Balancing

Lu Heng, who rushed into the 'Baichuan', looked a little embarrassed at the moment, and Chen Fei was a little surprised. This difficult household, which is usually difficult to get in good weather, unexpectedly arrived in advance on this windy and rainy day, and it was obviously coming under the heavy rain. Yes, all wet.

"Wow, Mr. Lu, why don't you even bring an umbrella, look at you..." Chen Fei really couldn't bear it.

Before the words were finished over there, Lu Heng asked, "Is Jian Ming there?" It seemed that he didn't care about his drenched body at all.

"Yes, there are still 10 minutes until the appointment time, do you want to go to the bathroom to clean up?" Chen Fei kindly said.

"Oh, no need." He walked directly to Jian Ming's office, stopped his feet when he reached the door, wiped the rainwater off his face with his hands that were not too dry, shook his head at last, and then raised his hand to knock on the door .

"Please come in."

The ends of Lu Heng's hair were still dripping with water, so that small lines of water slipped out of his face. From the edge of his forehead to his chin, a black and white sweater was tightly attached to his thick and healthy body. On Shuo's body, the jeans didn't look too obvious, but they were almost completely wet.

It's not that Jian Ming hadn't expected this drowned look, but when such a person stood in front of him, he still regretted the call he didn't make.

"You didn't take a taxi?"

"It's very congested, I'm afraid it will be late, I ran over from the two streets behind, I didn't expect it to get bigger and bigger." Lu Heng smiled awkwardly, standing by the door to enter or exit.

Jian Ming was a little speechless, looked at the time, shook his head helplessly, got up and went to the filing cabinet, opened the innermost layer, took out a T-shirt and towel, and walked towards Lu Heng.

"Go change it, I'll wait for you."

Lu Heng looked at him in a daze with some surprise.

"It's clean. I've prepared it here. You can use it without worry." Jian Ming explained.

"Um, no, I'm not worried." Lu Heng suddenly reacted, and wanted to take off his clothes and change in front of him.

Jian Ming almost dropped his glasses on the floor, so he hurriedly stopped him, "Hey, wait, you go to the bathroom, wipe it clean and change again." Putting clothes and towels on Lu Heng's hands, motioned him to turn left at the door.

When Lu Heng came back, he was still holding the wet sweater and towel in his hand.Jian Ming handed him the prepared bag.

"Thank you." Lu Heng put everything in his hand into the bag, and said embarrassedly, "I'll wash it and return it to you."

"It's okay, sit down." Jian Ming deliberately didn't want to look at Lu Heng who was wearing his own clothes.The T-shirt on him seemed to be completely different from when he was wearing it. The shoulders and arms were obviously a little tight, but it showed a kind of wild sex appeal.Jian Ming just took a casual glance and took a deep breath.

"Did you ask for leave today?" He turned on the computer on the desk, looked at the screen and asked Lu Heng.

"Well, this is a task for you, please take time off." Lu Heng sat opposite Jian Ming, looked at his eyes hidden behind the lens, and thought to himself that they are really good-looking eyes that can see through.

Jian Ming felt that You Dao was looking at him all the time, and tapped his finger on the table to divert the attention of the person opposite him, "Lu Heng, I created a new file for you, some questions may need to be asked again, you are OK ?"

"Well..." Lu Heng actually didn't want Jian Ming to ask such rigid questions, but he didn't refuse, thinking that since he believed it, he should overcome these unaccustomed.

"Okay, what's your diet, work and rest situation in the last two weeks?" Jian Ming looked away from the screen to look at Lu Heng, "It's about right."

Lu Heng was silent for a moment, then sighed. "Generally, two meals a day. I eat breakfast as soon as I remember. The food I eat can be found in the canteen at work, small restaurants near my home, and KFC. I don't pick any." His brows are slowly tightening. "I still sleep late at night, but I won't suffer from insomnia all night... The nightmare was from last week, and I didn't do it again after I took the medicine."

Jian Ming typed on the keyboard from time to time, and then asked, "Do you usually have any activities outside of work? Friends gathering or something?"

Lu Heng frowned even tighter, "...no, no friends."

"No friends?" Jian Ming looked up at Lu Heng with some doubts, thinking of the phone call he answered here that day, he obviously didn't believe it.

"It counts as one, a colleague in the unit, who has no contact with anything outside of work."

"Well, how is the relationship? Is it good?" Jian Ming's eyes returned to the screen.

The other side was quiet for a long time without making a sound, and then said impatiently, "It's okay, he knows I have this problem."

"Did you take the initiative to tell him?"

"He saw me once... I had a seizure, and he helped me get the medicine." Lu Heng couldn't continue, staring at Jian Ming, "What's the point of asking this? Does it have anything to do with Lao Tzu's treatment?" Arrogant and violent The eyes appeared again.

Jian Ming heard that his emotions were out of control, and slowly turned his head and let go of the keyboard to look at him, "Every question I ask is related to treatment, you just need to answer, is it difficult?" He tried to induce Lu Heng's rejection reason.

"You..." Lu Heng's face flushed red, but Jian Ming couldn't say anything.

"Officer Lu, can we continue?"

Before Lu Heng came here, he had many plans and expectations, but none of them disappointed and frustrated him as much as now. The Jian Ming in front of him was no different from the old Jiang in the past. The relationship was cut in half, he was a doctor, and he was a patient.

"Whatever, ask whatever you like." Lu Heng twisted his hands together and hung between his legs, his eyes were dull.

Jian Ming leaned back on the back of the chair without touching the computer, "Do you have any hobbies?"

"No, does playing with the wooden warehouse count?" Lu Heng's voice was piercingly cold.

"It doesn't count, and you shouldn't be able to play now, can you?" Jian Ming pushed forward step by step, his tone full of provocation.

"Fuck" Lu Heng put his foot on his feet and stood up, and the chair behind him fell to the ground.

"Lu Heng" shouted his name sharply from behind the table almost at the same time.

Looking at each other for a few seconds, Jian Ming covered his mouth and coughed, stepped back and stood up, straightened his clothes, and walked to Lu Heng's side.

"Tell me why you are so angry." Jian Ming stopped very close to him.

Lu Heng's expression was slightly strange, but he didn't say anything, and turned his head back to try to distance them.Jian Ming stretched out his hand to grab his wrist, and pulled back with force, pressing him to the side of the table, getting closer.

"Tell me, why?" The voice came out in a low voice, and Jian Ming didn't realize why he acted without warning at all, he just instinctively didn't want to see Lu Heng evade.

Lu Heng couldn't tell whether it was the residual rain or sweat that was flowing from his forehead to his cheeks. Looking at Jian Ming who was so close, this face that made women jealous, he suddenly had the urge to touch it, but subconsciously, he He just took off Jian Ming's glasses.

"You are a doctor, should you tell me why?" Lu Heng stared at him. Compared with the rigid question at the beginning, Jian Ming's slightly angry and out-of-control way of asking now made him feel gratified.

Jian Ming grabbed the glasses and straightened his body. They just looked at each other face to face until their eyes were a little sore.When Lu Heng wanted to get up, Jian Ming pressed his shoulder and suddenly asked, "What do you dream about?"

Lu Heng's body visibly froze, and he wanted to walk away unnaturally. The person in front of him was too powerful, and he was not used to it and was unwilling to talk about it at such a distance.

"Guide Jane, can you smoke here?" He waved Zhongnanhai in his hand.

Jian Ming walked to the window, opened half of the window and opened a small gap. "Stand here and smoke."

Lu Heng lit a cigarette and walked towards the window, "I'll just smoke this one." He knew that Jian Ming had made an exception for himself.

And Jian Ming was leaning against the table, watching him quietly, as if waiting for him to open his heart to him.

Lu Heng frowned, and began to recall the nightmare that had tormented him for three years, his eyes were looking at the rain outside the window, drifting far away...

"You mean you were a child in your dream?" Jian Ming heard him talking about his dream with difficulty, trying to find the relevant crux of his description.

"Well, in my dream I have been... a child of 5 or 6 years old." The cigarette in Lu Heng's hand had already burned to his fingertips, and Jian Ming handed him his drinking cup. Lu Heng was puzzled and saw He persisted and threw the cigarette butt in.

"Other than that, everything that happened in your dream has restored the scene of that day, right?"

"Hmm...not....It's very strange, my mother didn't say anything at the time, but in the dream...she kept yelling...save her...save her..." Lu Heng's expression became tense, It was as if the scene had reappeared in front of my eyes.He slid down the wall with his head in his arms, squatting on the ground, still muttering to himself.

Jian Ming roughly understood the problem reflected in Lu Heng's dream.He didn't want to ask any more questions, as the person in front of him seemed unable to stand any more questions.But he didn't interrupt Lu Heng, he just walked over, knelt down and grabbed Lu Heng's hand on top of his head with both hands, and slowly pulled it down. His own hand was deliberately dodged. Jian Ming was sure of what he was afraid of.

"Okay, we're here today, don't think about it, how do you feel?" Jian Ming used his strength, but didn't let go.

"I don't want to get out of control, you...go away..." Lu Heng's reaction was clearly aimed at Jian Ming.

"why?"

Lu Heng didn't want to say that he was afraid, afraid of grabbing him like a life-saving straw like last time, afraid that his approach would destroy his strong resistance, afraid that the layers of protective shells would slowly become him.

Jian Ming moved closer, and Lu Heng staggered back to the corner of the wall again. Jian Ming could see that he was avoiding intentionally. In fact, for the two men, the distance was far beyond the normal standard, but he just didn't want to Stop, he knew very well that this was putting slight pressure on the opponent, but he didn't want to stop, he wanted to let himself go.

"Why are you afraid of me? Hmm?" Jian Ming said softly in a low voice.

"...Why are you so close?" Lu Heng held back for a long time before uttering a word.

"I want to know why you hid from me, because last time?" Jian Ming pulled him up, not wanting him to escape, forcing him to face the problem.

"Jian Ming, do you treat other patients like this?" Seeing Jian Ming keeping a distance, Lu Heng felt inexplicably lost.

"how?"

"...It's just...same as last time..."

"I only do this to my friends." Jian Ming smiled, and gently brushed Lu Heng's slightly damp hair.

Lu Heng was a little stunned, and suddenly felt his heart was like melted cotton candy, soft and warm, and he didn't know where the impulse came from, and asked slightly tremblingly: "Why... treat me as a friend?"

Jian Ming smiled at him, "Because you have no friends." He teased softly, turned around and walked to the side of the table, turned off the computer, and picked up the bag. "It's raining heavily outside, I'll take you home."

"...Oh" Lu Heng moved slowly and closed the open window. He couldn't describe his mood at this time. He could hear that Jian Ming didn't answer his question directly, but he was used to his style of answering questions that were not what he asked. There is a playful banter in that understatement.

The corners of Jian Ming's mouth were raised slightly, he looked at Lu Heng from the side, and thought, this little police officer is a bit cute.