he killed himself

I often feel sorry. When my uncle asked if I should pay my cousin the school choice fee to go to No. [-] Middle School, I said irresponsibly, no, it’s the same wherever I go.

Because I was a little scared in my heart, afraid that my brother would come here and far surpass me.

He was good-looking, smarter than me, and much better at math than me, so I was afraid he would take away the admiration of my family.

Later, when my elder brother dropped out of school early, I often thought of my irresponsible words at that time. It would have been fine if I had said those words without any selfishness.

There will be no feeling of guilt today, and no sense of guilt towards my brother, even if only I know this feeling.

Just like a person drinks water, he knows whether it is warm or cold, and it has always been like this.

Now, once someone comes to ask for advice or something, I no longer dare to be selfish, nor can I bear any sense of guilt.

When I told this story, I asked many people, what would you do if you were faced with such a situation?

"That's a surreal style." A family counselor I know said, "If it's close to life, it's hard to bring hopeful two people together."

"How is it higher than life?"

"A huge accident, or the ultimate romantic act."

I couldn't bear it, "They have already experienced death and have a different life consciousness, so there is no other way?"

This problem has been bothering me since the beginning of the new year, until my brother came back from Xinjiang and talked to me about some things. He was still machismo and carried everything by himself.

We have different views on people and things. Many times I just listen to what he says without refuting it, and I will approve some appropriately.

There are many successful and failed people around me, but I am not qualified to say anything to my brother.

Life will be flat in the end, there are not so many life and death, most people and people are just a farewell, this kind of life is not what we choose, but the result of a long-term balance.

My brother's evaluation of what I did was still naive. At that time, I thought, the relationship between Feng Zhen and Zhou Chen originated from the naive idea of ​​an irresponsible author, so what will it end with?

Just like when I look at my brother, I feel guilty in my heart, so why not when Zhou Chen looks at Feng Zhen?

But my brother and I are still siblings, I can give him priority in everything, isn't it the same between Zhou Chen and Feng Zhen?

Between people such as relatives, even if there is a sense of guilt, how can there be so many things higher than life?

After all, it is just the companionship that each other knows that no matter what happens, this person will never leave, except death.

Therefore, I think Zhou Chen and Feng Zhen can have such a relationship.

In addition, regarding Yi Zheng and Xiao Heng, the story of the two has an origin.

When I was practicing yoga, I met a sister. When she was offering incense in Yunnan, a master gave a lecture on the Buddha. The purpose is simple, please convert to my Buddha.

When she was also in Yunnan, the person who practiced with her gave her a treasured bracelet. Just looking at it, she felt that the bracelet was suitable for her.

This young lady is still a mortal person at present, she is deviant, she believes in ghosts and gods, and she also believes in the fate of Buddha.

There was once a man who shed tears the first time he saw her, saying that her life was too hard and he was willing to take care of her for the rest of her life, but it was a pity that their fate was not enough after all.

Speaking of this, I probably just want to say that many things in this world may really be so miraculous.

Then I thought, if I am owed a debt in this life, I must reincarnate and find him, and I can't leave me if I pester him~ Otherwise, I would be so sorry to myself in the previous life.

So far, a story has been dragged on for almost half a year, and it is finally finished. It is still a gentle rhythm. Some people have such personalities, and it is really hard to change~

I hope that you, who read the article, will be healthy and safe even if you are carrying a heavy burden~~Happy heart~~