life fate

Zixiu was an orphan. Because he was born in a poor village, his seven aunts and eight aunts had no money to raise another child, so he started begging since he was a child.But because of his malnutrition, he was very thin and small, and he couldn't please the army of beggars.

When he failed to grab rations again, someone handed him a steaming steamed bun.He raised his head and looked at the bald monk in front of him. After maintaining his guard for a while, he was still defeated by the smell of food.

The monk watched him gobble it up, sighed and asked him kindly about his family.Zixiu answered hesitantly, and was taken back to the sea of ​​clouds by the bald monk.

The bald monk is the abbot of Yunhai, he is kind by nature, and asked Zixiu if he would like to be his closed disciple.Although Zixiu wanted to have something to eat, but his Buddhism is pure, he was afraid that he would be ashamed of the abbot, so he refused.The abbot saw that the child was quite spiritual, so he took him back and made him a disciple who practiced with hair, and promised him that he could return to secular life in the future.

He has settled down in Yunhai and has a place to belong.It's just because he has been weak since he was a child, and his martial arts practice can't keep up with the progress of other disciples.But fortunately, he was talented and intelligent, and he never forgot the scriptures, so he lived comfortably in the sea of ​​clouds.

He gradually pulled away and became the most handsome monk in the sea of ​​clouds. Even the hair that was allowed to stay grew longer and was neatly tied up.

These years of self-cultivation and self-cultivation, he is about to shave his hair and worship the Buddha, but he can't forget the world he wandered in when he was a child.The world outside was colorful, and he was afraid that he would embarrass Yunhai by breaking the rules... especially after he realized that he liked men.

This will be a dark secret, which Zixiu originally wanted to hide for the rest of his life.But at the age of 16, the abbot took him to teach Buddhism everywhere and came to Zisang's family.

Zisang's family is a well-known businessman with a luxurious mansion. Zixiu followed behind the abbot, not daring to look around, but he still took a sneak peek.He has grown up in the sea of ​​clouds these years, and he has almost forgotten the outside world.

It was at this time that Zi Sangyu came into his eyes.Mr. Pianpian is dressed in white, leaning on the recliner to read, the wind blows through the bamboo leaves and falls, people come and go outside, but he seems to be immersed in the book, completely unconscious.

Zixiu had read so many scriptures and dealt with a group of monks who had left the dust, but this was the first time he felt that someone was so unreal.

He couldn't help but look at the boy a few more times, forgot to look at the road for a while, and bumped into the stopped abbot.Zixiu couldn't help but let out an "Ouch", and was raising his hand to touch his head when he heard someone yelling, "Ayu, come here!"

It turned out that the abbot had already met the person in charge of Zisang's family and talked for a while.He thought of this belatedly, and then saw the boy who was studying turned around and stood up, smiling this way.

Fragments of sunlight fell on his face from the gaps in the bamboo leaves. He was also very handsome and gentle, and there was a dimple when he smiled slightly.

Zixiu was dumbfounded, until the young man walked over quickly and called out, "Father."

Zi Sangshi held Zi Sangyu in front of him, and smiled brightly: "This is Master Yuanwu, hurry up and call someone."

"Master Yuanwu," Zi Sangzhu bowed obediently, and said, "I am Zi Sangyu."

Master Yuanwu smiled: "Young Master Zisang, you are polite."

It took three days to talk about Buddhism this time. Zi Sangshi asked Zi Sangyu to take Zixiu down to rest, and he went to discuss Buddhism with Master Yuanwu.

Zi Sangyu was very talkative: "I don't know what to call Master?"

"I..." Zixiu paused, "Just call me Zixiu."

Zisangyu laughed immediately: "Zixiu, you are about my age, right? I heard that you are a closed disciple of Master Yuanwu, are you actually leading the practice?"

Zixiu looked at the dimple on his cheek, and pursed his lips: "Yeah." He was a little annoyed after answering, feeling that he was too cold, so he added dryly: "I saw you reading before?"

"Well," Zi Sangyu didn't care about Zixiu's stiffness, and said freely, "Read some poetry collections."

Zixiu didn't know what to say anymore, so he could only say again: "Yes."

Only then did Zisangyu realize that Zixiu's ears were red, and he smiled kindly: "Don't be nervous, just chatting."

But how could Zixiu not be nervous, he had no experience in dealing with outsiders, especially because he had a very different feeling towards Zisangyu for some reason.The moment I saw him laugh just now, I felt my heart beating uncontrollably, and it hasn't stopped until now.

Zi Sangyu sent Zixiu back to his room and left, leaving Zixiu alone to think hard.Zixiu likes men, and he discovered it when he was just ignorant of feelings. He was very panicked, but he never thought that he would fall in love with any man.He still couldn't help but think of Zi Sangyu's smile just now... Is this the love at first sight mentioned in the book?

He shook his head hastily, throwing out his absurd idea.

It was already afternoon when I arrived at Zisang's family today, so naturally it was impossible to talk about Buddhism.Zixiu took a good rest, and then reviewed the scriptures to be taught the next day.

Zi Sangshi is a Buddhist believer, and he has some friendship with Master Yuanwu.He has only two sons, and in order to have more people, he specially allowed his servants to come to listen to the Buddha.

So the next day Zixiu saw the crowd of people in the audience.He has a high comprehension ability and a good memory. Master Yuanwu had led him to teach Buddhism around a long time ago, and this force did not scare him.

But after a while, Zisang Yu, who came late, walked through the crowd, sat down in front of the stage with a small stool, and looked up at Zixiu.Zixiu looked into his sparkling eyes, and his heart started beating uncontrollably again.

He didn't dare to look at Zi Sangyu after a lecture on Buddha, for fear that he would forget what he was going to say.

After speaking, there was still a question, Zisangyu raised his hand high, Zixiu looked around and found that only Zisangyu raised his hand, so he had no choice but to call him: "Master Zisang, what's the problem?"

"It is said that the six roots of monks are pure and there are no emotions and desires, but love, hatred, anger, and obsession are human nature. Why can monks forget them?"

Zixiu has no way to answer this question, he cannot be regarded as a true Buddhist disciple.But looking at Zi Sangyu's puzzled look, he still thought about it carefully: "The place where monks live is more pure, and everyone they see believes in Buddhism, and the scriptures wash away the dust in their hearts. The direction of the heart is the direction of the eyes." This is what you see, what you live and realize.”

Zisangyu smiled: "Master Zixiu means that monks never forget it, but they didn't arouse all emotions and desires?"

Zixiu pondered for a moment, but fortunately, Master Yuanwu helped him out: "Love, hatred, obsession, and obsession are human nature, and monks naturally have them too. But just as Zixiu said, monks are pure, so naturally they have no desires or desires." .”

Zi Sangyu smiled friendly and sat down.Now that Master Yuanwu has come to the stage, Zixiu sat on a small stool beside him, feeling as if he was sitting on pins and needles for the first time, he didn't listen to what he said next, his mind was full of wondering whether Zisangyu would think he was bad .

Zixiu didn't react until Master Yuanwu called him.

Yuan Wu's expression was a bit serious: "Zixiu, what are you thinking?"

"Master..." Zixiu lowered his head, wanting to tell his master all the confusion and troubles in his heart, but he was too ashamed to say anything, and knew it was disrespectful, so he whispered, "It's nothing, Zixiu will leave when he goes back." Copy the scriptures."

Copying scriptures is Yuan Wu's way of punishment. Every time Zixiu does something wrong, he will be punished by Yuan Wu to copy scriptures.

Yuan Wu patted Zixiu on the shoulder: "People in the world have love, hatred, anger, and obsession, and most of them are against themselves."

Zixiu didn't speak any more, he really had trouble with himself, he cared too much about Zisangyu.

Back in the room, Zixiu immediately buried his head in the quilt.The quilt prepared by Zisang's family is dry and warm, and has the aroma of saponins.Zixiu even thought: Is it the same smell in Zisangyu's room?

While he was thinking about it, someone knocked on the door, and Zisangyu's voice sounded outside: "Zixiu, are you there?"

Zixiu jumped up from the bed and quickly replied, "Yes!"

"Then I'm coming in." Zisang's family's guest rooms had no latches, and Zisangyu naturally knew this, so he opened the door without waiting for Zixiu's answer.Holding a jar of bright red cherries in his hand, he smiled brightly and said, "Come and eat the freshest cherries!"

Zixiu suddenly felt awkward, not knowing where to put his hands and feet.On the contrary, Zi Sangyu put the pot on the table very familiarly, opened the stool and sat down.A servant girl followed him and brought up a basin of water to wash his hands. Zi Sangyu soaked his hands in his mouth, while turning his head and smiling at Zixiu: "Come on!"

Zixiu had no choice but to go forward, and waited for Zisangyu to wash his hands before putting his hands into the icy cold water.

Zi Sangyu couldn't wait to dry his hands, so he picked up a washed cherry and put it in his mouth.After eating, he squinted his eyes and smiled at Zixiu: "Sweet!"

Zixiu let out a "hmm" and hurriedly looked away.

While eating the cherries, Zi Sangyu said, "I think what you just said is wonderful!"

Only then did Zixiu turn his head to look at Zisangyu, Zisangyu's face was filled with the child's candy-like satisfaction, and his narrowed eyes were bright.Zixiu looked at him patronizingly, completely forgetting what he was going to say.

Zi Sangyu ate for a while and found that Zixiu hadn't moved, so he picked up a cherry and handed it to his lips: "Taste one, it's really delicious."

Zixiu panicked and even subconsciously bit off the cherry that Zisangyu handed over.He bit hard now, and actually bit Zisangyu's finger directly, causing Zisangyu to shrink back his hand in pain.

"Hold...hug...sorry." Zixiu blushed, bit the cherry with his teeth, and the sweet and sour juice flowed out, and a faint fruity fragrance immediately spread from his mouth.

Seeing Zixiu's embarrassed look, Zisangyu smiled: "You are so funny." Then he added: "It's okay, it doesn't hurt."

Zixiu held the cherry pit in his mouth without saying a word, just staring at the teeth marks on Zisangyu's fingers.