[Comprehensive] Why am I not dead yet?

Two months later, in the palace of the king in Uruk——

"—Then, this is today's report."

Siduri put down the last clay tablet, bowed to King Gilgamesh who was listening to the sergeant's report, and said in a low voice, "If the king has no other arrangements, I will retreat first."

Wang waved his hand to signal that he heard.

On this day, after Siduri finished her report with the king, she habitually looked in the direction of the gate of Uruk the moment she walked out of the palace.

However, apart from Uruk's own noise, she didn't see that familiar figure.

It has been almost three months since Master Lian Su left without saying hello that day.

More than two months ago, King Gilgamesh woke up from a deep sleep and searched the entire palace, but found no sign of Lian Su, except for the lapis lazuli chains that were respectfully placed on the table of the bedroom. , the traces of the blond woman's existence seemed to be erased by the coefficient overnight.

Since he sealed Wang Lujian and started commanding the Warcraft front, the increasingly calm and calm King Gilgamesh was rarely furious that day. Even when he was called a tyrant in his youth, it was rare to see him so furious. In those few days, the priests and assistants, including Siduri, were cautious and cautious, not daring to offend their king for fear of offending their king in a certain detail.

But the tyrant's posture lasted only two or three days before disappearing without a trace. He quickly summoned a new heroic spirit—the king of Sparta, Leonidas I—to maintain the loss of the first commander. Two months later, Merlin returned alone, with only a bone-white long sword wrapped in white cloth that looked like a work of art in his arms.

He offered that sword with both hands to King Gilgamesh.

"——This is a sword forged from the bones of monsters taken from the sea of ​​death, combined with the blood of tens of thousands of monsters; it was made by the swordsmith who created the sword in the lake with one hand."

Gilgamesh frowned, not intending to reach out to take the sword.

"This king is a magician now, and has no plans to become a swordsman; no one knows his own work better than the swordsmith, who made this sword, and let her use it herself."

"Oh, please forgive me, King Gilgamesh," Merlin exaggeratedly sighed: "Why do you think she made this sword and asked me to come here and give it to you? She told me that this bone sword was given to you. The effect of the words in your hand is comparable to the immortality of the holy sword and scabbard. You must know that Tiamat, who was dripped with the blood of eleven monsters, could not even kill Marduk. Imaginary space... well, then she said that you should know what she wants to say."

Of course Gilgamesh knew.

【The boatman dropped the blood on the king's chest to dispel his drowsiness, and lost most of his blood since then. 】

"...So, she knows."

Knowing who he is, otherwise he wouldn't have sent him such a sword.

Gilgamesh was silent for a while, and finally stretched out his hand to hold the sword, and hung the bone sword around his waist directly by the white cloth wrapped around it.

Merlin looked relieved.

"I've accepted the things, so where did that woman go? She should have had enough fun during such a long vacation, why hasn't she come back?"

"Ah, yes," Merlin raised his head and replied, "Vivienne said that she is going to find out what is going on with the Alliance of the Three Goddesses."

Gilgamesh narrowed his eyes: "I don't need her to work, let that woman come back quickly! Couldn't even this level of persuasion be able to do so with such intimacy!"

"Yeah... even if you say that, I can't do anything with Vivian..." Merlin scratched his cheeks in distress, "My speed of reciting spells is considered fast among magicians, but she can still recite spells on me." Before the curse ended, she rushed over and beat me up successfully; not to mention swordsmanship or something. I learned that stuff from her. At that time, I just thought her speed and sword swing were very cool, so I pestered her to teach her. I'm sick, I didn't continue after I learned [-]% or [-]%; let alone magic, she was the woman who sealed me in Avalon in the end! So, I can't beat Vivienne, alive I can't beat her, now that she is a Heroic Spirit, she is my natural enemy~"

Gilgamesh:"……"

Gilgamesh: "So what did I summon a magician like you for? The eyes that are the symbol of the crown magician's qualifications are simply decorations, right? Magic is surpassed by swordsmanship, and I learned from others. Speaking of The talents and applicability in all aspects are far inferior to that..." The more he talked, the more he felt incredible: "How did a guy like you manage to catch up with the king's most proud and favorite courtier?"

"!!! You used the word favorite, right!!!" Merlin raised his voice subconsciously: "You are also a clairvoyant who can see the future, so you should know that Vivienne is the person I like, right? Agreed The virtuous king who leads Uruk, don't attack the girl he likes!"

"Ha." Gilgamesh sneered: "Did you forget that the woman Lian Sua managed to escape after putting the king into a deep sleep."

Merlin, the magic teacher who taught the opponent the illusion by himself: "..."

He is still very confident in the extremely high magic talent of his original student, but he intuitively feels that the other party is not trying to praise him for his good teaching...

Sure enough, King Xian spoke up.

"—Thanks to the special relationship between the contractor and the summoned, even if the woman's past is shrouded in a layer of fog, and even she herself can't see clearly, this king can."

——So, I watched her countless reincarnations in one night.

What she remembers, what she forgets, what she abandons, what she kills—all of these things are all seen.

——Obviously born in the initial chaos, born in the arms of the original mother god of creation, possessing the aptitude that even the gods can only look up to and fear, but has never been truly loved since the moment she was born.

The object of companionship at first was the angry and manic mother goddess, because of the unintentional curse of the mother goddess, she longed for her mother's love and pity more than any other god.

But this wish was not fulfilled.

Even when [they] were torn apart one by one by the enemy, the bones were thrown into the sea of ​​death, and the blood dripped on the body of the mother goddess, which became the curse of immortality that the mother goddess had to live on, the last voice remaining in consciousness was still only the mother's voice. God's angry and fierce roar at the enemy who killed his husband and threatened his status.

what……

The only thing that was certain was that it was definitely not a cry for his own death.

Surrounding the king is the cold despair of sorrow.

That was the initial obsession—the desire to "be loved".

Longing to be loved, to be remembered, to be guarded.

[No matter who it is, please save me from the original curse and endless reincarnation.The first born individual was floating in the sea of ​​death, and the only thing she could feel was the inescapable coldness and darkness. The impression she had when she was born was so deep that she was even a little afraid. 】

——So, she started chasing the "light".

Whether it is the burning embers, the sun that is too hot, or even the illusion of emptiness, as long as it can meet her needs at this moment, whether it is deception, betrayal or physical harm, it is all fine. ignore it.

If necessary, she can even kill "herself".

But there is a limit to the kind of tolerance and self-deception that seems to have no bottom line, not to mention that she herself has never had the qualifications of a pure white saint——

"The sad beast that always prayed for love but could never get it, at one point in the infinite cycle, finally chose to end its pursuit process on the body of a heartless succubus."

King Gilgamesh's eyes were as red as blood, and he looked down at the flower magician who had suppressed all the frivolous smiles and his face was sinking like water.

"...She chose to dig out her own heart, killed this 'self' who was on the verge of collapse, and left the current Lian Su."

"My lord, what do you want to say?"

"It's nothing, I just wanted to ask you on a sudden whim - how do you think that woman's crown position came from? Did she rely on her unparalleled swordsmanship that she had experienced in countless reincarnations or her terrifying talent and talent?" Points? Not at all, Merlin... Her crown comes from her meritorious service in saving the world, and in a sense, you gave it to her."

"Ah... I know about this matter."

Merlin lowered his eyes and replied calmly: "Vivienne's aptitude to become a 'beast' is much higher than that of a 'crown'—I know."

What she killed was not only the Vivian who really loved Merlin, but also the self who was chasing hopeless love and who was about to become a beast.

——Its true essence is BeastⅢ/L, the Beast of Sorrow of the Beast of Original Sin who holds the Principle of Love on the left side of the Principle of Eros, and the human evil that appears in a half-body posture very rarely.

The reason held by the third beast should be "love and lust", but human beings are really contradictory and ironic creatures. Love and desire complement each other, but they contradict each other.

But it is precisely because of this reason that the woman has never been entangled by desire from the beginning to the end, so she can perceive the future with the most ruthless attitude, and kills "the self who will develop into that future" in advance.

——She has kept herself in the position of a "bystander" forever. This love, which seems to be unavailable forever, will be obliterated by her own hands. She will not love human beings, everything she has ever loved, or even It was herself, so this meritorious deed was comparable to saving the world, and it bought her the rank of the crown.

Merlin raised his hand to grab the skirt of his chest, and slowly gathered his five fingers together tightly.

"...But maybe it's been affected by her heart for too long. After the obsession entangled in it is completely dissipated, it is estimated that Vivienne's heart will soon become my thing."

"...Did you really get the heart of the Beast of Love?"

"Ah... I have to say that this is a really scary thing, should I say it's my own bad attributes, or is it a danger that she hasn't noticed... It's not good to have this heart in my place matter."

Merlin lowered his eyebrows, and the corner of his mouth suddenly raised into a slight smile.

"—Probably after a long time, Vivian's feelings will dissipate and be replaced by the feelings that I have been endowed by this heart. There is no doubt that it is the 'taste of a lover' that I have never dreamed of...but even It’s just now that I’m starting to think, ‘ah, as long as that person wishes, it’s okay to stand with her on the opposite side of humans’.”

In the end, his love for humans is just a matter of talk.

"But what a pity, King Gilgamesh."

Merlin raised his head and looked straight into Wang's eyes.

"Because she chooses to stand here now, I will stand here too."

"...Does it mean that you also have the possibility of standing on the opposite side?"

"Yeah, after all you see—"

Merlin raised his hand and smiled at Gilgamesh with crooked eyebrows, exactly the same smile as the woman in his memory who always smiled calmly when she was about to plan everything.

"I have half of the blood of the succubus here?"

"In a sense, it's from the same clan as Vivian...no, the composition of Susu."