Three thousand congratulations

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There have been times when I have had the feeling that everything will go on, that there will be compromises, that this life will be accepted without resistance.I mean there was, and there is still a foolish ray of hope that such feelings would return.

【1】

like?

Hearing such words, he couldn't help raising his head to look at that person.Flame-like red hair, sharp-edged handsome face with a smile, is a beautiful person... But such a person has never seen the sun...

"When I saw you in that cage for the first time, your crazy eyes and the breath exuding from your whole body were simply too charming. You know, I couldn't help falling in love with you at that time, I made up my mind I am determined to get you, I want to bring you to my world, no, it should be said that you belong to this world, I must make you the most dazzling existence here, for so long, there is no one but you It makes me have such a strong desire to possess." Hearing these words come out of his mouth, his eyes moved away because of the pain, and stayed on the man's dazzling red hair.Are these words true or false...

"I saw red in your eyes. I have a keen sense that it not only represents madness and excessive killing, but also represents pain." It turned out that it was because of this that the last thing I kept... turned out to be this kind of thing, really Sad, you feel the same way, right?

"I promise that I will let you taste the supreme pleasure of the moment when your sanity collapses. Don't worry, this feeling will caress you until you collapse. It won't break you easily. Struggle is useless, only death This is a way of liberation. Try it with me, you will like it."

The confused words, the lazy voice that seemed to just wake up, turned into a warm breath and gently hit the ear frame, indicating that it was very close, gasping, heartbeat, you can hear it, so shaken, desperate, Helplessness should have been conveyed long ago.

It's no longer an entanglement that can be avoided by refusing, obviously everything about him is in his hands, and the ending he wants is only in his pen, why use such a provocative way.

"I just want to hear you say it yourself." Such reasons can't arouse anger for people who have lost everything. If they don't respond quickly, their body's instincts will probably give an answer first.

For everything that is about to happen and will be irreversible, you should have awakened at the moment of refusing to die, right?

But I am alive because I have not yet been able to forgive that person, nor have I been able to meet him.

I used to be one person's sword, even if I lose the existence of guardian, I can't easily belong to another person, let another person become my master.

But what this person said, even if expressed in such easily misunderstood words, is such a pertinent invitation to kill, are you used to it?Why don't you just sink down here, at least no one will hunt you down except the god of death, at least, you are alive, right...

For me, is there any difference between killing [-] people and killing [-] people?Once you cross that line, you won't think about going back.Isn't this something that has been relieved a long time ago?

But at that time, even if you were driven to a desperate situation, there was always medicine to treat it.He gently hugged me, whose heart was partially broken, and comforted me in a low voice. The wind gently blew through his flaxen hair, feeling his body temperature, and I was always able to smoothly forget that my hands were wet. Even if God does not forgive me, only that person understands and knows who I swung the knife for, and I can choose to turn a blind eye to it all.

And now, my medicine, that person, is gone.This person in front of me is not only not a substitute drug, but a poison that will pull me into a deeper vortex.The poison, which tastes as sweet as blood, will slowly corrode the internal organs and soul, and the bottle is full of warnings and consequences.And gentle drugs, excessive use can also be addictive, once the drugs no longer exist, the backlash brought to the body is also fatal-pain and brokenness that lasts for the rest of life.

Losing a choice, even if you are irrational, it doesn't seem too difficult, after all, you choose to live.

I will survive and will not come back to you so easily.

Before I get his explanation, I can't allow myself to belong to anyone anymore, otherwise, when I come to him, I will be wearing the body of guilt.

"I have nothing. Even so, I am not cheap." The identity that had been abandoned long ago spoke at this time.

"Deviant, excessive killing, but I am not guilty." Having said that, it is a rejection.

【2】

enough

Don't show me anything anymore

no matter how close you are

My heart still belongs to me

so cruel

Just break my body and tear it apart

Do as you like

【3】

But it was someone who couldn't refuse.

"The so-called crime will not be borne by you alone." I could feel the temperature of his fingers, and it was ironic that I actually felt very warm.

"I will carry it with you." Grinding carefully on every crack in the shell, it looked like it would be broken soon, and still resisted wearily.

It's not that I don't know what the other person thinks, but I want to smash my last self-esteem, hope, and reserve, because the so-called slaves, goods and machines are all not allowed to have these.

However, if you have already thought about how to crush and torture, why do you say such things.

Obviously in the dark, in hell, everyone is alone.Hurt, isolated, bewitched, and whipped to a deeper abyss.I have decided to be alone.These pains, helplessness, anger and fear, it takes one person to taste all of them.I'm not afraid, I'm ready.

Can not be done.

It doesn't work for the two of you, no matter how much you pretend to be indifferent or hateful, you will definitely feel other emotions at a certain moment as you move forward.Once there is an intersection, something will be more or less left on each other, and what is exchanged will remain in life and memory. This is an inviolable nature.There will be illusions, feelings, and even worse things. This is not allowed, and it is not allowed by God. People like us cannot experience it. For us, life is something that can only be used for destruction, not for creation. If you do so, you will be punished more seriously.

"Although the blood is different, the structure is still exactly the same. They are indeed similar." Saying this, he acted on his own.Shouldn't what you want to give me be contempt and death?

I was confused, and when I woke up, tears had already slid down my cheeks.I am crying because of this level of pain, I don't deserve to live in this world, let alone now I am a guilty person.

"It won't be your responsibility alone."

"Will be with you."

Even if you say that, I'm still guilty, and that fact can never be changed.

Blindly collide, take away, tear apart, destroy.Is not it good?I won't blame you, and I won't cry because of this, because I have gritted my teeth and endured pain deeper than this level.

So why do you say such things, I am very confused, why do you want to give me an illusion that I shouldn't have, it will be more painful.You understand too, don't you?

Is this your purpose?

You can chop me up with a knife, choke me by the neck, or burn me up.There are many ways, right? As a night rabbit, you are very familiar with this kind of violence, aren't you?

I chose this way.

"Now help you untie the shackles, you want to come out too, right?"

I do not understand.You have already seen everything, and you have already controlled it, why do you want me to experience such things as feelings.Isn't it easier to kill me? Human instinct is not just one kind, but you chose the most illogical and troublesome one.why?Why don't you just kill me, you can feel my pain, my despair, why are you still so gentle with me?

"I'm also looking forward to seeing the real you."

Do you just want to see me cry?If you keep opening up the wounds of the past, how many things like tears should you have.But you must be cutting a fresh, current, your own wound that cannot heal.

The heartbeat gradually calmed down, is it over?I still dare not open my eyes.

Your red in the dark, even with your eyes closed, is still so eye-catching, there is no way to escape, and there is no way to refuse.With your guidance and enlightenment, is the red color on my body also so bright? I hope it will look more beautiful.With my eyes closed, I can't see myself and you in front of me. I can only feel that your more and more bright and scorching colors fill my whole world.My body, my soul, and my blood are all red. Your red and mine are perfectly mixed together, and you can't tell them apart.

"Will be with you."

My chest hurts again.

enough.

Don't say anything.

I just want to close my eyes and throw myself into the embrace of the next dream with tears that haven't been wiped away. I don't care who this embrace belongs to.

At this moment, I just want to close my eyes.

【4】

no matter how much you love

My heart still belongs to me

stop it stop it

Don't be so gentle with me

no matter what

I can't even understand

It hurts

tell me in words

I don't understand such a thing

don't leave me alone

so cruel

Just break my body and tear it apart

Do as you like

No matter how you call and how you struggle

It's okay to cry so hard that your eyes are red and swollen

you still hold me tight

never separate

enough

The author has something to say:

If Mina-san came up with something in his brain, it would be that... Maybe my writing is more cryptic and people can't understand it very well...

In the next chapter, Nissan will appear~