Balancing

Jian Ming was in the nursing home when he received the call from Lu Heng.

Monday is the day of Jian Qi's regular medical meeting. Not long after Lu Heng left in the morning, Jian Ming got up to pick up the car and drove directly to the nursing home. Today, a small stage was temporarily set up on the big lawn, and there were so many people, so I asked. Knowing that an old man celebrated his 80th birthday, the courtyard specially held a small performance for the old man to celebrate, and invited a magic show team. At this moment, just after lunch, everyone came out one after another, sitting down and waiting to see Performance.

"What do you think? Today is Monday, don't I have to go to work?" Jian Ming answered Lu Heng's question of "have you gotten up yet?" in an unfriendly tone.

"Oh, yes, you're at your sister's place. I'm fine. It's just... um... I'll report today... Everything's fine, don't worry." Lu Heng said with a smile in his voice.

"Don't worry, I know you can handle it well." Jian Ming knew what he was vaguely referring to. He was worried about working with the mysterious teammate who had made a move before. The main reason was that he was afraid that Lu Heng would attack him as soon as he was provoked. But Jian Ming is really not too worried about his performance recently, and sometimes even feels that his emotional control is more normal than his own.

"Then you are busy first, I will come to you after get off work, do you need to add anything to the new house?"

"No need for now, there are a lot of things to deal with today, and I will be busy until late at night." Jian Ming did not forget to make an appointment with Leng Feng, and continued after a pause, "Also, now that you are back in the team, work hard, don't worry about it." Always thinking about helping me with work..."

"You used a typo, daughter-in-law." Lu Heng interrupted him.

"Huh?" Jian Ming didn't understand.

"Okay, I know you're busy, you're busy with your work, and you can just leave it to me if you need anything over the house. Except every Wednesday and Friday, I can get off work at [-]:[-] on weekdays, and the bed in your room will be delivered this Thursday." , I also have to guide the guide on how to release it.” Is it called helping me when I do my own work?When it comes to taking care of his daughter-in-law, Lu Heng has a clear goal and purpose.

At the first listen, Jian Ming really recognized the sense of sight of the newlyweds, yes, the one with pictures. "Officer Lu, do you mean that I have to give you the keys to your house?" He was dizzy and his forehead was sprawled.

"Yeah, that's the best, you can be busy with more peace of mind, and I don't even have to ask you to open the door." Climbing along the pole is one of Lu Heng's new skills.

Jian Ming's breath almost got stuck in his throat, he couldn't laugh or cry. "Can I refuse?"

"Yes, but it won't work."

As if a grinning rogue face jumped in front of his eyes, Jian Ming was helpless, but it was undeniable that his heart was warm. Lu Heng said and did the same things as others, simple and rude, and the people he put into his heart, He will treat it with all the good things, pay without retreat, and leave no room for himself.Jian Ming finally understood why he couldn't say 'no' to him. This kind of liking was a treasure he had never encountered before.

"I won't tell you any more. It's very busy here. I have left a set of keys in the guard room downstairs. I'm usually not there, so they open the door for me. You can ask them directly, and I will greet you." Jian Ming Seeing Director He walking towards him, the words in his mouth sped up, "Lu Heng, I have explained everything about the house. The workers will do the work by themselves. Don't delay work. Go there if you have something to do. I'll hang up."

"Wait" Lu Heng finally asked, it was very ordinary, but it made Jian Ming's heart warm. "Remember to eat on time, your stomach can't be hungry."

"Well... hung up."

Jian Ming smiled slightly, walked towards Director He.

He and Director He confirmed the time to pick up his sister back to his home on the weekend. When he turned around, Jian Qi was led out by Xiao Lin. Today, Jian Qi was not in a wheelchair. She smiled and ran towards her lively appearance.

"Qiqi, are you coming to the show too?" Jian Ming walked over and held Jian Qi's hand.

Jian Qi did not resist his contact, but her eyes were still looking forward out of focus, without any response.

"Xiao Lin, can I go with her too?" Jian Ming looked at Xiao Lin beside her.

"Well, okay, Qiqi doesn't like crowded places very much, the location is arranged at the back, and I'll take you there."

The fact is true, before Jian Qi got close to the crowd, she reflexively shrank behind Xiao Lin, and when she sat down, she still held Xiao Lin's arm tightly with her hands, hiding her face behind her, not wanting to look at the crowd gathered in front .

Jian Ming is a little curious, why is my sister so scared?Could it be related to what happened back then? The reason that could stimulate her to have a stress response is only what happened back then. Jian Qi's normal memory only stays at that time.

Jian Ming was worried and stayed.

The performance was very lively. The 80-year-old birthday star sat in the middle of the first row. In fact, the old man suffered from Alzheimer's disease very early. No matter what was on stage, his expression was always the same. This performance is an old man The children in foreign countries paid for it to be organized by the nursing home. For his big birthday without the company of his relatives, Jian Ming secretly rejoiced for him. Fortunately, the old man is not sober. Otherwise, no amount of celebration performances would be able to fill the old man's lonely heart.

During the performance of the magic team, the crowd in the audience was extremely excited, and several people were still booing all the time. Out of consideration for the safety of the people present, the interactive session was canceled in the courtyard, but there was an actor in the performance team. Hearing the rules clearly, he was interacting with the audience on his own initiative at the moment. He walked off the stage and asked the audience to put objects in the boxes he had prepared. This magic will eventually show that no matter what is put in, Things will pass through another box on the stage, but the performer made a little joke, a patient put his hat into the box, and the box on the stage turned into a pair of glasses. Funny jokes, normal people can understand, but not all the people sitting in the audience are normal people, their thinking mode is exclusive, they only accept their own world view, a small joke of the performer first caused the abnormal behavior of the interactive patient, Then it affected most of the patients, and the scene was suddenly in chaos, with shouts and booing sounds.

The security personnel of the nursing home were all concentrated in the front to maintain the scene, and the doctors and nurses were also comforting their patients. Fortunately, the seriously ill patients who were threatened with violence could not participate in such public activities. Apart from a ridiculous farce, nothing happened at the scene. event.

However, after this disturbance, Jian Qi who was sitting at the back had a strong behavioral reaction. She screamed again, and the chair was kicked far away by her. His heels kicked hard against the turf, refusing anyone to approach him.

"Ah-uh-ah-"

Jian Qi's terrified and frightened appearance scared Jian Ming quite a bit.

The doctors all ran over when they heard the sound, trying to comfort her, but Jian Qi, who was in a state of insanity, waved her arms to stop her from approaching. She is now like a frightened bird, and anyone approaching will make her stress response more intense.

Jian Ming raised his hand and made a stop motion to the doctors, "Don't come close, I'll try, I'll try." In fact, he had no idea, this was outside, and Jian Qi's limbs were not restricted. He was very afraid that if there was any stimulation, his sister would do something beyond everyone's control.

"Qiqi, don't be afraid, I'm brother, don't be afraid, I'll come here alone, okay?" Jian Ming approached slowly.

"Ah—uh—" Jian Qi uttered single sounds in her throat, shaking her head non-stop, and moving her body back tremblingly.

"Okay, okay, I'm not close, I'm right here, don't be afraid, you know I'm an older brother, you know me, right, an older brother will never hurt a younger sister, Kiki knows that." Jian Ming was leaving her He squatted down at the position of one meter, looked at Jian Qi, patiently strengthened her cognition, and repeated it over and over again.

Later, a doctor kindly reminded Jian Ming whether to give Jian Qi a sedative, but Jian Ming waved his hand and refused. He did not want to use this method to stabilize his sister's reaction. In the "PTSD" research project in the last year of American University, the professor clearly pointed out that , The behavior of only using tranquilizers to stabilize emotions will not help the patient regain consciousness, but will make the patient more resistant to normal contact and communication. It is not recommended to use it as a last resort.On this point, Jian Ming fully agrees.

Jian Ming took a risk. He said something to his sister, and it turned out that the risk was worth it.

"Qiqi, did you see mom and dad? Did you see mom and dad?"

Jian Qi was shaken all over, and her perennially dull eyes were focused. She raised her head, looked in Jian Ming's direction, and remained silent for a long time until two lines of tears welled out of her eyes. "...Dad...Mom...Mom..."

God, she spoke.

Jian Ming's eyes were blurred, getting more and more blurred...

When he recovered from the shock, a tissue was stretched out, "Thank you." He took off his glasses covered by water vapor, looked up and saw that Leng Feng was standing in front of him.

He temporarily suppressed the doubts in his heart, ignored Leng Feng's sudden appearance, and turned around to comfort his sister with all his strength.

"Qiqi, let my brother go over, okay, my brother really misses my parents, can I let my brother see them too?" Jian Ming tried to approach again, this time, Jian Qi didn't scream anymore, and she didn't even hide.

Jian Ming finally hugged Jian Qi. He couldn't remember the last time he hugged his sister like this. In short, it was a long, long time, as long as it happened in his previous life. He pressed his sister's head on his chest, and put his arms He hugged this thin and petite body tightly, letting his cheeks get wet.

"Qiqi, brother misses you very much, can you come back? Come back, okay?" Jian Ming whispered in Jian Qi's ear, more like talking to himself, his voice choked.

Jian Qi has been shedding tears, without a sound or expression.

The doctors and nurses around were stunned and couldn't help but sigh the power of family affection.

Leng Feng approached them, bent down and whispered to Jian Ming: "Jian Qi has stabilized, she's fine, don't worry, take her back to her room to rest first."

Jian Ming didn't respond to him, but slowly let go of his hand, looked at his sister, wiped away the tears on her face with his fingertips, and said without wiping, "Qiqi is so good, I know I love my brother."

Put the younger sister back to the bed in the room, Jian Ming stayed with her for a while, the younger sister returned to her world, her eyes were out of focus, as if everything from the beginning was an illusion, but Jian Ming knew that the younger sister was coming back, he saw it very well It is clear and more confirmed that facing the events of the year is the key factor for my sister to regain consciousness.

It was almost four o'clock in the afternoon when he walked out of the nursing home. Jian Ming hadn't returned to Baichuan for a day, and Jiang Luchuan hadn't called him since last night. At this moment, there was a person behind him who made him want to escape. Beautiful, as gray as the suddenly sinking sky above, Jian Ming's mind flashed Lu Heng's face.

I really want to be only with his Ah Heng.

"The rest of the time is reserved for me, right?" Leng Feng followed silently all the way, and only spoke when he reached the parking lot.

"Well, I promised to treat you to dinner. Did you drive? Or take my car?" Jian Ming raised the key in Yang's hand.

Leng Feng curled the corner of his mouth and nodded, "Let's take your car. I wanted to take your car when I was in college."

Jian Ming smiled and unlocked the car without saying a word.

In fact, Jian Ming thought about whether he would accept Leng Feng without Lu Heng's appearance, and the answer was as firm as his attitude towards him, no.

It doesn't matter to anyone or anything. As early as in that book bar, when Leng Feng said "Let's break up", my heart for him died there, as decisive as that sentence of breaking up, and I couldn't turn back.

Jian Ming calmly analyzed that this is something in his nature, and there are not so many reasons. He instinctively rejects people who can easily give up on him. In his view of love, there is no second time for 'like'.

"By the way, why did you go to the nursing home today?" Jian Ming asked.

Leng Feng: "I have a patient over there, I'll go for a consultation today." It's an understatement.

"Oh, when will the nursing home accept doctors from outside the hospital?"

"Aren't you too?" Leng Feng smiled and asked back.

Jian Ming didn't answer the question. He was used to ignoring such topics that would never have an answer after further discussion, so he didn't waste time.

After the car drove out of the parking lot, Jian Ming turned the steering wheel and asked, "Where do you want to eat?"

"You decide, didn't you invite me?"

"Then Sichuan cuisine? Don't you like spicy food?" Jian Ming just has a good memory.

"Do you still remember?" Leng Feng turned to look at Jian Ming, "But you can't eat spicy food, why don't you eat Japanese food." This would have been impossible six years ago, and Senior Leng Feng would Give up your preferences for others.

Jian Ming smiled, thinking of the time when the love was the most passionate, he never saw Leng Feng say such considerate words.

Therefore, people will still grow, as long as the price is lost.

Jian Ming was not very familiar with other places, he only knew that there was a Japanese grocery store near Baichuan, so he stepped on the accelerator without hesitation and drove towards his destination.

"Your appearance today makes my heart ache. I never knew that Jian Qi is so important to you. If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have hurt you by saying those words back then." Leng Feng put down his chopsticks and looked at herself sitting cross-legged. Jian Ming on the opposite side.

"It doesn't matter. In fact, I am very grateful for your directness back then. Let me know what you think in your heart, which is better than guessing yourself." Jian Ming took a sip of barley tea and said slowly: "How important my sister is to me, don't you? You know, it's just that you think you should be more important, right?"

Leng Feng didn't speak, but lowered his head and took a sip of tea.

"Leng Feng, I don't think we are suitable. You have a strong personality, and so do I. You like to be the sun, but I only like to be an asteroid. Have you ever thought that even if I didn't go to the United States, maybe we would be the same?" We have already broken up." Jian Ming said very seriously, the teacher taught that to persuade a paranoid person, one must be sincere.

"Oh, really? I don't think so, Jian Ming, why don't you want to admit that you have changed your mind?"

"A change of heart? Where did the change of heart come from? We have been separated for six years."

"But you promised to give us a chance for three months, and you clearly promised to give me this chance." Leng Feng seemed to be touched by Jian Ming's words, and was a little agitated.

"I agreed, what's the matter?" Jian Ming felt a little regretful, he shouldn't have tried to persuade him with nice words.

Leng Feng smiled bitterly, and remained silent for a while, then suddenly raised his head to stare at Jian Ming, and said in a forbearing tone: "Jian Ming, you never lied before, never."

"..." Jian Ming noticed that his eyes became very strange.

Leng Feng took out an envelope from the coat pocket by his side, opened it, and threw it in front of Jian Ming. A stack of daily photos of him and Lu Heng together were scattered on the table, and there were quite intimate behaviors inside.

"Is this what you call loyalty?"

Jian Ming didn't come back to his senses for a long time. This stack of photos shattered Leng Feng's little recognition of his personality in his heart. This person completely collapsed in front of him, leaving nothing left.