Balancing

Hospital, ICU Intensive Care Unit.

"Drip-drip-drip-..."

Except for the beating vital signs on the central monitor, the person on the hospital bed is no different from a dead person. He lay there quietly, with a thick white bandage wrapped around his head, and his face under the oxygen mask was so white. Like a piece of paper, this may be the whitest moment in his life.

There were three people standing in the corridor outside the monitoring room, one by one haggard, it looked a little normal in the winter, but their faces were extremely ugly, none of them were made of iron, and they hadn't closed their eyes for two days, relying on Gu Tao on the wall is even more frightening with his head drooping, as if no strangers are allowed to enter.

The person lying in the ICU was Lu Heng, whose life and death were uncertain. When the firefighters rushed into the fire, Tian Kun, who was also burnt, was carrying him on his back at the mouth of the basement patio, trying to survive.The exit of the corridor was completely sealed by fire after Tian Kun went in. In order to open the chain that had been burned into a soldering iron, he used all the tools he could see, but his hands were burned into a hideous state, just like the corpse of Lu Heng. He didn't know whether it was life or death, he had no time to think about other things, he could only instinctively shrink under the only air well around the corner and wait for rescue.

When he was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, the doctor even asked Gu Tao to make mental preparations in advance.

It is already [-] o'clock in the evening, in the quiet corridor of the hospital, even the slightest noise is not allowed, everyone speaks very quietly, even the naturally loud voice in severe winter is quite self-conscious at this moment.

"Captain Gu, why don't you go back to rest and eat something? The SWAT team is still counting on you, so don't drag your body down." This was good intentions, but at this moment, Gu Tao couldn't understand the slightest bit of kindness.

"Can I go back with peace of mind? The dangerous period of the brat has not yet passed, you go first, the poisonous king is gone, and you will not be free." Gu Tao's face did not spread out. Putting his forehead together, he said, "Lu Heng is his own fault for doing this, it has nothing to do with you, so don't feel guilty."

So it is not natural for Yan Donglai to have a bad temper, he will be blocked wherever he goes, and it is difficult to speak well. "Tsk, don't you just make me feel guilty by saying that? Of course, I am responsible for what happened to me. Captain Gu, don't worry, Lu Heng is still alive and will be fine."

Gu Tao raised his eyes, and gave him a very unfriendly look: "I am not lacking in comfort, thank you, Captain Yan." The world is not over yet, those rumors are just coming from your anti-drug team, dare you It was led by a leader who said he could run a train.

"You..." Yan Donglai was indignant, and there was Qu Nanshen, and he sat down on the bench.

"Ding" as soon as the elevator door opened, Li Xiaowei rushed out with a big bag and a small bag. A long meal and a sharp warning.

"Please keep your voice down. This is a hospital. It's an exception to let you stay here. If you make it so loud, I will report it to the director."

Li Wei looked apologetic, shrunk his head and whispered, "Okay, okay, my fault, my fault, I'm sorry." But he walked towards the intensive care unit without stopping.

Li Wei was the busiest student in the afternoon. During Lu Heng's operation, Tian Kun was also treating the wound in the small operating room. He was taking care of the injury for him. He had to take care of it to the end. Meals, washing face and feet, had just settled down and came to Lu Heng's side to help.As for the logistics, it is different. The service is done properly inside and outside, and there is nothing wrong with it.

Taking advantage of the gap between Gu Tao and Yan Dong coming to the rooftop to smoke after eating, Li Wei cautiously approached Jian Ming who was already like a statue.It is not an exaggeration to say that the statues have beautified him, and it is not an exaggeration to say that he is a zombie with a pale face that is comparable to the person on the hospital bed.

Yes, this man has been standing by the ICU observation window for several hours.

"Hey, Doctor Jian, sit down and rest, and eat something. If you don't eat, drink, or rest like this, Lu Heng will feel distressed when he wakes up." Li Wei felt very uncomfortable. He understood Jian Ming's mood, but the other party had already lost his soul. Compared with the one lying on the bed, the appearance of getting out of the body seems to be much less reassuring.

The head of the statue moved, oh shit, just move it.Li Wei continued to persuade: "I bought porridge specially for you. Lu Heng said before that you have a bad stomach. I haven't eaten it for so long. I'm afraid your stomach can't take it if it's too oily. Let's sit down and eat it?"

"What do you think he was thinking at the time?"

"What?" Li Wei was stunned, and Jian Ming's hoarse voice came out with an endless question, which completely stunned him. "Are you asking Lu Heng... what do you think?" What kind of brain teaser question is this?

"Knowing that he is going to die, what is he thinking?" Jian Ming asked in a low voice without blinking his eyes.

"Ah..." Li Wei opened his mouth and couldn't speak for a long time. He must have been busy all afternoon and his mind was confused. He had to turn around in his brain circuit several times but he couldn't find the exit.

"What did you think to have the courage to go to death willingly? It's too inhuman..." Jian Ming's frowning brows deepened.

Li Wei finally understood Dr. Jian's murmur. He sighed, patted Jian Ming's shoulder, and comforted him: "You know that once when Lu Heng and I were drinking on the side of the road, what did he say to me?" ?"

"..." Jian Ming was taken aback for a moment, and it was the first time he responded on his expression.

"He said, Li Xiaohua, I may only like him in this life." Li Wei tried his best to imitate Lu Heng's determined and resigned tone at that time, then paused, and said, "I don't know what Lu Heng was like before, anyway, from Since I met him, I have never heard him say these three words in my life. He is actually a very girly person. He has never graduated from kindergarten in emotional expression. He and I are also considered close buddies. Li Xiaohua called Li Xiaohua to show that he was still close to me, so when I heard him say that, I felt like I didn’t know him. You think, how much he likes you to say this, I wouldn't be surprised if he did anything for you. It's just..."

"Just what?" Jian Ming suddenly turned his face and stared at him intently.

"It's just that I don't think he's looking for death. I still believe that he has a plan, maybe... an accident..." Li Wei said thoughtfully, and then changed his tone: "By the way, eat something quickly , the porridge is cold... let's go, sit on a chair and eat..." As he spoke, he took Jian Ming's arm with one hand.

Before he could take a step, Jian Ming fell to his knees with a thud.

Li Wei hurriedly supported him with his arms, and said nervously, "My god, how long have you been standing?" If it weren't for the numbness of his legs to a certain extent, he couldn't even kneel on the ground.

"It's okay...thank you..." Not only his feet are numb, but his stomach has been protesting against him for a long time. It's just that people can always ignore some insignificant things at a certain moment. Compared with Lu Heng in the ward, everything is irrelevant It's urgent.

Li Weicai finally breathed a sigh of relief and asked Jian Ming, who was staggering, and asked, "I'm not here, what did the doctor say? Is Lu Heng okay? Why is he still in the ICU?" Something will happen to Lu Heng, who is as brave as King Kong, he firmly believes, just as firmly as he once believed that he can return to the SWAT team.

Jian Ming pressed his knee hard, and said in a weak voice, "He's not out of danger yet. The doctor said that he can leave the intensive care unit tomorrow morning if there is nothing abnormal."

"Isn't it a gunshot wound to the leg? How could it be so serious?"

"He is amazing. In addition to the gunshot wound, excessive blood loss, he also inhaled a large amount of carbon dioxide. The most serious thing is that he suffered a severe blow to the brain. It is still uncertain whether he has intracranial hemorrhage. I hope it is just a serious concussion. Otherwise, surgery will be required." Jian Ming's mechanized statement was even more indifferent than when the doctor who came out of the operating room described it.

It seems that the word indifference should not appear in Jian Ming, but that is how he feels to Li Wei. It is said that only strangers are indifferent, but Jian Ming's indifference is obviously not strange, it is a bit like the calm before the storm, suppressing some kind of unwilling Pretending to be calm.

"So serious?" Li Wei hurriedly got up and rushed to the window to look in, "No, he's in good health, this injury is fine, I'm not worried, and you don't have to worry, it's fine..." He looked Looking inside and then looking back at Jian Ming, he didn't know if he was comforting him or himself.

Just as Jian Ming forced himself to take a mouthful of porridge, before he could swallow it, he got up and rushed to the trash can to vomit.

Li Wei stepped forward to care, but he raised his hand to stop him, "..it's okay...an old problem..." Asked Li Wei for a bottle of water, the empty bottle creaked in his hands after drinking it all, Li Wei was about to speak, He suddenly threw the bottle hard against the wall, and the empty bottle bounced back and rolled pitifully on the ground a few times before stopping at his feet.

"I just want to know what the hell he wants to do. Let him have a good life, but his life is not his life. Has his brain developed? Huh? Does he have a brain?" The sudden roar successfully called out the head nurse at the nurse station. come over.

Before he had time to reprimand Jian Ming for yelling, the monitor in the intensive care unit made a messy fluctuating sound at this moment. The head nurse turned around and rushed into the intensive care unit. After a while, a group of doctors and nurses entered the room. .

Jian Ming's feet were weak and he couldn't move half a step.

"What's the matter?" Gu Tao and Yan Dong came back to see the battle, and they didn't dare to breathe in their nervous atmosphere.

Li Wei shook his head in panic, and rushed to the door of the ward to ask, the doctor came out, "Don't panic, it's just that the heart rate suddenly increased. I checked my brain and found nothing abnormal. Did something happen just now?" Several people wandered around.

"Just now...that person was yelling, I thought something happened." The head nurse followed out of the ward, pointing at Jian Ming with an unhappy face.

Several pairs of puzzled eyes looked at him together.

The doctor suddenly asked the head nurse: "After he called, how did the patient react?"

"Well, it's like this in terms of time."

The doctor was silent, and then explained: "If the patient responds to the voice, it proves that the brain consciousness exists. This should not be bad news."

Everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

"Doctor, can you let me go in and see him?" Jian Ming suddenly begged, he knew that this was an excessive request, the ICU ward was a sterile room, and the regulations did not allow anyone except doctors and nurses to enter or leave, but he still I opened my mouth.

"You said he reacted to my voice, I want to see if I can wake him up." This was the only reason Jian Ming could think of.

The doctor looked distressed. He knew that the ward was a special police officer, and there were two captains standing in front of him. After deliberating for a while, he murmured: "It is not impossible to go in after being disinfected and put on a sterile suit, but..."

Before the words finished, Gu Tao continued: "Doctor, you should be more flexible and let him go in for a try. Didn't you say that if the child wakes up or becomes conscious, he can be transferred to the general ward?"

The team leader sent a message, and the doctor immediately arranged for a nurse to disinfect and change Jian Ming's clothes. Jian Ming, who was wearing a sterile suit, was about to enter the door when Gu Tao stopped him.

"Jian Ming, I... don't know what's going on between you and Lu Heng, but you know I'm just such a nephew, you..." Gu Tao paused in the middle of his words, he wanted to say too much, but his throat was stuck in his throat.

"I understand, Captain Gu, he will be fine, you trust me."

Gu Tao nodded slowly, watched him walk into the ward, closed the door, and the sound of heavy footsteps gradually faded away.

Even though Jian Ming had done a strong psychological construction, when he walked towards Lu Heng who was in a deep coma, his body still trembled involuntarily. The strength he thought was ineffective in front of Lu Heng who was full of tubes.

Lu Heng's face was covered with small and interlaced scars. Jian Ming stretched out his hand to caress his only exposed eye, and smiled lightly: "Little bastard, is it comfortable now? I slept so deeply, do you know how long I haven't slept?" ?”

He pulled over the chair, sat down slowly, and then slowly took off his glasses, "I'm usually with you, and I just listen to you talking endlessly. Today is so quiet, and I can finally listen to what I have to say."

The bright white light of the intensive care unit hit his pale and blue face, he took a deep breath, closed his eyes, "I always think, maybe I'm the lone star that others say, when I was young, Ke My parents died, I finally grew up and almost killed my sister... Oh, and you."

"I'm an atheist, but now, I'm really not sure. Look at the people I'm with, why are they all so miserable? I'm the only one who's fine. Is my life too tough?" He stood up waist, leaning forward, leaning against the hospital bed.

"Lu Heng, can you hear me? I know you can hear me. I just... haven't talked like this for a long time. Let me complain, okay?"

Jian Ming stretched out his hand to the side of the bed, held Lu Heng's hand, and stroked it gently.

"You, everything is fine, but you are disobedient, too disobedient, do you admit it?" He seemed to be waiting for a response, paused for a few seconds, and said with a smile: "Well, I knew you would not Admit it, you just love to play tricks and make excuses, okay, seeing how miserable you are now, I will let you, anyway, you are usually quite angry with me."

He wrapped Lu Heng's cold hands tightly, as if he could exchange the temperature of each other.

"By the way, do you remember what you said to me on your birthday? You said you wanted everyone in the world to know that we were together, and you said that we could adopt a child in the future. You haven't forgotten it... Ah Heng, do you know? In fact, every word you said, I have said to you many times in my heart, really, but I dare not say it myself, I am afraid, I am afraid that I am too happy, God will take this away Everything, look, I just said it in my heart, it didn't let me go, and even came to snatch you from me." Jian Ming lowered his head and closed his eyes.The broken hair on his forehead fell down, and a few warm tears fell on his fingers and slid down slowly.

"I can actually live alone, without being accompanied or loved, as long as everyone around me is safe and sound, I can really live like this for the rest of my life..." His voice gradually choked up, and his breath became a little chaotic. Jian Ming pulled Lu Heng up. He pressed his hand tightly to his lips, "But...you can't know something? You have to be good, I was too greedy before, I won't do it anymore..." The choking sound turned into intermittent sobbing, and the lying person was still Lying like that, without any response, every corner of the silent ward was overflowing with sorrow.

"Wake up, okay? Ah Heng, can you wake up? The doctor said that as long as you wake up, you can go to the general ward. Don't you want to live? You promised your mother to live a good life. To be a man, you have to keep your word. "Jian Ming raised his red eyes, stared at Lu Heng, and suddenly changed his tone: "I scolded you just now, and you responded to me, why are you ignoring me now? Don't pretend, I don't believe you can't hear me , do you want me to scold you again before you talk to me?"

He jumped up, and the chair made a harsh sound of rubbing against the floor, "Asshole, liar, is this how you lied to me? After being called a daughter-in-law by you for so long, you want to throw me away like this? You are so sugar-coated that I love you I love you, now I say no, I don’t want it? I’ve changed my mind, I won’t let go, as long as you have a breath, I will rely on you, rely on you, you said you will protect me for the rest of your life, don’t think so lightly You can easily slap your ass and leave, don't even think about it." Jian Ming's almost torn voice growled stubbornly, and he was on the verge of collapse, but he didn't notice that the hand that was tightly clenched moved very slightly.

Trembling all over, he stood in front of the bed for a long time, and then a smile that was more bitter than Huanglian appeared on his face, "...I'm sorry, I lost my temper with you again, hehe, you said how capable you are, and when you are good, you irritate me all the time. It's amazing that you can still piss me off like this..." Suddenly, as if thinking of something, she leaned over and looked at Lu Heng very seriously. "Aheng, I thought of one thing. Do you still remember the first time you confessed to me in the harbor? I asked you to promise me something unconditionally. I said I owe you first, remember?...Now it's your turn The promise was fulfilled, listen, I want you to get better, the same as before, can you do it?"

Jian Ming's eyes gradually blurred, "This is what you promised me, you have to do it if you can, and you have to do it if you can't." When his eyes were clear again, hot tears had already fallen on Lu Heng's pale cheeks.

The heart rate line on the monitor fluctuated again, making rapid and irregular beeping sounds...