In the Same Boat

Recently, Yao Zhan always thinks of what Qu Yiheng asked him: "Is this what you can't help yourself?"

It is difficult for them, because they like the same sex, so it is difficult to meet someone who loves each other, it is difficult to be accepted by family members, and it is also difficult to be recognized by people around them.

After work that day, Yao Zhan was so upset that he didn't go home and went to the bar.

Y is still the same, business is booming, the boss is busy with dating, leaving the place to the little bartender.He ordered wine and went to a very corner place. He didn't look for Qu Yiheng, nor did he want to look for anyone else.

He just wanted to sit in the crowd for a while and look at this colorful world as an outsider. He watched the little bartender come over with drinks, watched people in twos and threes gather together to chat and drink, and watched two people kiss from the moment they entered the door. The world is both real and unreal.

He sent a message to Qu Yiheng: If I lose my job, how will you support me?

At that time, Qu Yiheng's mobile phone was in the living room, and he was drawing in the bedroom. He didn't see the message, and when he saw it, it was already before going to bed at night.

He suddenly became worried and had a bad premonition that something might happen to Yao Zhan.

Ever since Yao Zhan's mother came, Qu Yiheng was afraid to call Yao Zhan again, he had to send a message to ask if it was convenient for the two to talk.

He sent a message, and Yao Zhan called.

"It's okay," Yao Zhan said, "It's just that there have been too many things at work recently, and I'm tired. I've done enough."

Qu Yiheng laughed at him: "Why do you look like a child?"

"How are you doing?" Yao Zhan asked, "I haven't bothered you recently, isn't it progressing quickly?"

It was really fast, Qu Yiheng felt that the painting was drawn faster than he expected, and the effect was better than expected.

"Do you want to come and see?" Qu Yiheng made up his mind, and the two of them haven't seen each other for another three days.

In the past, I didn't see or think about it several times in 15 years, but now, I can't think about it if I don't see each other for three days.

"Okay," Yao Zhan said, "Sunday, I'll call you before I go."

Yao Zhan said he would come on Sunday, but Qu Yiheng didn't wait for Yao Zhan, he waited for Yao Zhan's mother.

Because Yao Zhan said he would come over on Sunday, Qu Yiheng thought, no matter how long the other party took, he had to be prepared.

So, Qu Yiheng, who hadn't gone out for several days, went to the supermarket, bought ingredients, took a shower after returning, and prepared himself from inside to outside, and waited for Yao Zhan to eat the meal before eating this "meal" .

In the afternoon, Yao Zhan sent a message suddenly, saying that he was called by his work unit again, but he should be back in a few hours, and he promised to come back at night.

Qu Yiheng would not be angry, but a little disappointed, he let the other party work with peace of mind, and he replied: I will wait for you.

When Yao Zhan saw this news, he remembered that when the two of them were not together before, Qu Yiheng also stayed up late at night and waited in the living room until midnight.

It feels so good to have someone waiting for me. No matter how many bad things are going on outside, when I think of that person waiting for me, I feel that nothing is so difficult.

Yao Zhan went to work, and not long after he left, Yao Zhan's mother also went out.

It was not far from Yao Zhan's house to Qu Yiheng's house, and Yao Zhan's mother found it easily.

Or how can I say that women's investigative ability is quite powerful, as long as women want to investigate, there is nothing that cannot be found.

She went upstairs and knocked on the door, and the person inside asked, "Hello, who is there?"

She was right, and said directly: "Yao Zhan's mother."

Qu Yiheng was unprepared for this, he stood there in a daze and even forgot to open the door.

Yao Zhan's mother was waiting impatiently, and knocked on the door: "Aren't you going to open the door for me?"

Qu Yiheng came back to his senses, and quickly opened the door.

This was the second time they met, and Qu Yiheng still clearly remembered how embarrassing the scene of the last meeting was.

He nervously looked at the person standing outside the door, and said timidly, "Auntie, why are you here?"

Yao Zhan's mother had no expression on her face, and asked him, "Just stand at the door and say?"

Qu Yiheng quickly turned sideways to let her in, closed the door and said, "I'll pour you some water."

Yao Zhan's mother entered the house and looked around.

The house is pretty clean, and there is a cookbook on the coffee table.

She asked, "Your name is Qu Yiheng?"

Qu Yiheng took the water, gently placed it on the coffee table in front of her, and put away the recipes and a few books that were left randomly.

"Yes." Qu Yiheng replied honestly, "My name is Qu Yiheng."

Yao Zhan's mother looked up at him: "Sit down and talk, I'm not here to quarrel, so don't be afraid."

This is obviously at his own home, but Qu Yiheng feels uncomfortable all over.

He sat on the small sofa next to him, not daring to look at her.

"how did you guys meet?"

"Secondary school students."

"It will be good then?"

Qu Yiheng thought, it shouldn't count.

"No." He replied, "Auntie, I know it's not good for us, but..."

"Don't tell me that first, you answer what I ask."

Her tone is very similar to Qu Yiheng's teacher when he was in school, very majestic and scary.

Qu Yiheng was a little afraid of strangers, but now the atmosphere made him a little short of breath.

"Have you ever been gay?"

Qu Yiheng lowered his head slightly, and said softly, "Yes."

"How did you two get on? How long has it been?"

Every question made Qu Yiheng so nervous that his palms sweated. It was impossible for him to say that he and Yao Zhan started as pao friends. If he said it, Yao Zhan's mother would probably have a worse impression of him.

No matter how things will develop in the future, and no matter whether the other party will accept him in the end, he hopes that he can at least have a good image in front of others.

Qu Yiheng thought for a while, and decided to answer evasively.

"A middle school classmate of ours passed away a few months ago, and I came here to attend the funeral." Qu Yiheng said, "We met that day, and then we got in touch."

"Isn't your family here?" Yao Zhan's mother was a little surprised.

"It was originally here," Qu Yiheng replied truthfully, "Our family moved out after the college entrance examination, and I just moved back a while ago."

Why did she suddenly decide to move back? Yao Zhan's mother felt that there was no need to ask. He must have come here because of her son.

Sitting here is also uncomfortable for her, she can feel that the child in front of her is a good person, but if it is a girl, she will directly make the decision to let the two get married, but this is a man, what can the two men do? Woolen cloth?

In the past few days, she has been checking up about homosexuality on the Internet every day. The country does not support it, and there is no guarantee. Now they are together on impulse, what will they do in the future?Later, I regretted it and wanted to separate, but I also delayed each other.

Yao Zhan's mother was upset. She taught Yao Zhan when the child was very young. As a man, he has to be responsible. Now that he is here, he came here for him. His face was slapped.

These days, she has been very resolute, but Yao Zhan is in a bad mood every day, and she can feel it.

At the very beginning, she couldn't accept it at all, her mind exploded, and she couldn't calm down no matter what.

Ugly words have been said, ugly things have been done, Yao Zhan is forced to not want to go home, can she be comfortable?

As soon as the child went to work, she called her husband and cried. On the other side of the phone, Yao Zhan's father was more angry than her. He said that he was going to clean up this useless son, but she was stopped, and she said to talk and see.

Yao Zhan is very determined, breaking up is not an option, she thought, otherwise, she should start here.

She followed her son one day and saw him coming here. It was easy to find him, but it was very difficult to speak harshly to this child.

Some people are like this, so that when you see them, you can't bear to hurt them.

"What do you do?" Yao Zhan's mother asked, "If you don't want the job over there, you don't want it?"

Qu Yiheng: "I'm a freelancer."

"Freelance?" To Yao Zhan's mother, this means jobless people.

"Well, I'm a painter." Qu Yiheng said, "I usually receive some manuscripts from publishing houses, and recently I'm preparing to participate in an exhibition application."

Yao Zhan's mother thought of the painting hanging on the wall of Yao Zhan's study, a man without clothes, quite big, shameless.

"You painted the painting in Yao Zhan's study?"

Qu Yiheng blushed immediately, he was a little annoyed, he should give Yao Zhan a more "elegant" painting.

"Yes……"

Yao Zhan's mother turned her face away helplessly, and then asked, "Then how much do you earn a month? Is this house rented or bought?"

"One month... Not very stable, sometimes more and sometimes less, but eating is still not a problem." Qu Yiheng forced himself to talk more, while talking, his heart beat so fast that he gasped, "This is a rented place. , but I have a house over there, which is now rented out, which just offsets the rent here."

Yao Zhan's mother looked at him, and finally said: "Son, I'm not talking about you. If you find a girl to marry on this condition, her parents may not agree. There is nothing you want, and you don't have a stable job. Tell me, if you really marry Yao Zhan How will you two live together in the future? Are you counting on his little salary?"

"Auntie, I can make money." Qu Yiheng frowned, "I don't need him to support me."

"That's what I said, but how much money can you make by painting? I've heard it a long time ago that the poorest are writers and painters. It's okay for you to be young now, but what about the future? Are the two old men drinking northwest wind?"

The more Qu Yiheng listened, the more uncomfortable he felt. He knew that he should be more polite to Yao Zhan's mother, and he could just listen to what the other party said, but this made him feel too uncomfortable.

"Auntie, I'm not a parasite, and I didn't rely on Yao Zhan to find someone to support me. I really love him, otherwise I wouldn't have come to him more than 1000 kilometers away." When Qu Yiheng said these words, Ben He thought he would be very wronged, but unexpectedly, he was unexpectedly happy. He had never told anyone about the matter between him and Yao Zhan. He always gave others the feeling that he was a soft persimmon. Today, this soft persimmon finally Tough again.

Qu Yiheng said: "You're right, my conditions are not good, but no matter how bad my conditions are, Yao Zhan still loves me. I can work hard to make money, and he is also working hard. We are now in our 30s, and the future of life is still very bright. Chang, just because I failed now, doesn’t mean I will fail in the future.”

He stood up, looked at the woman in front of him, and said, "Auntie, I know that you came to tell me all this because of Yao Zhan. In fact, we are the same. We all love him and wish him well. I would like to ask him What kind of life do I want to choose, I am willing to give up my original life for him, and I am willing to accept everything about him, whether it is good or bad, for no other reason than because I love him. I love him, so he No matter what, I love him and support him. I believe you love him too. In this case, why can’t you accept him as he is? He is gay and just likes men. Even if I break up with him today, it is impossible for him to like him Woman, this is the truth, this is him, your son, since you love him, why can't you try to accept it?"

The author has something to say: there is another chapter in the afternoon