Love the Red House

When the three of them left, Xueyan came up to pack the teacups and went out with the tray. The room became silent, only Daiyu and Zijuan were left.

Zijuan turned around, looked at Daiyu who was standing gracefully, hesitated for a long time, and finally said: "Girl, I know you care about the second girl, but no matter what, you shouldn't be angry with Baoyu."

With a sigh, a deep worry appeared between her brows, she bit her lips and continued: "After going through what happened today, Baoyu must be angry in her heart, but on the other side, Miss Bao is desperately sending things to go along with his wishes. Comparing the two, I don’t know what will happen.”

A slight smile floated on her lips, Daiyu's face was calm, and she said lightly: "Listen to Zijuan's words, it seems that you care about Baoyu?"

Zijuan was stunned for a moment, and Fang replied: "Don't you understand my intentions? I am thinking of the girl. Seeing that the girl is getting older, it is natural to plan for the future."

These words are subtle and tactful, to the point, but the meaning contained in the words can be understood as soon as they are heard.

Daiyu didn't answer, but just stared at her intently, with a faint smile on her lips, like a floating cloud in the sky that would be blown away.

Under her gaze, Zijuan lowered her eyes, her cheeks couldn't help showing rouge scars, and her voice gradually lowered: "The girl has been worrying about the second girl for the past two days, and besides sympathizing with her, there must be something left. I feel sorry for myself. According to me, girls don’t have to think too far, just relax and take care of your body. The old lady has always loved girls, and there is a ready candidate in front of her. As long as the girl pays more attention in the future, she will also be careful in front of the wife. Some, the girl's life will definitely not be lost, and she will definitely be much better than the second girl."

Since Daiyu came here, she has been by her side every step of the way, with a deep friendship, and she cares more about Daiyu's life events than anyone else.

And all along, she could see that Daiyu in front of her and Baoyu in her family grew up together and were very close. The friendship between the two was very different from others.

If so, I often think how wonderful it would be if these two people could get married.

At that time, according to the friendship between me and Daiyu, according to the rules of the big family, I will definitely stay with me, serve around me for a long time, and carry each other for a lifetime, which will become a beautiful thing in the world.

Daiyu was silent for a long time, closed her eyes, and said word by word: "Let's forget about it today. In the future, if this is the case, don't presume on me, and don't talk about it anymore."

Wu Nong speaks softly, eloquently, with ethereal meanings like light smoke, but with unquestionable seriousness, and a calmness after seeing through the world.

Hearing that Zijuan was astonished, she had always been smart and considerate, and was regarded by Daiyu as a close friend like a sister, and her relationship with Daiyu was much closer than the snow geese brought from the Lin family, but, until now, she Only now did I realize that I didn't know this woman very well.

Frowning, Zijuan raised his head, fixedly stared at Daiyu, and asked, "Why did you say that, Miss?"

Daiyu gently lifted the catkins, rolled her hair at the sideburns, sighed a little, and felt a little relieved: "When a leaf falls, you know the autumn, and you wake up after the wind and rain. This is the most reasonable thing in the world. I didn’t say how many things happened, but I knew clearly in my heart that this is not my place to stay for a long time, and it’s better to go back and forth from wherever I came from.”

She has always known that there has never been any gossip in the mansion, and she always said that she came alone, and that every piece of paper and grass came from Jia's family, which took a great advantage.

She has always understood that the second aunt doesn't like her very much, and always feels that she has seduced Baoyu badly, making Baoyu often tire of staying in the boudoir, doing nothing.

Sigh, is this really the case?

In Suzhou, my family is a well-known family. Although the ancestors have always been clean and honest, due to the accumulation of several generations, the family is extremely prosperous.

When his father was seriously ill, Jia Lian took care of everything. Although he didn't care about common matters, he knew that his father had entrusted all of the Lin family's property to the Jia family to take care of him and not let him be wronged.

And she also knew that because of the construction of the family-visiting villa, the Jia family, which was left with only a sham, had quietly embezzled the money and spent it to the very last.

These years, she has never asked questions, not only because she is not keen on the rich and honored, but also because she is naturally affectionate, and the people of the Jia family are her only relatives in this world, no matter what, she must keep a decent is.

Unexpectedly, what I got in exchange for holding back so much was my aunt's supercilious eyes, as well as contempt, indifference, and gossip all over the sky.

In fact, anyone with a discerning eye should be able to see that with Baoyu's temperament, even if he didn't come here, he could only recite poems, paint pictures, talk and play with girls under the protection of Hou Men, and live a happy life. Do you care about the world and enjoy the leisurely life of wealth and honor?

I was an innocent person, but I was involved and charged with seducing Baoyu, but in the end, I couldn't argue with it, and there was no place to sue for grievances.

In the past, because of the wholehearted protection of my grandmother, and the fact that my second uncle who always loved me was also at home, my second aunt was a little restrained. Although every time we met, I was a little impatient and displeased, but she also maintained a superficial calm.

Up to now, the second uncle has been released from Beijing, and the grandmother is already old, and just enjoys her old age comfortably, rarely getting involved in foreign affairs, the second aunt has become confident, and actually regards herself as a thorn in the side, a thorn in the flesh, no matter how you look at it, it is not pleasing to the eye, and I wish we could never see each other again See.

Facing Qingwen, the second aunt pointed at Sang and scolded Huai, insinuating that she was a fox, and then drove Qingwen away, resulting in Qingwen's sudden death. All this was nothing more than killing a chicken for monkeys to see.

That's all, when the Grand View Garden was searched, the residences of Baoyu and all the sisters were inspected one by one, even his own Xiaoxiang Pavilion was not spared. No one went over to take a look.

Even if Xue Baochai is a relative, she should be treated specially, isn't she Lin Daiyu?I am a cousin of my aunt, and Xue Baochai is a cousin of my aunt. When I think about it carefully, I have a closer relationship with the Jia family.Could it be that just because she is alone, an orphan girl with no one to rely on, can she do whatever she wants regardless of affection?

Living in this place with too many rules and too little true feelings, I look at people with ulterior motives all day long, try my best to calculate other people, and then I am calculated by others, with constant intrigue.

Locked up in the Hou's door, even if he is clothed and fed every day, but in the end he is under the fence of others, everything depends on the face of the person, and there is even a group of servant girls with high eyebrows and low eyes, pointing behind the back and talking unsavory gossip.

This kind of life made her feel very tired and tired, and it was difficult to continue.

After thinking about it, she finally understood that only by leaving here can she get rid of such a troubled life.

If so, I can't help thinking, I'd better go back to Suzhou, my real home.

Although there is no hustle and bustle of Jia's family there, no magnificent gardens, but in that place, everything can be decided by oneself, and you will never be looked down upon by others, and you will never be restrained by others. The picturesque Jiangnan has gained the long-awaited peace and freedom.

And she has always known that the stability of the heart is more important than any wealth and glory.

After hearing Daiyu's words, Zijuan was even more surprised, opened her eyes wide and said, "What do you mean by this girl? Could it be that girl wants to go back to Suzhou? Isn't there no one in the Lin family?"

Daiyu pursed her soft lips, her voice revealed a trace of sadness, but also implied a deep yearning: "Although my relatives are no longer there, but there is my hometown, my true destination."

Zijuan has always been sensitive, so she could see Daiyu's determination from Daiyu's clear eyes, she couldn't help being shocked, and was at a loss for a while.

Zijuan took a deep breath, forced herself to calm down, her eyes gradually showed burning anxiety, and blurted out: "Let's not talk about other things, but Baoyu is so kind to the girl, can the girl really let him go?"

After hearing her words, Daiyu closed her almond eyes lightly, her long eyelashes drooping down like wings, and a faint sense of loss and sigh suddenly surged in her heart.

I and Baoyu have lived under the same roof for so long, we were childhood sweethearts, we were childhood sweethearts, we used to go to the garden to see flowers, recite poems and paint together, and in the memory deep in our mind, there is his imprint everywhere, lingering .

All these years have flowed by like flowing water, and it is absolutely impossible to say that he has no feelings for that young man.

After living in the Grand View Garden, Baoyu was the only man he could see.Girls' feelings are always poetry, and she is no exception. Occasionally, she would think that if she could live like this forever, she would surely be able to breed happiness, right?

However, things in the world are often not as expected. In the past few years, accidents have come one after another. The cold eyes of the second aunt, Baoyu's weakness and compromise, and the white-eyed gossip of the servants are clear and vivid.

There are many things that she has never mentioned, but she is like a mirror in her heart.

She had heard more than once that the attacker in Baoyu's room was not just a servant girl, but also Baoyu's aunt, who won the favor of the second aunt, but she was worried that Baoyu was young, so she didn't say it clearly.

And that's not all, these past few years, Baoyu has often mixed with the servant girls in the mansion, chasing those girls, changing their makeup and making fans, joking and eating rouge on people's lips every day is a common occurrence.

Taking a concubine before getting married, breaking the etiquette, and being merciful everywhere, how can such a man be the gentleman who is as gentle as jade and as affectionate as a girl expects in her boudoir dream?

She knew that when Jin Chuan threw himself into a well and died, the reason was that Baoyu was teasing the girl, and after being discovered by his second aunt, he slipped away like oil on the soles of his feet, leaving Jin Chuan alone to bear the blow of his second aunt anger.

She also knew that Baoyu dared not say or do anything when Mrs. Wang went to Yihong Courtyard to check on that day, so Qingwen, who was in her prime, was expelled innocently and died innocently.

But now, the second sister, who had always been close to her, was in dire straits, he sighed a few times, then turned and left without any intention of lending a helping hand.

Such timidity and lack of responsibility, is it what a man should do?

Through these ups and downs, she finally understood him and his heart.

And this kind of encounter gave her a sense of vicissitudes at such a flowery age, and she aged a beautiful heart.

Even if there was a girlish feeling, even if there was a shy and timid heart, it disappeared bit by bit in these invisible wind and frost swords and endless sighs and sorrows.

Daiyu sighed softly, woke up from her thoughts, and said calmly: "If you talk about this, Baoyu and I grew up together. When we first entered this mansion, apart from the old lady, there were only him and me in the mansion. The closest, only he, who can bring me some warmth, I am very grateful to him, but after going through so many things, for me, Baoyu today is just a brother who loves me, not What other selfishness, the connection between the two of us is just because he is my cousin and my relative, that's all, there is nothing else other than that."

Looking sideways at the terrified Zijuan, she collected her expression and said solemnly: "I thought about it yesterday, the old lady is old, and now the weather is cold and her body is not very strong, so I plan to continue Stay here for a while, and then bring up the matter of Suzhou. Now, rumors have spread among the servants, and I am not as good as I am. I hope that my sister will stop mentioning the matter of Baoyu, and don’t give others a handle. Let me live for a while. Let's have a clean day."

The more Zijuan listened, the more shocked she became, but she saw that Daiyu's eyes were clear, like a pool of autumn water, and she no longer had the old sentimentality and worry about gains and losses.

Seeing this, Zijuan understood that at this moment, what this woman said was by no means false, but from her heart.

But, after all, she was unwilling to give up in her heart. Zijuan plucked up her courage, and said again: "Since this is the case, Zijuan can't say anything, but, do you really have the heart to make Baoyu sad? Miss Huizhi Lanxin should also I remember that day when I joked that the girl was going back to Suzhou, Baoyu was very reluctant to let go of her, she was seriously ill, and Baoyu was sincere to the girl, how could she be willing to let the girl go? How could she let go of the girl?"

Seeing that Zijuan insisted on entanglement on this topic, Daiyu frowned lightly, feeling a little uneasy in her heart, and then thought again, that's all, let's explain the matter clearly so as not to be entangled.

Vermilion lips moved slightly, and Daiyu's voice was clear and graceful, like pearls dripping: "So what if you can let it go? So what if you can't let it go? I am a girl from the Lin family. Do I want to stay in Jia's mansion for a lifetime because of a word of reluctance? What's wrong with that?" I would like to say one more thing, with Zijuan's clever mind, can't she still not see the current situation in the mansion? Now, the old lady is old and has long since cared about nothing, and there is another favored woman in the palace. Madam, this mansion is already dominated by the second aunt. The second aunt is determined to choose the Xue family. With Baoyu's temperament, she will never have any other choice but to compromise in the future. When the time comes, I will be placed in the Where? He can't give me what I want, and with his temperament and situation, he can't give me anything, so why bother? "

Zijuan knew very well that these words were all true, her face showed a trace of depression, and her heart sank gradually.

After a long time, Zijuan let out a long sigh, eyes twitching slightly, and asked slowly: "So, the girl has made up her mind, and she won't change it?"

Daiyu nodded and replied, "Not bad."

Looking at the disappointed Zijuan, there was a hint of warmth in his eyes, and his voice was as warm as a late spring breeze: "Zijuan, since I came here, I have always valued you very much, and my relationship with you is better than that of snow geese. I know that all the maids living in this garden have the same thoughts, so I always know what Sister Zijuan wants. Don't worry, although I am the one who is going to leave, yours In the future, it is up to you to choose, and I will never force it. If you are willing to follow me, we will go back to Suzhou to live a simple life together. If you want to stay, I will definitely ask the old lady and let her decide , and arrange you in the Baoyu Room, you will definitely not be left unattended for the rest of your life."

Hearing that Daiyu said what was on her mind and planned for herself like this, Zijuan couldn't help crying, choked up for a long time, and didn't know what to say for a while.

Seeing her expression, Daiyu frowned and sighed, knowing that the woman in front of her couldn't let go of her affection for Baoyu after all, and she was deeply trapped in it, unable to extricate herself.

The yearning of the two of them is not the same, so it is destined that one day, he and this girl will be far apart and no longer get close.

There is also Baoyu, the relationship between each other for many years will eventually be given to the flowing water without leaving any traces, and each will live and be happy separately.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help feeling sad, but I didn't shed tears like in the past. Thinking about it, it was because I looked away, and the tears had already flowed out, right?