1999

On the second weekend after the courier collection point was put into operation, Hu Da only did business for half a day. After sending text messages to all the workers who failed to pick up the courier in time, he locked the store door, took Wu Jiusheng, I took a taxi booked online to visit Ye Hao in the Pingxi Community Rehabilitation and Rehabilitation Center for the Disabled.

Before setting off on the road, Wu Jiusheng was at the side of the bus stop waiting for the bus to arrive, listening to Hu Da finish telling the story of Ye Hao and Lao Lin.

He thought that the night when Lin Jianhua captured both of them in Dongguan and Hu Da, they had already experienced life and death. After listening to Hu Da's dictation of the past, he realized how lucky he was.Compared with Ye Hao's situation, the twists and turns that happened to him are nothing at all.

Huda protected him well, better than he imagined.

The rehabilitation center in Pingxi Community is two separate buildings with a mirror structure, connected by a corridor bridge in the middle, and a circular square structure in front of the building. There are wooden flower stands above each trail, and various plants are planted. There is a fountain.The grade of the rehabilitation center Huda found can only be regarded as medium, but Sheng was built in a very short period of time. The equipment is very new, the space is rich, and the environment is elegant. You can feel it just by standing in the courtyard. A peaceful place for recuperation.

The monthly charge of 5000 yuan is enough for Ye Hao to get a single room with professional nurses and 24-hour bell service in the rehabilitation center.The ward was on the sixth floor of Building No. [-]. When Hu Da took Wu Jiusheng to take the elevator, Wu Jiusheng still looked hesitant.

Holding the handle of the gift basket tightly with one hand, Wu Jiusheng nervously tugged at the hem of Huda's clothes.

"You said, would he hate me because I caused Lin Jianhua to be caught by the police...?"

Hu Da touched the back of the young man's head.

"You don't call it 'harm'. I told you that adults must be responsible for everything they do and every word they say. This is the operating rule of this world. Without rules, there will be no morality. , there are right and wrong, it is difficult for people to obtain happiness in such a world.”

And he longs for a kind of stable joy, no more, no less, just keeping one person by his side is enough.

Hu Da blocked the young man behind him, and pushed open the door of the room at the end of the corridor on the sixth floor first.It was just before three or four o'clock, the quiet afternoon when people's spirits were the most exhausted, and Ye Hao had just finished a nap.He propped himself up against the edge of the bed, ready to slide into the wheelchair and walk around.The moment Hu Da pushed the door open, both sides were taken aback.

This is not the first contact between Ye Hao and Hu Da, but it is the first time they have met. Before that, the two had only communicated briefly on the phone. Ye Hao remembered Hu Da's deep and peaceful voice, and Hu Da also Recognized him immediately.

Ye Hao's brows and eyes are gentle and bright, and the color of his eyes is lighter than that of ordinary people, so shallow that it is close to a kind of amber. When he is not smiling, he seems to be smiling. He feels kind and inclusive, as if there is spring hidden in his face. It is very consistent with the face that Lin Jianhua once described to Hu Da in prison.

Huda smiled at him, stepped forward to stabilize the wheelchair, and gave him a hand.

Ye Hao thanked him, and when he raised his head again, he saw Wu Jiusheng standing behind Hu Da, holding a basket of fruit and blinking at him.

The young man's face was so small that even Ye Hao was not sure how old he was and whether he was still in school.He subconsciously regarded Wu Jiusheng as a shy little brother, smiled and asked in a soft voice:

"Little friend, are you with your big brother Hu?"

As soon as Ye Hao said the three words "little friend", Hu Da was embarrassed, and the words he had planned to introduce Wu Jiusheng got stuck in his throat, and he was embarrassed to say it.

Wu Jiusheng, on the other hand, looked at Ye Hao with a curious look, and answered the other party's question without any defense:

"Hello, my name is Wu Jiusheng. I'm not a child. I'm nineteen this year. I'm with Uncle Hu. Don't worry, Uncle said he will take care of you. I will visit you often in the future."

Huda blushed and coughed.

"It turns out that the kid Captain Yan mentioned before is you." Ye Hao suddenly realized.

After the case in Dongguan was over, Yan Tian handled Ye Hao's transfer to another hospital at the request of Hu Da. He also informed Ye Hao of all the details of Lin Jianhua's case out of the fixed procedures for handling the case. Ye Hao naturally knew what Yan Tian said. Who is the young man Wu Jiusheng and what has he done.

Lin Jianhua felt sorry for him, and Ye Hao felt very sorry.

He paused for a while, remembering what the young man had emphasized just now, and immediately changed his words, "I'm sorry, it's not a kid, it's my name that was wrong."

Wu Jiusheng shrugged indifferently.

"You can call me Asheng. That's what my friends call me."

He put the fruit basket on Ye Hao's bedside, and after Ye Hao successfully settled down in the wheelchair, he sat down on the single bed where Ye Hao was lying on.The height of the hospital bed had been specially raised, and the young man was sitting on the edge, his legs dangling in mid-air more than ten centimeters above the ground.

Ye Hao didn't speak, and there was a moment of silence in the ward.

Huda glanced nervously at the situation. He had actually been hiding his worries.He was not as worried as Wu Jiusheng was that Ye Hao would hold grudges against him because of Lin Jianhua, but he was very afraid that the young man himself would mind—

After all, it was he who agreed to take over the care of Ye Hao without permission, and that matter was protracted, time-consuming and laborious, and the object of care was Lin Jianhua's lover who once threatened his life, and Wu Jiusheng, who had nothing to do with the old grievances. In fact, there are a hundred reasons for refusing to share this debt of favor with him.

But there was no complicated expression on the young man's face.He just sat on the edge of the bed, quietly, but stared at Ye Hao's body with unusual concentration.

What he was looking at was Ye Hao's wrist.Because the tendons were repaired after the tendons were ruptured, even when Ye Hao's hands were holding the armrests on both sides of the wheelchair, their postures were slightly different from ordinary people, and his thumbs were slightly raised uncontrollably. If you look carefully, you can still see Every few seconds, the position of the tiger's mouth would tremble slightly for no reason.

Since Ye Hao was implicated by Lin Jianhua's informant before, he has not recovered all his muscle functions after a whole year of training, which is equivalent to half a disabled person, and no matter who he is, with such an injury, his name is Wu Jiusheng. Staring at it so intently is a rather embarrassing thing.

Hu Da moved a step towards the young man indistinctly, and lightly touched the young man's arm.

"Xiao Jiu, don't be rude." He said.

Wu Jiusheng raised his head in surprise, as if he didn't realize that his actions were inappropriate.He frowned, his eyes still lingering on Ye Hao's hand with full concern.

"Are you... good at needlework?" he asked suddenly.

He had read an online reasoning novel before, in which it was written that a professional detective can judge a person's occupation just from his hands. On the side of the first joint of the middle finger of the right hand, the chef's cocoon grows on the outside of the base of the index finger, while gymnasts often develop a cocoon at the base of the finger.Even Wu Jiusheng himself, who neither cooks nor reads, has a thick callus on the outside of his right wrist, which is caused by playing computer games for a long time, commonly known as mouse hand.

And the location of the callus on Ye Hao's hand is very special, it grows on the thumb, a place where ordinary people seldom rub too much to produce calluses.

Wu Jiusheng has only seen the same thing in the hands of a close relative, that is, the elder sister who took care of him since he was a child until he married far away. She always does a lot of needlework when she is at home, and the whole family's sewing is done by her. For hands, she also made a lot of small clothes for the little Wu Jiusheng, often using thimbles, her thumb pulp is thick and hard, and it is very easy to crack in winter.

But Ye Hao is obviously a man, and this is the first time Wu Jiusheng has seen a man do so much needlework.

Ye Hao didn't seem very surprised, he nodded very calmly, and admitted directly.

"I like tailoring very much. Before, my biggest dream was to become a proper designer and sew my own clothes."

Ye Hao turned the wheelchair in a different direction, facing Wu Jiusheng, and looked around the young man again.

"Don't look at me like this now. Although my fingers are not working, my eyes are still very strong. This is the basic skill of every tailor. Just by looking at you, you can visually measure the approximate size of the garment."

His eyes finally fell on the young man's waist,

"Asheng, you are too thin. You wear 26 pants that are too short, but your waist is not full. No wonder you are mistaken for a child. Remember to eat more."

As soon as he finished speaking, Wu Jiusheng's eyes sparkled.

"Wow, why are you so powerful, can you tell with just your eyes!"

Ye Hao hadn't touched needles and threads for a long time, and he smiled heartily after receiving the long-lost compliment.

His smile made Huda's eyelids twitch.He had read Ye Hao's medical record that Yan Tian had passed to him, and the sequelae were so serious that even if he insisted on rehabilitation in the best nursing home, it was basically impossible to fully restore the flexibility of the joints.He may be able to take care of himself in daily life, but Ye Hao may not be able to complete the delicate needlework in his life.

Such a cruel fate befalls his lover for no reason. What kind of mood did Lin Jianhua feel after witnessing all this after the catastrophe.

Huda sighed and lowered his head in embarrassment.

"Sorry, the conditions here are still a bit different from yours before..."

He was referring to conditions in rehab centers.Although the rehabilitation center in Pingxi Community has not been listed for a long time, it is considered to be of a medium level in the area, but it is definitely incomparable with the luxurious recuperation center where Lin Jianhua placed Ye Hao before.The nurses here have to serve several patients alone, and they will not always be with the patients. In many cases, such small things as going to the toilet and changing clothes, I am afraid that Ye Hao needs to work hard to complete them.

Ye Hao understood what Hu Da meant, and of course he would not accept Hu Da's apology.

"Actually, even here I think it's too high-end." He interrupted Huda's unfinished sentence, "I'm like this anyway, you really shouldn't waste money on me. Tailors are not considered in this era. What a promising craft, now I can’t get through a needle on my own, what do I need to eat and live so comfortably, one day I will leave the rehabilitation center, and I won’t be able to do it myself if I don’t have the craft If you know what will happen to you, you will have to live a hard life, so you might as well get used to it earlier."

When Ye Hao spoke, his expression was full of self-abandonment, which formed a very sharp contrast with his harmonious temperament, which was very sympathetic.Wu Jiusheng was a little anxious, and quickly interjected:

"Don't say such depressing words, there will always be a way. I heard from Captain Yan that Lin Jianhua may be sentenced to more than two years. Two years will pass in a blink of an eye. When he is released from prison, he can still come back to take care of you. .”

Compared with Wu Jiusheng's enthusiasm, what he said exceeded Ye Hao's expectations.

He was a little too late to react, and looked at the young man with wide eyes.

A criminal who has hijacked himself and threatened to kill him several times, it is very difficult for ordinary people not to hold grudges, how can he comfort himself in such a calm tone that the other party will be released from prison in a short time.

Ye Hao couldn't control himself, and asked Wu Jiusheng: "You...don't you blame him...?"

Wu Jiusheng paused for a while, and there was an undisguised dissatisfaction on his expression.

"How could it not be strange, he broke Uncle Hu's hand."

As he spoke, he also glanced at Huda. The unsightly plaster had been hanging on Huda's arm for nearly a month, which doubled his daily workload.Every time he thinks about this, the young man feels that his bite of Lin Jianhua was really too light.

Ye Hao can naturally understand it.

"I apologize for him," he said, "although I know that as an outsider, saying anything will not help, and I don't expect you to forgive him, but I hope that I can at least make amends for him. Return it and don't waste your fearless money."

"But why." Wu Jiusheng frowned, "He is him, you are you, you are a good person, I can tell."

"Do you think Jianhua is a bad guy through and through?" Ye Hao asked.

If it's not the bad guys, why should they be arrested and go to jail?He was going to say this, but suddenly remembered what happened to Huda, and muttered another way: "Anyway, he is not a good person until he receives the punishment he deserves."

"Actually, you are right." Ye Hao smiled.

"Since you think so, why do you still care about him so much?" Wu Jiusheng asked suddenly.He understands that human beings are very complicated animals, and he has read similar news about the cruel murderer who is also a dutiful son who takes good care of his eighty-year-old mother. crime.

Perhaps Lin Jianhua was not such a jerk when facing Ye Hao, the young man thought to himself.

"Do you think I speak for him because he takes care of me and treats me well?" Ye Hao saw through Wu Jiusheng's mind, and shook his head, "He is indeed very kind to me, but it's not because of this reason. In fact, even if If you ask me, I can’t tell. I’m not a person who is good at describing my feelings. You may not believe me. I spent 30 years and I couldn’t convince him. I love him and he deserves it. He It is true that he is full of shortcomings and has been in prison. It is because of this that he only thinks that he is not good enough, not worthy of self-love, and not worthy of being loved. He stubbornly believes that taking care of me and being good to me is the only way to keep me. The way I was around, and all my responses were just out of kindness or pity, I tried to explain, but no matter how hard I tried to show that it was not the case, the two people always seemed to be separated. I thought That is not a big deal, as long as we are together, even if there is some estrangement now, it will always be untied. I didn't expect that this kind of delay would make his mentality so extreme. I really should apologize for him. I even feel that , he would do those things, there is a part of me in it. But even so, even though I know he deserves what he deserves, I still don't want to give up on him, and I don't want to stay out of it. We grew up together since childhood, most of our lives We are all spent together, we are not lovers, we are not lovers, we are relatives of each other, and we cannot part with each other in this life."

He said a lot, and the scattered words hit Wu Jiusheng's heart.

He lowered his head and stopped talking. He also wanted to hide his expression, and he didn't want anyone to see that he thought of something else because of the other party's words.

He really didn't want to admit that he thought of Huda.

Huda was too good to him, far more than a lover needs to do to care for another half.

After walking out of the rehabilitation center, Wu Jiusheng's silence lasted for a long time.He walked side by side with Huda, and stood on the vent, listening to the whistling sound of passing vehicles.Hu Da's eyes dodged a little, and he didn't take the initiative to start the conversation with the young man along the way. He was worried. Ye Hao's confession was very touching, but it also explained one thing - how irrational is love. .Will a person fall in love with someone who is not worthy of love? The answer is naturally yes.He couldn't help but began to wonder if young people would think of that too. Wu Jiusheng is only 19 years old, and his outlook on life and the world have not yet been fully formed. What if...he will suddenly feel bad one day? Come on, he is not a suitable lover, how should he abandon this fate.

Some things have been held in my hands for too long, and I have forgotten how to let go.

Wu Jiusheng stopped suddenly.As if they had a tacit understanding, the two stood on both sides of the curb, looked at each other one high and one low, and Wu Jiusheng found something uneasy in Hu Da's obscure eyes that he couldn't hide in time.

His chest suddenly tightened, and he immediately had the urge to grab him on the road.

He couldn't help blaming himself, why he didn't realize it until now, and he never said that:

"Uncle, do you know that you are very good and the best in the world. Can you believe me when I say this? If not, I can tell you every day."

Like Hu Da, Wu Jiusheng was also worried all the way. He savored the twists and turns between Lin Jianhua and Ye Hao, chewed on the word "gap", and felt terrible.

"Uncle..." He tugged on Hu Da's sleeve, and suddenly raised his face towards him as if pleading, "I don't want to go back to the factory alone today, so don't let me go back, okay?"

Huda's throat seemed to be choked, and something like a torrent swept through his body in an instant, causing him to lose his footing.He didn't dare to open his mouth to answer, feeling that he was very likely to break his usual principles and take extremely irrational actions that were very harmful to the interests of young people.

He spent more than ten years in prison, learning how to cool down his blood, but Wu Jiusheng let them out of control with just one sentence.

"stay......"

A sound as if rubbed by sand and stones hit the depths of his throat.

Instead of returning to Pingxiang, they opened a small hotel for 81 nights nearby with Hu Da's ID card.

The sound insulation of the hotel was poor, the walls were thin, and there was a musty smell. Wu Jiusheng lowered his head and bit the back of his hand during the whole process to avoid making uncontrollable noises.They kissed against the tiles in the bathroom with hot water showers. The surface of their skin was sometimes hot and sometimes cold. Huda’s movements were a bit rough. When he pushed the young man to the corner, the young man’s naked back was covered with red rusty iron. The water pipe broke, Hu Da pulled his hand from between his teeth, grabbed the back of Wu Jiusheng's neck, lifted him up and bit his mouth, his action was domineering, not as caring as usual Looking like a child, part of Huda's stubble pierced the young man, and it hurt a little. Wu Jiusheng wanted to pronounce a syllable, but he was forced to raise his neck higher, and the water flowed into his nose.He coughed and turned his head slightly to take a deep breath, but he was like a prey firmly caught by a predator. Huda's body is strong, and every muscle is hard to the touch, like a steel frame. , he didn't speak, he turned around abruptly and exchanged places with the young man.The water didn’t continue to flow into Wu Jiusheng’s nose, Hu Da blocked them for him, and the warm water fell from his forehead hair, ears, collarbone, and elbows wrapped in plastic wrap, and drenched on his head , face, and lower abdomen, Wu Jiusheng felt that he was wrapped in that kind of warmth, and the whole world was blocked by the outer layer of that warmth. He felt lost and dizzy, like sinking into a swamp, but he closed his eyes. eyes.

He didn't want to run away, whether it was Huda who gently comforted him, or Huda who imprisoned him like this, it was his life. He relaxed his hands and feet, took a deep breath, and chose No matter what, he plunged headlong into fate.

It was not the first time that Huda entered his body, but it was the one that Wu Jiusheng remembered most deeply. Time seemed to be slowed down, engraving all the details in his mind:

Huda's breathing was so heavy, his shoulders were so broad, his eyes were so deep.His strength is too great, he's too excited, he's crowded, he's so full, his lungs almost have no place to breathe, what to do, why does he use that posture, my legs are not that long, my ankles look like that, it's so itchy .And his hand, one of his hands is still injured, will it affect the recovery of the injury, why doesn't he just use one hand to——

Well--!Wu Jiusheng bit his jaw hard, his eyes were dim and wet, and a sudden attack made him almost unable to hold back the blockage of his teeth.One of his hands barely slipped off Huda's shoulder, and he couldn't hold onto that place anymore, too fast, too suddenly!The bed board is shaking, the ceiling is shaking, what to do with the walls, you can hear it from next door, downstairs, and the sound from the lower body, what to do, anyone can hear it, it's too indulgent, too shameful, but there are so many, huh Uncle, it's really much better, too much, what should I do.

He wanted to beg for mercy, but he was afraid that the noise he made would arouse the suspicion of more tenants.

I really hope that I can do this kind of thing with Uncle Hu in my own home, a small world of my own, without worrying about the eyes of the outside world, so that he can free one hand to hug Huda even tighter.

The sudden thought startled the young man, it was really shameless, his face was as red as if he had been boiled in boiling water, and the cheekbones and cheekbones were connected, scalding to the point of burning.Hu Da stopped suddenly. He stood still, dripping with sweat, looking down into the young man's bewildered and yearning eyes from a height, and suddenly pulled the young man's arm that had left marks of various shapes and shapes on the back of his hand and wrist, and let it go. Under the tip of the nose, kissed lightly.

In a trance, Wu Jiusheng moved his eyes to the window sill where the sunlight fell into the room through the gaps in the curtains. The summer in Shenzhen is very hot and the sun is shining brightly. The warm yellow like debris is cut into pieces, which is very beautiful.

On the window sill was a pot of plants that someone didn't know raised there. It was green and hadn't been taken care of deliberately. The grass stems were long and all hung down to the surface of the lime wall.

That's great, Wu Jiusheng thought, he also wants to put a pot of flowers like that on the window edge of the bedroom, next to the bedside, there are three seasons in a year, and he can smell the fragrance of flowers when he sleeps.