my school boy

11-Thinking of you is like a full moon

Shen Shucheng finally came to his senses. He continued what he had just said, "Actually, I was supposed to go to my grandfather's house during the Mid-Autumn Festival, but I don't know why, but he doesn't let anyone accompany me during the Mid-Autumn Festival every year."

On Mid-autumn night, Dou Enze was sitting on a rocking chair, looking into the distance.Outside the window is the Biling River, which runs along the mountain. In the cool autumn night, the colorful colors of the day have faded away, leaving only the dark river silent.A shadowy full moon hangs high above the mountains and rivers, and the moonlight flows into thousands of households.The unknown birds that flew by occasionally let down a few solitary cries, and the shadows of the sycamore branches outside the window were slanted and scattered into black patterns on Dou Enze's clothes.

The moon seen on the boat returning to the country that year also looked the same, but the moonlight back then was not as deserted as it is today.

That was about 60 or [-] years ago. Dou Enze was only in his early twenties, but still had black hair. The few beards on his chin that would not be shaved in the future reminded people of the dry grass that occasionally sprouted on the Mongolian grasslands in winter.He looked at the sky like splashed ink with a sad face, and walked behind Dou Kouran who was standing on the deck with a face of reluctance.

by contrast.The young man next to him can be called Yushu Linfeng.He was wearing a striped cashmere scarf, a black suit, and a knee-length brown woolen coat. His leather shoes were clean and shiny.Dou Enze got closer, and this person's face became clearer - this young man looked like he was just standing upright, with a delicate back comb, but because of the two thick and black eyebrows, he didn't look greasy at all, Under the eyebrows, the pupils are so deep that no one can see the waves in them.The skin is fair, but the cheeks are as red as the morning glow, and the two vermilion thin lips under the bridge of the tall nose are lightly parted: "Zeze, why haven't you slept yet?"

"Didn't you not sleep either?" Dou Enze put his hands on the railing, the strong wind on the sea made him shiver.

He suddenly felt warmth on his neck, turned his head, only to find that Dou Kouran had taken off his scarf and carefully wrapped it around Dou Enze's neck.

"I'll be home by this time tomorrow..." Dou Kouran looked into the distance of the ocean, as if the familiar lights of Wanjia were at the end of her gaze.

"Hey...Brother Button, why do you have to come back? It's great to stay in England, where you can have enough food and clothing." Dou Enze sighed softly, and complained dissatisfiedly, "The master and wife have passed away, and there is no Nothing to worry about. I don't really want to come back."

Dou Kouran turned around, turned his back to the vast ocean, his eyes fell on Dou Enze gently, but it made Dou Enze's scalp tingle, and said hurriedly, "Okay, okay, I know what you want to say, self-cultivation Isn't it true that the Qi family governs the country and the world?" Dou Enze bent over, raised his eyebrows, and raised his face to look at Dou Kouran.

Dou Kouran stretched out his hand, combed it with his fingers, and straightened Dou Enze's shaggy hair, "Zeze, a scholar, has a heart for the world, a life for the people, a sage's legacy, and peace for all generations. It's not that there is no concern, you forgot that you still have a sister-in-law?"

sister in law?When Dou Enze heard this word, his heartbeat slowed down by half a beat. He tried his best to lift the muscles of his face so that it would not twitch, so that his facial expression looked relaxed, "I... When did I have a sister-in-law?"

"Did you forget the marriage that my family arranged for me back then?" Dou Kouran put her hands behind her back, her gaze was still as warm and soft as a winter velvet quilt.

"My God! It's all changed and entered a new era, how can the marriage made 800 years ago count?!" Dou Enze's voice was a little excited, but was instantly swallowed up by the endless sea. He pouted his mouth sullenly, " Look at the top celebrities, who didn’t fight against feudal arranged marriages and pursue freedom of love? Who wouldn’t stay far away from the person they were engaged to before?!”

Dou Enze thought to himself, why is it that you, Dou Kouran, want to marry someone who you only met once or twice when you were young, and was hastily set for life before your love affair opened?He couldn't help muttering, "Why have you been abroad for so long and still be so...so...pedantic and stubborn!"

Dou Kouran still did not have the slightest tone of blame, and still said softly, "Others are others, and I am me. Two days ago, I received a letter from a relative, saying that the original Second Miss of the Li family is still in her boudoir, waiting for me to go back and marry her Well, since we made a marriage contract back then, how can we break our word? Isn't this hurting the girl?"

"Bah, bah, bah!" Dou Kouran turned around and looked at the surging waves under the hull, his heart fluctuated with the waves, and he spat viciously into the sea, "I don't know what kind of ugly monster it is, I can't get married, but I think of the innumerable baby kisses, and I have to find an excuse to cling to you!"

"Ze Ze." Although he really didn't even remember Miss Li's appearance, when Dou Kouran heard him speak harshly about someone he had never met, his tone became a little more severe, "Don't slander others like this , he didn't mess with you."

Dou Enze hummed heavily on purpose, kept silent, secretly sulking with his back to Dou Kouran.

Gentle fingertips brushed across his scalp, and Dou Kouran trimmed his hair again, and then stretched and wrapped his scarf from behind where it was not tightly wrapped, and put his hand lightly on Dou Enze's shoulder, There was a smile in his tone, "Why are you angry about this matter? Don't worry, in my heart, you are the unique Zeze. Even if I get married, marry a wife and have children, I will not give you any favors because of others. OK?"

Dou Enze twisted his shoulders vigorously, shook off Dou Kouran's hand, and purposely annoyed him, "I'm just your companion, it doesn't matter if you treat me well!"

The Dou family used to have a big business. Dou Enze originally bought Dou Kouran’s companion from the market during the famine. Dou Enze was younger than Dou Kouran. The Dou family only had this son. It's good to be accompanied by a peer, so you won't be alone.

Although Dou Enze was only a companion for reading, he never skimped on food and clothing expenses. That year Dou Kouran and his parents discussed going abroad, and the Dou family also sent Dou Enze out so that they could take care of each other.But these are all things about Chen Zhima rotten millet.

Later, Dou's father and Dou's mother passed away one after another, and the family lost their property. Dou Enze and Dou Kouran were far away in the UK, and they have always been called brothers.

Dou Kouran didn't expect that Dou Enze would bring up all the old things. He frowned and felt that Dou Enze's full of resentment was inexplicable. He straightened his expression and said seriously, "I never thought you were a companion. , to me, you are family, you are like my own brother, you know?"

Dou Enze was still stubbornly standing there with his back facing him, looking out of anger from his back.

Although Dou Kouran still didn't know why he was so angry because of a sister-in-law, after all, he was married, married a wife and had children, it's human nature, and Dou Enze would not be ignorant.

But if Dou Kouran turns to Dou Enze at this time, he will find that the skirt of this young man who doesn't seem to care about anything has already been wet with tears. Dou Kouran saw her embarrassed appearance.

It seems that only the lonely moon can understand Dou Enze's mind.From childhood to now, everything about him is closely connected with the name Dou Kouran, as if next to Dou Kouran's name, it should be Dou Enze.

From an earlier time, Dou Enze knew that his feelings towards this gentle and modest gentleman in front of him were different.But so what?I am not only separated by family status, but also separated by gender.

Dou Enze thought angrily, if he was a woman, then he would probably be called his childhood sweetheart. If he were a woman, he would probably be able to justifiably tell Dou Kouran of his love and beg for nothing at this time to be with him .If she was a woman, she might be able to get close to the water first, and now Dou Kouran's son can play soy sauce.

But he could do nothing but pretend to sulk.

"It's human nature to start a family and start a business." Dou Kouran still understands it with reason and emotion, "Zeze, you will also experience this in the future. If you fall in love with a girl from any family in the future and tell me to go bankrupt, I will also Let you marry and go home in a good manner, okay?"

Dou Enze thought to himself, I don't believe that my sister-in-law can tolerate your incomprehensible style. I like you like a bunch of fire, but you are always cold like the water in the deep sea, and I can't feel it at all.

The wet and salty sea breeze dried the tears on Dou Enze's cheeks, leaving only two streaks of tears shining with silver light. He swallowed to make his voice not choked up, pretending that he just didn't want to be ignored by him. She acted coquettishly, "That's what you said."

Maybe today's conversation, Dou Enze has already rehearsed countless times in his heart.But when the big earthquake in his heart really came, he knew that all the rehearsals would be of no avail.

As the moonlight fell, Dou Enze was submerged in Dou Kouran's shadow.Dou Enze was willing to be engulfed by this bunch of shadows, and was addicted to it, unwilling to leave. He looked at the seabirds passing by on the sea, and said in his heart, if he can't be the swan that spreads its wings with you, then let me Live as your shadow and be your most loyal follower.

"Thinking of Mr. Dou again?" Dou Enze's thoughts drifting back to the past with the moonlight was called back softly.

"It's the Mid-Autumn Festival again...Xiuyun, I might be really old. I don't know why, but I always think of him." Dou Enze pushed his glasses, and calmly wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

"Mr. Dou and sister have been away for so long, and it's time to reincarnate and live a good life." Xiuyun brought a stack of mooncakes, put them in front of the window, put her hands together, and bowed reverently, "Come over there two days ago According to the news, the one from the village is gone.”

"Oh?" Dou Enze stared sideways and snorted coldly, "Sure enough, he lived a long time."

"Alas..." Xiuyun sat down with a chair, "I heard that there is no one in the nursing home. When I left in the middle of the night, there was no one around me."

"Really? That's really, very kind. When Brother Button left, there were a lot of people." Dou Enze snorted coldly, supported the armrest of the rocking chair with his palm, picked up the tea mug beside him, got up slowly, and walked into the room. the study.

The author has something to say: the construction site is already on holiday.

Set yourself a task outside of work during the winter vacation.I wish I could read The Social Contract.

And recommend Schopenhauer's short essay "On the Suffering in the World".

Everyone be happy.

Another chapter no one reads wow, hhhh.