[HP] Raven

Talk about characters and endings

Sirius

I once said in "The Star That Never Falls" that Leslie thought he was a flawed and dazzling man.

Sirius is an imperfect hero, dazzling and tormenting, an easy character for readers to like, but also a hard one to love in real life.In my opinion, the biggest characteristic of Sirius is that he is right and wrong in every step, but he is confused about small things, because he doesn't take small things to heart at all, he doesn't care.For example, he mocked Bella at the end of "Order of the Phoenix", his attitude towards Kreacher, and so on.When he was young, he certainly didn't take the love of his children as a big deal, so he was also confused about feelings.

He is too straightforward, black and white, decisively chose the former in ideal and love, and gave up the latter.Sirius is destined to be a hero, born with justice, with a pure to cruel divinity in him.But for such a hero, love is not so important at certain junctures, especially when love becomes like an obstacle preventing him from moving forward, it is even less important, even a bit of an eyesore.When Sirius wanted to get rid of all shackles and move forward to his dream, the love between him and Alex became an obstacle. He didn't even hesitate for long when making a decision, not to mention that Alex could study black Magic, and what he dislikes most is black magic.He was too young and energetic at the time, had never experienced the hardships of love, and didn't know what he missed.By the time you realize it, it's too late.

Sirius did love Alex's.The relationship between them is very pure and passionate. Puppylove, and they are very well-matched in appearance, both are betrayers of pure-blood families, and they are both very talented wizards.But he doesn't necessarily accept Alex, he just accepts her kind, smart, out of place in the mainstream Slytherin group, but that's not all of Alex.He might not really be able to continue loving her when she showed her true Slytherin side.

My friends and I often say that he is really Blake, and that he can pursue what he believes in at any cost.Sirius is born righteous, open and aboveboard, and his heart is positive, so he has the spirit and heart of a hero.He is a star born to point the way.But he also had a dark, extreme side, and he didn't think about Lupine at all when he tricked Snape into going to the Shrieking Shack.And, to some extent, he has a side of contempt for life.It's not that James doesn't dislike Snape, they are still rivals in a sense, but he knows he can't let people die.Whether Sirius didn't consider the consequences, or felt that it didn't matter if Snape died, this matter represented a bad side of his character.This is his shortcoming, but it also makes him more real.Sirius is an imperfect hero.

Also talk about his family of origin.His parents didn't accept him as a Gryffindor, and Sirius didn't like them either.Like anyone, he longs for love and understanding.James' parents were very kind to him, and he never forgot.He was also very nice to Harry.Sirius can survive without love, but if there is love, he needs a lot of love to maintain it, because he is not a child who grew up loved by his family.He has his loneliness that others cannot understand.He needs to be saved, and Alex needs to be saved. They can't pull each other out of their respective abysses.

Alex

Alex is a character I made, and I really, really like her.At the beginning, because I wanted to write Lion and Snake too much, and in order to make the characters more realistic, I borrowed a lot of Snape's character design: half-blood, potion genius, black magic lover and melancholy to be a little pessimistic character.I swore that I could write HE, but in fact it just proved my self-confidence and stupidity again.I didn't realize until halfway through the writing that she and Sirius were destined to be unable to HE.From the hardware, it is impossible for Alex to get Sirius' complete love.Getting his love requires a threshold, and she will never be able to reach it.

Alex is a combination of her parents, her father passed on her obsession with love, and her mother gave her the ability to feel warmth.However, her mother died young, and her father himself was not mature enough to continue to be a good father after losing his wife.So Alex, like her father, has been living in the longing for her mother. She longs for love, but she is very timid, cowardly, cautious, always passive, and not good at expressing her love.My gay friend keeps telling me that Sirius has no idea how much Alex cares about him, and it does.

This kind of native family makes it easy for her to regress psychologically when facing Sirius, but she is also very attached to him, because everything Sirius does is something she dare not do, he is too special.She is easily short in front of him and easily hurt by him. She is too eager to get his love.This kind of attachment is unhealthy, it can even be said to be pathological. A truly healthy relationship should require eye level, but she can't look him up.So she loved Sirius very hard, consuming herself until the end of her life.

It was precisely because of this morbid relationship that ended tragically that she was able to truly face Regulus directly.Alex has looked at Regulus at the same level from the beginning, and he is psychologically equal to her.When she was a student, she loved Sirius without realizing it, but when they met again after graduation, his love could not be hidden for a long time.But Alex felt that Regulus believed in pure blood, and it was impossible for him to have sexual feelings for her, so she was happy to admit that she didn't.She is very passive emotionally, and she must be affirmed by others before she can respond, otherwise she must be celibate all her life.My thought is that it wasn't too late for her to start liking Regulus, otherwise why would she turn back when Regulus let her go the first time?She just habitually thinks that she doesn't love anyone. For her, love is losing. She has already lost once, and she dare not love again. Can't let him go completely.Only after Sirius had acted that he had given up on her completely (even though he didn't) and Regulus had proved himself time and time again, could she face herself.And this kind of love saved him and her after he woke up.

Of course, being able to fall in love with Alex is actually a very lucky thing, because Alex is a very delicate person, sensitive to emotions, and treats feelings seriously and persistently. She is a loyal and affectionate person. spouse.She and Sirius had nothing to do with each other because of her personality and because of a trick of luck. After going around in circles, she still found her destined lover.

Regulus

There are very few descriptions of Regulus in the original book, which is pitiful, but it also gives me the opportunity to interpret him in the way I like.

First off, it has to be said that he was (was) a pure-blood.I don't know if he changed his mind about pure blood supremacy when he died for the locket, or if he just wanted to rebel against Voldemort, a thug who was too cruel.In my interpretation, his pure-blood thoughts come from his parents, and also from his personal elitism.He felt that pure blood accumulated more social wealth and resources, so it was easier to cultivate elites.But ability is also important, otherwise why would he follow Voldemort who is extremely capable instead of Crabbe and Goyle (Shut up

In this article, this idea of ​​pure blood supremacy has been shaken when he met Alex, because Alex is a very good mixed blood, so good that he admires him.He couldn't deny what he felt was right, so he accepted the fact that "Alex is a good half-breed" and gave her a reason - Alex was different from other half-breeds.And the double standard is just the beginning of love.Lily is Gryffindor, but Snape thinks Lily is different from other Gryffindors, the reason is similar.

He had liked Alex very early, the kind of admiration and involuntary closeness that he expressed in his youth, and finally converged into love, much earlier than his brother.But he never put it into words. It stems from his introverted and conservative feelings toward his youth, from the obscurity and imperceptibility of love itself, and also from his family's obsession with pure blood.He and Alex are more like some sort of tacit undercurrent.But whether the undercurrent can break through the silence depends on nature.In the "Why Ravens Fall in Love with Black Dogs" ending, he was too late.But in the ending of the original text, I think he deserves a chance to fight back, because he is a more loving and tolerant person, and he can save Alex.

Part of the reason he and Alex ended up being able to HE is also because they were able to be themselves around each other.Regulus was able to accept Alex, and Alex tolerated Regulus.The mode of getting along between them is more comfortable and more like the mode of lovers.I didn't want him to live after the locket in the first place, I thought he would go to Alex before he died and say "I'm scared" out of nowhere and Alex would tell He, "I'm scared too", and then both of them will cry, and the shallow relationship between them is over.But my friend told me, don’t you think this kind of feeling, if it can’t be called love, must be higher than love?I was silent.Sharing tears is more important than sharing laughter, because laughter belongs to everyone, but tears only stay with lovers.Then I just... started working on the outline.

Finally, talk about the original ending. "Why does the raven fall in love with the black dog?"

Why does the raven fall in love with the black dog?This question is originally unsolvable, because people cannot explain why they fall in love with another person.No why.

This ending is really (one of) the endings I had planned.The tragedy of Aspros is an extension of the tragedy of a love triangle.He grew up under the indifferent care of Mrs. Everly, unable to feel the warmth of his family, so he was full of love for his mother who died young, and he relied on this love to survive.And Alex really loves him.Aspulos had a sad childhood, living in mourning for his mother, unable to extricate himself.

Sirius has been mourning for Alex after her death. Alex made him feel lonely and painful. He couldn't get out of this pain, so he had to choose to ignore it, get married and have children, and fill everything with a noisy and warm family.Until Lily did a bad thing with good intentions - she would definitely regret telling Sirius about the existence of Aspulos later.But that's what she did at the time, and she wanted Sirius to treat this lonely and poor child well, because he didn't treat Alex well, and she thought Sirius would make it up to this child.But Lily underestimated Alex's influence on Sirius, Sirius has been unable to face Alex, whether it is her undying love for him, or her death, or the constant relationship between her and his brother. Yes, ambiguous and confusing rumors.So he was destined not to be able to face this child directly.He couldn't treat him as warmly as an orphan.

And his son is still a Slytherin.I discussed with my friend whether Sirius really suspected that Aspros was not his.I said no, it was just his angry words.My friend said yes, because he didn’t believe that his own son would be Slytherin, and subconsciously wanted to deny it, but he also knew that Alex loved him with all his strength, so he was very contradictory, but he still had So a little shaken, and Alex didn't say who the father of the child is, no one can say clearly, there is no proof.This answer is really hurtful, but I think it does make sense.Sirius was too extreme with the faculties, and his ideal son, if he existed, should be like Harry.Anyway, it wouldn't be Slytherin. From this point on, the relationship between him and Aspros was doomed to be a tragedy.

All the negativity that Aspulos got from Sirius' side disappeared after he found out about Regulus' love for Alex.Regulus was his ideal father, because he loved Alex and couldn't help but accept that Aspulos was a Slytherin - and Regulus was Slytherin.Aspoulos inherited Alex's obsession with love, and he always assumed the role of mother to choose a lover for her.Everything left by Regulus proved his love for Alex, so he chose Regulus.And Regulus' letter was indeed very vague, and Aspulos was willing to believe that he was his son.This vision satisfies him and makes him happy.

Then Sirius' words hurt Aspulos again.Sirius' "Yeah, that's enough" subtly hurt the three people present in different ways.He himself couldn't admit the fact that Regulus loved Alex more - he also knew that he was not a qualified lover, so he used this sentence as a painful psychological defense, but his heart was also bleeding.Lily was angry because she didn't know Regulus' feelings for Alex. She felt that Sirius was slandering Alex's infidelity and fickleness out of nothing, and everyone knew that Alex was not such a person. Feel bad for Alex.Aspros felt that this was Sirius' abandonment of him, but he was not worthy of being his father, so what right did he have to abandon him?He was angry at his mother's infatuation back then, and his self-esteem was also hurt.

Aspoulos went to Mrs. Everly in last hope, and got the most painful answer.Sirius was indeed his father, and Sirius was the one who didn't love Alex enough.Aspros has been substituting himself for Alex, he wants to get a warm family, parents love and love him, and then he is disappointed again and again until despair.

The character of Aspros is indeed a combination of Sirius and Alex, he is very persistent—never willing to give up the pursuit of the truth of the year, very brave—he went up to a duel with Bella at the age of 15, very loyal— He defends his mother who died young very much. What is full of sense of fate is that he also hates his own origin, just like Sirius back then.If people could choose their origin, Sirius would probably choose the Potters without hesitation, and Aspros would choose Regulus and Alex.But people cannot choose their parents, all of this is an established fact, which can only be accepted and cannot be changed.And he, like Alex, can get into a dead end.Alex hoped that he would not suffer for his life experience. She hoped that he would enjoy life happily with all that he had left for him. Life is a very precious thing, but he couldn't do it.Because he is her son, the problems she couldn't figure out back then, left to her son, also can't figure it out.Aspoulos didn't know that he could not worry about his life experience, he didn't have this option in his mind.

In the end, desperate Aspulos wanted to prove that no one could hurt him again, and he became the Dark Lord.But he found that no matter how powerful he gained, he couldn't get rid of the pain of the past, and every day was a new torture for him.So he took revenge on Sirius with his own life.He asked Sirius, if Alex could really see all this, would she hate him?The beauty of this question is that nothing can be explained.Because Alex is dead.Aspulos' short and bitter life was filled with too many unresolved questions.Did Alex regret her choice in the end?Would she hate him if she knew what happened afterwards?Why does the raven fall in love with the black dog?These unanswerable questions pushed Aspulos step by step into the bottomless abyss.He self-destructed in the same way his mother did, dying of a broken heart, at 21, an age that should have been hopeful.

PS: The follow-up will continue to update RA's episode, "The Black Family in Austria"