[Comprehensive] Why am I not dead yet?

Emiya Kiritsugu stared at Lian Su's back, his eyes were a little dazed.

We are going to leave tomorrow, according to the previous arrangement, he will take a step first, and the rest of the people including Arturia will follow behind. Emiya Kiritsugu knows that he should rest as soon as possible to recover his energy, but he can't sleep at all .

Lian Su's words touched him a little - this is very scary for a person like Emiya Kiritsugu.

In the end, he couldn't hold back and got up to find that person.

Lian Su was in the living room. When Emiya Kiritsugu found her, she was sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling window admiring the moon alone. The moonlight was bleak, but it shone on her body with a different kind of tenderness.

Emiya Kiritsugu paused for a moment, then walked towards the woman.

——This man named Wei Gong said that his heart is as cold as steel and as cold as a rock, which is appropriate, but inappropriate.

He has love, loves his wife, loves his daughter, loves human beings and even this world, if not for this love, he would not be standing here, and gave birth to such a naive desire that is almost like a child's joke. Up to now; but he doesn't love, he regards human beings as numbers, and uses the quantifier "one" to describe all human lives around him, and he has never hesitated for a moment.

But such a person is doomed to be cursed.

He used the soul of an ordinary person to bear the malice that a saint could not bear, and he ruthlessly measured the lives of others with the guns in his hands. Under his eyes, Emiya Kiritsugu still retains a broken soul struggling in endless purgatory; and when he married Irisviel, his curse reached a new peak.

Of course he loves his wife, but this love is too heavy, it is like a curse for either of them.

Irisviel is the Little Holy Grail, an artificial human created by Einzbern purely for the Holy Grail War. All her functions are prepared for this tragic elimination battle of magicians. If they don't participate in the Holy Grail War, the rest of the heroic spirits will continue to fight, and they still cannot escape their inevitable fate.

Every time a heroic spirit dies, Irisviel's lifespan will be shortened by one point, and if they participate in the war, Irisviel will only die earlier. If they succeed, Irisviel will die; if they fail, this curse It will even turn to their daughter Eliade... This is a story that is doomed to tragedy no matter how you choose.

Emiya Kiritsugu thinks that his attachment to this wish is strong enough, but in the face of more than 550 years of accumulation and obsession, it is still too far behind... And if he remembers correctly, even Su's time was also very strong. There have been remarks about something like an ideal world.

And that era... probably the time in all history that was infinitely closer to the world he expected.

"You mean what Lao Tzu said?" Facing Emiya Kiritsugu's doubts, she did not show doubts because the other party asked a very strange question, but replied frankly: "There is indeed such a saying, Lao Tzu’s expectations are written in the Tao Te Ching—that sentence says: When the state is at its peak, neighboring countries look at each other, the voices of chickens and dogs are heard from each other, and the people are happy to eat, beautiful in their clothes, comfortable in their customs, and happy in their careers. Until old age and death, we will not communicate with each other."

"But this is just a thought... That kind of world is impossible and wrong."

Lian Su lowered her eyes and smiled lightly, her tone was calm.

Emiya Kiritsugu frowned and asked, "How could it be wrong?"

"Ideals are good, operations are wrong, and the idea that you want to get such a world is even wrong." Lian Su replied: "You can't see such a world at all."

Emiya Kiritsugu's expression was a bit ugly.

Lian Su seemed not aware of it, and continued talking on her own.

"You manage your emotions very well, but when Lily talked about her hometown of Britain and the state of Qin back then, you reacted." The woman's voice was very soft and cold, as light as the cold land in front of her. moonlight. "Want to see that world? Want to move that world to this world?"

"Isn't it possible?" Emiya Kiritsugu lowered his eyes and said.

If there is the Holy Grail, then all the impossible can become possible.

Qin can be revived, Arturia's history can be reversed, the past can be revised, and the world he is looking forward to can come——

"...What do you think," Lian Su stood up propped up against the wall, turned her head to look into Emiya Kiritsugu's eyes. "Is such a world possible?"

"Of course, everyone lives happily. Such a world must exist." The emotion in Emiya Kiritsugu's eyes was no longer at the level of stubbornness.

... This man, burning his own life, taking the lives of others, with blood on his hands, still maintains this childish innocence; nourishment.

— But this is just drinking poison to quench thirst.

Lian Su could hardly bear to feel pity for this sad man.

How helpless and desperate do you have to be to cast your eyes on the world 2000 years ago, gamble all the good things you can have, press a holy grail that you don’t even know if it’s true or not, and seek the almost impossible miracle ?

...Praying to the gods for help, kneeling down and wagging their tails to beg for mercy.

sorrow.

Sad enough to make people pitiful, of course it will also make people laugh.

But because of this, it can be used by me——

Lian Su narrowed her eyes, and the corners of her lips curled up in a meaningful arc.

"...Ah, it does exist, a world where everyone is carefree, life, old age, sickness, death, love and hatred, a world where all suffering can disappear except life and death, a pure and flawless utopian world."

She leaned over and said with a smile, and looked at Emiya Kiritsugu who was stunned listening to her words.

"Why do you suddenly look like you can't believe it?"

"...You..." Emiya Kiritsugu looked suspicious, as if the woman who was questioning him just now suddenly changed her temper?

No, it's not true... She didn't seem to say that her wish was wrong.

Emiya Kiritsugu was a little confused by her.

"Do you know that I was born in Guigu, and Guigu has always been very courageous." Lian Su said with a light smile, "Your wish is very interesting."

"...What does this mean, you want to help me?" Emiya Kiritsugu asked suspiciously.

Lian Su shrugged her shoulders: "I'm idle because I'm idle? Lily and I have a very close relationship, and Fusu is by your side again. When I wake up, it's the world after 2000. Things are changing, even if I want to find It’s impossible to go back to everything I was familiar with back then. Instead of sitting here in a daze, it’s better to help you. Anyway, it’s just seven masters and seven heroic spirits. As long as they are human, they can’t escape their hearts. After all, it will not be more difficult than sweeping the six countries."

Emiya Kiritsugu: "...there may be heroic spirits from the Age of Gods."

"So?" Lian Su glanced at him: "The heroic spirits of the Age of Gods, I can't play anymore?"

"Play?" Emiya Kiritsugu couldn't help being a little dazed because of the adjective she used.

"Naturally it is to play." Lian Su chuckled, and turned around neatly with a flick of his long sleeves. The wide sleeves of the toga robe drew a beautiful arc in the air: "Humans and heroic spirits, the present and the past, magicians Dragging the ancient undead back into the human world for selfish desires... What an interesting combination? Do you think this Holy Grail War is difficult? Of course not—”

"It's better to say that if you want to win, it's too simple."

Lian Su clenched her fingers, and the long-lost passion returned to her body that had been sleeping for 2000 years.

"Let's compare you and Lily, Mr. Emiya." She smiled warmly, the light in her eyes was almost captivating: "Can you resonate with that era in your bones?"

Emiya Kiritsugu was taken aback, and Lian Su smiled: "Impossible? You are injustice, you are complaining, but your position has no right to talk about her past. What can you do... probably... Alienate or ignore it, if I am your enemy, take this opportunity to invade your relationship, whether it is to win over either of you or to make your heroic masters alienate or even kill each other, it is not too difficult things."

Emiya Kiritsugu's back was covered with cold sweat, and the way he looked at Lian Su also changed, the woman smiled, and continued: "So, this is an extremely simple battle—not to mention anything else, How many modern people are willing to respect the people of that time, and how many are willing to talk to each other?

If it is an enlightened emperor, there is no need to say more about the heroes who are willing to protect mankind, but there are too many tyrants who are strong enough to leave a name in history. You magicians summon heroic spirits for victory and not for chatting. Isn’t it because Did this reason summon King Arthur?Because she is the strongest one, from this point of view, the communication between the master and the servants is secondary, or even negligible; if this can be confirmed, all the other masters and heroic spirits are no more than It is a character that can be dismissed in a few words. "

The man's back felt cold when he saw her understatement.

"The next thing is the strength of the heroic spirit itself..." Lian Su rubbed her fingers and fell into deep thought: "There are indeed heroic spirits with extremely extraordinary strength. The Saber class is more dependent on the master, if something happens to you, it will be more troublesome."

"Then what should we do?" Emiya Kiritsugu subconsciously asked her opinion.

Lian Su stared at the moon and was stunned.

"...Then there is no other way, let Fusu try first, if that kid can't beat him, then I have to take the shot."

In a sense, he was an old man who hadn't done anything in 2000, and sighed melancholy.

"You?" The man questioned.

Lian Su glanced at him.

"What's wrong with me? You can't beat me with the round table from the entire heyday."