Balancing

Leaning against the head of the bed, Jian Ming looked at this familiar room, and the scene of the first meeting with Lu Heng flashed in front of his eyes. The first time he came to this room, Lu Heng cried loudly on his chest. Lu Heng is still a hedgehog who is used to using arms to fight against everything around him. Just crying like that, he was so scared that he hid in the bathroom and dared not see anyone. He was pure-minded like a child. Then on the night of fever, Lu Heng curled up in his arms All night, his pitiful appearance was completely different from his usual arrogant and domineering. Jian Ming knew very well that he was not a person full of sympathy, but at that time, he really felt sad for this person.

Maybe at the beginning, there was a factor of sympathy for Lu Heng's difference, and a competitive desire to hand in a good grade in front of his adoptive father, but later...Jian Ming had to admit that he was tempted, and he had seen too many people pretending to be small. The white rabbit's wolf, Lu Heng's rabbit pretending to be a wolf, he has never met before.

Ever since his parents passed away, Jian Ming understood a truth, no matter how close someone is, they may leave you. Things that are not acceptable, such as an enviable high degree, a well-paid career, and a hard and indifferent heart.But there are some things that cannot be touched, such as promises, such as love...

Jian Ming regretted the experience with Leng Feng, but fortunately, there was always a voice in his subconscious telling him that no matter how beautiful they were together, there might be parting. This was the reason why he made up his mind to go abroad at the beginning. In the first year in the United States, he still had a bad life. The figure of Leng Feng would often jump into his mind. Humans are very intelligent animals. It is natural to want to have it for a long time, even if you lose it, you will miss it, and you will be unable to extricate yourself for a long time.

It took Jian Ming a year to walk out of the wall built with Leng Feng, and in the days to come, he built a private castle for himself brick by brick. This castle has everything in it. , except that there is no second person, except himself, Jian Ming is not ready to let anyone in.

Until I met Lu Heng.

This reckless fool broke in without knowing what was in the castle, regardless of whether it was flowers or thorns, angels or devils, this kind of courage must only be matched by first love.

Sadly, first loves are often just missed.

Jian Ming didn't know how long he had been thinking about it blankly. Finally, he sighed, lowered his head, took off his glasses, and pressed his fingers between his eyebrows.

Soon, Lu Heng complained from the door, "Fuck, it's freezing."

Then came the slam of the door.

Jian Ming recalled that the temperature suddenly dropped today, and his mobile phone received a typhoon warning message in the morning, and just now Lu Heng went out in a thin coat, probably facing the typhoon head-on.

Lu Heng thought that the people in the room were sleeping, so he came in lightly.

Jian Ming fell asleep, leaning against the head of the bed with his eyes closed, but he could clearly sense that Lu Heng stepped lightly, put the food bag on the cabinet, and then went into the bathroom, making a series of rustling movements.

"Mingming..." Lu Heng came over, sat beside him, and called his name softly.

Jian Ming didn't respond. People who are asleep shouldn't wake up as soon as they are called, he thought.

"Sleeping so soundly? Hehe" Lu Heng reached out to the top of his head and brushed the hair on his forehead.

Jian Ming tilted his head, pretended to be disturbed and opened his eyes, "I'm back."

"Well, I bought beef noodles, do you want to eat?" Lu Heng's gentle voice was like a slowly flowing stream.

"Okay, let's eat together."

Jian Ming enjoyed such a peaceful and warm moment very much. Even if he just had a simple dinner with the person in front of him, he could feel a rare sense of satisfaction. After Lu Heng finished eating, he went to the window, closed it tightly, and pulled After closing the curtains, he still read in his mouth: "Fortunately, you came early, the typhoon is coming, so you can stay with me today?"

Although it was a question, he didn't wait for Jian Ming's response, and continued, "I don't know if there will be heavy rain. I just called my uncle. If it rains tomorrow, the outdoor blocking assessment will be changed to indoor hand/ Gun shooting, he said that as long as I can successfully shoot and hit the target, he will let me go back to the team first, and find time to check after blocking... Do you think I can do it?" He smiled shyly, and looked back at Jian Ming .

"Yes, you can do it." Jian Ming wasn't trying to comfort him. He could see Lu Heng's transformation during this period, and he had broken free from the psychological prison that bound him from the inside out. He talked about his mother, and talked about three years. Before, there was no excessive resistance or rejection. Except for the fact that he usually focused on himself, which was a bit abnormal, everything else was no different from normal people.

Of course, regarding Lu Heng's nightmare, Jian Ming is still not sure that he can completely control it. After all, with Lu Heng's current state, he has no chance to touch the unconscious layer, but he believes that everything is developing in a good direction. Once Lu Heng returns to his favorite SWAT team, it will definitely get better and better. Maybe, the hidden dangers of unconsciousness will also disappear. Psychology itself can be reversed at any time, environment, mood, rhythm of life It can greatly affect your mental state.

As long as Lu Heng returns to the team smoothly.Jian Ming is convinced of this.

"Well, if you say yes, you will definitely do it, I believe you." Lu Heng walked towards him with a smile.

When the other party finished saying the three words "I believe in you", Jian Ming was cautious, and couldn't help but think of their first conversation in "Taoyuan". Lu Heng also said these three words at the end to express his determination to himself. For sure, he believes so without hesitation, the only difference is that now his face is full of smiles.

"Lu Heng, do you think your current state is good or not? It's not what I say, it's what you think is good." Jian Ming suddenly had a flash of worry, he almost forgot that he used it against Lu Heng willfully in the first place Emotional Intervention Therapy', these days I happily forgot about it, damn it.

Seeing the earnestness on Jian Ming's face, Lu Heng said dotingly: "What you think is what I think, it's always been like this, why is it that Jane loses confidence after tutoring?" After speaking, he rubbed his hair.

"No, don't get involved with me, I'm asking you very seriously, don't make trouble."

While packing the used tableware back into the bag, Lu Heng looked at Jian Ming suspiciously, and asked without knowing it, "What's wrong with you? Are you worried about my performance tomorrow?"

Jian Ming snatched the bag from his hand, threw it at the door of the room, then pressed Lu Heng's shoulder, and pushed him to sit on the edge of the bed.

"Think about it carefully. During this period of time, your changes and your mental state are changing for the better. Do you feel it?"

"Yes, of course I feel it. What's wrong with you?" Lu Heng was shocked by the serious Jian Ming, and the atmosphere around him became tense for a moment.

Jian Ming seemed to feel his gaffe, he let him go lightly, lowered his head, an imperceptible panic flashed in his eyes.

Lu Heng stood up, turned his head and looked at himself, "Mingming, don't worry, I will definitely not let you down tomorrow, you don't even know, I've never been so confident like now." He paused After a pause, he continued: "If, tomorrow, I pass the test, I... want to visit my mother. Can you go with me?"

These words inexplicably reassured Jian Ming.

He smiled slightly and didn't say anything, just moved closer to his Ah Heng, very close, their faces were within easy reach, he took the initiative to kiss Lu Heng's lips, and couldn't help touching when they parted. touched.

"Mingming...you seduced me..." Lu Heng is an absolute single-celled animal, any physical touch of Jian Ming can make him let go of everything that happened at the moment, and he can't remember anything he should do or ask.

"No, I just think you are cute, much cuter than when I first met you."

Lu Heng wrapped his arms around his waist, turned around, pushed him down on the bed, and looked at him from top to bottom, "Then...how much do you love?"

Jian Ming stretched out his finger along his lips and slid it towards the bridge of his nose, and finally stopped at the eye socket under his brow, and answered the irrelevant question: "Do you know the probability of Asians having amber pupils? It's one in ten thousand, you know look Does looking at your eyes often remind me of something? It's a sunset. The color of your eyes is the color of the sunset." Jian Ming stared intently at the pair of golden-yellow outer pupils with a little reddish-brown eyes.

"You just like to change the subject, hey, it's so hard to get a word from you that you like." Lu Heng fell down beside him resentfully, full of disappointment.

"Is Officer Lu the kind of little girl who needs sweet talk to live?" Jian Ming laughed, leaning sideways, propped his head on one hand, and looked at him.

"That's not sweet talk, it's a response." Lu Heng looked at the ceiling, as if talking to himself.

Jian Ming put away his smile and didn't speak any more. After a long time, he finally said, "Tomorrow is very important. Go take a bath quickly. You must rest early today."

When Lu Heng said this, his heart was instantly chilled as he was splashed with several buckets of ice water.

When I calm down, I remember everything.

"Would you like to accompany me to see my mother tomorrow?" He felt that as long as Jian Ming agreed to this request, it would at least be regarded as a response in action, and he would feel much better in his heart. Suddenly thinking about it, he added another sentence: "No As my mentor."

"It depends on your performance tomorrow." Jian Ming replied with an ambiguous answer.

Lu Heng is a very naive kid, he rounded up the number, he thought it was a promise, and the other party also encouraged him by the way.

"You said it, don't go back on your word."

"Ah."

Lu Heng was so excited that he hugged Jian Ming and kissed him. No part of his face, eyes, nose or lips escaped his attack. After a long tongue kiss, he breathed and kissed Jian Ming's neck. But Jian Ming stopped him before he successfully attacked, "Hey, don't you understand Chinese? What do you want?"

"I...why don't I think about it, can't I just kiss him?" Lu Heng kept rubbing against him.

"Did you ask your brother? He doesn't seem to think so." Jian Ming glanced at a place under Lu Heng, and then squinted at him. I'm not Jane three years old, who are you kidding?

"He's out of my control. After seeing you, he has more ideas than me. I can't help it." He said it very aggrieved.

"......."

"How about...you talk to him in person?" Seeing that Jian Ming didn't speak, Lu Heng took advantage of the situation to probe.

Jian Ming turned over, pinned him under him, and warned: "Listen, be honest, I'll stay, otherwise, I'll go as well, believe it or not?"

Lu Heng and his brothers were honest all at once, he knew that Jian Ming would keep his word.

"letter"

On a stormy night, they were isolated in this warm yellow room. They depended closely on each other, and they fell asleep very quickly unexpectedly. Jian Ming hadn't closed his eyes properly for three days, and so did Lu Heng. They were at each other's side at the moment, just like the two of them. A child, sleeps very, very deeply...

The next day.

A night of heavy wind and rain knocked many weak objects on the street, and the roads were full of broken branches and leaves of trees after the typhoon. Now that the wind has stopped and it hasn’t rained anymore, every corner of the city is full of The sad look of defeat.

Jian Mingzai landed on the road from Lu Heng to the special police team, and received a call from Jiang Luchuan, complaining that he would not call to inform him if he did not go home. , Jiang Luchuan still asked responsibly, Jian Ming blamed himself, and began to think that it was time to quickly take over his parents' house and become independent earlier.

After hanging up the phone, Lu Heng said cautiously, "Old Jiang didn't say anything, it's all my fault, I should remind you to call last night."

"I ignored it, it's none of your business." Jian Ming drove the car intently, and responded lightly.

Lu Heng didn't answer any more. He always felt that Jian Ming didn't like talking about his adoptive father very much, so he shut his mouth wisely and watched the road ahead quietly until the golden police badge on the top of the special police team's gate was reflected. into view.

For Lu Heng, today's game decided whether he would return or not. It would be false if he wasn't nervous at all, but he turned his head and looked at Jian Ming who was parking beside him, and his heart suddenly felt at ease. It is a person, so why not be afraid.

As if he had received some kind of induction, Jian Ming also looked at him, smiling confidently and resolutely.

"Lu Heng, just like I believe in you, believe in yourself, you can win."