[Comprehensive] warm things

The dark night sky outside the window and the warm yellow light inside the house formed a strong contrast.

Rui Xi put the blanket on the shoulders of Chika Kanozuka, then stuffed hot cocoa into Chika Kanozuka's hands, and said with eyebrows bent, "It's cold outside, you don't wear too much, don't catch a cold."

Ruixi's smile was as kind and gentle as it was back then, full of vitality, which made Kanozuka Chika a little dazed. She raised her head and glanced at Natori Wanghai who was sitting opposite, wearing a dark blue nightdress and wearing a With the off-white shawl, the elegant curve of the corners of the lips that has remained unchanged for thousands of years, and the soft but cold amber eyes, she couldn't help laughing at herself and said: "You and Ruixi really haven't changed at all, and I'm more embarrassed every time. "

"Worried? Do you really think so, don't you have what you want now?" Natori Wanghai smiled slightly, "The military uniform is very suitable for you."

"..." Qianjia Yanzhizuka had so many twists and turns in her heart, she could only smile wryly in the end, "I don't know what I'm after, I'm named Wanghai, I envy you, I'm jealous of you, since I was a child, you must know it. "

Natori Wanghai smiled irrefutably, and said with deep eyes: "So, do you want you to become me, or do you want me to become like you?"

Kanozuka Chika slightly tightened her hand holding the cup, and couldn't help laughing in a low voice. This guy always tells people what others want to cover up. Sometimes she really feels, as if she can clearly see through everything about Natori Wanghai, Some horror.

When she was a child, Natori Wanghai always wore beautiful skirts or clean and tidy maiden costumes. Her long black hair was always braided by her grandmother to look good and playful. She smiled every day and was carefree.

But he has a short boyish hair, physical training always makes his pants and short sleeves dirty, and his forehead is full of sweat.

——If only I could become her.

This kind of idea came to her for the first time after meeting Wanghai Natori, and it was also the first time she experienced the feeling of envy and jealousy of others.

All her memories of childhood are trying to make herself better, so that even if she is not a boy, as long as she surpasses Cousin Guangbang, her father will be proud of her.

Later, her younger brother was born. Unlike her, her younger brother was regarded as a treasure by her father as soon as she was born, because my father hoped that his son would be outstanding and surpass his elder brother's child.

When she learned that her young brother was in poor health and might not be able to practice martial arts, how did she feel at that time?

Along with a trace of pity, there is also a trace of joy that cannot be suppressed.

The younger brother who carried all the hopes of his father, and the younger brother who received all the love and affection of his mother, could not shoulder anything, but she could.

She has never won the love of her father, and her mother always indulged her everything with apologetic eyes. She didn't know why she worked so hard. Later, after losing her only brother, she realized that she was in order to gain love, but never She has never felt love, and she does not know that it is what she longs for and should cherish when she gets it.

Maybe she doesn't even know how to cherish it.

"You obviously know that I am a dark person, and you just hoped that you were as unfortunate as me!!!"

Kanozuka Chika's eyes were red with excitement, she made a colliding sound with the cocoa cup in her hand and the coffee table, "Didn't I say that I haven't changed at all, so what if I put on a military uniform, I... hate myself so much Spit...I, from the very beginning, I hoped that you would become nothing like me!"

"Qianjia Hanozuka, you can vent your emotions, but don't say what you say."

Natori Wangkai's calm voice is like the sea surface before a storm, but the calmness contains endless dangers. Ruixi stared blankly, seeing Wanghai's darkening and deep eyes, he shrank subconsciously, but did not dare to speak .

"Don't choose what to say? Oh, this is my idea..."

"Then you can go." Natori Wangkai got up, pulled off the blanket on Kanozuka Chika with his hands, and said softly, "Ruixi, see off."

"Natori Wanghai, what do you mean?" Kanozuka Chika grabbed the blanket that Natori Wanghai was about to take away.

The two stared at each other for a moment, Natori Wanghai slightly tilted his head and said, "Qianjia, why did you come to me, to say these things?"

"Of course not, I'm here for the little fish..." After saying this, Kanozuka Chika's fingers that were gripping the blanket loosened a little, Natori Wangkai pulled the blanket and threw it on the sofa, looked at her calmly and said, "You It's for myself."

Kanozuka Chika trembled slightly, and subconsciously took a step back to distance herself from Natori Wanghai, but Natori Wanghai went up and grabbed her, pressed her to sit on the sofa, looked down at her and said: " What do you want to find that mermaid, hope he becomes Kenji, then you don’t have to look for it, I catch other mermaids, how about you!”

"Are you kidding me, Xiaoyu...he is not the prop-like existence you thought..." Kanozuka Chika pushed Natori Wanghai away as if someone had poked her sore spot, and Natori Wanghai staggered He bumped into the coffee table, Ruixi stretched out his hand nervously, Natori Wanghai grabbed Ruixi's hand to stabilize his body, and then said with a half-smile: "Ah, you want Kenji to come back, but you don't want that mermaid to leave you, so You hope that the mermaid will turn into Kenji and stay by your side longer and longer."

Kanozuka Chika's clenched fist kept shaking, Natori Wangkai didn't know where he got the strength, grabbed her by the collar and pulled her towards the door, and said indifferently: "You are so pathetic, Kanozuka Chika, take away the little girl!" The Pisces must be someone close to you, I hope you wake up, sadly, you are immersed in your own misfortune..."

Natori Wangkai forcefully pushed Kanozuka Chika towards the door, and Kanozuka Chika's back hit the cold door. She looked at Kamizuka's eyes without a trace of warmth, and heard Natori Kanami's usually soft voice piercing like a sharp sword. through her body.

"You can't wake up at all! You feel like you have nothing, don't you, you are becoming nothing."

"Wanghai..." Ruixi grabbed Natori Wanghai's hand carefully, his emerald green eyes were full of worry, Natori Wanghai pursed his lips, he pinched Natori Wanghai's cheek, grinned and said, "It's late, little Qianjia looks She is also very tired, let her rest first." After finishing speaking, he ran over to help Chika Kanozuka who was supporting her body by the gate.

"Xiao Qianjia, let's rest first. Only after you have a good rest can you deal with everything calmly." Hearing Ruixi's words, Qianjia Nizuka raised her eyes slightly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Thank you, Ruixi."

Ruixi looked down at the pale and haggard side face of Qianjia Hanzhizuka, feeling a little sad, and said with a smile: "You're welcome, come, I'll take you to the guest room."

The moment Chika Kanozuka, supported by Mizuki, passed by Natori Nozomi, her eyelashes trembled slightly, Natori Nozomi turned around and left without saying a word.

Kanotsuka Chika was lying on the bed in the guest room, covered by a soft quilt, Mizuki seemed to be listening seriously to her exhortations, but her mind was full of the conversation with Natori Wangkai just now.

Ruixi was just about to leave, but the door of the guest room was pushed open. Natori Wanghai came in with a cup, put the cup on the bedside table, and said softly: "This is hot milk, you can drink it if you want, it's about the little fish... ...I'm going to investigate, you should rest first."

"Natori Wanghai," Kanozuka Chika got up and called Wanghai who was about to leave with Ruixi, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry to know someone I hate so much, when the seal was lifted..."

"Don't talk about it, grandma was not in good health at the time, and I caused her trouble by myself," Natori Wanghai squeezed the doorknob firmly, then opened it lightly, and turned to look at Chika Kanozuka, "I I regret it, but I can only continue to live. Everyone in this world will experience regret, misfortune, and loss, and you are not the only one who will encounter these."

The sound of the door closing seemed to overwhelm Chika Kanozuka as the last straw, tears welled up in her eyes, she bit the back of her hand hard to prevent herself from crying.

Kenji must have discovered a long time ago that as an older sister, she is so gloomy and lonely, so he will always accompany her like a little tail, and doesn't want her to be alone.

He said that he cherished Kenji more than his parents, but pushed Kenji's hand away.

On that day, she clearly saw that Kenji wanted to be by his side, but she still chose to return to the army in order to make herself climb higher in the army.

Want to have a reputation and status in the army, and for whom? Is it really to shoulder the responsibilities that belong to the younger brother, so that the younger brother can take care of his body with peace of mind, and make it easier for the younger brother?

No, no, she did it for herself, to prove to her parents that she is excellent, even if she is not a man, she can still make a difference in the army, and she can also wear a military uniform and gain the respectful gaze of others.

She has clearly realized that she has never really cherished and loved her younger brother, but she has avoided such a self, and she is going crazy with regret, regretting that she is gnawing at everything about her all the time, but she desperately hopes that others will do the same. experience her pain.

【You feel like you have nothing, right? You are becoming nothing. 】

Ah, maybe she is really crazy, she doesn't know how to cherish the precious things she has,

Nothing is simply the best end.

Xiaoyu has been with her for so long, she has never really given him anything, but has always absorbed the warmth and relief she wanted from him...

She must find Xiaoyu——

【You want that mermaid to turn into Kenji and stay by your side longer and longer. 】

Well, I used to think this way, if Kenji returned to her by doing this, Xiaoyu would not leave her, but this is the way to really lose everything.

After finding the little fish, she will let him go.