[Comprehensive] Idol reboot

"You don't like me anymore?"

When Lu Jianxing heard the words, he frowned lightly at first, then raised his head and looked at the other party - Baishi was very familiar with this kind of gaze: complete doubts, clear and without haze; some were just troubled by sudden problems .It is this flawless innocence that fascinates people; but it is also it, and it is still a heartbreaking beauty left in the end of fermentation...

and loss.

"Of course I like you very much, and so far, I still do." Baishi took her hand naturally and patiently explained to her: "If I didn't like you, I wouldn't confess to you, and I wouldn't accompany you every day. When you go to class, you won't always be emotional because of everything; to be honest," he sighed and shook his head slightly, "this doesn't seem like me anymore."

"That?"

"I just think, you are too tired."

He looked directly at her, leaned over, and stroked the corner of her eye with his index finger.Lu Jianxing can feel the rough outline: "Xing is the kind of child who is especially good at self-sufficiency and deception. He always swallows everything into his stomach, like a sea snail; if others want When you get close, you will show him your pink belly, and then you will say with a smile: "Look, I am very happy."——I always think that by showing others my ordinary peace and kindness like others Alright; I hope to find peace through this, and it’s best not to disturb anyone..."

"But I'm very sad." He put his arms around Lu Jianxing, patted her on the back, and said in a low voice, "Unknowingly, I have also become one of the sources of your burden; I originally wanted to let you feel it from the bottom of my heart." I want to be happy, hoping to divide one person's happiness into two parts... That's why I confessed to you. But I can't seem to do it, not only that, but I also make you feel suffocated."

He looked directly at Lu Jianxing, very sad and troubled: "Can't you express your likes and dislikes frankly? What you want to do and what you hate to do, human beings are born with eyes, ears, and tongues for this Existence - but you are constantly forcing yourself to do things that you don't like; sometimes, I even feel that you are tired and disturbed by the "living" itself; so I began to think: Am I also the reason for your negativity? What can I do for you? The more I think about it, the worse I feel about myself, especially these days watching you work hard every day, but you don't care, and I... I'm sorry ,” he held his head, “a bit incoherent.”

"No." Lu Jianxing hugged him lightly when he let go, "In my opinion, Xiao Zang is a gentle and sincere person; you are always thinking of others desperately, obviously it's all me My fault is that I was too self-willed, and I always just followed my own...you are right. So, please don't blame yourself. "

She seemed to be chatting about family affairs, and apologized very leniently: "Besides, I always don't take into account other people's feelings; I'm sorry for making you feel uncomfortable."

"..." fell into an endless loop again.

Looking at the girl in front of him who sincerely apologized to him, and who could always speak simple words directly to the softness of people's hearts, the helplessness and sighs in Shiraishi Kuranosuke's heart seemed to overflow, but he couldn't bear it.Xiao Jin and the others once asked him with gossip and some other intentions about whether the relationship could be adapted well.After Shiraishi answered his own question, Kenya, who always seemed to have a big heart, told him very seriously: This is a matter of course; when you feel that someone is important, there must be pain and loneliness. ——But it was a very happy feeling.Although Ichishi Yuji on the side immediately exposed that Ken was copying the lines from the healing animation to pretend to deal with him, but Shiraishi felt that this sentence made sense.

The moment liking and love are born, a person's eternity is declared over.

All emotions are manipulated by others, mixed with many complex and involuntary.When there is no conflict, it is naturally double pleasure; but when conflict arises, it becomes double pain.

But at this moment, I am the only one who is tasting the loss and regret.

"I just hope you can have a better life." In the end, Baishi said this, because he was very clear: Lu Jianxing actually didn't know where their conflicts were, "I hope I didn't put pressure on you, I hope that any Don't let people become a heavy burden for your lack of freedom - that's what I think. But I can't change your mind, you know, star? In the initial relationship, occasionally, as an ordinary person, with popular idols dating, I would also be a little jealous of men who get along well with you; but now I don't have that kind of thinking anymore-because I understand: you don't care about any of them; fans, friends, family... and Me. You always have some secrets. Although I used to think it was harmless, maybe now it seems that it affects you to the point where you can't let go. Many people also care about those things? I think... No Two, looking for you a few days ago may also be related to it. ——I don’t know what it is, but I hope it will bring you ultimate happiness.”

"So my opinion is—" He sighed deeply, and hugged the girl in his arms tightly, knowing that this might be the last time: "Don't live so tiredly, and don't let anyone Go be your stumbling block; when people are walking their own way alone, they will often be confused by the authorities, no matter how smart they are and how enviable they seem to outsiders. Try to abandon all the things you don’t like—even if you have It takes a lot, but if they don't make you happy, these things are meaningless. I know you don't like to be close to people you don't know, know you like to be alone, when you eat I will always throw away the decorations on it first, and I must stubbornly walk on the right side of others when I walk. Every time I sing, I will always be inexplicably shy from the first sentence, and...you know, I think you are very cute, I also like you very much, so I most hope that you live according to your own wishes. Saying that breaking up will definitely not hurt your original intention, I will not do such childish things, so I am serious."

"Leave me, leave everyone, find a time, and think about what you really want..."

.........

"I only have one question." Lu Jian Xingwei raised his face and stared at him: "You said so much... But when you confessed to me that night, you said that you would love me forever and would never give up on me no matter what; Has it become a lie again?"

Ugh……

Kuranosuke Shiraishi clearly heard the sigh in his heart——

"No, I will always like you, okay?" He smiled helplessly: "It won't change. It will always be like what I said the first time; you are really... a greedy and cunning child. "

The author has something to say: After thinking about it, it’s better to give Baishi male god the candy of the last whole chapter_(:3J∠)_

And: Last night, I was suddenly called out to sing karaoke. I sat in a daze for more than three hours. When I woke up in the morning, I found that I had a cold... I don’t know who gave it to me. Anyway, I’m not feeling well now and feel dizzy. .I don't know if the next few days will be normal before the cold recovers. Anyway, I will try my best...but if I need to rest, I will say it in the copy.everyone~