[Zongyingmi] What can I do, I am also desperate

Sandra thought she might take the pill.

Although she fell asleep after she took Roy to find the cave where she could temporarily live, so that everything that happened after that was fragmented in her mind, but this did not prevent her from remembering what happened before matter.

For example, she and Roy went to the tavern to drink, for example, she and Roy had trouble in the tavern, for example, she and Roy not only had trouble in the tavern, they might even be listed as wanted by the whole universe ordered.

Like her and Roy...

Wait, it was obviously Roy who took the lead first!

Although she thought so in her heart, it was obvious that Sandra did not dare to say this.

After all, although it was Roy who initiated it, she did not refuse, which meant that she clearly approved of Roy's proposal in her heart, so now she has no right to throw all the blame on Roy.

Emmm... In fact, the main reason is that she feels that her relationship with Roy is not good enough to blame each other, and she is not in this world...

Thinking of this, Sandra quickly restrained her thoughts and sat obediently in her seat with her head lowered facing Jason, pretending that she was a quail, obediently and quietly without saying a word.

Jason actually had a headache of not knowing what to do with her.

Although he had already pinned Roy to the ground and beat him up before coming to see Sandra again, but facing Sandra, it was obvious that he couldn't pin him down to the ground and beat him up again like he did to Roy.Not to mention that she is a woman, it is Sandra's troublesome physique that recovers slowly from injuries under the human form, so it is difficult for him to start from this aspect to make her have a long memory, if she accidentally breaks a human bone , back on Earth he was able to cope with the expected retaliation from Tim and the embarrassment that he had to change the communication equipment.

I also know that the bird cub will definitely disclose his contact information to the old housekeeper. It is always impossible for him to face the old housekeeper as if he is facing... the old man. Replaced things.

only……

Facing Sandra who was completely different from the one he had seen on Earth before, and even brought him to teach him once, Jason obviously couldn't show the attitude he treated her last time.But apart from the previous attitude, it's obviously not appropriate to treat her with the same attitude as he treated Cory. His relationship with women... To be honest, it's not good, so he was a little at a loss for a while.

"...Don't run around with Roy next time."

The two of them looked at each other for several minutes before Jason said so dryly.

"……Oh."

Sandra seemed a little unresponsive for a while, and after Jason finished speaking and looked at her, she replied dryly as if she had just recovered.

This kind of embarrassing scene is really scary.

Sitting across from Jason, Sandra felt uncomfortable all over her body, her head was so low that it was about to be buried in her chest, and she refused to lift it up.Jason simply didn't care what kind of attitude she had when facing him, but after getting Sandra's reply, he pushed away the chair and stood up, intending to leave and beat Roy again.

Whoever made this trouble was caused by him and delayed his blessings. During this period of time, they were temporarily unable to resupply on that planet.

Jason thought so coldly in his heart.

Seeing Jason walk out of the room, Sandra let go of her tightly tensed shoulders and sighed inwardly.She raised her hand and rubbed her temples, which were still throbbing because of the hangover, took two steps, fell on the bed, and closed her eyelids tiredly.

Although she had slept for a long time, as a person who was hangover and still had a headache, her desire for bed and sleep still made her choose to indulge in the bedding.

It's just that the headache is really tormenting. Although Sandra didn't want to open her eyelids, she didn't feel sleepy after rolling several times on the bed. It was just that the throbbing pain made her unable to sleep or sit up.She slumped in the quilt like a salted fish for a long time before lazily turning her sideways and slightly raising her eyelids, but for a moment there seemed to be something different on the bedside table that caught her attention.

Enduring the throbbing pain near her temple when she raised her eyes, she held her breath and looked at the bedside table. There was a note under a small white bottle, and a glass of water beside it.Sandra stretched out her hand, and as soon as she touched the wall of the glass, she knew that the glass of water had just been changed, because there was still a residual temperature on the wall of the glass that had not completely subsided, which was higher than the temperature of her cool fingertips up some.

She leaned on her elbows and moved over to pull out a note. The self on it was a little scribbled. Although Sandra couldn't recognize whose handwriting it was, but considering that there were only four of them alive on the spaceship, an alien, I and Roy were paralyzed on the bed because of a hangover, so it was obvious who wrote this note.

[There is something in the alien wine that can give people a headache for a while, and it will be better after taking the medicine. 】

The note was written in a concise and concise manner. After thinking of who left the note, Sandra reached out and took it because she was a little bit out of place when she pulled out the note. The white bottle that looked very innocent was shaken, and there was only The crisp sound produced by the shaking of a few sporadic pills.After she unscrewed the bottle cap, she saw that there were indeed two white pills inside. It was obvious that Jason deliberately made such a big bottle and didn't explain the usage and dosage, which meant that she only had to take the two pills at once. Enough.

Although Sandra is still a little vigilant and uncomfortable when facing people, but when she is not facing other people, she does not distrust them so much, and even has a slightly relaxed trust.She didn't hesitate long before swallowing the pill and drinking a full glass of water.

The slightly astringent and slightly sour taste of the medicine permeated the tip of the tongue, and Sandra felt a sense of drowsiness before she could finish it.She guessed that the medicine should have taken effect, and without any resistance, she got back under the bed, closed her eyes, and fell asleep not long after.Not long after she fell asleep, the door opened again.

Jason was halfway there before he remembered that when he left, he was only thinking about beating Roy first, and forgot to tell Sandra that the hangover medicine was on the bedside table.The alcohol on that planet is a bit irritating to the people on earth. If you don't take the anti-alcohol medicine, your head will hurt for about ten days and a half months. Roy has howled how many times, and he hasn't seen him take a sip.

The door panel opened a crack quietly, and Jason was a little surprised that Sandra turned off the lights and fell asleep again.He walked into her bedside without a sound like a cat, squinted his eyes and looked at the bedside table after his eyes got used to the darkness, and saw the drinking glass and the medicine bottle whose position had changed He and the water glass knew that Sandra should have seen the note he left, took the medicine and fell asleep.

Jason was a little relieved not to have to communicate directly with Sandra.To be honest, he is not very good at communicating with others normally in this kind of... which should be normal for him. The maximum communication he can do is to completely tear off the identity of the red hood and pretend that he is a Normal people go to enjoy a youthful evening, or they refuse to share too much of themselves with anyone under the red hood.

Except for Dick, none of them are good at "normal" communication with others, and they can only do normal communication with others under the guise.

Jason stared at the note he had left behind for a while, and the corners of his lips twitched slightly, but in the end they didn't draw a decent arc.

He took away the things on the bedside table without making any noise as when he came here, glanced at the quilt that was kicked off the bed by Sandra and frowned, picked up a corner of the quilt and stuffed it back on the bed Then he flipped Sandra's slippers aside and put them neatly by the bed, and only left after confirming that there was nothing else that needed to be packed by himself.

Although Sandra was unconscious under the stimulation of the drug, the part of her body that belonged to the beast was a little bit ready to move when the part of her humanity was suppressed.Although she wasn't awake when Jason pushed the door in, the feathers and wings on her arms and back covered under the quilt were already growing silently. With absolute suppression, when Jason came in just now, what he faced was not a Sandra who was lying quietly on the bed as if she was dead.

Sandra hadn't had a dream for a long time, and it was the first time that she clearly knew that she was deeply in a dream, but she didn't feel a little disturbed.

"Still remember me?"

The soft, raving-like voice brushed against the stretched hair like feathers flying all over the sky. Sandra turned her head sensitively, and saw the girl beside her who was also smiling and looking back at her.

She realized that she couldn't clearly distinguish this person's face, but she couldn't help but relax when she looked at the red-brown eyes with a smile on her face, and then let him sit beside her.The cold touch came from the back of her hand, and Sandra turned her gaze only to realize that the girl who came beside her was pushing a wheelchair.

Azure and black feathers flew from nowhere in the empty space, intertwined in the air like snow falling, flying at will and aimlessly.Sandra realized that she should be in a sitting posture now, but in fact, there was no place for her to sit and rest in this space except for the white that filled her sight when she raised her eyes.

"Seeing your birth, I am very happy, but also very worried."

The two of them did not look at each other quite tacitly. The voice of the blue bird was as soft as cotton wool, like the strings of a harp being gently plucked by soft fingertips, like a flying bird whirling in the wind. The dead leaves disappeared all the way among the fluttering feathers.

"I and the little black bird are the beginning and the end. After life and death complement the whole world, I never thought that I would be able to survive again. The existence of the evil bird is even more unexpected to us. It parasitizes everyone In the mind, as long as there is a dark breeding, she will not disappear. No one can guarantee that there will be no evil thoughts in his mind for a moment, so it will survive forever and ever. In essence, it is the same as We are completely different." The blue bird stared into the distance, its unfocused eyes could not fall on any feathers passing by her, just quietly stated to Sandra that she did not tell Tim and others, these belonged Their own, their group, her "one person" story.

"But it's so lonely." A tender seedling came out of nowhere, and Sandra didn't notice it at first, until it grew into a seedling half as tall as her own. A tree actually grew out of the white space.

The blue bird's palm rested lightly on the back of Sandra's hand, almost subconsciously, Sandra held her hand with her backhand and clenched it tightly, almost turning her soft and smooth palm black and blue.

"We always cherish each other. After all, in all worlds...all spaces, all times, and all lives, the only companions we can find are each other and ourselves. We have no ethnic groups, and neither do we In our hometown, from the moment we were born, we were doomed to become a different kind with only 'self', in our own world, even if we find the end of the universe, we will never find another kind."

Qingniao didn't mind that Sandra grabbed her hand so hard that she had already left fingerprints on it, she just pushed the wheelchair under her and led Sandra towards the small sapling accurately, The wheelchair left ruts that seemed to be printed on the snow, guiding them to the front of the sapling.

"So the evil bird has been haunting you."

The blue bird's fingertips climbed onto the soft branches and leaves of the sapling, and those branches and leaves also seemed to be conscious, hugging her fingertips tightly like a baby's palm grabbing a mother's fingers.

"It's the scariest thing for her to admit that she is a different kind with no past, no future, and no likeness. So she has been deceiving herself and looking for me, looking for you, looking for anything that can be seen. The hope she grasped. No matter who that person is, no matter where that person is, as long as she thinks that person is her own kind, she will try her best to keep him by her side. She was so blunt at the beginning It forced the death of our other 43 peers, and before that, she destroyed it without any hesitation after knowing that her world would become a stumbling block for her to leave to find other peers."

What Qingniao said was calm and breezy, but there was a bit of sigh-like pity between her brows.

"She has gone crazy in too long loneliness, not only destroying herself, but also trying to drag everyone down the mud."

The small sapling has grown into a big tree in the blink of an eye, but the big tree, which is as thick as a person's arms, is still growing. Without any scruples, it spreads its canopy overwhelmingly, making itself like a network. The roots spread.

"But you don't have to worry," Qingniao raised her head and stared at the densely shadowed canopy, her brows and eyes curved, "she can't do much after all. She doesn't belong here, and you don't belong to her either. She can't take you away, You don't need her either. Although I don't think your existence is a good thing for your world, at least your world will protect you."

"Your world," Blue Bird finally set his sights on Sandra again, with a sly smile in his reddish-brown pupils, "Whether it's the land under your feet, the sky above your head, , or the house in your heart, or the people who accompany you. Your 'world' will always protect you."

"Can I just rely on other people's protection all the time?"

Sandra also looked towards the blue bird. Under the shade of the tree, the face of the blue bird gradually spread out in her eyes like an unfolded scroll.She had a somewhat childish and delicate face, reddish-brown pupils almost identical to hers, the same curly long black hair, and a slender and frail body.

It's just that her eyes were out of focus, her throat was torn open, and her legs couldn't move.

"Protecting things like this is always relative," Qingniao blinked at her, stepped back a little, barely past the thick and thick branches of the trees, "it's like the land and the trees. The trees grow from the land It grows out of the ground, accepting the support and gifts of the land, and when the tree falls, it can nourish the land again and wait for new vegetation to grow on it.”

"Your world is protecting you, and you will protect your world. It's just that you are still young and it's not time to protect it."

Qingniao held Sandra's hand and said to her gently like a kind elder.

"Why do you say that my existence is not necessarily a good thing for my world?"

Sandra has a faint premonition about the evil bird that has been obsessed with herself, especially after knowing from Tim that there are evil birds in other worlds—and the evil bird she knew appeared.It's just that although she knows that there must be something special about herself that can attract evil birds, she doesn't know what this special is.

Facing this blue bird now, looking at the blue bird's attitude towards her and the things she revealed to herself, Sandra intuitively felt that the blue bird knew the reason, and she didn't look like she would be stingy to tell herself.

"I can't tell you directly," Qingniao's lips curled up and she tilted her head to look at Sandra, with a bit of naivety and childishness, "I have to accept the restrictions of your world in your world, some things, I can't say it directly."

Sandra was a little disappointed, but the blue bird quickly changed the topic to the big tree that seemed to have stopped growing.

"Look, the root system of this tree is so developed and it grows so big. When it is uprooted, do you know what it will become?"

Blue Bird asked.

Sandra was stunned for a moment. Before she could figure out what the blue bird meant, there was a violent vibration under her feet.After being stimulated, she almost subconsciously turned into her half-human, half-bird form and flew into the air, but her hand seemed to be light and weightless, which made her unable to help but look around.

The broad and beautiful wings, beautiful and shiny feathers are similar to hers, but the lower body is completely different from hers.

The thick, straight-down snake tail, densely covered with delicate and shiny cyan blue scales, was falling in mid-air, hanging lifelessly on her like a rope hanging from a blue bird's body. body.

"This is not my original posture. I only had a snake tail after I was cursed. You don't have to worry about growing it out later."

Blue Bird seemed to sense what she was thinking, and after explaining this with a smile, she took Sandra's hand and flew to a higher place.

Because the movement of the giant tree rising from the ground was too great, it didn't take long for Sandra to refocus on the tree instead of the blue bird's tail.She saw the giant tree rising from the ground lightly and majesticly as if it was not affected by gravity, and the spread of the well-developed root system was even larger than the area covered by the shade of the tree. A large piece of white substance that looks like soil to it is suspended in mid-air, like...

"When it's uprooted, it becomes an island."

The blue bird looked down at the giant tree like a floating island in the air, and said softly: "It has become an island, it has become a world."

"And when the tree falls, the island, the world, collapses with the tree."

What Qingniao said was inexplicable, but Sandra knew what she was talking about almost immediately, her head buzzed, and she almost fell into a long blank segment.

"……But……"

After a long time, she seemed to have found her own voice, with a bit of trembling and faint weak mosquito sound: "The other ones... the other ones are obviously not..."

"That's why she's chasing you," Qingniao let go of Sandra's hand and touched her cheek, with a smile on her brows and eyes finally brought a bit of heavy depression, "This is me, our The particularity of the present, which is now, belongs only to you."

"We sent the soil back to the earth and destroyed all the seeds and roots of the tree island in the air, just to prevent the birth of such floating islands."

"But you were still born, new floating islands still appeared, and new trees still grew."

Jade Bird can understand Sandra's confusion and bewilderment, but her dream won't last long.She was no longer the big tree that could support the whole world, and now even if she just turned into a small leaf and flew into Sandra's palm to tell her the changes around her, it was too difficult for her.

And her wandering dead leaf will eventually fly away from Sandra's palm, and wait until she is completely eroded by the wind.

"Don't think about it," the blue bird whispered as the soft palm covered Sandra's eyelids, "Wake up, I hope I won't appear in your dreams again."

"It's not a good thing that you dreamed of me."

Sandra used to frequently connect to her spiritual world to observe her past because she was in the process of awakening. Before awakening, these people would always inadvertently connect to the spiritual world of their peers. Trying to use this to gain more sense of security and survival experience from the adult peers. When the dreams gradually decrease, it means that their abilities begin to gradually stabilize. When they no longer dream of each other, it means Thoroughly mature, he can already support an entire world independently.

Dreaming again as an adult can mean only one thing.

Their time of death is near.

Sandra's consciousness became more and more blurred. Seeing her transform into a scattered light feather in her arms and melt into the flying feathers all over the sky, the blue bird sighed and smiled helplessly at her gradually blurred figure. laugh.

"I don't know if the little black bird can protect you..."

Although for Blue Bird, she didn't want Sandra's birth, but for herself...

They are too eager for the birth of a new life.

Whether it is her or the evil bird, they are all so looking forward to having a brand new life, born in this endless emptiness.

The author has something to say: In the metaphor of the tree and the island, the tree refers to Sandra and the blue bird themselves, and the island refers to the world

Qingniao and Sandra's group... It's a very sad group of people to say the least

I was so lonely that I could only rely on myself to keep warm, and even buried myself in the end

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