[Comprehensive] Idol reboot

The first time Yukimura Seichi read that passage was when he was in junior high school.flash dance net

In the cold autumn without any aim, the bleak monsoon rain pours down, sticky on the edge of the translucent window; even sitting in the classroom, you can feel the chill.

The sound of the middle-aged teacher reading the text on the podium makes people drowsy.The students in the audience were whispering to each other—but the two had miraculously reached a consensus without interfering with each other.

That year, he and Sanada happened to be in the same class, and when he raised his head a little, he could see him sitting in front of him with his back erect and attentively listening to the lecture.Not to mention that it is rare to see; but it is probably one of the motivations for the teacher to persevere.

He propped his head up, wanting to be like the boy at the front table who is sleeping at Duke Zhou, obeying the autumn temperature and having a good dream.But the title of "top student" is a shadow and a shackle; in the end, he can only helplessly open another extracurricular book that is also placed on the table.

——Although it is one of the reading reference books recommended by the school, Yukimura Seichi thinks it is a bit hypocritical.After all, he is at the stage of innocence; compared with the revolutionary/revolutionary fighters in the literary world of a certain foreign country, he prefers those strange colors of death, horror and hallucinations, they are more interesting, aren't they?

So he casually flipped through a page, intending to use it as a deeper tool for relieving fatigue than the hypnosis taught by the teacher.

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Then he saw a page that read:

—It feels good, he thought.It can be quoted in the next Chinese exam; anyway, in this era, who would seriously read advanced books.Whether it is teaching or learning, most people have the mentality of "goofing around" day after day.Be more mean, for reputation, for money, or for the envious eyes of others... The villain can also get the highest appreciation, so it doesn't matter what.

His gaze continued to move down, with the typical cynicism of a young man in one second, and a sarcastic smile in the next second.

"My first love... my first love is also related to this time-that wonderful inner state, I feel that every girl is beautiful and moving. On the street, in the garden, on the tram, the sudden Any kind of virginity--the shy but kind longing, the smell of hair, the luster of white teeth from parted lips, the bare knees blown by the breeze, the touch of cold fingers--all these It all made me think that sooner or later in this life I too would fall in love. I'm quite sure of that..."

He turned back the cover of the book with his fingers and saw the title of the book - "Golden Rose".

It's really boring; moaning/groaning.

He turned his back on the book and stopped paying attention to it.

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When I felt the cold autumn again, it was the moment when I was sitting on the roof of the hospital, very close to the place where I fell.

He was wearing the same standard hospital gown as an ordinary patient, and the nerve endings blown by the strong wind were connected to the brain, making the blood vessels cold.Shanwu.com—it doesn’t matter, he comforted himself: An impermanent life brings infinite challenges, and only in this way can we overcome that mediocre self. ...Isn't it written like this in the book of Mr. Lu Yi?So just accept fate, there is no other choice anyway.

After dispelling his gloomy mood, he pushed open the door of the roof, and was about to go back so as not to come out for too long and cause confusion to the doctors and nurses; the girl walking towards him met his gaze.

The other is examining, and he is probing. ——It’s not an interesting opening, even if this is like the setting of “Pretty Girl” that you can often see in Dengeki Bunko, and she is also very beautiful. ...But it's too slender, he doesn't like this type. ——It is more fragile than the cultural relics deposited in museums for thousands of years.

If it is adjusted to a different temperature by a slight mistake, no matter how precious it is, it will become messy.

So he nodded mildly and nonchalantly, ready to ignore the beginning.

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"...That," strangely, after he thought that both parties had reached a consensus, the other party's weak voice sounded behind him.

"What?" Seiichi Yukimura responded out of politeness; the fact is that he didn't even bother to turn around, he just tilted his head slightly and said.

"The rooftop...can I receive wifi here?"

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The topic of the girl's slight personality finally made him unable to bear to look at her directly: it was still the same at first glance - very beautiful, but also very fragile.His skin was as pale as a vampire who had just crawled out of a coffin, so transparent that it exuded a lifeless air; his whole body was so thin that it made people feel a little pitiful, like a sacrifice locked in a dungeon.His eye sockets were black and blue, his lips were as pale as his complexion, but his eyes were very bright. — as if you could see the light from inside, and that would make you feel warm.

So he couldn't help saying: "It's so cold, it's better to rest in the room; there should be no signal here, and the main building on the rooftop is very far away."

"No way..." The girl seemed to have only heard the sentence in the middle of him. She lowered her head depressedly, and fiddled with her mobile phone a few times, "Okay, thank you."

She nodded slightly to him, then turned and left, walking towards the direction where he was sitting just now; as if she still wanted to stay here.

From her sporadic words, Yukimura could hear something like "I can only play stand-alone, and the battery is running out, so annoying..." and the like.

——Should I talk to her doctor, but he doesn't know the doctor in charge... Yukimura fell into this kind of thinking; after all, she looked like she had just been rescued, so she just put it on One side can be dangerous. ... But to be honest, he was already too busy to take care of himself, so what else could others do.

Standing there like this and struggling repeatedly for a while, he decided to look at the other party first. ——In case the girl faints suddenly, at least he can use her mobile phone to dial for urgent calls.

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So he sat not far from her, watching her play "Super Mario" for more than an hour as if no one else was there.

Finally, when dusk was approaching, Yukimura couldn't help it: "Is this game so interesting?"

"Ah?" The girl didn't look up, but controlled the character in her hand to jump over the trap again, "Oh, it's not fun."

"..." It's not fun to play for so long.Yukimura felt speechless for the first time in his life, "Then you..."

"...! Woohoo, this test is finally over." She wiped the sweat from her forehead - Yukimura Seichi suspected that she didn't sweat at all in such a cold day.

The girl raised her head, first turned her neck and wrist on her own, and then looked over as if recalling someone beside her, "Hey, who are you?! Why are you sitting here? Isn't it cold..."

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"You asked me 'isn't it cold' - which surprised me; after all, you just sat there and played the game for a long time."

"...I really don't remember at all." Lu Jianxing rubbed his nose, "Is this the hospital you lived in? I thought I was abroad... It doesn't matter, so what did I tell you at the time ; Let you still have an impression."

"Tell me," Yukimura pretended to be contemplative, "you say——if it makes me want to die, I'll just die."

"What?!!" Lu Jianxing choked on his own saliva, "cough, cough cough...I mean-how can I say that! Impossible! Whose!"

"It's true." Yukimura Seichi laughed, "Oh, the person who spoke has forgotten everything, and it took me so long to remember."

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"What about your doctor, let you sit here alone." Yukimura didn't pay attention to the other party's question of suspected amnesia, but sat down with a big smile, "Could it be that you sneaked out without permission? "

"..." Lu Jianxing, the girl who introduced herself just now rolled her eyes, "No, it's completely allowed."

"Really." Yukimura didn't care about the truth or falsehood in her words, and asked as if chatting: "Then if you think the game is boring, why do you play it?"

"...Well, you've got the point." The girl threw the phone into the sky with an unhappy face, and then caught it handsomely, "Because I... super! Level! No! Chat! Ahh!—Hospitalization is simply unbearable. Let me tell you, I have to take medicine and injections every day, and I am almost suffocated to death.

"By the way, that's right." She suddenly remembered something, "Are you also hospitalized?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Yukimura chuckled, "Otherwise, I'm so bored that I'm wandering around in this kind of clothes."

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"Friend, don't be so angry." Lu Jianxing smiled at him, "Although you don't know how to do it, I've seen someone who would do it... just in case you ask, so as not to hurt you by mistake~... Let's talk about this It's cold, I've slipped away oh no, I've finished my relaxation; now I'm going back, you should go back sooner too."

As she spoke, she stood up, stretched herself, waved to him again, and was about to leave.

"Actually, I came here to commit suicide."

Yukimura Seiichi leaned against the mid-air fence, propping up his legs and suddenly said.

"Hmm...ah!??" Lu Jianxing had only taken two steps, and when he heard the words, he immediately braked and turned his head, "Really, is it true?... Hey, you are so young and so good-looking, don't take it lightly. Can't think about it."

She walked up to him and knelt down, "Look at me, look at me, I'm in this state of immortality—I still remember the discounts for Nintendo's anniversary in Akihabara next week What about activities! You must actively pursue the joys of life, and don’t just give up, young man!”

"...But, I feel very depressed." Yukimura held back the smile in his heart, with a gloomy expression on his face: "Every day I live is suffering for me, but I feel sorry for the people who care about me if I give up... Contradictions have tormented me for countless years...and illness is also one of the reasons why I can't persist, I am very confused...should I just give up. "

"..." The girl named Lu Jianxing sat there from squatting to kneeling, seeing the fluctuations and flashes in his eyes, she couldn't help listening to his troubles very seriously. "Although I'm only in the third year of junior high school, I'm under a lot of pressure every day; clubs, studies, family... Since I was admitted to the hospital, my life seems to be in a predicament, and I can't advance or retreat, but I still have to grit my teeth as if nothing happened. I don't know how helpless I am, but when I smile on my face, my heart is extremely anxious, as if my personality has also been divided..."

He was thinking while talking, and after a while, when Yukimura finally felt that she had performed well this time and was almost ready to accept it, she said, "Are you sincere? I really want to die—just because of this world Every day of my life is painful?"

——Basically it’s nonsense, but there’s also a little real emotion involved.

"Well, sincerely." Seiichi Yukimura looked into her eyes and nodded resolutely.

"...I see. Let me think about it..." Lu Jianxing maintained that movement, even ignoring the phone in his pocket when it fell to the ground; there was silence for a while.

Just when Yukimura thought that the joke could end here, she said, "Then go to hell."

"...What?" Yukimura looked at her in surprise, "Are you persuading me...to commit suicide?"

"Yes." Lu Jianxing nodded, "If you live, you can only feel pain; the fact of living itself is not a very happy thing. ——At least no one can appreciate your pain Feeling... loneliness, helplessness, sorrow... These things are more terrible than death; if the people around you can't even think about this kind of mood for you," she and him looked at each other, "death is also a kind of death. Find a way to escape."

"This world is really too bad; countless people are suffering every day - but it is clear that each of us was not born voluntarily. But we have to bear the burden of being forced by others.... There was a time Time I feel that it is an obligation for me to live for someone, so I abandoned this obligation; in a way that outsiders seem extremely stupid... Of course, in the end, I got nothing, but I feel I am much happier.——This is my experience, you...of course you can choose, as you said——If you can’t live, then death is just a way, and there is nothing special about it.”

"..." Yukimura was silent for a while, and then said: "Have you ever thought that after listening to your words, maybe I will really do that."

"Is it."

Lu Jianxing blinked at him suddenly, "Then do that, the big deal is that I'll be buried with you, it's just a trivial matter...but."

She stood up and patted the dust on her knees, "The expression is too fake, next time you say something like this, let's develop body language, okay?"

Seeing the stunned expression of the other party, Shika Jianxing couldn't help laughing cheerfully, she half put her arms around Yukimura Seiichi's shoulders, and pushed him and herself down, "Although I know you are just joking with me, But don't casually talk about things like 'death' with a beautiful girl like me who is in a bad mood at first sight; maybe one day I'll be in a bad mood and just throw you- Look." She pointed to the sky at him, "It will be like a butterfly, no matter how complex and gorgeous its wings are, it will be torn away by the airflow without a trace; soon, no one will remember you, no one will..." She pulled him back from there and interlocked his fingers, "So, promise me? Don't make fun of such things in the future; life is still very good."

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"...I said something like this?! I don't believe it!!!" Lu Jianxing sat there holding his head, "Do you believe it or not!!! Who are you? Anyway, you are not someone I know; hurry up and show that you are real It looks like a Clow card! Or any cosmic being... I won't say that kind of late stage of the second disease, hey...!!!"

"In terms of denial, Shikami-san, you are the most outstanding representative I have ever seen." Yukimura smiled, "But I have evidence, look." He took out a red rope from his neck, and tied a Pocket crystal ball, "You said this is your friend's favorite thing, and you can give it to me if you see a relationship with me. ——You will always know this, right?"

"..." Lu Jianxing looked at that one tremblingly, and then found out in horror that it was really the divination ball that Leila had been looking for for a long time at that time—it was the businessman from the Netherlands who ordered it for her. do it.

...Oh my God, people really can't just get sick; once they become unconscious, they can't say or do anything of their own will!

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"Okay, I surrender." Lu Jianxing leaned against the guardrail, "I was the one who sneaked away and played games, I was the one who got sick and pretended to be cruel, and I was the one who gave you other people's treasure... You are satisfied, What else do you want to say?"

Seiichi Yukimura looked at her troubled look, his eyebrows and eyes were slightly curved, and he suddenly recalled the sentence he read in a book a long time ago:

——Every encounter like this makes me feel a kind of nameless sadness.

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"Didn't I say that?" He put the chain back, no longer sat next to her, but leaned against the guardrail, looking up at the sky: "There will be a firework show tonight, so..."

"Shall we watch the fireworks together?"

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