not your best friend

, My heart couldn't help but jump along with it.

I slowly moved my gaze from the TV screen to the phone screen, and then stopped. After hesitating for a while, I finally couldn't help reaching out to unlock it.

Ran Tsai: We are back. 'This news made my heart more restless, I carefully looked at the time on the phone screen: 21:30.

Not long after the news was sent, will Lin Dang knock on my door after he goes upstairs?While I couldn't help but guess in my heart, I told myself not to care so much, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.

But in the end, he still couldn't hold back the quilt and got out of bed, and lay down at the door to listen to the movement from the corridor.

I don't even bother to wear slippers.

Stepping on the wooden floor, there was a slight coolness, but I didn't care at all.With his ears pressed against the door, he listened carefully to the sounds coming from the corridor outside.

The TV in the room has long been muted by me, and at this moment I can hear my heart beating rhythmically.

I lay there and listened for a while, but there was no sound.

I couldn't help but start to feel ridiculous for my own behavior.However, at this moment, the door of the room, which had been silent for a long time, seemed to hear the call in my heart, and suddenly there was a knock.

Once, twice.

I went from dazed at the beginning to sudden ecstasy.

I almost shouted, and I never considered the possibility that the person outside at this time is not Lin Dang.Maybe it's the hotel service, or maybe it's because Lin Ran saw that I didn't reply to her message, so she ran over to find me?

There are so many possibilities.

My hand has already touched the doorknob, and I just need to push down a little to open the door, but for some reason, I squatted on the cat's eye and looked at it, and my heart was instantly cold when I saw it.

The person standing at the door was indeed Lin Dang, but there was Yang Ke standing beside her.

The two of them stood side by side, like a loving couple visiting a patient, at least in my eyes.

I stood at the door in a daze, and suddenly lost strength in my hands. I was only one movement away from opening the door to see the person I had missed all night, but I suddenly gave up when I stepped on the door.The door was still being knocked rhythmically, every time, every time it knocked on the tip of my heart.

After a while, the phone in my hand rang, but I pressed mute the next second.

The screen dimmed and brightened, brightened and dimmed, just like what happened to me all day today.

I also don't know what I'm doing.I don't know how long it took, the knock on the door gradually disappeared, and the screen of my mobile phone didn't light up again.

It should be... go back to the room.

Well, let's go back to the room together.

It was destined to be a difficult night, but it was only difficult for me alone.

I thought, I should be going to sleep too, no one will come to me tonight.

So I turned off the lights in the room step by step, turned off the TV, and climbed into bed silently.The room is obviously not very big, and the air conditioner is still on in the room. I was curled up in the quilt, but I felt a chill in my heart.

...

I don't know how I got to the door of their room.

When I came back to my senses, I was already standing here.Stepping on the common carpet in the hotel corridor with bare feet, without even wearing shoes.If there are hotel service personnel here at this time, I really don't know how to justify myself.

Say I sleepwalk?This reason may be somewhat flimsy.

It's already eleven o'clock in the evening. If there is no accident, Lin Dang and the others... When I think of this, my heart feels like being bitten. It seems that a piece of flesh on the tip of my heart has been cut raw Going is such a pain.

Maybe it's the pain of surgery without anesthesia?What does it feel like to have surgery without anesthesia?I was thinking wildly..

I don't want to think about it any further.

I don't know what I'm here for, I don't want to disturb the people in the room by knocking on the door, and I don't want to go back to my room to sleep.I don't want to stay alone in that dark room, I just want to stay here, without any reason, maybe... just to let myself give up.

Is it to make myself completely give up?

I leaned against the doorway and squatted down slowly, leaning on the doorframe with my arms around my knees, and let myself go blankly.Unknowingly, my thoughts flew back to a long, long time ago, and I began to think about those old things, about the happy and unhappy things between me and her.

interesting, boring.

It was like showing a movie, one after another, slowly flashed in my mind, extremely clear.These are all good memories I treasured in the memory box, but thinking about it now is extremely cruel.

Lindang really doesn't belong to me anymore, it's just me forcing it all the time.

Thinking of this, he hugged his knees more tightly, and buried his face deeply in his knees.I didn't cry, and I couldn't cry, probably this is the feeling of wanting to cry without tears.

I just feel like a poor wretch, even if I am like this, I still have to guard the door of someone's house.It may be more like a puppy abandoned by its owner and can never find its way home.

Lin Dang and I are separated by a door, which seems to be very close but is actually far away.

I always thought that she was special to me, and she would be mine after all.

Now it seems that may not be the case.

I was in a daze, and my mood was extremely low. It seemed like a century had passed. Suddenly, I felt that there was nothing behind me, and then my whole body began to fall backwards involuntarily due to the heavy weight. I fell to the ground unexpectedly. Instead, it was like knocking on someone else's leg.

I seem to smell Lin Dang's body.

"Little night?"

A familiar voice came from above his head, his tone full of surprise and disbelief.

I also couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe that Lin Dang suddenly opened the door of the room in the middle of the night?In order to prove that this is not an illusion, I quietly pinched myself, which was a cruel blow to myself!Almost cried out in pain.

It seems that it is not a dream!

It's so embarrassing... I slowly raised my head and looked at this woman who made me feel like I was about to lose a few minutes ago.

I saw helplessness and distress in her eyes:

"Why are you squatting here in the middle of the night!?"

The author has something to say: Let us uncover the mystery of what happened that night today!

2019.2.15 (deep water addition)

This is what Lin Dang saw when he opened the door.

At first, I didn't see it clearly, thinking that there was something sitting on the door, and as the door opened, this shadow also leaned against her calf, which surprised her for a moment.

He lowered his head and took a closer look, only to realize that this person wasn't Huo Wan who hadn't shown his face since the evening?I went to knock on the door and no one answered, and no one answered the phone. Now in the middle of the night, I suddenly appeared at the door of my room without warning.

Lin Dang simply didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment.

Originally, he was not in a good mood when he came out of the room, but now seeing Huo Wan's pitiful appearance, his mood became even worse.The chest was filled with some unknown emotion, sour and swollen, and a little distressed.

Huo Wan has always been bright and flamboyant in front of her. When did he show such a helpless and embarrassed side in front of her?

Maybe when I left five years ago, that was the only time, and it never happened again.

"Why are you squatting here in the middle of the night!?"

Lin Dang was angry and helpless.

Although the temperature here is higher than that in China, there is still a temperature difference between day and night in the middle of the night.She glanced at Huo Wan who was squatting on the ground. He was wearing a thin spring pajamas, and the worst thing was that he ran out without even wearing shoes.

A pair of white and tender feet were exposed to the air, and the whole person looked very thin.

However, the other party still looked up at her. In addition to the panic that Lin Dang suddenly opened the door, there was endless grievance and loss hidden in those eyes.

Even if Lin Dang wanted to open his mouth to blame her, he couldn't bear it anymore.

My heart has long since turned into a puddle of water. At this moment, many complicated emotions are intertwined, and in the end, only the word distressed is left.

"You...how did you come out?"

Although Huo Wan was surprised, she quickly adjusted her emotions.She put her left hand on the ground and exerted a little strength, slowly stood up from the floor, and patted the dust on her butt that didn't exist at all.Because I kept one position for a long time, my legs became numb from squatting.

Carefully restraining that humbleness, he began to pretend nothing had happened on his face.

It's actually a little embarrassing.

Out of nowhere, she arrived at the door of his room. In fact, she felt that this might be a different kind of company, and it was also a different kind of farewell to the past.

Well, it was very strange indeed that she appeared in the wrong place in the middle of the night.But Lin Dang appeared at the door of the room dressed neatly in the middle of the night, as if he was about to go out, isn't this very strange?

Two strange people collide.

Huo Wan thought about it, and quietly poked her head over to look in the half-open door, but she didn't see Yang Ke.So his eyes naturally returned to Lin Dang, quietly waiting for the other party to answer him.

Regarding Huo Wan's question, Lin