1999

On the street of life, disorderly light boxes and neon signs emerge from all kinds of tangled wires, illuminating the crooked streets and alleys.Someone saw Huda get off the car, waved his arms to greet him, and asked him loudly if there was any supper served tonight, but Huda just shook his head.

He groped back to the Jiujiu BBQ, unlocked the front door, and lifted the shutter door.

The shop is dark, only the cold light of the freezer is printed on the wall.The rolling door had to be lifted to a height of at least one meter before he could bend over to enter. The door was pulled up and closed again, making a series of loud and abrupt noises, but from the beginning to the end, there was no other movement above the floor.

Huda felt that something was unusual, it was impossible for the people upstairs not to hear the string of voices.If Wu Jiusheng knew that he was back, he should have hurried downstairs, waiting to get delicious food and various benefits from him.The strange anomaly in front of him made Huda flustered inexplicably. He threw the plastic bag at hand on the table, erected his vigilance, and tiptoed up the stairs step by step.

The entire second floor was also dark, Hu Da was not there, and Wu Jiusheng didn't even turn on the headlights, only a flickering fluorescent light came out from the gap in the floor of the door of his own room.The room was sweltering and hot, but the air was terribly quiet. Even the air conditioner was not running. Huda squatted down slowly, leaning on the stairs with his ear to the floor, and listened intently for a while. He didn't hear any footsteps, so he was basically sure and No suspicious strangers came into his shop.

In this way, Wu Jiusheng is really the only one.Huda relaxed a little, but at the same time began to wonder about the abnormality of the young man tonight.The last bus back to the factory stops running at 06:30 every night. If you have not arrived home after that time, the young man has every reason to think that he will not come back tonight, but even if he is not there However, the Wu Jiusheng he knew seldom stayed in the room so quietly and alone.

Huda straightened up, slowly approached the door, and for the final confirmation, he pushed it open without knocking.

The picture that the middle-aged and young people were expected to have fallen asleep did not appear.Wu Jiusheng was awake, not only awake, but the layer of sweat covering his face and the wet light in his eyes showed that he was even in a state of extreme excitement a few seconds ago.He was sitting in front of the low table not far from the door, facing the brand-new LCD screen, watching the screen playing the screen. Covering Wu Jiusheng's ears, no wonder he didn't hear any noise made by Huda from the very beginning.Wu Jiusheng never expected that Hu Da would come back at this time.He was obviously taken aback. In addition to being shocked, he was also flustered. A strange look of surprise appeared on his face. At that moment, the original concentration and longing in his eyes suddenly turned into dodge. Then he fell down, as if he was going to run away in a panic.

The earphone cable was torn off, and Hulala dropped the keyboard and mouse on the ground, making a series of noises.

Huda also froze by the door.The monitor that Si Mao gave to Wu Jiusheng was very large and bright, placed in the background of the simple room, it would catch people's attention unconsciously, and the screen that was being played showed two men who were entangled together, Their upper bodies were pressed against each other, swaying in the warm yellow ambiguous light, doing something that should never happen between two men, and they could feel the burning temperature on the surface of their skin through the screen, just like Now Wu Jiusheng's cheeks are red and hot.

He sat on the ground, helplessly and tremblingly called out: "Uncle..."

Hu Da's eyes darkened at a speed that he didn't expect. He stepped into the room with one step, closed the door with a "bang", and stirred up a cloud of dust in the cramped and humid air.

"What is this?" He asked the young man in a deeper and hoarse voice than usual, and walked towards him like a predator approaching its prey, until he forced the young man who was caught on the spot to sit back on the bed, and then Bending down, staring into the young man's eyes, he asked, "Why do you want to look at this kind of thing?"

Wu Jiusheng didn't dare to look into Hu Da's eyes. He lowered his head hard, and a drop of cold sweat dripped from the tip of his nose onto the floor.

"No... I don't know..." He replied with a messy expression, "Really, I didn't know what it was at first, I was just curious..."

"At the beginning?" Hu Da keenly grasped the words in his words, and clenched on the topic even more tightly, "So, this is not the first time you have read it?"

Wu Jiusheng trembled for a moment, and Hu Da caught his eyes in a panic, and the two looked at each other for a moment, and Hu Da saw a foggy and confused light from those eyes.

Wu Jiusheng did not lie to him.What he played on his computer came from a USB flash drive he got by accident.I don't know which worker collected several folders of seeds and compressed files from various groups on the Internet, and circulated among the workers.Wu Jiu has never touched any woman since he grew up. He is not as passionate about it as other people, but he can't say that he doesn't have the slightest need.Since he started assembling his own computer, the USB flash drive has been in his hands.As early as this week, he had gone to the Internet cafe to download the movie, but the Internet cafe is a public place after all, he was especially ashamed and nervous when doing those things on the computer, it was impossible to carefully screen the file names and serial numbers step by step, Basically, just randomly order, choose a few at random.After downloading, it is impossible to open and watch it in the Internet cafe. Instead, it is temporarily saved in a USB flash drive, and when I go back to my room at night, I will find a chance to upload it to the computer.

The thing I just watched was uploaded to his computer by accident during the process of Ant's moving.

Wu Jiusheng was taken aback when he opened it for the first time, and he clicked to close it almost immediately.There were two men on the screen, and before he saw something like that, he never even thought that two men could strip naked and stick together to make such a move.He originally wanted to delete the file directly, but a strange curiosity arose out of thin air—it was just curiosity at first, and then gradually turned into concern.He knew how a man and a woman were, but not how a man and a man should do the same thing.He has everything a man has, and he couldn't figure out how to use the place below to be comfortable, and how comfortable it can be.

So, taking advantage of Huda's absence, he closed the store and room doors, and in an absolutely safe and closed environment where no one could know what he was doing, he searched for the video nervously but inexplicably excited. Click it again.This time, he persisted until No. 20 minutes.

I don't know whether it's artistic exaggeration or the acting skills of the two actors are too good, Wu Jiusheng watched and watched, and actually believed the signal conveyed by their fascinated facial expressions.It seems that hugging each other like them can really make you feel so happy, it's more enjoyable than looking for a young lady.

That was the first time he put himself in the right position to look at "that kind of thing" that he had always looked down upon before, and he found that he had a little appreciation and longing for no reason, as if he suddenly found his favorite fruit in the fruit plate, like the first Once you drink soda and eat popsicles for the first time, you will meet the desired taste.

Although it was just by accident, it was like it should be. After trying it once, I knew I liked it.

Wu Jiusheng was not such a young man with self-control.He watched it once during the day, and at night, after confirming that it was impossible for Huda to come back, he didn't hold back and decided to watch it again.

This time, he even dared to touch himself twice through his trousers while watching. Miraculously, his body was as honest as a catalyst, and he responded quickly without any other stimulation.It's a pity that before he could further figure out the secret and obscure impulse in his chest by himself, Huda had already taken the first step, and pushed open the door like a ghost.

Wu Jiusheng was terrified. He knew what it meant. He was afraid that Hu Da would misunderstand him and treat him as a pervert. He even thought that Hu Da might beat him. As soon as Da squatted down, he subconsciously covered his head with his arms.

But Huda didn't hit him.Wu Jiusheng didn't see it because his eyes were half closed. Hu Da's expression was even more contradictory and bewildered than his own.

Hu Da swallowed a mouthful of saliva, the desire that was suppressed with great difficulty by closing himself up seemed to be instantly ignited by the shrinking youth, and every bone covering the chest was like a bundle of dry wood, suddenly thrown into the fierce fire.Panting heavily, Huda grabbed the young man's arm.

"Do you understand what they are doing?" He asked the young man hoarsely.

The young man raised his head.At that moment, his eyes were bright, because there was a little crystal tear, the fundus of his eyes were as clear as two pieces of clean and soft glass.

"I know..." he replied honestly, "it's just... touching, touching, and then... kissing, doing, doing those things..."

"What about the future? Do you know what happened next?" Hu Da asked again.

"I don't know..." The young man lowered his eyelids, "I haven't tried it, I don't know..."

He clenched his hands tightly, with an unspeakable embarrassment on his face, almost choking with sobs and desperately explaining:

"I just think it's fun, it looks comfortable, I just want to enjoy it, I'm really not a pervert, really not."

He was trembling, his voice was trembling, and his tears were also trembling. Pink bloodshots appeared on the surface of his pale skin, like the kind of wild flowers that insist on blooming in the unsheltered wilderness, unable to withstand the wind and rain. appearance.

Huda's eyes hurt, and he pulled the young man into his arms.

"It's okay." He comforted the young man and said, "You are not, I am."

The body in his arms was thin and limp, covered with a layer of cold sweat, cooler than the temperature in his palms.Hu Da hugged the young man tightly like what was staged on the screen, his arms went all the way around the opponent's waist, and his chest was against his chest.One of his hands went down to wrap around the young man, kneading the body with a rough and irresistible force, while the other hand crawled to the back of the neck, supporting the young man's head.

Huda's hands are proficient in skills. The young man was surrounded by those two arms, and his face flushed and mist rose in his eyes. He opened his eyes wide and looked at Huda in amazement.Hu Da's movements were too sudden and intense. Wu Jiusheng had never felt that way in his whole life. Those strange and high-frequency touches blocked him from speaking a complete sentence, only the feeling like a tide kept rushing into his brain. In the middle, they merged into a chaos that even blinded consciousness.A feeling of happiness going straight to the clouds.It seems that I don't need to do anything, just relax my hands and feet, and give full power to the person in front of me, so that my body and mind can be allowed to drift with the current, washed away by thrilling pleasure, time and time again.

It felt so new, he had never experienced it before.Even more impactful than it looks in the picture.He didn't know that there could be such happiness between two men.

Wu Jiusheng's clenched teeth loosened unconsciously, and one or two weak and indistinct sighs leaked from his throat and dissipated into the air, startling himself.

"Um..." He seemed to come back to himself suddenly, trying to break Huda's tightly clenched hand, "Um...Uncle, don't...don't use such force...I haven't tried it, it's too, too much ..."

His voice revealed so much.He is puzzled and eager to grasp those illusory feelings, but he also instinctively rejects the bottomless indulgence. He is afraid that once he opens it, he will never be able to take it back.Beyond that unknown line is a world he has never imagined. He doesn't know what it means, and what consequences it will bring, but he still has no time to take care of it. His disturbed reason can no longer overcome his instinct. Force yourself to say the words of rejection against your will at this moment.

Hu Da put his arms around the young man, seeing everything clearly.His previous evaluation of youth was not bad at all.It's too straightforward, it's too easy to see through, he can't hold his breath, and he doesn't understand what deception and city government are, but because of this, whatever he likes, he really likes it, and now it's all written on his face.

He liked it, Huda was like fireworks exploding in his chest at that moment, swelling to an unimaginable level, and the uncontrollable joy surged up, making him almost laugh out loud.

"You baby..." He murmured, pressed the back of the young man's head, bowed his head and kissed it.

They didn't make it to the end.In less than ten minutes, the young man panted and explained himself.

After the incident, Hu Da put his arms around him, both soft-hearted and wanting to laugh.He finally didn't feel lost anymore, the hole in his heart seemed to have been well filled, and a chirping bird lived in it, so immature and pityable, so young that he needed his protection.

They maintained the posture of leaning against each other and leaning on the bed. Hu Da originally planned to let the young man fall asleep in his arms like that tonight, but he didn't expect that after ten minutes, the people around him would come back to their senses, and it would be like a sudden commotion. Out of temper, he pushed him violently, wishing he had to jump up when he touched him, and ran back to the door in a few steps.

"You...! I...!" The young man pointed at Hu Da, and then at himself. He couldn't speak for some reason, and stomped on the floor a few times in anger.

"What's wrong?" Hu Da sat on the ground and looked at him, "It made you uncomfortable just now, do you want to do it again?"

There was a carefree smile on the corner of his mouth, and the relaxed expression he had never seen before made the young man stunned, and then he became even more excited.

"No...! I don't want it!" The young man suddenly hugged his arms, angrily turning around like a puppy that couldn't find its tail, "I didn't know you were... that one!" He tried hard to find the words , "Why didn't you tell me!"

Huda raised an eyebrow.

"Didn't I tell you just now? Isn't it good?"

"How can it be considered telling! How can it be the same!" The young man jumped up excitedly.He wanted to slam the door hard and get out, but just as he turned around, he remembered that this was his own room at all, and he wanted Huda to go out, but Huda was sitting there like an old god, stronger than him No matter how you look at the doubled figure, it is impossible to be shaken by yourself.

Wu Jiusheng choked up in his throat with a breath of anger, and called out like a complaint: "Uncle——!"

Huda let out an "ah" and moved his fingers resting on his knee.

"Sleep in my room, don't you want to turn on the air conditioner?" He said.

"Don't sleep!" The young man refused without thinking, "Don't sleep, don't sleep, never sleep again! That's the bed you slept in. If I had known you were like this, I wouldn't have repaired it for you." air conditioner!"

"But you have the nerve to eat my cooking, drink my soda, ask me for snacks and gifts, and run around in front of me naked all day long."

When Hu Da mentioned the three words "take off naked", Wu Jiusheng's face turned red as if he had been injected with medicine.

He was sweating all over just now, and now his crotch is sticky and slippery. He really wants to take a bath, and he especially needs some cold water to calm himself down, but he doesn't want to go. The bird that slipped past this man wanted to slap himself.

Huda didn't continue to provoke him.He put away the expression on his face, leaving only the last soft light in his eyes.He propped himself up and sat on the young man's bed from the floor.

"You go." He waved to the young man, "I'll close the door and go to sleep in a while, do whatever you want, and go to sleep in my room honestly when you're done, good boy."

He said a series of words, like a series of instructions, and his tone was so natural, as if he knew early on that it was impossible for the young man to refuse.

Wu Jiusheng's chest heaved violently twice in the dark. Hu Da closed his eyes and lay down on his bed, hearing the sound of the door being slammed shut and the dust on the ceiling being shaken off.

After a while, when Wu Jiusheng's computer started to sleep automatically because it had not been operated for a long time, and in the silence of the night, only the sound of water dripping from the bathroom downstairs could be heard, Hu Da slowly opened his eyes again in complete darkness. Eye.

The smile on his face disappeared, and after a short-lived warm joy, the oppressive atmosphere returned to him again.

He frowned, and let out a deep breath.

He was impulsive tonight.Really too impulsive.

Regardless of whether a young man is naturally acceptable to the same sex or not, he should not do so.Wu Jiusheng is different from him. In the first half of his dead life, he was only poor and unbearable as a child, and deeply failed as an adult.He tossed himself to this field, and lived in seclusion in such a chaotic and closed place like Pingxiang without making a sound. Originally, he just wanted to end this useless life in a sloppy manner.But Wu Jiusheng is still so young, he hasn't even fully seen the whole picture of this world, and he hasn't really seen what the future can look like.He has a better future than himself, has a bright future, and has infinite possibilities, not to mention his family.

Huda's heart suddenly sank in despair.

Although the young man did not show much intimacy with his family, everyone has family relatives after all.He doesn't even know the names of Wu Jiusheng's parents, how should he face those elders?How to explain to them that I made such a bad decision out of a moment of passion and selfishness?

That was not a trivial matter, Wu Jiusheng might delay his whole life because of him.Thinking of this, even the last sliver of satisfaction from hugging the young man disappeared in Huda's heart.

He recalled the feeling of the young man bending his waist and sinking into his body, it was weightless, so light, so jerky, as if a gust of wind could take this person away if he didn't pay attention.At that moment Huda's heart briefly rose for a few seconds of panic.Now that he calmed down, all the panic came out clamoring.

He was just glad that they didn't make it to the end, they just pointed out each other's preferences and got started.If you still want to return to a clean life, there is no way out.But as soon as that thought flashed into his mind, he was overwhelmed by Huda's own panic.

He's been alone for too long.It's been so long that only he himself knows that although Huda appears to be a person who restrains his desires and lives diligently, he is already rotten and dead inside, like a piece of loose sand, a walking corpse.He has lost too many things, and paid a huge price that ordinary people can't imagine, before he changed to this lonely and helpless life. Now it is very easy for him to meet someone who can make him care, even if he just imagined it a little bit. Losing the young man for a moment, the chest will be so oppressed that he can't breathe.

He knows himself too well.Even at the risk of ruining other people's lives, he still wants to hold the young man firmly in his hands and tie him by his side.

Today's Hu Da has already become a bad person, which is why, even though his early friends, like Xu Chongwen, tried so hard to contact him and restore the old relationship with him, he can still turn a blind eye and stay away from him.

The heavy secrets of the past that no one knew submerged him unknowingly, and he didn't know how long it had passed. Huda covered his eyes, turned over on the bed, covered his head with a pillow towel, and fell asleep exhausted.

He forgot to pay attention to when the movement of the flushing downstairs stopped.In fact, it has already stopped.After Wu Jiusheng took a shower, naked/naked and wrapped in a bath towel, he stood quietly outside that door all the time.The chaos in his head was finally washed away with the running water. Now Wu Jiusheng has a rare elegance and tranquility, but there is still an invisible string in the depths of his soul that keeps vibrating, like heart palpitations.

He stared at the door in front of him, until Huda's faint snoring came from the other side of the door, and then he murmured almost inaudibly:

"You are not someone who can accompany me for the rest of your life, why do you want to provoke me..."