impatience

The company started work, and Zhang Ran was probably on the top of the travel tour, but he said that he didn't expect that there was not enough time, there was still a snow mountain to climb, and a lake to swim, and he needed to stay for a few more days.

A lot of things were all on Mo Ziyi, and he was busy almost every night until after ten o'clock in the past few days before leaving the company.

But he didn't think it mattered, he would rather be so busy than be free, he didn't want to have time to think about those things.

On the day of the Lantern Festival, he went home and had dinner, and then went back to the company to deal with things. Around nine o'clock, his cell phone rang.

The word "Luo Fei" was like a pair of hands, pulling him out from the table full of documents and the mood that had barely calmed down during this period of time.

He looked at the lit screen quietly, his heart beating so loudly that he could clearly hear it.

A few seconds before the call was about to end, Mo Ziyi reached out and answered it.

He pressed the speakerphone, he didn't want to pick up the phone and put it to his ear to answer the call. In that case, Luo Fei's voice would ring in his ears, and he felt that he couldn't bear it.

"Hello?" When Mo Ziyi spoke, he realized that his throat was a little hoarse due to nervousness, and his voice was astringent.

"You are in the company, right?"

Luo Fei's voice was clear and pleasant, and he grabbed Mo Ziyi's ear so tightly that it seemed to hit his soul directly, making him tremble slightly.

He didn't know why he felt this way. He obviously hadn't seen Luo Fei for half a month, but he hadn't heard Luo Fei's voice for half a month, but it seemed like a long time had passed, so long that just hearing his breathing would make him feel like he was in the desert. My heart trembled as if I found a source of water.

"Yes." Mo Ziyi replied, his voice didn't even seem to be his own.

"En." Luo Fei replied, he seemed to be outside, and there were some rumors coming from the phone.

Neither of them spoke anymore, and Mo Ziyi gradually clenched the document in his hand, not even daring to breathe, he could only feel his heart beating desperately in his chest.

"I'm downstairs in your company." Luo Fei said suddenly.

Mo Ziyi was shocked, and even rubbed the chair under him on the ground. The information in his hand was squeezed into a shapeless shape. He suppressed his unsteady breath and asked reluctantly, "What are you doing?"

"Nothing." Luo Fei said, "I know it's not good for me to do this, and I'm not here to ask you to meet me. I'll just stand below for a while. Today is the Lantern Festival, and I bought a Kongming lantern."

"Unfortunately, it's not safe to fly the Kongming Lantern, and it's not allowed to be released in the urban area." Luo Fei said slowly, "So I just hold it, and when it burns out, I will leave."

When he said these words, Mo Ziyi had already stood up, as if being pulled by something, he walked slowly to the window.

The floor of the office is not high, Mo Ziyi only looked down a little, and saw the bright red Kongming lantern by the flower bed downstairs, and the person holding it.

He couldn't see Luo Fei's face clearly, he could only see his slender and tall figure and a little white blurred complexion, standing in the wind of the night, slightly illuminated by the Kongming lantern beside him.Like an emissary from another world, clinging to a lamp, it attracts people with delusional fantasies to follow.

Mo Ziyi had many delusional fantasies, but at the moment, he was just holding the phone in one hand, and fastening it to the window sill with the other, looking almost greedily at the figure downstairs.

He did not dare to follow, nor was he qualified to follow.

"It's too cold." Mo Ziyi finally said, "Go back early."

"Well, I'll go back when the burning is over." Luo Fei smiled softly, "It won't last long."

Because he had been standing downstairs for more than 20 minutes, watching the Kongming lanterns burning for more than 20 minutes, he finally had the courage to call Mo Ziyi.

He didn't expect Mo Ziyi to answer the phone, he was planning to wait for the alcohol to burn out alone while watching the lit floor.

He was so stupid, but Luo Fei felt very happy, especially since Mo Ziyi answered the phone, he felt that he was not alone waiting now.

Mo Ziyi looked down without blinking, thinking to himself, Luo Fei is so tall and standing motionless in the wind, he should hug him.

This is an absurd idea that he can't put into action or even open his mouth. It's like a poisonous weed growing in his heart. He can only wait for it to wither by itself, and then with a corroded heart, he can endure the melted blood rushing to his limbs. skeletal venom.

"I saw a person standing by the window, is it you?" Luo Fei asked.

Mo Ziyi seemed to see Luo Fei raised his head. Although he couldn't catch Luo Fei's eyes, he felt as if he met his gaze through the darkness and cold wind, and his heart beat like a drum for a moment.

"It's me." Mo Ziyi's eyes slowly filled with uncontrollable tears, and his voice trembled slightly.

"Well, I can't see clearly, so I'm asking you." Luo Fei paused, "I haven't had a chance to say Happy New Year to you, so I'll say it together with Happy Lantern Festival today."

Mo Ziyi saw that Luo Fei seemed to lift up the Kongming lantern, and shook it at himself. Under the red paper of the lantern, there was a visible flame that flickered on and off.Mo Ziyi stretched out his index finger and pointed on the glass, just facing the position of the Kongming Lantern. The glass was cold, but he felt an unspeakable burning sensation from the Kongming Lantern directly through the night sky, and transmitted to himself through the glass window. on the fingertips, and then rushed along the blood vessels all the way to the heart, which stimulated the whole heart to beat violently.He said, "You too."

"It's about to go out," Luo Fei said.

Mo Ziyi's beating heart seemed to be pinched suddenly, the suffocation made it difficult for him to breathe, his whole body was like a cluster of flames swaying in the wind, he could hardly stand still.He shed tears all over his face, but he didn't have time to wipe them off. He just watched the only light flickering in the dark night slowly go out through his blurred vision, like an official announcement of the end.

It's over, everything is over, the relationship between him and Luo Fei is like that lamp, dark and selfish, it can only light up faintly and secretly in the dark night when the back is facing the bright world, and then it is blown by the wind and burns Burning, consuming, and finally slowly turning into charred embers, the most insignificant dim garbage in the world.

Luo Fei said: "I'm leaving, you should go back to rest early."

Luo Fei was not standing under the street lamp. After the Kongming lantern was extinguished, he could no longer be seen. Only the voice coming through the screen could prove that he did not disappear with the lamp.

"Okay." Mo Ziyi took a deep breath tremblingly and said, "I hope we won't see each other again."

There was a sound of wind coming from the mobile phone, it seemed that only the sound of wind was left in the whole world, blowing through the body, taking away all the heat, making people's hands and feet cold.

After an unknown amount of time, Luo Fei said, "Okay."

His voice is always so clear and low, especially when he promises, it makes people firmly believe that it is the same at this moment.

After hanging up the phone, Mo Ziyi was still standing in front of the window, maintaining a posture of looking down, but he couldn't see anything, his gaze seemed to have fallen into a black hole, only eternal darkness.

Mo Ziyi only felt this pain twice, one was when he came back from Uncle Luo Fei's villa, and they parted at the gate of the house, and the other was now.As for the others, whether it was seeing Luo Fei hugging someone else, or being told that Luo Fei already had a child, nothing was as painful as these two farewells.

Desperate, unbearable, helpless at this moment.

He twitched his shoulders and wept in a low voice, while the vague sound of the wind and Luo Fei's voice seemed to echo in his ears.From the meeting three years ago to the present, those words spoken, the expressions they had, and the hands they touched have all become a past that cannot be copied, and become something that cannot be owned for the rest of my life.

Luo Fei was sitting in the car, looking at the steering wheel quietly, his eyes seemed a little uncomfortable, he raised his head, and when he was about to drive, he found that the vision ahead was a bit blurred.

He was stunned for a moment, and then as if realizing something, he pressed his hands on the steering wheel, slowly lowered his head and buried his face in his arms.

A small, suppressed sob filled the car.