Lovers suffer from depression [Quick Transmigration]

Meng Miandong suddenly woke up from sleep, sat on the bed, feeling drenched in sweat.

Just now he seemed to have had many bizarre dreams, but it seemed to be blank.

It is early spring now, and the chilly spring has not receded a bit, but it seems to have been replaced by winter cold, and the body temperature is close to zero degrees Celsius.

He was always afraid of the cold, so he was stunned for a while by the sound of the air conditioner, before he got out of bed and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

He tossed his sweaty pajamas aside, stripped off his panties, and walked into the shower, turning it on.

Before all the cold water was drained, the water droplets splashing on his body instantly aroused a lot of goosebumps.

He is actually very strange, obviously he is like a walking dead now, why is he still afraid of the cold?

It's like he's hungry besides his need for alcohol, right?

He inadvertently glanced at the round mirror above the sink, and felt that the reflection in the mirror was a dead man, with thick dark circles, slightly sunken eye sockets and cheeks, pale skin, and no blood from head to toe.

He smiled at himself in the mirror, then stepped under the shower.

The bath water kept hitting his body, it seemed to hurt, but it didn't seem to hurt at all.

He relied too much on alcohol, and even his body perception became much duller.

But it doesn't matter, or in other words, it doesn't matter whether he is alive or dead now.

He didn't commit suicide just because he didn't have the urge to commit suicide. Otherwise, he should have been buried in the dirt three years ago.

three years ago……

Three years ago, he was the most popular singer-songwriter, and his popularity was unmatched for a while, and because he was barely an adult at that time, he was hailed as a rare young genius, the Ziwei star who saved the sluggish music scene.

But everything was ruined because of sudden deafness, including his career, his future, his life...

That day, he was singing his debut work "Independence" at a New Year's Eve party of a state-run TV station.

This "Independence" is a work composed by him himself, and it is full of the second-year atmosphere that he despises now, but at that time he was really immersed in this "Independence".

When he sang the chorus, he suddenly felt that he couldn't hear anything in his left ear. Then, his vision blurred and he was in dizziness.

But he knows that he is singing, the stage is a 360-degree panoramic stage, and he is surrounded by the audience.

Relying on his strong willpower and strong obsession, he sang as if nothing had happened.

Only his right ear could hear his own singing, but under the cutting of dizziness, it was also fragmented, and he couldn't even hear the background music coming from his ear.

He knew that he must sing very badly, but he believed that he would be able to persevere.

However, when he sang the last line of the lyrics, he shook and fell to the ground, and then vomited it out.

Yes, he spat it out in front of the audience and the audience watching the live broadcast of the New Year's Eve party, many of whom were his fans.

Even if he covered his lips in time, he failed to stop the vomit, which broke through his fingers, stained his costume, and flowed down again.

He knelt weakly, surrounded by vomit, and he could even smell the pungent sour smell of the vomit.

As soon as he raised his eyes, he could see the stunned audience.

In less than a minute, he lost almost everything he could.

In the end, he was helped off the stage by the manager who had finally reacted. He instinctively turned his head back, and the vomit on the stage reflected bright luster under the lights.

He was sent to the hospital and was diagnosed with sudden deafness by the doctor.

Vertigo and vomiting are also caused by sudden deafness.

He lives in the hospital, dare not read newspapers, dare not surf the Internet, and hides himself in the sand like an ostrich.

But at that time, he thought that he could come back, as long as he was a million times better than before, he would be able to wash away the embarrassment of the past.

He began to receive treatment, but unfortunately, whether it was glucocorticoids, blood rheology treatment, or hyperbaric oxygen therapy, none of them had much effect. The hearing in the left ear only recovered a little, which was not enough to support him. Back on stage.

During the whole treatment process, he became a medicine jar, took a lot of medicines, and had bruises behind his ears because of hormone injection.

He was hospitalized for more than three months before he was discharged. In fact, he should have been discharged a long time ago, because the doctor was at a loss for a long time. The advice given to him was to take medicine, rest, maintain a good mood, exercise, eat a balanced diet, stay away from smoking, Alcohol, coffee, noise... Avoid irritating the left ear, avoid ototoxic drugs, ear trauma, clean and protect the left ear to avoid infection.

The paparazzi knew the address of his home, so he couldn't go home, so he could only live in a [-]-square-meter bachelor apartment that he bought before his debut.

He didn't have anything, only a bag of medicine, and all the daily necessities were bought by the agent and brought to him.

He has almost cut off all contact with the outside world. He is an orphan and has no relatives, so no one will worry about him except his manager and his fans.

——If he still has fans.

Before the sudden deafness, he was busy. At the busiest time, he couldn't sleep for five hours a day, but now, as long as he wants, he can sleep 24 hours a day.

Gradually, the agent came once a day, once a week, and then once a month.

He knew that he had been abandoned by the brokerage company, and his broker must have brought other newcomers there.

One day, half a year after suffering from sudden deafness, he mustered up the courage to charge his mobile phone, which had not been charged for half a year, and searched for news about himself on the Internet.

There is no news about him for nearly a month. The headline of the news half a year ago was probably the fall of the talented singer Meng Miandong; Meng Miandong suffered from sudden deafness, and there is no hope of recovery;

His originally lively personal forum, personal post bar, personal Weibo...all deserted.

His big fans either turned to others, or fell silent, and there are very few fans waiting for him to return.

He clicked into the video site again, and the video of him exiting in embarrassment had tens of millions of views, and the comment with the most likes was so disgusting... The comment with the second most likes was watching the party while having dinner, and it turned out that I also Throwing up, next time I see Meng Miandong, I’m afraid I’ll spit it out; the comment with the third most likes is Miandong, I’ll always support you and wait for you to come back.

I wonder if the fans who posted this comment half a year ago are still waiting for him to go back, and are the fans who liked this comment still waiting for him to go back?

But he may not go back.

For half a year, he could only hear sporadic sounds in his left ear.

He clicked on the video, and he went from high-spirited to embarrassing on the stage, but it took only 5 minutes.

The appearance of him vomiting on stage is indeed disgusting, both in posture and expression.

He masochistically watched the video over and over again, until dawn when he mechanically lay down on the bed.

Because he has nothing to do, either playing games, watching TV series, movies, novels, or sleeping.

He never goes out to eat, and all three meals are takeaway.

It was a year after suffering from sudden deafness that he really walked out of the house.

He put on a mask and went to the supermarket. He originally wanted to buy some food, but when he passed the wine area, he accidentally took a few bottles of wine.

In the past, in order to keep his voice healthy, he never drank alcohol, but what does it matter now?What does it matter if alcohol is bad for his left ear?There was no way he would ever be able to return to singing on stage anyway.

Now he is just a vagrant, of course he has the right to drink.

When he got home, he put all the wine he bought on the coffee table, sat on the carpet by himself, and picked up a bottle of high-strength white wine to drink.

Just one sip of wine burned him from throat to stomach, making him feel uncomfortable and happy at the same time.

He drank a few more sips, rushed to the toilet, and spat out all the food in his stomach pouch.

Vomited again.

He vomited again.

The last time I vomited was because of sudden deafness, but this time I vomited because of drunkenness.

Yes, he, who never drank, was drunk by a few sips of liquor.

After vomiting, he fell asleep, and when he woke up, he found himself lying on the edge of the toilet, feeling unwell.

He showered and went to bed again.

After waking up again, he tried the fruit wine with the lowest concentration.

The fruit wine is only three degrees, like drinking fruit juice, but a little bit drunk, which can put him in a quite comfortable state, without the energy to think too much, without getting drunk.

Unknowingly, he suffered from alcohol dependence and had to drink every day.

Currently, he is 21 years old and is in the third year of suffering from sudden deafness. His left ear is still not fully recovered. It is also the second year of his alcohol dependence.

He understands that his so-called alcoholism is his escapism, but what if he doesn't?Can he come back to the stage again?No, it couldn't be, there was no way he could sing anymore.

He turned off the shower, walked out of the shower, picked up the towel and wiped his body carelessly.

It doesn't matter, he doesn't need to shoot magazines, shoot MVs, it doesn't matter if his body is rubbed red into patches, and it doesn't matter if his skin is scratched.

It is 09:30 in the evening and he wants to drink, but there is not a bottle of wine in the house.

He put on his clothes and planned to go to a convenience store, but somehow entered a bar.

The lights in the bar were dazzling. He squinted his eyes and looked at the men and women dancing on the dance floor. His heart was peaceful, and he had no interest in joining them, nor did he want to stay away from them.

Perhaps the alcohol had numb his nerves?

The same goes for games, TV series, movies, and novels, all of which allow him to dissociate, he can let go at any time, and nothing can attract him.

He ordered a glass of whiskey, sat at the bar, and drank it leisurely.

Suddenly, a person walked up to him and said to him: "Are you Miandong? Hello, I'm Wen Ran."