life fate

Master Yuanwu called Zixiu to his meditation room, and looked at the tall and straight child in front of him.If time flies by, the young man will become different in a hurry, but the time is too urgent, and he has not yet grown up properly.

"This matter... how do you plan to deal with it?" Yuan Wu tried to slow down his tone.

Zixiu lowered his head and did not speak. These few days can be regarded as the days he has experienced the most emotional changes in his life.From being dazed at the beginning, sharp hatred and hatred emerged from the accusations and comments of others, but at the same time, he was a little relaxed. The secrets he had hidden were exposed to the sun, and he no longer had to worry about being discovered by others.

After a long silence, Zixiu finally said, "Master, this disciple wants to return to vulgarity."

Master Yuanwu looked at Zixiu, his eyes were calm, without any emotion.But he didn't answer, and it took a long time before he said, "Okay."

"My parents gave birth to me, and Yunhai raised me. Zixiu will never forget Yunhai's kindness." Zixiu raised his face, stood up straight and said.He is not afraid of other people's comments. After all, most of the disciples in the sea of ​​clouds are kind by nature, and they don't have too much malice when they talk.Everyone blamed him more because of his identity. He was a monk and a disciple of Master Yuanwu. Not only did he care about the world, he even fell in love with a man.

This is simply absurd, and it is the laughing stock of unprecedented people.

Zixiu can't let such a name be placed on Zisangyu, he is such a clean boy, he should be innocent and loved by others.

Zixiu has nowhere to go if he leaves Yunhai. Over the years, he has only scratched the surface and taught scriptures and Taoism, but he has no other skills.What's more, he was basically penniless, and he didn't have much money in his hiding place, so he went to buy a rattle for Zi Sangyu.

But at least he is a man, it is impossible to starve himself to death.

Zixiu went to Jiangnan County. He knew that Zisangyu usually wouldn't go out, so he found an inn nearer to the Sang family's family for help.He was able to settle accounts because of his literacy, and he was able to handle things because he practiced martial arts. The shopkeeper stayed without saying a word... Although he almost rejected Zixiu Siwen because of his appearance.

Zixiu has settled himself down. He listens to the discussions about Zisang's family in the inn every day. They say that Zisangshi has developed a new way and gradually transferred the power to Zisangyu.They said that Zi Sangbi, who had been assigned outside, started to make some moves, and they didn't know how to deal with Zi Sangyu.

Some people even said that in order to help Zi Sangyu gain a firm foothold, Zi Sangshi had already begun to help him find a marriage partner.

A little thought was piled up into a thick wall, while Zixiu forced himself to separate him from Zisangyu, but at the same time couldn't help but cut a window in the wall, so that he could quietly see the other side. world.

When delusions flooded, Zixiu finally lost control of himself.The autumn air is crisp, and there is still some dewy coolness in the middle of the night.While everyone was asleep, he sneaked out of the inn by himself, and entered the Zisang family's mansion with his decent lightness skills.

He knew where Zisangyu's courtyard was, carefully avoided the patrolling people, and slipped into Zisangyu's room.Zi Sangyu was lying quietly on his side, and with the moonlight that leaked in the moment the door was just opened, Zixiu could see Zisangyu's handsome face...even if he didn't use the moonlight, he would have carved this face into his body a long time ago. in my heart.

He originally wanted to take a look at it, but when people have desires and desires, it is always difficult to satisfy them. Zixiu couldn't restrain himself and took two steps forward.He was so nervous that he tripped over the stool, and there was a loud noise in the room.

Zixiu wanted to escape subconsciously, but Zisangyu had already woken up and sat up vigilantly.The light in the room was too dark, and Zi Sangyu carefully identified the person who was Zixiu. There were hurried footsteps outside the room, probably the patrolling guards also heard the sound.

Zixiu was in a dilemma, and when he was about to rush out, Zisang Yu stopped him: "Zixiu? Are you finally willing to come to me?"

Zi Sangyu's tone was still somewhat uncertain and overjoyed, Zixiu stopped in his tracks all of a sudden.If only Zi Sangyu liked him too...then he would be willing to let him die.

When he was thinking about this idea, Zi Sangyu had already walked over quickly and grabbed his wrist.Zisangyu was not strong enough, but Zixiu was caught off guard and was dragged by him to sit on the bed.

He looked up at Zi Sangyu blankly, but heard Zi Sangyu say in a low voice, "Lie down and cover the quilt, someone is coming." As Zisangyu said, he pushed Zixiu down, and pulled the quilt over He was blindfolded.

He had just sat down on the bed when there was a knock on the door.

"Master, are you alright?"

Zi Sangyu raised one foot, pretending to be kneading: "It's okay, just woke up to drink a glass of water, and accidentally knocked over the stool."

"Young master, according to the master's order, we have to come in and take a look." The people outside the door still did not relax their vigilance, and directly pushed the door open.

Zi Sangyu was wearing only obscene clothes and trousers, with long hair loose, rubbing his ankles beside the bed.Not all the guards outside the door came in. The head of the guards looked around and found nothing unusual, so they could only say: "My lord, rest well. It's better to be careful when what happened a few days ago."

"Okay, thank you for your hard work." Zi Sangyu smiled, and waited for the head of the guard to close the door before putting down his legs, and heaved a long sigh of relief.

Zixiu's nose was full of Zisangyu's smell, and his pillow and quilt wrapped Zixiu tightly.When he almost wanted to indulge in his overflowing emotions, Zi Sangyu pulled the quilt away: "You can come out."

Zixiu opened his eyes to look at Zisangyu, afraid that he would miss him in the blink of an eye.Seeing Zixiu's dumbfounded expression, Zisangyu couldn't help laughing: "Take off your shoes if you want to sleep."

"What's the matter?" Zixiu asked without thinking.

Zi Sangyu couldn't react: "Huh?"

"A few days ago, what happened?" Zixiu stretched his legs to the edge of the bed and kicked off his shoes, but his eyes were still glued to Zisangyu's face.

Zi Sangyu couldn't bear this kind of hot and direct gaze, he turned his face away: "It's nothing, just someone attacked at night."

"Who?" Zixiu suddenly sat up and grabbed Zisangyu's arm, making a gesture to check him, "Are you okay?"

Zi Sangyu hurriedly pressed his hand: "It's okay, otherwise how could I sit here properly. But you, why did you suddenly return to vulgarity? You left without a sound and didn't come to see me."

Zixiu fell silent, and the atmosphere suddenly became quiet.When Zi Sangyu was about to ask Zixiu to stop talking, he suddenly said, "It's just... I feel that I have too much concern in the world, if I still stay in Buddhism and ignore the Dharma."

The two fell silent again, and finally it was Zi Sangyu who broke the embarrassment: "Sleep first, we will talk about other things tomorrow." Zi Xiu knew that he should refuse, but looking at Zi Sangzhu's indistinct silhouette in the dark, he finally Still shut his mouth and nodded.

Zi Sangyu's bed was not very big, and the two men would inevitably sleep next to each other on the same bed.Although the autumn night is cold, but the skin to touch can quickly feel the other's body temperature, neither of them spoke, only the sound of shallow breathing in the dark night.

I don't know how long it took before Zi Sangyu said in a daze, "It's great that you can come to me..."

Zixiu didn't feel sleepy at first, but when he felt that Zisangyu had fallen asleep, he slowly lifted himself up to look at him.But the two were too close, and his movement moved Zi Sangyu's arm.Zixiu was taken aback, and he was relieved when he saw that Zisangyu was fine.

Zixiu originally hoped that Zisangyu would give him some love, that they might face the injustice of this world together, and then join hands to grow old together.But it was really quiet late at night, so quiet that Zixiu's thoughts could be seen in every detail. Zixiu sorted out his thoughts, only to realize that he was so selfish.

He fantasizes that his love can be responded to, and he is even willing to let Zi Sangyu be displaced for himself.

Knowing yourself has always been a difficult thing, not to mention facing yourself who is not as good as you want.He has never been more clear than now... If he really loves his son Sangyu, he should stay away from him, and it is best not to see him again in the future.

Zixiu bent down, found Zisangyu's lips, and gently attached them.

Farewell, Ayu.

He rolled over Zisangyu lightly, then packed himself up and left Zisang's family.When day breaks, I should pack up my luggage and go away from Jiangnan to a place where Zi Sangyu can't be found.

But he didn't know that Zisangyu hadn't slept since he woke him up. Although his eyes were closed, Zisangyu could still feel Zixiu's gaze on him.How could Zi Sangyu, who is so smart, fail to see such a straightforward intention?Even if it was a fluke, the last kiss had already shattered it to pieces.

It would be a lie to say that the mood is not complicated, but Zi Sangyu doesn't feel disgusted.It was precisely because of this knowledge that he inevitably panicked, and he didn't even have the courage to hold Zixiu back.I am not against it... Then what is my mood...

Zixiu went back to the inn to pack his luggage, and then bid farewell to the innkeeper.He was agile, capable of writing and martial arts, and the shopkeeper was quite reluctant to give up, but seeing that he had made up his mind to go, he readily paid his salary and let him go.

Zixiu didn't know where else he could go. He followed Yuan Wu to many places to teach Buddhism, but he only remembered one Jiangnan and one Beijing.Now Jiangnan can't stay any longer...or go to the capital!

After he had a goal, he went straight to the capital. Jiangnan was far away from the capital, and he had to drive for more than half a month to get there.The wind and sand in the capital were heavy, and Zixiu was already ravaged by the cold wind.He found an inn to live in with the only silver he had left. Before, the work in the inn was easy to do, but the salary was too low, so it was not a long-term solution.

He also plans to save some money to go back to hiding!