good handedness

Four hours later, Leng Jin stepped out of the operating room door.He saw He Yubai, and learned the result from the other's eyes that were red and swollen from crying.He grabbed the surgical cap and clenched it tightly in his hand, blood vessels clearly protruding from the back of his hand and forearm.

"Uncle...he's gone." He Yubai lowered his head, sniffling non-stop, "He didn't wake up...he fell asleep..."

Leng Jin nodded, tears dripping down his face: "Okay, I got it... Thank you for accompanying him to the last journey for me."

"I didn't let... I didn't let them go to the morgue... I'm still in the single ward of the ICU..." He Yubai stepped forward, took out a handkerchief and wiped the teardrops on Leng Jin's chin, "I want to accompany you to see Do you see him?"

Leng Jin grabbed his hand and squeezed it hard to resist the strong loss in his heart: "I can go by myself."

"But I think someone should be with you..." Feeling the force exerted on the metacarpal, He Yubai didn't resist.Besides, he didn't know what else he could do for the other party.

Leng Jin's voice became a little hoarse: "I know, I am very grateful, but there are some things... I want to talk to my dad alone."

He Yubai pursed his lips and nodded slightly: "I'll wait for you in the office."

"No, you go home, I'm today...I may stay late today." Leng Jin raised his other hand to clasp the back of his neck, and gently hugged him into his arms, "Don't worry about me , Sooner or later, this day will come, and I am ready for it.”

Leaning in Leng Jin's arms, He Yubai listened to the chaotic heartbeat, and silently melted the cold sadness with his own body temperature.

The light from the street lamp shone coldly through the window, dragging a lonely shadow behind Leng Jin.He walked down the corridor, pushed open the door at the end, and walked from one building to the next.The winter rain was blowing, and there was a damp smell in the air, but his nasal cavity seemed to be filled with cement, and he couldn't smell anything except the cold.

When he came to the room where Leng Hongwu's body was kept, Leng Jin stared at the closed door for a long time, and finally made up his mind to face the ending that had already happened.

Most of the instruments have been removed, and the hospital bed stands alone in the middle of the room.Under the sheets, the body suffering from illness was several sizes smaller than the father Leng Jin remembered.His throat suddenly itched, and he tilted his head and coughed. The movement was instantly magnified infinitely in the empty room, vibrating the fragile eardrum mercilessly.

Lifting the quilt, Leng Jin found that his father's remains had been sorted out a little.The thin gray hair was neatly gathered behind the head, and the place where the vein channel was established on the side of the neck did not have any glue or blood left by the medical tape.Leng Hongwu was wearing a clean hospital gown, the neckline was pressed flat, every button was carefully fastened, and thick dark brown velvet socks were worn on his feet.

This simple and decent attire slowed down the dissipation of body temperature of the deceased, and Leng Hongwu's hands were not cold to the touch.Nurses are not too busy to sort out the remains of patients who have just died, only family members will.

"Dad, Doctor He made it for you, right?" Leng Jin hooked the corners of his mouth, and burst into tears, "I saw this pair of socks on his table the day before yesterday, and I laughed at his aesthetics and 70's." Like an old man."

Leng Hongwu lay there quietly, with a peaceful face, as if he was asleep.

Holding his father's hand, Leng Jin knelt down beside the bed, and said softly, "I'll see Mom down there, tell her that I miss her braised octopus very much, and ask her to tell me the recipe in a dream... Xiaobai no Eat meat and only eat fish, such a good daughter-in-law, I have to tie her down."

After a moment of silence, he continued: "Dad, I have hated you for a long time...I hate you for lying to my mother and me...Actually, it's not that I never thought about donating my liver to you, but I'm not reconciled, really I am I can't stand what you did to my mother... She gave me all her love, but what about me? Am I entitled to her love?

"Dad, do you know that I haven't dared to pay homage to my mother for the past two years, and I have no face to see her... I feel that I am also a liar, cheating her love and everything about her... The lawyer told me that she Do you know how I feel when all of my inheritance is left to me? I feel like I have been slapped in the face in front of countless pairs of eyes..."

He took a deep breath and wiped the water marks on his face indiscriminately.

"To be honest, you are my father after all, I can't save you, I can't help myself... But many years ago, when I was in great pain because I couldn't save my mother in time, a small child comforted me and said 'You can still save other people's mothers'. Although I can't remember what he looks like now, I will always remember this sentence... So, I will go on with this debt to you and continue to save other people's fathers and mothers, to atone for your sins."

Tears fell into the corners of his mouth, and a bitter taste slowly spread in his mouth.Leng Jin leaned forward and kissed his father's forehead, wiped off the tears on the other's face, stood up and pulled the sheet over his father's body again.

He backed away a little and bowed deeply to the corpse.

"Father, the friendship between you and me in this life ends here. If there is another life, I will still be your son."

In order to deal with his father's funeral, Leng Jin took five days off and didn't come to work for a week even on weekends.He Yubai called him every day, but unless it was for work communication, he would just say a word or two before hanging up.He could tell that Leng Jin was depressed.It's not difficult to imagine that the Leng family will definitely not have a good look at the "unfilial adopted son" who inherited [-] million family property.

Leng Jin has been living in Leng Hongwu's villa these days, so that he can discuss matters big and small about the funeral with Leng's family.It is inconvenient for He Yubai to go and find him. According to the customs, he is considered an outsider if he is not married, and it is not appropriate to show up for white affairs.

On the night when Leng Jin came home, He Yubai went to his apartment to help him clean after get off work.No one lived there for several days, and the house was covered with a thin layer of dust.After tidying up briefly, He Yubai took out a coat from the closet, covered her body and curled up on the sofa.Wrapped by the thin lover's smell on the coat, the worries of many days gradually dissipated.

At 11:30, the sound of the door opening woke up the person who had fallen into a light sleep on the sofa.He Yubai immediately jumped off the sofa and threw himself into the cold embrace.In the darkness, the two hugged each other tightly, silently dispelling the thoughts after a short parting.

Turning on the light in the living room, He Yubai noticed that Leng Jin had lost a lot of weight.His face was haggard, his stubble was overgrown, his eyes were bloodshot, and he looked like he hadn't had a good night's sleep for a few days.

"I thought you had gone home first." Throwing down the black luggage bag, Leng Jin kissed He Yubai's forehead, "I'm sorry, I haven't been able to take care of you these days."

"It's okay, just come back." He Yubai tightened his arms, "Are you hungry? I bought a bento and put it in the refrigerator."

"Not hungry."

Raising his face, He Yubai caressed his slightly sunken cheeks distressedly: "Go take a shower and rest early, I won't go back tonight, I will stay here with you."

"Are you trying to spoil me?" Leng Jin forced a smile.He clasped the side of He Yubai's face, and sighed melancholy: "I asked you to send my dad to the ICU that day, it was really hard for you..."

"No, not at all." He Yubai shook his head, "This is not the first time I send the old man away."

A trace of confusion flashed in Leng Jin's eyes: "Grandpa and grandma?"

"It's my grandfather..." He Yubai pursed his lips, "On the day my grandfather celebrated his [-]th birthday, everyone in the family was together, and Uncle Ouyang was there, and Yanyu and his father flew over from the United States to pay his respects to him... I was very happy, and drank some wine during the meal... Later he said that he was tired and wanted to go back to his room to rest for a while. When the meal was about to end, Dad asked me to go to the room and ask him to come out and say hello to everyone... I went in, I saw him lying on the bed, looking straight at the ceiling... He heard me enter the room, turned his head, smiled at me and said, "Xiaobai, the grandpa is leaving, you have to take care of yourself from now on"... ..."

Speaking of this, He Yubai's tears burst out violently, soaking the cloth on Leng Jin's chest hotly: "I hurriedly called my father and the others to come over, my father wanted to call an ambulance, but the grandfather said no...he took the faucet that he had been carrying all his life Handed the cane to Dad... Then he held the hands of me, Yu Hui, and Yu Huang, and fell asleep like that, never waking up... He walked very peacefully, with a smile on his face, without any regret ..."

Embracing He Yubai's body tightly, Leng Jin took all the slight tremors of the other party into his arms.

"Your father passed away very peacefully..." He Yubai leaned his head on Leng Jin's shoulder, "He has no regrets, so you don't have to be too sad..."

Leng Jin closed his eyes, bowed his head and kissed He Yubai's forehead repeatedly: "I know... I know... Thank you... Thank you for accompanying him for the last journey..."

"But when my relatives leave, I will be sad... After my grandfather left, I cried for a long time... Director Leng, you cry, you will feel better after crying..." He Yubai also hugged Leng Jin's back tightly, " I'm here, I'm with you..."

Depressed cries echoed in the empty living room, and within a short while, He Yubai's face was covered with Leng Jin's tears.He raised his face, comforted the trembling lips with his own kiss, and gently pecked away the bitter tears that rolled down.

Leng Jin responded to him, turning the light kiss into a fierce entanglement of lips and teeth.He Yubai was almost out of breath from his kiss, but he couldn't bear to refuse, so he had to get the thin oxygen from the other party's mouth.

He suddenly felt that his feet were empty, and Leng Jin hugged him by the waist.And the kiss of conquering the city did not stop, until his back sank into the dark gray quilt, Leng Jin reluctantly moved his lips to his ear——

"Sleep with me tonight, okay?"

The deep longing was suffocating, locking He Yubai's heart like a spell.He stared into Leng Jin's eyes—behind that resolute exterior was a soul that was in desperate need of comfort.

At this moment, he only wished to give up everything, just to share the pain of the other party.

"it is good……"

He could barely hear his own voice.

The alarm clock rang, Leng Jin touched the cell phone on the bedside table, squinted at the time, and then pressed the alarm clock off.Hugging the person in his arms who was half awake from the alarm clock, he gently kissed the other person's ear, and said "keep sleeping, it's just 05:30".

He Yubai frowned slightly, turned over and snuggled into Leng Jin's arms, clinging to him like a newborn kitten shy from the cold.Leng Jin pulled the quilt up, covering the bare shoulders and the neck full of hickeys.The four legs were entangled, and the physiological phenomenon in the morning made Leng Jin unable to hold back and wanted to move again.

He Yubai was finally woken up by him, and while pushing his head on his chest, he complained: "Tired...let me sleep again..."

Getting his head out of the quilt, Leng Jin pressed his hand, and said cheerfully: "You sleep yours, I'll do mine."

"How can I sleep like this?"

He Yubai opened his eyes, and when he met Leng Jin's eyes, he closed them immediately in shame.When I first tasted the cloud and rain, I was very physically exhausted.He couldn't remember exactly how he fell asleep, but he felt sore all over when he woke up, and the bottom was still wet and sticky.

Wet... wait!

"My God!"

He Yubai's exclamation almost frightened Leng Jin softly, he quickly stood up, turned on the desk lamp and asked, "What's wrong?"

With his eyes closed, He Yubai blushed and punched Leng Jin's chest fiercely: "You hate it! You hate it! You're all in it!"

Grabbing the fist that almost pierced his own lung, Leng Jin smiled helplessly——little boy, it was your pelvic floor muscle spasm caused by excessive excitement, so you held me tight, okay?

TBC