the matter. Taiyu will not do stupid things anymore when he grows up. Besides, this kid is still with us. He will be fine, so don’t worry. It’s not too early. I'm going back to the company for practice, so go to bed early."

The members who were still immersed in the shock nodded, and patted Jin Taiyu on the head in unison to show encouragement before washing up, which made the latter feel helpless and moved at the same time.

After finishing the washing in a hurry, Jin Taiyu looked down at the hideous scar on his wrist, chuckled lightly, put back his sleeves, and returned to the bed wrapped in a fluffy pajamas.However, before he fell asleep, a pair of big hands hugged him first, holding him tightly in his arms.Feeling the warm breath hitting his neck, Jin Taiyu twisted his body a little uncomfortably, but was hugged even tighter, and he didn't dare to move any more, so he simply hugged Jin Taehyung's waist tightly, putting his legs on him On his body, maintaining this posture, he fell asleep in the arms of his best friend.

It was a night without dreams.

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