Balancing

"Aheng, go to my house first." Jian Ming smiled.

Doesn't laughing mean happiness?Why did Lu Heng only feel sadness and pain on Jian Ming's face, he was obviously smiling, Lu Heng's heart ached, it was worse than seeing him cry.

Walking into the empty house, Jian Ming filled the electric kettle he bought a few days ago and plugged it in, then took out the citrus oranges sent by Weidong, squeezed two small pieces and put them into two new cups that were also newly unboxed In the middle, this stopped the busy figure as soon as he entered the door.

"The tea from Dongzi is delicious. Fortunately, it has been kept in the car. It was brought up together yesterday. You can try it later." Jian Ming took out a beautiful woolen sofa blanket from a large box and spread it on the floor , "Sit here."

"Mingming, you are so virtuous."

Jian Ming glanced at him, "There are so many compliments, and you have to say this? You are convinced."

"I'm serious, no exaggeration, you really fulfilled all my imagination of the other half."

"Well, you also fulfilled all my imaginations about strange flowers." Jian Ming teased.

Lu Heng snorted dissatisfied, then smiled, went to the balcony and opened the window and turned to Jian Ming and said, "Mingming, I will officially report to the SWAT team tomorrow."

Jian Ming was taken aback, turned to look at Lu Heng, and smiled at him, "Happy for you, really, go back and work hard to realize your dream since childhood."

"My ideal now is not just to be a special police officer." Lu Heng walked up to Jian Ming and looked at him intently, "Now you are my greatest ideal."

Jian Ming paused, and met his gaze, "Yes, the greater the ability, the greater the ideal, come on, Officer Lu."

"Do you know what I mean?"

"what do you mean?"

"What I mean is, I want to protect you, take care of you, and be your reliance, an indispensable existence in your life." Lu Heng spoke clearly, afraid that he might not understand.

Jian Ming didn't speak, but responded after a few seconds: "Oh, I see."

"What do you know? If you know it, just let me share the burden. I'm always by your side, so close. You don't have to use it for nothing, right?"

Jian Ming lowered his head and smiled, and looked up at him: "Okay, wait until I make the tea, can I let you share it?"

"I'll go." Lu Heng ran into the kitchen excitedly, poured boiling water into a cup, and brought it out carefully.

"Put it on the floor, it's hot." Sitting on the wool blanket, Jian Ming watched Lu Heng holding two cups carefully as if he was walking on a balance beam. "Give it to me." He took the cups and put them on the ground. Looking back, Lu Heng was touching his earlobes with both hands. frown.

"It's hot? This is an ordinary water glass. It's not insulated. Why don't you use a cup holder?" Jian Ming got up and took his hand, "Show me."

"And the cup holder thing?"

"Yes, it's in a box. Didn't I put it next to the pot?" Jian Ming was almost completely defeated by his carelessness. "It's okay, it's just a little red." He blew on those hands and rubbed them.

Lu Heng stared blankly, "Well, maybe I have a thick skin." This is not bragging, it is bragging about his heart.

"Really, your advantage is that you have self-knowledge." Jian Ming patted the back of his hand, turned around and sat back on the ground.

Lu Heng looked at Jian Ming without blinking. Maybe it was the breath of wind that made his heart rippling, and he couldn't get enough of it.

"Drink tea, don't look at it, rest your eyes." Jian Ming picked up the cup and took a sip.

"Oh." Lu Heng was very obedient, and took a sip just like him, "Fuck, sweet ones? Are there sweet teas too?"

Jian Ming laughed out loud, and it took a while before he stopped, "Well, I haven't drank it before, is it amazing?"

"Amazing, I thought tea was bitter."

"I don't like bitterness. When I was depressed, I took and drank a lot of medicine. I dreamed that my mouth was bitter." Jian Ming picked up the cup and took another sip. "So after I recover, I swear that from now on In the end, I only ate sweet things, the sweeter the better, and I only drank lattes for coffee, and I had to put three bags of sugar, I always thought, I might get diabetes when I get older.”

"Mingming, are you... suffering from depression because of your parents?" Lu Heng didn't like to hear Jian Ming's joking, it wasn't funny at all.

"Well, they left very suddenly. Looking at your uncle's expression today, it seems that he knows more about that incident than I do. You can ask him." Jian Ming paused, as if to sort out his thoughts, "That year I I'm only 13 years old, my sister is six years old, my parents are both scientific researchers, I can't figure out why things that only happen in movies can happen to my parents, really, I can't even figure it out now."

"I saw their dead bodies. After studying psychology, I realized that the biggest factor for my depression may be that I saw their dead bodies. It is a picture that no one would like to recall. You can imagine." Jane Ming glanced at Lu Heng, his eyes darkened. "You know that feeling of 'people are sitting at home, disaster is coming from heaven'? It's really hopeless. I was dragged from home to the hospital. I was sitting at home, and suddenly my parents disappeared. A sister who was autistic and stopped at the age of six."

Lu Heng didn't know how long Jian Ming had gone through psychological suffering before he could be as calm as he is now, and it must be very difficult to state his past without any disturbance.

"I'm 13 years old, not too old or too young. I can't resist such a big disaster. For a long time, I don't eat or drink, and I have nightmares when I sleep at night. The symptoms are very similar to yours before. Every time I wake up in a dream, I dare not Going to sleep again, as time went by, I became less and less afraid to sleep, and then they injected me with drugs and forced me to sleep, Jiang... Teacher adopted me at that time, and he also became my psychiatrist."

"Who are you talking about...?"

"My parents' unit, I'm not familiar with it, and the doctor they hired, I'm very confused about the memory of those days."

"Have you... committed suicide?" Lu Heng asked with a trembling voice.

Jian Ming was startled, and remained silent for a while, then took off his glasses, rubbed between his brows, "There's really nothing to recall about these things." He took a big sip of cold tea, and said, "Actually, the last time I was with you Everyone, I have said it all, yes, I have, not only once, but the previous few times were not very successful, the closest to success, I have described it to you, so I won’t repeat it.”

Jian Ming stroked his hair back, and changed his tone, "Actually, these things have passed, and now life is more important to me than anything else, I cherish myself very much, not only myself, but also my sister Jian Qi , I want to heal her, she is still so young, she can't be like this forever. The trouble is, to heal her, it is inevitable to restart the incident of my parents. By the way, I forgot to mention that my sister is also a victim of the incident One of them, but she didn't lose her life, she was there at the scene, and she also saw her parents with her own eyes..." Jian Ming suddenly couldn't continue, he was fine when talking about himself, but when he talked about his sister, he lost control of his emotions.

"Mingming..." Lu Heng put his arm around Jian Ming's shoulder, and hugged him to his chest.

"I'm fine, I just feel bad thinking about my sister." Jian Ming gently pushed Lu Heng away, "So, what do you know? When I was trying to find out the truth about the incident that year, I found out that my father who raised me for 16 years had actually started a new life. At the end of the scene, he probably knew the truth back then, but he pretended that he never knew, just like an ordinary single man who adopted an orphan and kept it from me for 16 years. Can you understand that feeling? He, Jiang Luchuan, has lied to me for 16 years, why? I just want to know why."

Only now did Jian Ming show an excited expression, with resentment on his face.

"Don't worry, I'll ask my uncle tomorrow. If he knows, I'll help you find out." Lu Heng doesn't know how to comfort others, but he knows what Jian Ming wants.

"Well, I also hope that he can tell me what happened that year, but it is very likely that it is the same as the police record. The real truth may only be known to a few people." Jian Ming concealed the information he had learned from Leng Feng and the mysterious man, he always felt that this matter was hidden and uncontrollable danger, he didn't want Lu Heng to get involved, at least Do not want.

"Don't worry, I will help you, and I will help you find the truth you want. You are not alone, you know?" Lu Heng looked at him, his amber pupils shimmering.

Yeah?I am no longer alone?Jian Ming looked at those eyes and nodded slowly.

"Bell..." The mobile phone in Lu Heng's pocket rang, and he took it out to see that it was Gu Tao's. First, he asked about their situation, and knowing that Jian Ming was fine, he told Lu Heng a few words before hanging up the phone.Just as Lu Heng was about to put the phone back into his pocket, the ringtone rang again. He thought it was his nagging uncle, so he picked up the phone and yelled, "Captain Gu, I will report to your office on time tomorrow, and I won't be late."

"Uncle Lu, it's me, your former Director Li."

"........."

"Oh... I won't be your director tomorrow, and I feel sad when I think about it." Li Wei's artificial voice came from the phone.

"Damn, Li Xiaohua, are you silent on the phone?"

"I think so, how can you support it faster."

"What's the matter, tell me." Lu Heng watched Jian Ming get up and take the cup back to the kitchen, his eyes followed him all the time, for fear that if he didn't take a good look at it, he would evaporate.

"Hey, you won't be coming tomorrow, and you don't know how to make a phone call to get together and say goodbye. You haven't celebrated your return to the team yet. You are really cruel. Does your conscience not hurt?"

"Why don't you say goodbye, I'm not dead, we've never seen each other? It's really interesting, why, it's in line with the plot if we have to hug each other and cry?" Lu Heng walked to the kitchen door, looking at the back who was washing the cups.

"No matter what, we have to come out today. We are at the 'Fang Tang' KTV, waiting for you. Come quickly."

"Wait, you guys? Who are you with? I'm...not alone."

"No one, just Brother Ding and Xiao Liu from our office, whether you are alone or ten people, you have to come, there is no need to discuss, just like this, hurry up, we will wait for you at the door."

After hanging up the phone, Lu Heng saw Jian Ming who had finished washing the cup and turned to look at him, smiled embarrassedly, "Mingming, did you hear that?"

"Ok?"

"Li Xiaohua asked us to go to karaoke, saying to celebrate my return to the team, why don't we go to the logistics department tomorrow." Lu Heng looked at Jian Ming expectantly.

"I want you to go." Jian Ming squinted at him, "You go, I won't go, I want to rest early."

"You really want to sleep here?" Lu Heng looked at him incredulously, his eyes widened into perfect circles, "There's not even a sofa here, so you just sleep on the floor? No, go to my place, let's show our faces at KTV , just go home and rest, okay?"

Jian Ming ignored him, kicked the bedding that he bought yesterday by the wall, and said: "I have this, I don't want to move anymore, you go, don't make people wait too long."

"... Mingming, if you don't go...then I won't go either, let them wait." Lu Heng lowered his head in frustration, displaying his tried and tested rogue spirit.

"Then you don't go, Officer Lu, this trick doesn't work every time." Jian Ming smiled, seeing through everything.

Lu Heng raised his head stubbornly, and looked at him sharply, "Okay, then let's go to bed early." He leaned over and pushed Jian Ming down on the sofa blanket, as if he was about to hug each other and sleep, his hands still Honestly digging into Jian Ming's clothes, he suddenly felt that it would be fine to stay, as long as Ming Ming was by his side.

Lu Heng's move was really good, but Jian Ming didn't pay attention and got it.

"Lu Heng, get up." Jian Ming likes Lu Heng's powerful body, but at the same time he hates it. This little brat is really strong. Sometimes in front of him, the 187 self looks like a woman with no strength to restrain her.

Lu Heng restrained Jian Ming, not allowing him to move around, and still reluctantly said: "Don't you want to rest early? Go to sleep, I will accompany you."

Jian Ming was speechless, held back his temper and lowered his voice and said, "Don't you want to go to KTV? How can you go if you don't get up?"

"Huh? Shall I go or should we go?" Lu Heng whispered into his shoulder, and even said a common phrase with a provocative high rank.

"We, we."

"Really? Are you sure?" In fact, Lu Heng really didn't want to go now, he felt numb all over while holding Mingming, and it was difficult to take half a step.

Jian Ming used all his strength to break free from his upper body, "Sure, Officer Lu, you won, go, go together." He straightened his clothes and sat up.

Hey, is that a promise?Lu Heng narrowed his eyes and looked at Jian Ming, feeling that there was something more to say.

"I'll just sit for half an hour, you don't have to leave, I will definitely." Sure enough, Jian Ming added another sentence.

That's right, this is Jian Ming's style.Lu Heng had succeeded for a long time, got up and pulled Jian Ming up, "Go, I'll sing for you."