[Full-time master] I didn't expect you to have such big eyes

As I thanked the security guard, I heard my voice shake slightly.

Resisting the hysterical urge to go crazy in my heart, I clutched the letter paper and walked quickly towards the courtyard of the club, breathing in the dry air outside, the grief suppressed by my body burst out in an instant, filling my entire chest.

There were a few footsteps behind him, but they disappeared soon after.I looked up and looked around, and the flowers in the yard had withered, leaving only bare branches breaking through the ground and standing in the wind.

The hand holding the letter was clenched a little bit, and the nails were stuck in the flesh, causing pain in the palm of the hand. I slowly loosened it, and I could clearly see the two large characters of 'Gu Ying' on the crumpled paper.

Gu Ying is my mother.

The mother who abandoned me after I was born.

Suddenly, I remembered a dream I always loved to have when I was a child.

I stood alone on the noisy street, with pedestrians coming and going in front of me. Among them were smiling women holding their children, children walking and arguing with their parents, and a family of three holding hands and crossing the road together.

I watched all this indifferently, listening to the loud trucks passing menacingly in the distance.Turning his head slightly, he saw a thin woman standing beside her. The face above her lips seemed to be covered by clouds, making it hard to see clearly.When she stepped away, the previous calm was broken in an instant, and unprecedented panic and fear flooded her heart.

She followed behind the woman and kept calling for her mother. She didn't seem to notice my existence, and walked forward persistently.

No matter how I chase, there is always a long distance between the two.I stepped forward to catch up with all my strength, and tears fell from my cheeks to my mouth, like bitterness.

Suddenly, a car passed by in front of him, and looking forward, the woman was no longer there.

Thoughts from the distant memory back to the standard, the eyes are already blurred.

I don't know why, I frantically tore the letter paper in my hands with both hands, as if I could completely cut off the connection between me and her if I just shredded this letter.

The small sound of paper breaking was so harsh in the courtyard. I threw the paper in my hand on the grass, and tears could no longer be controlled, rushing out of my eyes.

Squatting down, hugging my thighs and crying bitterly, until the end of crying, I actually giggled. As for how I went back to the house and what kind of mood I fell asleep with, I can’t remember clearly, but it’s almost noon after waking up. It's four o'clock.

After sleeping for so long, my head was still a little dazed when I woke up, and it took a little effort to get up, as if my whole body had been emptied.

Without Liu Fei, the dormitory was eerily quiet, and my rumbling stomach was already protesting that I didn't fill it with food.I got up and walked into the bathroom, only to see the mirror on the sink, and I was startled by myself inside.

My sleeping posture has never been very good, so after waking up, my hair is no longer messy. At this time, my face is still pale, and my eyes seem to be punched hard, red and swollen.

I took a handful of water and splashed it on my face, and I applied a towel around my eyes. I felt that the swelling was not too obvious before I went out to find something to eat.

It's not time for meal yet, so there must be no food in the cafeteria.I thought about it and planned to go to the kitchen to see what I could cook. I happened to pass by the courtyard when I was going to the kitchen. I went to the place where I was crying just now. The grass there was clean and there was no scrap of paper. .

Has it been cleaned?

I can't tell what kind of mood I'm in now, maybe I'm a little lucky, maybe I'm a little bit regretful, an indescribable bitterness is stuck in my heart, and it makes every breath difficult.

My eyes became hot, and tears seemed to well up again. I quickly raised my head to look at the sky and sniffed, and Wang Jiexi's voice came from behind me: "Yiqian."

I covered my eyes with my cuff, a smile that I thought was natural, and turned to look at him: "What are you doing?"

The second my eyes met, I saw his brows frowned slightly, and when he walked up to him, Wang Jiexi lowered his head and asked me, "What's wrong with you?"

"I cried and fell asleep watching a movie before. What's the matter?"

"Want to go out for a walk?"

"Why did you call me out all of a sudden?"

"I want to go for a walk today on vacation, and I just saw you."

... Well one is just right.

Glancing at him, I walked into the house: "I'll make something to eat, I slept through lunch, and I'm a little hungry now."

I searched around in the kitchen. The empty refrigerator seemed to have been robbed, and there was nothing to eat. In desperation, I cooked a bowl of instant noodles, and when I brought them out of the living room, Wang Jiexi was watching his phone on the sofa. With the things in his hand, he said unhappily, "Just eat this?"

I replied to him angrily: "What is it? This is one of the greatest inventions in the world, instant noodles made by Gu Yiqian."

"That's what you would say."

"Thanks for the compliment."

Eating instant noodles satiated my stomach, so I changed into a set of clothes and went out for a walk with Wang Jiexi.

The Tiny Herb base is not in a bustling area, there are not many people around, and it is not the peak time for walking after meals, the nearby parks are mostly elementary school students who come out to play together.

The topic of Wang Jiexi and I probably couldn't escape the glory, he commented on the performance of the players, and I talked about the situation of other team players, just chatting without saying a word.I sat down on a bench, put my elbows on my knees and held my face, watching some young boys playing football in the open space in front of me.

Those little boys were obviously not very proficient. The ball was uncontrollable under their feet and ran around. One of the skinny boys raised his foot and kicked hard after grabbing the ball. The sole of his foot just passed the ball. He I really fell while stepping on a football.

I laughed out loud, and pulled Wang Jiexi's sleeve to share with him: "Look, Big Eye Wang, that kid is so stupid."

"Be quiet."

"What are you afraid of? It's so far away."

However, it turns out that there are retributions for gossiping about others behind their backs.

Those children ran a certain distance in our direction to chase the ball. The little boy who fell just now saw that he couldn't protect the ball under his feet, so he kicked hard, and the black and white ball flew towards me.

Don't look at the skinny kid, this kick was very hard, the ball was flying fast in the air, and there was no chance for people to react, and it went straight to the door.

The moment the ball was about to hit my face, Wang Jiexi grabbed my hand and slammed it into his arms. The ball passed by my head and flew to the grass behind, with a whistling sound.

The two little boys snatching the ball quickly ran to the front, and after apologizing, they quickly went to pick up the ball in the grass, and we could even hear their conversation while sitting on the stool: "You hot chick, the ball almost hit the lady's face Go up and play football like you do.”

"Damn it, can I play if you don't grab the ball? If you force me to believe it or not, won't I give you a winning percentage in the Arena of Glory?"

"Brother, I was wrong."

"Don't tell me, that guy just now looks a bit like Wang Jiexi, did you see that?"

"You can just talk nonsense, how can Wang Jiexi..."

Although I didn't hear the words behind clearly, I couldn't help laughing out at what the two children said, so I quickly turned my head and said to Wang Jiexi, "When did your face become unrecognizable among Glory players?"

The face that was close at hand came into my eyes, I coughed lightly, sat up straight and moved aside, the atmosphere was instantly filled with embarrassment because of this movement.

Wang Jiexi didn't respond to my words, he just sat like that, even if he didn't raise his head, I could feel his eyes resting on me.

After a while, I tried to find a topic to break the silence between the two, but Wang Jiexi said something unexpected: "Yiqian, let's date."

My brain went blank with a 'hum--', and I looked at Wang Jiexi blankly, and my eyes fell straight into his eyes.Stared at by his calm eyes, I forgot to change how to react and think like this for a moment, and even my body functions seemed to stop functioning.

My lips moved, and I could only squeeze out a monosyllable: "Huh?"

"I mean, do you want to be my girlfriend?"

"...No, Wang Jiexi, you...I..." He frantically organized his words, but the words were still incoherent when they reached his lips.The beating of the heart in the chest gradually accelerated, and there was only the sound of the heartbeat of 'dong dong dong' beside my ears.

I clenched my palms subconsciously. It was already a cool autumn, but a thin layer of sweat was already forming in my hands.

Taking a long breath, I said, "I'm sorry, I can't promise you."

He obviously didn't expect me to give such an answer, and there was a flash of obvious surprise and disappointment in his expression, but he quickly adjusted to the usual way.

Wang Jiexi has always been a person who is very good at managing his emotions. He may subconsciously reveal his deepest emotions, but he will not let them dominate him.

Standing up from the bench, I murmured 'Go back' in a low voice, and quickly left the spot.

Seemingly convinced that Wang Jiexi would be left behind, tears fell without warning.

Unrestrained, unstoppable, like beads with a broken thread, they kept gushing out of the eye sockets.

Why, you chose this time to tell me;

Why, just tell me.

I know that I have never been a person favored by God. I had no father since I was a child, and was abandoned by my mother after birth. When I swore to my grandparents who raised me that I would be admitted to a good university, the illness took them away from me. side.

So whenever I get something, I always worry that God will cruelly take it back.

I have known Wang Jiexi for four years and have had a crush on him for four years, but I never thought I could be with him.

Wang Jiexi's confession was like an episode of the weekend, after which none of us mentioned it again.

He is a smart person, even if he has any doubts, he will not break the casserole and ask the end.

It was as if this had never happened. On the second day, we resumed the game with the players as before, and called Fang Shiqian to discuss the content of the new tactics and the players' practice.

A week later, Tiny Herb successfully won the match at home, but Wang Jiexi did not show up for the first time in the morning training.

Tiny Herb's practice attendance has always been handed over to me. I can see clearly where there is a shortage of people in the training room. I poked Fang Shiqian beside me, pointed to the position on the other side and asked, "Wang Big Eye Woolen cloth?"

He took off the earphones and gave a look of 'are you an idiot': "Don't you ask the manager?"

In Tiny Herb, if you ask for leave, you have to report to the manager.

After Fang Shiqian finished speaking, the manager happened to walk in from the training room, and seeing me in front of his computer, he came over with a smile and said, "Yiqian, I forgot to tell you yesterday that Jiexi was on leave this morning, and I'll come back in the afternoon to make up for it." train."

"Oh well, did he tell you something?"

"He didn't say anything, but I saw him go out this morning, and it looks like he's going to meet someone."

For some reason, when I heard the manager's words, I suddenly had a bad feeling in my heart.