Balancing

There is a wonderful feeling called heartbeat. For Lu Heng, a 25-year-old man who has long missed the best experience age, it is really not a very glorious thing to wake up his senses now.

They maintained this posture until Jian Ming was about to get up and move back to his position. As soon as he moved, Lu Heng grabbed his collar suddenly and pulled him back in front of him. He didn't do anything else, just dazed Looking at him carefully, because they were too close, the face in front of them was even out of focus, and the details could not be seen clearly, but the sound of each other's breathing was so real lingering in their ears.

"Ahem..." Jian Ming was so surprised by his sudden movement that his face turned red, and he could only cough twice to buffer the embarrassment and silence of the car.

Hearing the voice, Lu Heng let go of Jian Ming's hand like a spring, "Sorry...that..." It's not surprising that Lu Heng, who has always been eloquent, stuttered at this moment. I have always been like this, my limbs are always ahead of my head, and my actions are always faster than words.

"It's okay, there's no need to apologize." Jian Ming said lightly, in fact, it was to cover up the nervousness that passed through his heart.

"Oh"

"By the way, you haven't answered me until now. What's the matter with the circle of friends you posted? Nothing happened, right?" Also to ease the atmosphere, Jian Ming asked the question that had puzzled him all day.

When asked by him, Lu Heng suddenly seemed to remember something important, his whole eyes glowed, "Yes, yes, let me tell you Jian Ming, if my uncle calls you recently, you must say my uncle It's good, you know?"

Jian Ming looked at him curiously, "Why do I say that?"

"You must say that! Please!" Said that Lu Heng really looked good and swayed back and forth with his palms folded in front of him.

"But I can't violate professional ethics! I can't say that you are not well, so let me insist that you are well." Jian Ming replied truthfully.

"No violation, no violation at all, don't worry, you just need to tell him that my condition is good, and I will actively cooperate with you in the future." Lu Heng was afraid that he would think that he would not cooperate with the treatment, so he hurriedly patted his chest to promise.

Seeing that Lu Heng actively said that he would cooperate with the treatment for the first time, Jian Ming thought about it in his heart. He thought that the content posted in that circle of friends and his current excited appearance should have something to do with the SWAT team. Went to the special police team to visit Gu Tao, thinking that he must have a comprehensive understanding at that time.

Jian Ming knew that he would not violate the doctor's morality and fake him, so in the end he only gave Lu Heng an ambiguous answer, "Okay, your performance is really good recently, I will look at the answer."

"Hahaha, that's great, what a friend." He patted Jian Ming on the shoulder with loyalty, "Then I'll go up first!" Lu Heng opened the door and got off the car to pick up two big bags of things, ready to enter the corridor .

Jian Ming's voice suddenly came from behind her.

"Lu Heng, remember to come to 'Baichuan' on Tuesday." After speaking, he started the car and was about to leave the community.

"Okay, we must be there on time." Lu Heng put down the things in his hands, and made a standard salute gesture of the people's police.

Jian Ming smiled at him gently, nodded, and drove the car out.

Sitting in front of the refrigerator with two big bags of things, Lu Heng still hadn't recovered. He stared at the refrigerator for a long time, subconsciously raised his hand and touched his lips, remembering the inadvertent touch just now, Lu Heng's whole body was like stepping on cotton.He suddenly wanted to confirm something, and as if he wanted to obtain some kind of evidence, he called Li Wei's phone number.

"Xiaohua, I have something to ask you."

"...you...said" Li Wei didn't know what he was doing, and responded out of breath.

"Damn... you won't be here... did I interrupt your good business?"

"Get out... I have something good to do and I have time to answer your call? I'm on the treadmill." From the sound, Li Xiaohua should have slowed down. "What's the matter? Excuse me, please call yourself so late? Hey, let's make it clear first, I won't ask for leave for you."

"No, I'm not asking for leave, just... I just want to ask a friend about something." Lu Heng said with a guilty conscience. "It's like this, my friend, I met someone recently, every time he stays with that person, he is very comfortable, a little nervous, and often blushes and heartbeats, it's just... you know, he just can't figure out what's going on What do you think?" Lu Heng tried his best to describe the situation of this 'friend', he knew that he was speaking in a subtle way, but he believed that Xiaohua's comprehension in this aspect was higher than his IQ.

"Haha, Boss, who do you like? Let me just say, you've been so weird lately..."

Before he could finish speaking, Lu Heng abruptly stopped him, "Li Xiaohua!! Can't understand human speech, right? I said it was my friend... Wait, what did you say? Like it? You mean I like it... No, My friend fell in love with that person?" Lu Heng's head seemed to have been struck by a lightning bolt, so this is liking?Really... Didn't I think too much?

"Hey, my buddy is so good, don't lie to me, who is it? Which girl is so capable, can she take down you, Uncle Lu?" Li Wei didn't even want to play around with him, and went straight to the point.

A girl, a grandma's legs...Which girl can have my Jian Mingjun, is her skin as tender as his?Has he slipped?Is he in good shape?Does he know how to read?Is he as understanding as him? … No wonder I like him, there are a lot of advantages just thinking about it, it turns out that I haven’t thought about anyone for so many years, and I am waiting for such a person to appear.Lu Heng's thoughts changed, and he was enlightened immediately.

"Li Xiaohua, you must be responsible for what you say." Lu Heng said cautiously.

"Haha...Why am I responsible? You should let your person be responsible, right? I said, Uncle Lu, even a child as old as my niece knows that the situation you just said has moved your heart. Are you still thinking about it? What the hell? Hurry up and clean up and confess your love. Hahahaha..." Li Wei was out of breath laughing, and those who didn't know thought he had won some kind of big prize.That's right, if you can see Lu Heng move your heart in your lifetime, isn't it like winning a big prize?

Lu Heng hung up the phone resolutely with a shy face, not giving Li Wei any chance to laugh at himself.

And Jian Ming was driving home full of apprehension at the moment, recalling the scene at the beginning, he suddenly felt uneasy.According to his observation, it seems that Lu Heng's sense of dependence on him has deviated a bit, which is seriously wrong with the direction he wanted to guide at the beginning. If it is really like what he thinks, then he is wrong too much. I sincerely regret that impulsive decision.

'Emotional Intervention Therapy', a dynamic psychotherapy that is quite controversial in the industry.Actively output emotions as any identity, guide and drive the patient's passive psychology, generally for psychological patients who completely reject and resist treatment.And I made an emotional output to Lu Heng as a "friend".This is actually risky. There have been cases where a psychiatrist gave father-son emotional guidance to his patients. In the end, all other symptoms of the patient disappeared, but the patient had a strong father-son emotional dependence on the doctor.For a long time, it has affected the normal real life of both parties.This kind of treatment will not only lead to the emotional transfer of the patient's symptoms, but also the depth of the output emotion will have different degrees of influence on the psychologist himself.

The more Jian Ming thought about it, the more annoyed he was about his impulsiveness. He originally thought that as far as Lu Heng's symptoms were not too serious, he could control the rhythm, but in fact, he himself was involved. Is it because he has studied the major for so many years in vain? Isn’t it normal for him to make mistakes? What prompted him to make such a bad decision?

Jian Ming's eyes flickered with scattered glimmers, his eyeballs were bloodshot, he took off his glasses with one hand and threw them on the side seat, pressed his fingers on the center of his brows, his lips squirmed, and murmured.

"Damn"

Monday, Meditation Sanatorium.

The rising sun poured down, warmly shining on the large lawn of the nursing home square, Jian Ming walked into the gate and saw many patients walking and doing exercises.He saw that it was still early, so he planned to go to his sister's room first.

As soon as I entered the dormitory area, I met a familiar figure in the corridor. It was the nurse Xiaolin who was in charge of taking care of my younger sister.

"Good morning, Mr. Jian, shall you come and see Kiki?" Xiao Lin saw that Jian Ming was no stranger to her, knowing that he would come to see her sister every Monday, and greeted her happily.

"Xiaolin, hello." Jian Ming smiled at the little girl, "Is Qiqi in the room?"

"Here, I just had breakfast. The weather is fine today. I'm going to take her out for a walk later. You should go see her first."

"Well, okay, thank you." Jian Ming responded politely, and was about to go to his sister's room, when he suddenly remembered something and turned around to stop Xiao Lin.

"Huh? Mr. Jane, what's the matter?"

"Um... I have a few things I want to ask you about Qiqi. Is it convenient for you now? Will it disturb your work?" Jian Ming thinks that Xiaolin is someone close to her sister, and she may know some things better than doctors. .

"Okay, I'm going to go to the pharmacy to get the medicine. I'm fine now, hehe." Xiaolin felt that with Mr. Jian's pleasing scenery in front of her eyes in the morning, she would be in a good mood all day.

When they came to the big window at the corner of the corridor, Jian Ming asked, "Xiaolin, has my sister said anything in such a long time?"

"Uh... no, I started taking care of Kiki three years ago, and she has never spoken. She just cried." Xiaolin replied after recalling for a moment.

"Then have you noticed any changes in her expression or mood?"

"Well, let me think about it. Qiqi has emotions. Sometimes she loses her temper when she eats ginger, throws a spoon, has a sad expression, and cries, sometimes quietly, and sometimes she doesn't know what the stimulus is. She's dead, and she'll cry a lot. There's nothing else, I've never seen her smile." Speaking of this, Xiaolin sighed a little discouraged.

"Oh, then when will she cry? Or what kind of things will she get out of control?" Jian Ming knows what Xiaolin said, but he still wants to ask in detail, hoping to find something helpful Information.

The little girl thought about it for a long time, and seemed to be organizing the rules of those events in her memory.

"Mr. Jian, I really can't remember the details, but every time I report to the doctor, and the medical records are recorded. Anyway, what I have the impression is that Qiqi doesn't like crowded places. Every time I take her for a walk I choose to go when there are few people, and every time there are some performances in the courtyard, she will hide and cry when she sees it. The most out of control is the last time her bedmate committed suicide. She was so frightened that she went crazy I kept yelling, and in the end I was given a sedative to calm down..." Xiaolin expressed sincerely, trying her best to recall.Suddenly thought of something, his eyes flickered, looked at Jian Ming and said seriously: "By the way, that night, because I had to observe her situation 24 hours a day, I went to see her in the room late at night and heard her talking in my sleep , Yes, she did talk, just that night. Not in a waking state, but... I didn't hear it clearly, she said vaguely..."

"What did you say? Think about it carefully." Jian Ming grabbed Xiao Lin's shoulders excitedly, and stared at her intently.

Xiaolin was obviously startled by the person in front of her, shrank her neck, and said timidly: "Mr. Jian...it hurts..." She looked at Jian Ming's hand holding her shoulder and then at Jian Ming.

Only then did Jian Ming realize that he had lost his composure, and the strength in his hand was neither light nor heavy, so he quickly let go. "I'm sorry, I'm too excited. Xiaolin, can you think about it? This information is very important for Qiqi's treatment." Jian Ming apologized, but at the same time he was full of expectation.

"Uh... I really didn't hear it clearly. It seems that she said, Uncle Leng... or something, but it seems that the voice is too low and the words are not clear. I really didn't hear what she said. Sorry, Jane Mister." Xiaolin suddenly wanted to leave, no matter how beautiful the scenery was, even the stormy ones couldn't afford to appreciate it. "I still have to get the medicine. It's almost time. Why don't you go and see Kiki first." Before Jian Ming could respond, she turned to the stairwell in a hurry.

"Uncle Leng?" Jian Ming repeated these three words.The brain is quickly calling the memory bank.He didn't come up with any useful information for a long time, and he felt that it was necessary to go to the research institute where his parents worked to learn about the situation back then.

Thinking of this, he didn't waste any more time on the fruitless question, and strode towards his sister's room.

My younger sister is sitting by the window sill at the moment, holding an ipod touch player in her hand, earphones plugged in her ears, her expression is still as calm as water, but her eyes are very peaceful. What is she listening to, Jian Ming is curious, slowly Walking up to her, he took off one of her earplugs and put it in his ear.

The dark sky hangs low and bright stars follow

worms fly worms fly

who are you missing

The stars in the sky weep, the roses on the ground wither

cold wind blow cold wind

as long as you are with me

Bugs fly, flowers sleep

One pair after another is beautiful

Not afraid of the dark, only afraid of heartbreak

Tired or not

Regardless of the north, south, east, west

This song... Jian Ming's eyes turned red in an instant. How could he not remember this song "Insects Flying" that he used to play most at home. Every time his sister heard it, she would wave her hands and walk around the room like learning to fly. , still learning from her mouth, that lovely sister, that smiling sister who is as beautiful as a flower...

A drop of coldness fell on the back of Qiqi's hand, she moved her fingers, and the corners of her mouth slightly curved, but no one noticed.

In the following meeting, Jian Ming discussed with the group his treatment direction for his younger sister. Knowing that Jian Qi had talked in her sleep, he temporarily decided on the method of hypnotherapy if necessary.The other doctors in the group knew his identity and the relationship between the patient and him, so they naturally had no objections. Usually at this time, they felt that one more thing was better than one less thing, and they just agreed.

Jian Ming, who was full of problems and anxiety, left the nursing home and got a chance to let out a heavy breath when he got back in the car.