beauty and money

Mary sat alone at the table all night. Her eyes were bloodshot. She refused breakfast and did not open the door. She took out the letter paper in the room and wrote some ugly handwriting with slightly trembling hands. As a last resort, she could only write with her left hand. In fact, Mary has always been left-handed when she was young, but this habit is against common sense, so she was taught to change it, but at this moment, this unreasonable habit helps her adapt to the status quo more easily, and her handwriting is still readable. , at least stronger than the current right hand.

She wrote a letter to the old William who did her portrait and said that Yahweh didn't put Raziel to death, He just deprived Raziel of his knowledge and left him empty-headed and Rachel without knowledge I chose to die.When you show off your giving, you lose the uniqueness of knowledge. After you share this knowledge, it is not yours. When you lose knowledge, you lose everything. Rachel speculates with wisdom that God will forgive him.He is not a meaningless preacher, but he does not believe that God will punish him. What he commits is not the sin of spreading knowledge, but the sin of despising authority and being more self-confident than God.After she finished writing the letter, she mailed it out, and then had dinner as usual. The people in the Bennet family did not dare to breathe, and were very afraid of irritating Mary, but Mary recovered as usual, and she asked if there was any Letters, and received several large envelopes from Grein, and after returning to the room and opening them, there was a money order from Barclays Bank, five pounds.The same is true for the rest of the envelopes, bits and pieces of money.

In the letter, he warmly praised Mr. Henry's writing style and expressed the hope of long-term cooperation. The readers responded very well.It is worth mentioning that a progressive newspaper hoped that Henry's writing could be more sharp in pointing out the current disadvantages, writing some articles or poems reflecting the suffering of the lower class people and criticizing the ugly face of the current nobles.

The news made Mary feel a little better, but it still couldn't calm her down, and she wrote down her grief and indignation on paper.Especially those terrible ills in the medical system, pollution, filth, the so-called nurses don't understand the most basic common sense, and the inferior wards are like hell waiting to die, full of stench and corruption.

Mary's pain didn't last long. She was always strong and stubborn, and she thought she would get better if she believed the articles in the scientific journals.

She is as devastated by winter as England in early spring, but she will surely welcome the warmth tenaciously.When the weather is better, she no longer stays in the house but goes outside for a walk. Her knee hurts, and every step she takes feels like someone is piercing her knee with pokers.She sewed a knee pad for herself, and began to use her left hand to do some right-handed things, such as picking up a needle and thread and a pen. Even if you feel tight, you will feel the twisted and tensed muscles at the bone healing place, but Mary didn't stop.

Seeing that their daughter seemed to have stepped out of the shadow of pain, the Bennet family also recovered a little bit of anger.It’s just that Mrs. Bennet treated Mary very cautiously, as if she was made of glass, and Mr. Bennet felt very guilty when he looked at this daughter, but since things have happened and cannot be undone, the only thing to do is to face it. .

At the end of March, Mary’s relentless walks finally paid off. When she walked, she raised her left foot slightly. Although it was impossible to return to normal, outsiders looked like she was acting as usual, and the difference of three centimeters was not considered. Too big, and she is slowly getting used to it. She saw a boy whose right leg was born six centimeters shorter than his left leg, but he still ran fast. Mary would often visit that boy’s house. Not too far away, the son of a tenant on another estate.

It was from that boy that Mary learned how to make herself forget the difference in her legs and walk and run like a normal person. Even that boy was faster than any little boy she had ever seen. Mary was greatly encouraged. Like Elizabeth, she also experienced the joy of walking, which is the loneliness and joy of a person facing the wilderness scenery.

Eager to avoid the crowds, Mary would set off in the morning light, and with the newly grown wildflowers in the fields, advance through the thin mist and arrive at the boy's house before noon, and she would bring him some delicious food. Yes, learn from him how to walk as usual, how to walk like flying.The boy said that to walk is to put one foot in front of the other, but to run like the wind, you have to believe that you are a feather, a leaf, and don't think about running.

Usually Mary would only talk to him for a short while and then leave before noon, always.By the end of March, she would no longer feel the severe pain in her legs from walking, but a tingling pain that seemed to be slightly numb. She woke up from the pain less and less at night, and her complexion improved a lot. She greedily inhaled Breathing the fresh air of the wilderness, as if it were not air but medicine for her wounds.

England at the end of March seems to be seeing greenery and flowers, and soon there are farmers tending the land in the fields, and they start to talk about this lady who likes to walk, and then Mary will greet them and learn about their The tenants of Longbourn Hall, by name, knew the unfortunate lady, and seemed to them to have revived her life.

In addition to exercising her body and fingers, Mary also creates non-stop. Sometimes she will be rejected, but most of the manuscripts are accepted. This kind of affirmation greatly encourages her and makes her happy. .And the letter sent to old William has never received a response. Mary thinks that old William will think her letter is too abrupt and strange, so he ignores it.

Mary, who came back to Longbourne, was catching up for afternoon tea. She had been walking outside for a long time, much longer than yesterday. When she entered the door, Mrs. Bennet complained: "Mary, can't you stay at home? I really I'm very worried about you. Oh, my nerves hurt badly when I think of something bad happening to you. If you want to go out tomorrow, you must be accompanied by Grian." Mrs. Bennet said while stroking Forehead, she has enough to worry about. May is Kitty's due date. She is extremely nervous these days, and her appetite is not good. The servants in the house are also very nervous, and the doctor has made an appointment in advance. This is the first time As for the third generation born in Longbourn, she was very sad to think that after Mr. Bennet passed away, their descendants could no longer set foot here.

"Well, I really like walking recently, the weather is also very good, the air is very pleasant." Mary took off her hard felt hat after entering the house, her dark brown hair was thinner than her sisters, Mrs. Bennet It is often said that this is caused by excessive use of the brain. I hope Mary will stop studying those weird things.But Mary always promised quickly but never could. Her thoughts were too complicated, and the things in her head were far beyond the scope of ordinary people.

Walking into the living room, she frowned and looked at Kitty who was sitting by the fire. Her face was so ugly. Even though it was the end of March, she still felt cold. chills.Kitty was not only pale and swollen now, but she seemed to have a low fever.But there is no medicine to relieve it, and it is better to sit by the fire all the time.

Mary stood by the fire to warm her body up a bit, so as not to affect Kitty with the chill. She was listlessly holding a book for recreation, and adjusted her posture a little when she saw Mary approaching.She really doesn't like to read this book, maybe it's because she has been dizzy recently, and she has to squint to read the words clearly.

"Mary, come here, I'm dying of boredom." Kitty could find no pleasant entertainment, she had no interest in anything, had a bad appetite, was always sleepy, and most of all was very cold. .

Mary walked to Kitty's side and held her hands together, feeling the cold fingertips, as if it was much colder than her who came back from outside.

"How are you feeling, Kitty? Oh, your hands are so cold," said Mary.

"It's cold, like I'm pregnant with a snow child." Kitty took out a hand and stroked her abdomen. Her face was very pale, her eyes were dark, and she looked very haggard.Not only was she afraid of the cold, but she also often felt headaches and edema all over her body. Although most pregnant women suffer from edema, Mary still felt faintly uneasy.

"Kitty, you need to find another doctor. I know a Dr. Strange, he is very trustworthy." Mary felt that Kitty's condition was very strange. Normal pregnant women should get hotter and hotter as they go into labor, unless they are particularly weak or There was some disease, but the doctor invited by Lord Menadius said it was normal and told Kitty not to worry.But Mary felt that the doctor's words were flickering, as if he was hiding something.

"Okay, you don't have to worry. Rhett has been taken care of by this doctor since he was a child. He trusts him very much, and I trust him very much." Kitty didn't want to continue this topic, and she begged Mary to read a short fairy tale to her. Listening to the baby in her belly, Mary also obediently picked up a book and read it. Her voice was warm and soft. Kitty herself was very tired, so she fell asleep quickly. Her eye circles were deeply black. Blots, it doesn't look like it's in good shape.

The next day Mary went out as usual, but this time she rode a horse. Because the hospital was far away, she asked Dr. Strange to visit Longborn, but as a doctor in the hospital, Strange seldom made visits. , he hesitated and said that he could go there on Wednesday.

And asked Mary to observe Kitty's situation more, because this phenomenon is not good.After Mary returned home, she felt that her worries were unnecessary. The doctor came to observe Kitty every few days and told her to rest more and move less. Lord Menardius cared about Kitty so much that he would not Let her have something to do with the baby.

On Wednesday morning, Dr. Strange looked through the memo as usual, and he promised Mary to go to Longbourn for a consultation, but today the hospital was busier than expected, and he didn’t leave until almost noon. It's afternoon.

Today's Longborn is a bit unusual. There were screams from several people in the house. There was a commotion in the house. Mary ran out from the door. When she saw Doctor Strange, she immediately led his horse. Shouted to him: "Doctor, Kitty, Kitty is convulsing!" She was panting, and flushed abnormally, as if excited.

Hearing that Dr. Strange got off his horse immediately, when he rushed into the house, several servants were pressing a pregnant woman to the ground, and she kept twitching.Dr. Strange immediately went to check. He found that the patient's eyes were turned up, they were bloodshot, he was clinging to a wooden branch, his muscles were twitching, his complexion was pale and swollen.White foam kept vomiting from her mouth, and there was already a lot of vomit on the ground. Mary was wiping her mouth and nose beside her to avoid suffocation.

"Bring my bag quickly, quick." Strange said to the servant who was holding Kitty down again, "press the limbs and never let go."

Mary immediately ran over and took the handbag that Dr. Strange left at the door. Doctor Strange took out a silver knife and a bloodletting tray from the bag. He urgently bled Kitty to relieve the high pressure. After a period of convulsions, Kitty relieved a little, and Doctor Strange injected a medicine into Kitty with a silver needle.

The drug worked quickly, and within a few minutes Kitty was quiet, but unconscious.They carried her to the bed and put her in place, while Mary helped the dazed Mrs. Bennet to one side and sat down. Mr. Bennet rode to the doctor. He should not be back so soon.

"Doctor Strange, thank you so much, Kitty has been twitching since midnight last night, and she will be fine soon after just a little, but today she twitched three times, and we were scared to death just now. She is What's the matter, is it dangerous?" Mary bit her lips and asked, her body trembling slightly, it was so terrifying just now, Mrs. Bennet even thought that Kitty was possessed by an evil spirit.

Doctor Strange didn't speak, he examined Kitty carefully before asking: "What month is her due date?"

"Mid-May."

Dr. Strange walked outside the door and said to Mary, "Miss Bennet, the patient inside is in a very bad condition. How long has she been showing signs of this?"

"What's the sign? She's been fine before, and the doctor said there's nothing wrong with it. What's the matter?" Mary looked puzzled, she couldn't understand Dr. Strange's question at all.

"Oh, so you don't know at all, she is very dangerous and has signs of eclampsia?"

"What is that? The previous doctor didn't mention it at all." Mary suddenly had a premonition that the doctor must know something but kept hiding it, hiding Kitty's current physical condition.

"It's a very dangerous disease for pregnant women. Anyway, in this state, I suggest you terminate the pregnancy." When Doctor Strange said these words, Mary was surprised and speechless.

"What do you mean? Is something wrong with Kitty's baby?"

"It's not the child, but the mother's body. That patient can't continue to conceive, and the more dangerous it gets, she may die due to hemolysis and convulsions caused by eclampsia." Dr. Strange felt strange in his heart. He thought The symptoms of pre-eclampsia are so obvious that it is impossible for a doctor to fail to see it, but he allowed the patient to continue the pregnancy. There must be some mystery, but this kind of thing is still subtle.

"So, Kitty's child can't be kept? She can't be pregnant with him anymore, so she has to get rid of him, right?" Mary took a few steps back, and she leaned against the wall a little bit unacceptable.

"There is such a risk, but the child is already very large, and the lungs may have completed development, but the function is not perfect, and there is a great risk of premature death, but the patient is already very reluctant. She has to make a choice, choose her own life or the life of the child. But I want to tell you that if the pregnancy continues, the probability of death of the patient is very high, and the child may die. Moreover, I suggest that the sooner the better, it is best to do it after two hours Decide."

Mary leaned on the wall, she couldn't make a decision, she really couldn't make this decision when Mr. Bennet was out and his return date was unknown, her mother was semi-conscious, and her sister was unconscious.