beauty and money

At the end of the social season, Mrs. Bennet still hadn't found a suitable husband for her daughter. Not even a gentleman showed an attitude towards Mary that could be detected by the sensitive Mrs. Bennet. You know how terrible this lady is. Forward-looking, she is good at discovering the ambiguity between men and women that sometimes even they themselves have not noticed.Maybe she is vain and superficial, but it is undeniable that she is an expert in matters of love, otherwise she would not be able to marry Mr. Bennet when she was young, and successfully concealed her own shortcomings with her beautiful appearance, making Banner Mr. Te combined with her and found out that she was superficial. It is undeniable that he did fall under Mrs. Bennet's pomegranate skirt, but when he found that her superficiality and vanity did not produce an heir, this love was dismissed It wears off, but Mrs. Bennet knew very well as a maiden how to fascinate a gentleman, even to the point of cataracts, and ignore all faults.

Although she had a quarrel with Mary in London before and said inappropriate remarks in a fit of anger, she had regrets in her heart, but parents usually do not admit their mistakes to their children, this is not out of face or other things, it is It is because parents do not want to show their clumsiness, incompetence, impulsiveness, etc. in front of their children. They think that their decisions should and must be recognized and implemented by their children. Their desire to control lies in the manipulation of their children's marriage. It's almost scary, they refuse to admit the object they are not satisfied with, even if their children love each other deeply, and for the object they admit, even if that person is a complete jerk and leads to the misfortune of marriage, they will refuse to admit that they want children because of some kind of psychology Maintain this kind of marriage and find a way to prove that their decision is not a mistake, and the two will be happy after working together.

The sad thing is that although Mrs. Bennet doesn't think too much about the candidate for her son-in-law, as long as she is not too bad, she can catch the eye with a good appearance, and if she has property, it will be the icing on the cake. A woman with extraordinary beauty and perseverance, especially the sons-in-law are all good-looking talents. Although Kitty's husband is not satisfactory in age, and he is not handsome, but he is charming, he handles things very properly and abides by the old-fashioned rules In principle, people who are not adventurous will not cause trouble.She was on the whole very pleased with the marriages of her daughters, and she was particularly fond of her lovely Lydia's husband, who was very handsome and handsome.If her other sons-in-law knew that the mother-in-law's most satisfied son-in-law turned out to be this pompous guy, they might dismissively mock her.

However, after returning from London, Mary began her passive resistance, and she hardly spoke. Yes, Mary is not a talkative girl, but she is still willing to discuss some books with her mother. Of course, this is just to pass the time. She never expects Mrs. Bennet will listen and respond, and Mrs. Bennet will also talk to Mary about hats, lace, the identities of various characters, comment on their tastes, and so on.But of course the two mothers and daughters can't listen to each other's words, they will always be absent-minded when the other party speaks but pretend to be listening.But now Mary doesn't even bother to listen and talk like this, her face is expressionless, as if she is full of resentment.

And Mrs. Bennet was also holding back her anger. She decided that if Mary didn't speak first on the way back, she wouldn't speak first either.The awkward atmosphere of the mother and daughter made Uncle Gardiner, who was escorting them back to Meryton, very uncomfortable. He tried to talk to the mother and daughter, but they talked to him independently, but any conversation involving the needs of the two Be silent.

Fortunately, this difficult journey is finally over. When Mary returns home, she locks herself in her room and buys a lot of books for herself. She almost spends all her savings. , seems to be the product of the owner's random selection without consideration.In the next few days, unless she had meals, Mary was almost an invisible person in the family. Of course, she was almost an invisible person when the four sisters were not married, but she would occasionally play the piano.Now almost a hermit, Mr. Bennet is noncommittal about this, and since Mary is so tolerant of loneliness, it is not so difficult to accept that she has to go to a convent in the future.

And Mary herself seemed to have made up her mind in this regard. She reviewed all the sermons and handouts in her study, and memorized every verse of the Bible clearly.In her head, she often fantasizes that she appears in a tall Gothic monastery, wearing black nun clothes, wandering in the dark corridors and stairs with pale candles, her face is as pale as a ghost and as thin as a stick.Surrounded by hollow winds and cobwebs, the silent cedar forest is filled with cold mist, which cannot penetrate even the midday sun, and lives an isolated life.No need to worry about marriage, no need to be ridiculed, no need to meet people!

Yes, Mary longed for this solitude deep down, but it was almost impossible in a family of four sisters, and she had already had this quality when she was a child, and she didn't like to play with her sisters. Hou doesn't like to go out or chat with her sisters. If not necessary, she prefers to read quietly or immerse herself in music.However, this was not her natural temperament. Her mother was strong and neurotic and her father was loose. Any daughter except his beloved Elizabeth was the same to him.She couldn't get the love from her father, and her mother doted on Lydia and had high hopes for her beautiful eldest daughter, Jane. Kitty had always been on the same side with Lydia, and Elizabeth preferred to be with Jane.She couldn't get the part from her relatives that made her feel comfortable and strengthened. Only her outstanding learning and knowledge made her young and was praised by her relatives for being smart, but that was only because of the praise that a little girl would have. These pedantic temperament It is a flaw that extends to a lady, but since Mary only received approval for her studies when she was young, she kept delving into it, making her rigid and dull, unable to detect the yawns and sleepiness that others tried to hide.

And the social failure feedback made Mary want to escape even more. She didn't know what to do. She always felt that she couldn't please anyone. Make everyone avoid her, the more she shows what she is good at, the more so, she doesn't know what her problem is, she can only bury her head in the book, and get the joy and sweetness of the soul from it.

After reading some celebrity biographies, I am even more convinced that she is a girl who has made no achievements in interpersonal communication, but she can benefit a lot from studying knowledge. Many artists, philosophers, and scientists never marry. Life is devoted to useful things, and a happy married and family life will undoubtedly greatly shift this focus.Deep in her heart, Mary was absolutely convinced that she would be able to obtain happiness even if she joined a monastery. That was not the happiness of marriage and family status, but the real satisfaction from the heart.

If anyone knew what this girl was thinking, they would definitely think she was crazy. If this was a man, then they would probably think that this was a noble monk who lived in isolation. If it is established, then maybe it is unknown to enter Rome, but Mary is a woman, and although religion advocates the equality of men and women, but Christ also said that Eve tempted Adam to eat the apple of sin, so women are the source of sin, and it is evil from the root of.They do not have natural upward sentiments, but they need to be whipped, punished, guided or reprimanded to acquire such noble sentiments. Therefore, they cannot and will never enter the Holy See to gain honor. They have never been in ancient times, nor will they be for thousands of years in the future. There will be, so the door of religion is always closed to women, they cannot become popes, not even qualify for one.

The fantasies in Mary's mind were so innocent that she didn't know that the real monastery was far less free than she imagined.After she behaved like this for many days, Mr. Bennet finally couldn't stand his wife's request and called Mary into the study. Just an offense to him, something very, very serious, otherwise he wouldn't have called the girls into the study for a talk.

Mr. Bennet sat behind the chair with a serious expression on his face. He said, "Mary, have you thought about your own future?" He usually pays close attention to this daughter, and he only hopes that she will not dishonor the Bennet family's reputation. , causing trouble for several of his married daughters and making them a laughing stock.

Mary stood tremblingly in front of Mr. Bennet. She seemed to have always been timid and cowardly in front of Mr. Bennet, which was the result of years of habit.She hesitated and said: "Father, I have no intention of getting married. If you mean this." She never called Mr. Bennet "Dad" like Elizabeth, and her restraint was not flattering. This is precisely because Mary is careful not to be offensive. She longs for her father's attention but feels that calling her father such an endearing title makes both of them uncomfortable. She knows for sure that she and Elizabeth are different. This kind of closeness and estrangement exists, and although the children will not deliberately exclude Mary, Mary, who does not get the care of her parents in the middle, has already felt this gap, and will continue this distance after she grows up, so as not to be missed. The response was even more painful.

Mr. Bennet seemed to breathe a sigh of relief. He tapped his fingers on the table a few times, as if considering his words, and then said: "Your mother advised me not to give up any possibility, but I think any A marriage that transcends class is unacceptable, unless it is a female direction. However, we are very aware of your situation, and there are almost no suitable partners in the same class." He paused, as if aware of Mary's biting lips and forced marriage. With tears in his eyes, he didn't know what was going on in this daughter's mind at all, and he didn't know whether his words hurt her.Can only adjust the vocabulary to say: "So, I will do my best for you, but you should be very aware that a decent marriage will make us both happy. But if not, I can certainly feed and clothe you while I live Don't worry, but you know I'm old, and I don't want you to end up on the streets when that day comes. Of course, I'm sure your sisters won't be stingy, but it's a matter of whether others will accept an unmarried woman to live in her brother-in-law's house It’s hard to say, even if you live outside and accept their funding, you will be criticized, and gossip is deadly.”

"Father, I can be independent, I can go out to work..." Mary said this with great hesitation, but she immediately regretted it. Single women in today's society are very dangerous. Even if they live with their mother, they will be ridiculed. What is left for her is really limited, and it is inevitable to accept the support from her brothers-in-law. If the sisters don't care about others, don't they care?Going out to work to become a worker and lowering one's social status is absolutely unacceptable to the Bennet family.

"Stop talking about such unrealistic words." Mr. Bennet thought that he had really overestimated his daughter, and she was still naive and ridiculous after reading a lot of books. "Mary, although I am not perfect as a father and have failed to leave you a lot of wealth, I think I will find the best monastery for you. Of course, this is a last resort. I still hope that you can make some changes." , so as not to put myself in such a predicament.”

The conversation between the father and daughter was almost embarrassing. Mr. Bennet didn't know how to express his love for his daughter, so he could only use such almost threatening words to persuade Mary to think about the future.And Mary was very disappointed from the beginning to the end. Although she was ready to go to the monastery, she was struck by lightning when she heard this plan from her father. She felt extremely painful, worse than the ridicule of those strangers. horrible.This kind of humiliation is incomprehensible to others, and the pain of years of unreceived love haunts her. She comforts herself in her heart that she is too sensitive. This is just a conversation about the future. Wronged, is it possible to be so humiliated without beauty, and even relatives have no hope for themselves?