Lovers suffer from depression [Quick Transmigration]

Chapter 64 2 More·Alcohol Dependency·chapter20

Wen Ran has been away for three days, I don't know why Meng Miandong always thinks of Wen Ran's words: Next time I want to pour honey on your body and lick it off.

It is a very shameful sentence, but it is too sweet.

In the past three days, Wen Ran would find time to call and send him WeChat messages, but every time he either fell asleep while talking, or ended in a hurry.

He knew that Wen Ran must be very busy, but he couldn't help but feel lonely.

During the three years when he was almost closed, he rarely felt lonely, but Wen Ran was only absent for three days, but he felt lonely.

Wen Ran completely invaded his life, so that even when he was sleeping, he would subconsciously leave half of the bed for Wen Ran.

On the fourth day, there was a light rain outside, and after nightfall, he locked himself in his study to write lyrics.

Wen Ran let him play freely, so he sat under the desk lamp, carefully recalling his life in these years, life in the orphanage, life after debut, life dominated by sudden deafness and alcohol dependence, and meeting Wen Ran. life after burning.

The life he has experienced is intertwined to form the current him, even though he is obviously a failure compared with the previous one, but under Wen Ran's gentle healing, he has learned to accept the current self calmly.

So what if the self loved by Wen Ran is a loser?

He racked his brains to write several versions of the lyrics, but he was not satisfied, so he simply rolled into a ball of paper and threw it into the trash can.

He took out his mobile phone again, and searched for Wen Ran's news on the Internet.

There is no news about Wen Ran on the Internet, only a lot of fans of Wen Ran express their love for Wen Ran.

He climbed several Wen Ran's nympho buildings, and ran his fingers obsessively across Wen Ran's photos, and then, by accident, he saved all the photos sent by fans.

He felt like Wen Ran's idiot. In fact, he had fallen in love with Wen Ran as early as Wen Ran's debut. He liked Wen Ran's acting skills, appearance, and temperament. It was just a pure liking, not involving love/desire , he hasn't been out much in the past three years, but he will go to the cinema to watch every one of Wen Ran's movies, and he also collects DVDs of all movies.

He originally planned to tell Wen Ran, but he said it as if he was playing hard to catch Wen Ran in the beginning, so he didn't say anything.

Then, he opened Weibo and entered the key word "Wen Ran". After spending a long time with his fans, he switched to his official account with trembling hands. The Weibo authentication of the official account is singer Meng Miandong .

After the sudden deafness, he logged on to this Weibo once, and his eyes were full of criticisms, sarcasm, and insults from Heizi...

After the doctor announced that sudden deafness might not be cured, he couldn't stand any negative information, so of course he didn't want to log in to this Weibo.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he opened Weibo, there were hundreds of thousands of unread messages displayed at the bottom of the message. He held his breath and clicked in to take a look. There were comments, @, private messages, the latest comments, @, The private messages are all his fans except for a few sunspots:

Xiao Miandong, when will you release the album?My wallet is already ready to move.

I listened to your song and prepared for the exam. Now I am a sophomore. I am still waiting for you. Where are you?

Love your song, I've been waiting for you to come back.

……

It never occurred to him that there were still people waiting for his comeback, he thought he had been abandoned long ago.

He couldn't help posting a Weibo with trembling fingers: Please wait for me.

——This was done on impulse, but at the same time, it was also to cut off his own escape route.

He made everyone wait for him, which meant that he had to overcome many obstacles to regain his standing on the stage.

After about a minute, he made his first comment: Xiao Miandong finally posted on Weibo after three years, bursting into tears.jpg.

Immediately afterwards, he made a second comment: Xiao Miandong, are you feeling better?We are not in a hurry, just take your time.

He felt a little hot in his eye sockets, and immediately called Wen Ran, but the call was not connected.

It's only after nine o'clock in the evening, Wen Ran should still be on the set, right?

He put down his phone, continued to flip through the comments, and waited until twelve o'clock before calling Wen Ran, and when the call was connected, he heard Wen Ran on the other end of the phone asking wearily: "Mian Dong, have you taken good care of yourself? "

"I have taken good care of myself, good night, you go to sleep." He wanted to share his excitement with Wen Ran, but it was obviously inappropriate.

After hanging up the phone, he couldn't help feeling lonely again, how good would it be if Wen Ran was by his side now?

He sighed, not even interested in the new fan comments.

He went to take a shower, put on his pajamas and lay on the bed, he found that he had subconsciously reserved half of the bed for Wen Ran, but the half of the bed was empty, there was no Wen Ran at all.

He simply fell asleep on Wen Ran's half of the bed, laying on Wen Ran's pillow and covering Wen Ran's half of the quilt. In an instant, his whole body was filled with the scent of Wen Ran, and immediately every inch of his skin was burning uncontrollably. stand up.

"Mmmm..." He turned over, buried his face on Wen Ran's pillow, comforted himself once, washed his hands before falling asleep.

On the fifth day, there was a knock on his door, and when he opened the door, he saw a young man who greeted him, "Hi, I am Mr. Wen's assistant, and Mr. Wen asked me to take you to the hospital for further consultation. "

He seemed to have heard the boy's voice before.

But where did you hear it?

He thought hard, and after a while, he asked: "Is it Paris that you accompanied Wen Ran to?"

When Paris was mentioned, the young man was still a little scared: "The plane to Paris was bumpy for a long time because of an engine failure. I thought I was going to die. My mind was full of all kinds of deaths, so I was scared and cried. After getting off the plane, I couldn't stop. My legs are weak, if Mr. Wen hadn't supported me, I'm afraid I wouldn't even be able to get out of the airport."

As Wen Ran said, the boy's voice became hoarse because he was frightened and cried, not because he thought he had done anything violent.

The boy's expression didn't look like he was lying, he really misunderstood.

At that time, he was really too inferior, and firmly believed that he was not worthy of being liked by Wen Ran, so, with just a hoarse voice, he could easily misinterpret Wen Ran.

After he put on his shoes and closed the door, he suddenly thought: Is it the same on Weibo?I think I should be hated and abandoned, so I focus all my attention on bad comments, and ignore the people who support me.

As soon as he figured it out, he suddenly felt that the self-abased self at that time was childish, ridiculous and pitiful.

But now he is different. Although he still can't write a song smoothly, he believes that as long as he works hard, he will be successful.

This should all be thanks to Wen Ran, but Wen Ran is not by his side.

smell burning...

He was taken to the hospital by the teenager, first for a follow-up visit, and then for the prescription of medicine.

However, in just a few days, his physical condition did not improve, but his mental condition improved a lot. He even asked the doctor about the pros and cons of wearing a hearing aid.

He has been able to accept the fact that his hearing may not be fully restored. In order to make a comeback, hearing aids may be a good choice.

But in the end, he still didn't make a decision, because he planned to wait for Wen Ran to go home and discuss with Wen Ran before making a decision.

On the sixth day, because he encountered a bottleneck in the lyrics, he began to try to compose.

He brought a guitar from the apartment he bought after his debut, but he hasn’t touched the guitar for too long, his technique has long been rusty, and the syllables flowing from his fingertips overflowed into his left ear, that is to say It was weird, but the right ear told him it was okay, at least not disturbing the people.

He was playing the guitar, and couldn't help but think of Wen Ran again. If Wen Ran knew that he was playing the guitar now, he would be very happy, right?

He couldn't wait to call Wen Ran, but he was afraid of disturbing Wen Ran, so he put down the phone.

He played the guitar again, and before long, the mild addiction to alcohol under the suppression of disulfiram, acamprosate, and naltrexone actually rushed straight up.

There wasn't a bottle of wine in the house, and he didn't think about going out to buy one, so he just kept on playing the guitar.

However, under the force of the alcohol, his fingers trembled slightly, and when they landed on the strings, they kept making weird noises.

He had to put down his guitar and play a game instead to distract himself.

He forced himself to focus on the game, but his favorite game on weekdays could not save him from alcohol addiction, and his attention was still glued to alcohol addiction from time to time.

I really want to drink.

No, you can't drink, and you can't disappoint Wen Ran.

He was suffering all over, sweating all over, and finally called Wen Ran without hesitation.

But no one answered.

Wen Ran should be filming, right?He can't disturb Wen Ran anymore.

Get over it, you have to get over it, he imitated Wen Ran's hand gesture, rubbed his hair and said: "Miandong, you must be able to get through it."

After getting over it, he will be able to stand beside Wen Ran more confidently.

But it was not such an easy task. Alcohol addiction was biting him like a virus, not letting go of every piece of flesh.

smell burning...

I'm so sad, I miss you holding me...

Wen Ran... you come back soon... why don't you come back...

Wen Ran was not by his side, so he could only keep thinking about Wen Ran to fight against his alcohol addiction——Wen Ran who promised him a million times, Wen Ran who showed a distressed expression under his sarcasm, rejected his Wen Ran, Wen Ran who confessed to him, Wen Ran who kissed him, Wen Ran who played hooliganism to him, Wen Ran who hugged him tenderly, Wen Ran who talked about my sleeping winter, where everything is sweet...

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