flammable relationship

"In fact, even if it is schizophrenia, as long as it is treated promptly and effectively for the first time, with sufficient doses and a sufficient course of treatment, the condition is controlled and stable, and the medication is taken consistently for more than two years. If the condition is not serious, it can be judged as cured if there is no recurrence within three years."

In the warm room, the stove was crackling. Fu Yiheng wrapped his head in a blanket and listened numbly to Zhang Xu's popularization of relevant clinical experience.His head was almost blank, just like the white snow field outside the window, it was so cold and silent that it made people panic.

He shuddered, wrapped his blanket tightly, and listened to Zhang Xu throwing out obscure professional terms one after another, feeling at a loss as to what to do.After a long time, he realized that Zhang Xu had already stopped popularizing science, and turned to stare at him with a questioning look.

"You asked me if he has any obvious self-injury behavior?" Fu Yiheng repeated the other party's question and got an affirmative answer.

"No." Fu Yiheng blurted out.

Zhang Xu made a calm gesture: "Don't worry, think about it."

Fu Yiheng then tilted his head and tried to recall, his thoughts touched something, his pupils trembled uncontrollably, he raised his eyelashes suddenly, his eyes showed helplessness: "I, I'm not sure, because it's not obvious."

"Tell me what is wrong with your intuition first. If you have time, let's analyze it together." Zhang Xu patted him on the shoulder and handed him a plate of snacks. ...exhale...inhale...you're relaxed, hungry, and the brownies on your plate look delicious, don't you?"

Fu Yiheng ate a few bites of cake. Sweets can make people feel happy, and eating can make people relax their vigilance. He began to try to immerse himself in the long river of memory: "When we first got in touch, Wei Ran was only 17 years old. Distressed boy..."

Slowly, he found that it was effortless to narrate this past, because all the pictures about Wei Ran in his mind were so clear and vivid, his voice and smile were like yesterday, no matter how long the time stretched, they would never fade.

Night fell silently.

Fu Yiheng's voice was a little trembling, and he spoke slowly from the beginning, talking about Wei Ran's bravery and his cowardice, to prevent omissions, detailing everything.Talk about Wei Ran’s fight in the Internet cafe, talk about Wei Ran’s drinking of wine that he knew was wrong in a gay bar without blinking, talk about Wei Ran’s body covered in scars but he didn’t care, and when Wei Ran came, he got off the snowmobile Accidental fall, even that forced sex experience, he also let go of his decency, knowing everything, and choked up several times in the middle: there are so many things that are obviously abnormal, but he never suspects them.

"I underestimated Wei Ran's feelings for his mother." Fu Yiheng said, "I didn't really empathize with him. I just said lightly that the past is all over. I have been resisting to think about it carefully and to understand Wei Ran deeply. Burning through all the malice I felt because that would make me feel incompetent and understand, I can't go back and help him out."

"You are right. This is a normal person's self-protection mechanism to avoid excessive empathy." Zhang Xu comforted, "At the same time, you trust him. No matter where you put the word trust, there is nothing wrong with it. "

"But he's not as strong as I thought."

"Yes, otherwise there would be no such profession as a psychological counselor in the world."

"Now, you can say whatever you want, I'm mentally prepared." Fu Yiheng smiled at him, "My self-protection mechanism seems to be working normally."

Zhang Xu also smiled, but there was also no warmth.

"It's a reckless self-destructive behavior." He suppressed his smile and issued a medical certificate, "As far as what you just listed, on the surface, it seems that events pushed Wei Ran forward, happened by accident, and were irresistible. Yes, but in fact, it is a planned and purposeful temptation in my subconscious mind. Killing people to pay for their lives, drinking wine that may be mixed with poison, these events have a high probability of ending life in disguise; and what happened to you The forced incident between you can be interpreted as punitive sexual intercourse, the object of punishment is not you, but himself, because this incident almost caused irreversible damage to your relationship, which is equivalent to cutting off the emotional connection in disguise .If he regards you as the only savior, abandoning you is tantamount to abandoning himself."

"Abandon yourself..." Fu Yiheng buried his face between his hands, and rubbed the thin calluses on his palms that had been holding pens all the year round until his pale cheeks turned abnormally red. He moaned in pain, begging The other party said happily, "What are you trying to say? What is he testing?"

"Fu Yiheng, don't you understand?" Zhang Xu scratched his hair and stood up, pacing back and forth, "Wei Ran is subconsciously carrying out the procedure of self-judgment firmly! This is caused by a strong sense of guilt. It all belongs to himself, and he thinks that he has to pay the corresponding price. This price has developed to the most serious level, which is suicide! He is testing the border of death!"

"How could it be?" Fu Yiheng also became agitated, arguing with inexplicable anger, "He loves me so much, we've only just come together, and the beautiful life hasn't started yet, how could he want to leave me alone People are going to die?"

"Heh, guess why, he didn't get sick early, he didn't get sick late, why did he choose this juncture?" Zhang Xu showed the cold side of his professional consultant, "It's just when you overcome all difficulties and your lover finally gets married ?”

Fu Yiheng retreated again and again from his questioning, his back was bent due to his bad guess, he swallowed his saliva like swallowing a dagger: "Because he..."

"Yes, if guilt is the source of everything." Zhang Xu couldn't bear to look at his haggard face, and turned his eyes away, "then the happier he feels, the stronger the urge to self-harm. Because subconsciously he thinks that he is A sinner, unworthy of happiness."

This conclusion is devastating.

"So, it's because of me." Fu Yiheng blinked, "He got sick because he was finally with me, because he felt happy."

"What is this?" He put his back on one hand and smiled wryly, with tears in his eyes, as if he was crazy, "This is too fucking funny, someone will go crazy because they can't bear happiness?"

Zhang Xu folded his arms, and he always kept a smile when facing patients for psychological consultation. At this time, he acted as a rational outsider with a cold face: "Where are Mr. Wei's relatives? In this case, I suggest to inform For the patient's family, Mr. Wei must be admitted to the hospital forcibly, and his behavior has seriously endangered his own safety."

"And then? Do we still need to be quarantined?" Fu Yiheng's thinking suddenly became very clear, "In order to prevent the disease from getting worse, isolate me from him? How long? One day, one month, one year, if he still can't get better, Is it going to be extended indefinitely for a lifetime?"

"Trauma survivors are usually unable to bear overly hot emotions, because any strong emotion will be recognized as a threat, making the past trauma possible to recur." Zhang Xu lowered his head, his double chin resting on his invisible collarbone, I couldn't see the eyebrows, but I could only hear a deep sigh, "Old Fu, I'm in this line of work, and I've seen too much. As a friend, I really don't recommend that you continue to maintain a relationship with Wei Ran, whether it's for you or for you. For patients, separation is a better choice. In reality, there are many such cases, but few couples can persist. I am afraid that in the end—"

"You and him are both losers."

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