The princess just wants to go home and feed the pigs [Interstellar]

【Fives】

Mitchell's plans to make Xiao En understand his intentions through various hints went bankrupt one after another. Lei Zhe repeatedly urged him to speak clearly. What if Brother Xiao En didn't understand the meaning of his temptation?

But no matter how subconsciously he was afraid of being rejected by Sean, and those painful memories of drunkenness tried his best to block him, Mitchell finally couldn't hold back the love that had been growing in his heart for several years and was about to permeate every cell in his body, and he obeyed. At Lei Zhe's suggestion, he once again confessed his love to Sean at the private reception.

Saying the words that had been rehearsed countless times in advance, Mitchell stared at Sean in a black dress in front of him. Alpha was tall and straight, standing on the edge of the terrace, with one hand on the railing, and the wind blew the corner of his clothes With the platinum-blonde broken hair between the temples, in addition to the fragrance of flowers, the wind should also carry the smell of his pheromones, but unfortunately Mitchell couldn't smell it.

Everything made it hard for him to breathe.

Mitchell didn't know that this was the second time he had shown his feelings.

Sean's fingers tightened where he couldn't see. No one knew what intense but sad melody flowed through the heart of this promising young pianist. Finally, he sighed. Amidst the sound of insects, he raised his hand and stroked Mitchell's hair like a real brother.

"Sorry, I can't promise you."

Can't, not want to.

Mitchell didn't understand what he meant for a while: "Can't?"

Xiao En smiled and said softly: "There are so many people who like you and love you. You can definitely find a lover who is healthy and wholehearted. Being with me will only delay you."

"No, how could it delay me." Sure enough, Mitchell eagerly argued, "I, I have been thinking since I was very young, if I can always take care of brother Xiao En and spend many years with him. The day will be fine, when I think that you may hold other people's hands, hug and kiss others, I am very sad, I can't accept that there will be another person by your side at all! Even if you think about it, it won't work!"

"There will be no one else." Sean interrupted him gently, "I will never get married in my life."

Mitchell froze.

He stayed for a while, frowned incomprehensibly, and asked, "Why?"

"Besides blindness, there may be hidden defects in my genes that modern medicine can't detect. I can't have my own children—"

"We don't have to! You see, it's just right, I can't have a baby either."

Sean was speechless for a while, and explained: "You are still too young, you are only 19 years old, you like me, probably just because you stay with me for a long time, it may not be true love. This There are still too many wonderful things in the world that you haven’t seen yet, when you get older and go to more places, you will meet someone better and more suitable for you than me.”

"Then why Lei Zhe and Nuo Lin are also each other's first love, they can be together, don't they think that they may meet someone who is better and more suitable for them in the future! The person they like is right in front of them, why should I still Find someone else after thinking about it!"

Mitchell was in a hurry, he bit his lower lip, he didn't care about his face, he stepped forward and grabbed Sean's hand, and let his index finger press on his lips: "I'm sure it's definitely love, I think To be kissed by you, to be touched by you, to be hugged by you like in a dream, and to give me everything I want—”

"Mitchell!"

"Kiss me, please?" Mitchell took another step forward. He raised his head, the tip of his nose almost touching Sean's chin, almost pleading, "Just kiss here, okay?"

Sean fell silent.

After a long time, just when Mitchell thought he would not respond, Sean took a step back, groped to hold his face with his hands, and pressed a light kiss on his forehead.

Mitchell's heart went cold for an instant.

The next second, Sean raised his lips slightly, his lips brushed between his brows and the bridge of his nose, and touched Mitchell's lips like a superficial touch.

"Go back." Sean restrained other thoughts in his heart, pressed his lower lip, and said, "I won't promise you, find someone who is really suitable to spend the rest of your life with you."

Mitchell took in all of his small movements, his eyes suddenly became moist, and he hugged Sean desperately, buried his face in his shoulder, and asked with a sob: "You actually like it too?" Mine, right?"

Sean touched his hair, just like Mitchell confessed to him for the first time, and said, "Go back, good boy."

In the end it was rejected.

Mitchell was a little depressed and sad. When he returned to the banquet hall, he met Nolin who was watching the live broadcast of the game in the corner, and chatted with him for a while.

Brother Xiao En probably also likes him... It's just that he takes the impact of his physical disability too seriously. In fact, he doesn't want to be a burden to his lover at all, as he said.

But he should really calm down for a while.

Too strong feelings and unwillingness will gradually devour a person's mind. Mitchell is afraid that he will not be able to do something terrible because of begging. After all, since childhood, as long as it is what he wants, there is almost no need arrived.

He is different from Lei Zhe, just like when he was a child, Lei Zhe would clamor for something he wanted and wanted the whole world to know, and sometimes he would be so angry that his fathers would not give it to him.But Mitchell hides his longing in his heart and only shows a regretful and lonely expression. The parents will see that he is so sensible and give him things.

His poor political sensitivity does not mean that he is innocent, on the contrary, he has his own carefulness.

It just so happens that the filming of the new drama is about to start, the location is in Jihai, and it is estimated that it will take two months to go out.

Just start by staying away from Sean.

【six】

Quint was the first to notice Sean's depression.

The child he raised since he was a child naturally understands best. Sometimes he can understand what Xiao En wants to do next with a glance or a slight movement of a finger.

On a certain off-duty afternoon, he walked up to Sean who was sitting in a daze in the garden, and sat on the chair beside him: "Is there anything bothering you?"

"Dad." Sean raised his head and faced the direction of Quint's voice, hesitating to speak, "It's nothing, it's just..."

"Seeing that you have been distracted for several days, you have not even been as enthusiastic about practicing the piano these days." Kunt made him a cup of scented tea, "If you don't mind, tell me, maybe you can have a new idea ?”

Sean's gentleness was completely inherited from Quint. He pondered for a moment, and said with some difficulty: "Maybe I have someone I like?"

"Really?" Quint smiled knowingly. In fact, he already knew who the person Sean was talking about, but he still asked, "Isn't this a good thing? There's nothing to worry about. Actually, I and Your father has long thought that you should fall in love, Grant already has a boyfriend, and even Christine's puppy love has changed several times, as a brother, shouldn't you also take some action to set an example for your younger siblings?"

Sean didn't expect Quint to hold such an attitude, and he was a little surprised: "But...but my eyes are blind. If I fall in love, it will cause a lot of trouble for the other party."

"Who said it would be trouble?" Quint asked him in turn, "Let's not say that you are fully capable of taking care of yourself now, and you only need a little help from others when you go out. How do you know that for others, taking care of you will definitely be Is it trouble? I raised you from such a young age, but I never found it troublesome."

Sean: "That's different."

Quint: "The love of parents is indeed different from the love between partners. The biggest difference is probably that... parents can't be with you forever, but your partner can. In the course of a long life, he or she will be Your only reliance. You treat yourself as a trouble in this way, which is a lack of confidence in the other party and in yourself. "

Sean fell silent.

Both he and Mitchell have their own jobs, and Mitchell is deliberately avoiding them, and they haven't had a formal private conversation for nearly a year.Sean can't count how many times he missed the time when the two practiced together in the piano room, and he also asked himself countless times: If he really wants to do what he wants, and Mitchell is blocked by his rejection, give up this Will he be happy if he is looking for the so-called "more suitable person" in a relationship?

He will go crazy.

That is obviously his boy, Mitchell has been with him for so long, can't he continue to be with him?

but……

Seeing that he was struggling, Kunt said softly: "When you were young, every time I saw you fall because you couldn't see, I would doubt whether it was the right decision for me to keep you here. If you can’t get the happiness and happiness you deserve in this world, and you can only feel the pain caused by disability, then it would be better to let you go away.”

"But then I saw that you love music so much, you found your spiritual sustenance, you put a smile on your face every day, you helped take care of your younger siblings, and you grew into the reliable and admirable person you are now. Wrong. So Sean, don't make me feel guilty, okay?"

Sean's pale golden eyelashes trembled suddenly.

His fingers slowly curled up into fists.Kunt's words suddenly melted a gap in the ice in his heart, so the warm spring water overflowed the river, nourishing the land longing for more love.

"..." he said, "I see."

【Seven】

When the roommate told Mitchell that someone downstairs seemed to be playing the piano, Mitchell still didn't believe it.

He had a day's class and just came out of the bathroom, his hair was half-dried and draped softly over his shoulders.He actually doesn't like to grow his hair long, and feels that it is too much trouble to take care of it, but he has to keep it if he wants to play a beautiful androgynous teenager in the film that will start filming in a month.

Although he became famous as a teenager, Mitchell still wants to study. He is currently studying at the Imperial Film Academy. He was just about to take a look at the window with his roommate when he heard the sound of the piano coming from downstairs.

The piano has a wide range and the sound attenuation is not sharp, so Mitchell could hear it clearly on the tenth floor. He was startled when he heard the melody, and then pushed away the roommate who was blocking the way, Looking downstairs through the window sill.

The night has already enveloped the earth, under the starry sky, the lights in front of the dormitory illuminate the open space, a huge grand piano is placed in the middle, and Alpha in a black dress sits on the piano bench, playing lightly and gracefully like the wind. Elegant tune.

"What do you think of the wind?"

"Hmm... moody?"

The conversation in the piano room seemed to echo in my ears, and Mitchell stared closely at the familiar figure downstairs. This was the song he and Sean had written together, "Ode to the Wind".

Sean, who was 19 years old at the time, was noncommittal to Mitchell's answer. He wrote the main theme of the piece, and the rest was completed by the two of them. This piece continued Sean's usual style, but there seemed to be something different of.

Playing the piano downstairs in the dormitory does not seem to be a new way of courtship, but Sean can't think of anything else that is more suitable for them. This piano and violin piece jointly composed by him and Mitchell seems to be for waiting Born on this day.

——What do you think of the wind?

- It can bring the fragrance of flowers, and your breath.

"Oh my god..." Mitchell murmured in disbelief.Sean, playing the piano, downstairs in his dormitory, Ode to the Wind.

These elements coalesce into a string of unspoken messages—Sean is telling him...

Is that what he meant?

More and more people poked their heads out of the windows of the dormitory to watch the concert, which was only played for one person. The melodious prelude was flowing in the night. Turning around, he took out his violin from the cabinet, without even caring about tuning the tone, and plucked the strings a second before the climax was stuck——

So the wind, the gentle evening breeze with the scent of flowers, the moist sea breeze that carried petrels, the furious storm, and the wet breeze on a rainy day, all blow into everyone in the completely different but well-matched timbres of the two instruments. heart field.

Piano and violin, the king and queen of musical instruments, just the two of them are enough to create the atmosphere of everything.

Like, like him and Sean, just the two of them, that's enough.

Sean also heard the sound of the piano from upstairs, and it belonged to Mitchell's response. A relieved smile rose on his lips, and he finally let go of all his worries and hesitation.His fingers were flying on the piano keys, just like when we met at the beginning of the year, the little boy was sitting on the piano bench, the moonlight, the fragrance of flowers, and all the beautiful artistic conceptions in this world poured out from his fingertips.

But he is no longer alone.

【Eight】

Mitchell likes to let Sean take off the terminal and the ear aids, completely free from other external help, and take him out.

In this way, Sean can completely rely on himself. They walked hand in hand on the street, in the fields, in the mountains and forests, and sat on the bench to rest in the sunny afternoon, truly feeling all the gentleness brought by nature. message.

Mitchell would concentrate on holding Sean's hand, telling him that there were steps [-] centimeters ahead, and that a cow cat had just run past him, and that the painters on the street were painting an impressionist work of the ocean pouring into the sky, and the tone was harmonious. His eyes are as pretty as the color.

And Sean entrusted all his trust to himself.

Be his "eyes".

【nine】

Why did he keep rejecting Mitchell's request to write a song for him?

Because Sean couldn't find any melody that could express the meaning of this young man in his heart.

Now, he can finally write a piece for Mitchell.

【ten】

Sean uses hands, smell, hearing, and imagination to perceive the world.

But when he felt Mitchell, it was with his hands, his lips, the tip of his nose, his chest, his skin, and...another place.

The feedback to him was trembling, trembling, hugging, kissing, faithful panting and whimpering, and the "Brother Sean" full of love and joy over and over again. (laugh)