beauty and money

Benest's face suddenly turned pale, his hands were even trembling slightly, Mary frowned, feeling sad in her heart, is Grace really his important person?

I saw Benest lowering his head, and suddenly stretched out his hand to grab Mary's hand, not the whole palm, but lightly grabbed her fingertips like a child. Mary's fingers were cold and dry, like Marble sculpture is generally rigid.

"Mary, would you like to hear about my past?" Benest asked, looking somber than Mary had ever seen him.The Benest that Mary knew before was a cheerful fellow, whether he was embarrassed or embarrassed, he was always foolishly happy.

They were across the table, and Benest looked at her with that melancholy and fragile look, no, maybe not at her, but through her to see the distant past.Mary also looked at him, then nodded, she would like to hear Benest's explanation.

With permission, Benest began telling his story with Grace.

"Grace is the daughter of my father's friend. Although people prefer to call my father's friend a housekeeper, I know that there is a deep friendship between my father and Grace's father, which cannot be described in such simple words. We Growing up together, childhood sweethearts..."

The Benest family was originally a "big noble" who lived in the town, and they might be the only local nobles. Their ancestors had the mayor, brigadier general, etc., and their heyday can be traced back to the Middle Ages. lord of the land.But there used to be a very deep divide between Scotland and England, even now, it can be said to be very clear.

After the glory of the Middle Ages, the Benest family quickly declined. Their family members were always related to indiscretion and scandals. They were actually illegitimate children, as evidenced by their flaming red hair.The original heir to the Benest family, that is, the generation of Mr. Benest's great-grandfather was very romantic. He gave birth to many illegitimate children outside, but it may be because of punishment or as others have rumored, it was Benest. His great-grandfather murdered the other heirs, and inherited the Benest family by bloody means. Since then, all the people in the Benest family have red hair, which they think is blood-stained.

In any case, the Benest family has been tainted with uncleanness since then, and each generation is an illegitimate child who inherits the title and land, and the red hair of the Benest family becomes more and more dazzling. By the generation of the young Benest, Their hair was as red as fire.It is widely believed that the bastard inheritance thing will happen again.

Benest closed his eyes tightly, took Mary's hand with both hands, and mourned as if he was confessing in a church: "I told you once, I was not happy when I was a child. I was often beaten and tortured, and I lived like a servant. Life, actually it’s not because we don’t have anything at home.”

Mary watched him take a breath and had a premonition in her heart until he said: "Because I am an illegitimate child, I am a child born to my father and a maid. Of course, when I was young, I didn't know, because When I realized the truth, Mrs. Benest had passed away, and I didn't know my real life experience. Perhaps, it was because my father didn't want to bear those infamy, so he lied to me." Speaking of this, Benest once Choked up, and when he mentioned his childhood life, he felt extremely painful.

After calming down for a while, Benest forced a smile, which was even uglier than crying.

"Mary, I don't deserve you. You are such a good person, but I lied to you." This is the inferiority complex that Benest has always hidden. He even felt that he married Mary by deception.

Mary didn't speak, and she didn't know what to say, so she let Benest hold her hand, and then shook him lightly.

Suddenly Benest stood up, held Mary tightly in his arms, and muttered to himself: "I don't want to lose you, forgive me..."

Mary was hugged tightly by him, unable to break free, she just said softly: "I don't forgive you." At that moment, Benest's face turned pale, "Because, there is nothing wrong with you, people cannot choose their own origin. However, I hope that we can be honest with each other in the future." Mary pulled out her hand and hugged Benest's waist, and the two of them clinged to each other as if they were dancing.

"Of course, I will never lie to you in the future."

"Then hurry up and tell me about Grace." Mary has been brooding over Grace's matter.

Benest rested his chin on Marie's shoulder so she couldn't see his face, tears streaming from his green eyes, but Benest smiled and said, "It's about to be."

"You let me go first."

"Let me finish first..." Otherwise, he might not have the courage.

The two hugged each other in this posture, and Benest choked up and talked about Grace.

As he said, because he was actually an illegitimate child, his childhood was not happy. The two elder brothers regarded him as an enemy, beat, scolded and humiliated him frequently, and treated him like a servant, but their father ignored him and pretended nothing happened.On the outside, they are a decent and friendly family, but at home they are another look.

Benest grew up freely in the wasteland like every child from a poor family, but he is not as good as them, because they still have love when they return home, but they only have pain for him.In his miserable childhood, the only consolation was Grace, she played and played with him, and then he vowed to marry Grace when he grew up.

The wind on the wilderness did not break Benest. After growing up, he was handsome and innocent, just like an elf.And Grace is beautiful and charming, people called Sai Tianxian, at that time she was the most popular girl at all country dances, and also the dream girl in the hearts of all boys, he loved her madly, and wished to give all the good things in the world Give it all to her.

Mary listened to Benest talking about his love with another woman, and felt bitter in her heart, but she did not interrupt Benest, and Benest also changed from sweetness to pain.He could hardly tell the rest of the story, especially to Mary, his wife.

However, he still described it in as simple words as possible. He said that he thought they were in love, sweet, and happy, and he mentioned to his father that he wanted to marry Grace, but his father's expression was very bad at that time. She scolded Grace, who was usually gentle and gentle, saying that she was just a servant's daughter, how could she be worthy of the young master of the Benest family.There was a world of difference between them, and his father applied directly for Benest to a boys' high school in London, when he was only 15 years old.

Young romantic and impulsive, he went to Grace, but she did not elope with Benest. She said that she was pregnant and it was impossible to leave Benest.

As if struck by lightning, Benest became extremely angry instantly. He pushed Grace to the ground, causing the other party to miscarry.Then, what he faced was his father's whipping, he cursed, he killed his child!It turned out that the child in Grace's belly was his father's!At that moment, this double betrayal made him so painful that he even wanted to take his own life.But what surprised him even more was that his father wanted to marry Grace, his sweetheart, the daughter of his young Mu Ai, who wanted to become his stepmother.

At this time, the two elder brothers stood up to object. They first conspired to send their father to the lunatic asylum, and then drove out Grace's family. At that time, he was dazzled by anger and hatred, and ignored Grace's pleading.Instead, he ruthlessly got on the carriage to London, not wanting to see his former lover again.

After wandering in London for a few years, he got the news of the old Benest's death. When he came back to prepare to divide the inheritance, the two elder brothers revealed the evidence of his illegitimate child, whether it was the testimony of the midwife or the testimony of the midwife. The confessions of the insiders were undeniable, but out of sympathy, they gave him some bad land that could not be paid for, a large stretch of wilderness and rocky beaches, and this dilapidated farm.

"What about Grace? How did she get kicked out?"

"People used to call her Sai Tianxian, but now they call her a crazy woman. She is now living in a monastery in the town. It is said to be a monastery, but it is actually a place where lunatics or suspected lunatics are detained. They think that the children she aborted It’s mine, everyone thinks so, thinks I should be responsible and marry Grace.” Benest closed his eyes and gritted his teeth: “No matter who it is, as long as it’s not from my family, no matter who makes her pregnant , I can marry her, because I love her, madly in love, painful in love. However, she just..."

Mary felt that her embrace was getting tighter and tighter, as if she wanted to integrate her into his flesh and blood, with resentment and pain, and very complicated emotions. She knew that she should find a way to make him forget about Grace, but, How about being yourself?So painful, so loved, how could it be forgotten.

"Then do you still love her?"

Benest was silent for a long time, then said: "I don't know, I don't feel sweet when I think of her, I just feel pain, but the feeling is really deep enough, sometimes I hate her, sometimes I pity her, sometimes I feel indebted to her, I killed her child, my brother. She left a wound in my heart, and sometimes I wish she died so I could forgive her with the memory of the dead. The torture of some people." This may be the most profound philosophical words Benest has ever said in his life, but this experience is heart-wrenching.

Finally, Benest let go of Mary, and he said to Mary: "Now, my love is only for you, because of you, I will not continue to live like a piece of mud. In fact, I never want to go back to this place again." place, but I still hope to take the people I love to my hometown. Although it is painful, it is the place where I was born, I hate it, but I am affected by it, I hate it, but in my dream I will think about it. Actually, I didn’t like you at first, because you were ugly and had a bad temper..." As he spoke, Benes actually smiled, bitter but sweet. "This is all my secrets. I know that when I come back here, you will know one day. Instead of letting you guess from rumors, it's better for me to tell you everything."

From being sour at the beginning to being relieved now, Mary's heart has also opened.So she said to Benest: "Actually, I also have a story to tell you, it's very long, about me, the person I loved, the person who made me wait sweetly, but made me embarrassed. You see Passed him, Mr. Thomas Young, do you remember?"

"Remember, that arrogant fellow."

"Arrogance indeed, but I had a crush on him, as you said, madly in love..." So Mary told him her story, of course, she was not ready to share the secrets about Oxford with him yet.

After she finished talking about Mr. Yang, she asked, "Will you care?"

"No." Benes gritted his teeth secretly.

"Oh, then I'm relieved, in fact, there is still a period..."

"What? There are more? I'm the only one, and you still have them."

"Then what can I do, I can't control my heart."

"Who is that person?" Benest was envious.

"Collins... my cousin, who was young..."

"Okay, who else?"

"and also……"

"and also?"

"Yes, not too much love, but someone who is ready to love."

Benest gasped for breath when he heard this, grunting like an old cow.

"It's you!"