Expectation

He seemed to smile inexplicably.

No, rather than saying that the meaning is unclear, it is better to say that it is a cruel smile that mocks my self-proclaimed sentimentality.Depressed and sad, I peeked at his fleeting expressions from the corner of my eye.

"Then tonight at seven o'clock, see you at the coffee shop opposite the Ginza." He put his hands in his pockets, said casually, and raised his eyebrows as if remembering something, "It's okay if you miss the appointment." There was a smile in his voice, but gradually became cold and vicious. "After all... there is only one chance."

"no problem."

What has been decided should be done without regret. This is my creed.

After class in the afternoon, I trot home. I took out my knee-length skirt and changed into a coat.Self-comforting cotton leggings are warmer than ordinary pants, and if there is something urgent to run, it will not be slow.

Then she slowly sipped her lipstick before stepping on small wedge heel boots to get out of the door.

This is probably the same as the usual me.I still hold a little thought in my heart.When I met Zhu Xingda on weekdays, I didn’t have any plans. These days are fine, and I still have some tricks every day. When I was in the organization, I wore a white coat and a mask every day... It was really unfriendly to girls.

I'm not pretty if I don't even admit that it's me.Because she also works in the laboratory, Sherry next door has a refined temperament even if she wears a white coat without makeup every day, sips black tea and ticks off the experimental records.But I was on the contrary, the coffee was poured like tap water, and I was carrying dark circles every day like a primitive man who came out of the ground.

God is so unfair.

I sat in the taxi in a daze, staring at the people coming and going outside the car window unconsciously, but what came to my mind was the first time I met him.

That was when my mother had just died.

It probably said "I'm going to the next street to buy some daily necessities", so I took the opportunity to throw away the pen and paper, wanting to take a little sleep before she came back.

It seemed like I had slept the longest sleep since I was born. When I opened my eyes satisfied, I found that the moon had shone through the high windows in the room, but there was no light in the room.The door was slightly opened, and there were swaying figures in the living room.

At that time, I was still thinking that this woman was really getting more and more crazy, and she actually started dancing without turning on the lights in the middle of the night, and the joy of having a good night's sleep in my heart was drowned by the deep burnout in my heart.

"Hey, old lady, what are you doing..."

When I opened the door, I realized that it wasn't the dancing figure that was shaking, but her dead body with wide-eyed eyes.She was just hanging on the chandelier, her face was blue and purple, and there was a smile on her lips.

A thin piece of paper fell to the ground, with no address or password on it, only a short sentence.

"Burn it."

Since there was no contact information for the organization, I happily called 110 with a blank face.It was a gentle uncle named Akai, followed by a boy who looked very similar but had a particularly smelly fart.

What a strange scene they were talking about. The fingerprints were wiped clean, and the chair fell to the ground. The uncle observed carefully, and then said to the boy, "Although there are signs of struggle, since the room has not been woken up The little sister in Li should be a subconscious action when people suffocate."

"It's too clean..." the boy murmured.

"Yes, he killed, but there is no trace of the second person. Suicide, there is no need to do it so cleanly."

They glanced at me, but stopped talking.

I watched them carry him away without crying or fussing.Maybe it's because it looks so weird, the bratty kid came over and said hesitantly, "...Hey, don't be sad."

sad?I'm too happy to be happy.

"Hey...don't cry." He said helplessly, as if he wanted to touch my head.I dodged subconsciously before realizing what he said.

I cried?

I touched my cheek and realized that it seemed that I had been crying all the time.

Without clues, the police decided it was suicide.I don’t remember all those cumbersome inquiries. I only remember the eleven or twelve-year-old boy pressing his hat, “…I hope you get better.” He looked at my disdainful expression, and hastily added He said, "Good things always come."

He rubbed the hair on the top of my head, "Come on."

Just as he was leaving, I hesitated for a long time, and still grabbed the corner of his clothes.

"Thank you."

I said in an inaudible voice.

After watching them go, the "aunt" in the organization took me out of here.It seems that brother Akai originally asked if he could take me away, but he gave up because of the appearance of this aunt.Ha, so he also has naive moments.

I burned my mother's messy things, and fulfilled her wish to turn her into a small square box.Pretending to be placed inside the apartment where I lived later.In fact, I poured the powder into the toilet and flushed it clean.

Anyway, every drop of water can finally flow into the sea, isn't that the romantic feeling you like.I thought so viciously.If anything else, it's that I don't want a woman who wants to see the aurora and penguins tethered to a 24 hour monitor.It should be because of the burning of my mother's relics. The organization has been refusing to relax its monitoring of me.

Year by year.After all... "Good things always happen."

This is my personal secret.

Even Akai Shuichi himself probably forgot about that girl.

What's more, now I'm no longer a fool who doesn't understand anything with a cold face.

But....that is the light that sets life flowing long and still.That was the first time I came into contact with it. It turns out that there is such a thing as "happiness" in the lives of ordinary people.I can never forget.

So after many years, even if the warm and innocent boy back then has become so cold and mysterious, I can still recognize him at a glance.

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