not your best friend

I can't make it in time.

I ran to the dessert shop and bought the other party's favorite cake, ready to apologize to her and admit my mistake.I didn't expect to receive such a message just as I was about to leave the gate of the dessert shop..

"What are you doing!"

Huo Wan was ashamed and annoyed, she stepped forward in two steps, reached out and snatched the phone that Lin Dang was holding, and quickly stuffed it into her pocket.

"Do I need you to show me the text messages I sent myself!"

His eyebrows and eyes are not in a good mood.I really hate it to death, and I only expose other people's short stories.

I don't want to read the text messages I sent, um... Strictly speaking, I don't see them!Because she herself felt that this was acting like a baby, not breaking up.

"Sorry..."

Lin Dang put his palms together on his chest, leaned forward repeatedly, and made a please-please gesture.

"I bought you a small cake as an apology, so don't break up with me, okay?"

She can also play cute things, usually she just doesn't want to do it, she will feel very ashamed!

But really.. what a shame!

Lin Dang sent Huo Wan back home, and then he took the last bus to his home slowly.

After returning home, Huo Wan casually ate a few mouthfuls of dinner on the table, and went upstairs with the small cake that Lin Dang gave her.

After running into the room and locking the door to ensure that the parents would not suddenly open the door and come in, he quickly sat down on the chair by the desk and turned on the computer.

Petit fours are on the side of the table, enticing desserts in clear plastic lids.

When Huo Wan saw this cake, she couldn't help thinking of Lin Dang who had just left not long ago.

The way the other party confessed her mistake by showing off to her is still lingering, and it has been deeply engraved in her mind.

If she could have a time treasure box, she really wanted to record this scene and treasure it for a lifetime.

Why is this so?

Lin Dang's every word, deed, and every move she thought looked good.

The newly bought computer starts up quickly, which is another gift from the family for this exam.

But in a blink of an eye, the computer stopped at the password input page.

Huo Wan stretched out her hand, and entered the birthday combination of herself and Lin Dang in the password box without hesitation, and the page was quickly redirected to the desktop.

She manipulated the mouse skillfully, clicked on the browser, and jumped to the Baidu interface.

At this time, her fingers were erratic on the keyboard for a while, and she was thinking about how to input keywords properly.

Finally, after struggling for a while, she tapped her fingers on the keyboard carefully, and three words soon appeared in the search box.

'gay'.

Click Search, and almost instantly, a large number of search terms appear on the screen.

Various, and the top one is Baidu Encyclopedia's interpretation of the word homosexuality, and the pictures attached to it are bright rainbow colors.

The girl's face was glowing with the cold light of the white screen, and because she was too anxious when she came in, she even forgot to turn on the light in the room.

Huo Wan was a little guilty, and his throat was inexplicably dry and tight.

She turned her head to confirm the closed door again, and took a long gulp from the water glass on the table.

After a little relief of the tension and anxiety in my heart, I clicked on the top web page entry.

She wanted to know if she was gay.

This question has troubled her for a long time.

Moreover, she has no way to get confirmation from anyone else about such things, and it is impossible for her to ask her parents.

So the only way to understand is through the Internet, and the Internet has opened a door to a new world for her.

She didn't know when it started, but she gradually discovered that her friendship with Dangdang began to become impure.

Sometimes when two people huddled together to do their homework and talked about a funny topic that made each other laugh, Huo Wan could stare at Lin Dangfa in a daze for a long time.

And now Huo Wan found that she couldn't accept Lin Dang's overly intimate actions with her.

Even holding hands like before, Huo Wan could feel her heart beating a little faster.

I was also afraid that my abnormal heartbeat would be heard by the other party... All in all, it was like being a thief.

And the last time not long ago the two slept together..

Huo Wan is a smart child, in fact, he already has a very vague answer to his abnormality in his heart.

It's just a lack of external affirmation.

She carefully read every item on the webpage bit by bit until she pulled the progress bar to the end.Then he leaned back on his chair in a dejected manner, gently covering his face with his hands, looking a little helpless and at a loss.

But more is to be expected.

It's over, she seems to really... like Lin Dang?

The author has something to say: Wake up!daily struggle

The two protagonists are underage okk?

2019.1.18

Huo Wan is very clear about what the three words homosexuality mean.

In today's society, it is not a good thing to put such a label on one's body.

For a while, various ideas came out of my mind.But more is not the worry and fear of these three words, she is thinking about how to talk about this matter with Lin Dang, or not to tell it without telling it.

What kind of attitude should I take to get along with each other in the future, and what should I do if Lin Dang has a boy he likes in the future.

A series of problems followed one after another, and the secret love has encountered various obstacles before it even started.

The depression and discouragement are not because she found out that she is gay, but because the person she likes is her best friend all the time——Lin Dang!

A straight man!

There is a 90.00% chance that the person you like will not like you.Is it really necessary to start a secret love with such a high probability that it may not bear fruit?

Huo Wan didn't know how Lin Dang, who had always regarded her as his best friend, would react when he found out about this.

Anyway, she felt that she would definitely not accept it readily.Maybe he will break up with himself?

I can foresee how difficult it will be to walk on this road once I choose to start.

Do we want to be good friends for a lifetime, stay together forever, or go all in on this road of no return?

The small cake on the table was still there, as if waving at Huo Wan.

There is a photo frame next to it, and inside it is a photo of her and Lin Dang, which was taken by her mother when she was very young.

They have a special photo album, which contains various photos taken by the two of them since they were young, from kindergarten to now.

Huo Wan is no longer in the mood for dessert.

She threw herself onto the soft bed, her whole face covered in the quilt.

A pair of hands rubbed the hair on his head uncontrollably, to express the irritability in his heart.

Otherwise, choose another person to like?

Or look away?Maybe this liking is just an illusion?After the distance is widened, maybe you don’t like it anymore?

The more I thought about this idea, the more I felt it was possible, so Huo Wan decided to put an end to his absurd idea before he made a big mistake.

Look away.

.....

Huo Wan is a man of action, he will do what he says.

So for a period of time after that, she deliberately controlled her behavior and prevented herself from going to find Lin Dang.

Class 10 took [-] minutes between classes, and there was no familiar figure anymore.

As soon as the bell rang for the end of get out of class several times, Huo Wan stood up from her seat reflexively, walked towards the front door uncontrollably with both feet, and then suddenly woke up halfway and turned back.

Well, she can't go to Lin Dang.

Almost forgot to keep a distance between them.

After repeating this one or two times, Zhao Yangyang almost felt that she had some strange disease!

Lin Dang didn't take Huo Wan's uncharacteristic behavior seriously at first.It's just that Huo Wan has been tired and under pressure from studying recently, and there was nothing to talk about in the 10 minutes between classes.

It wasn't until the classmates ran over to ask her if she had quarreled with Huo Wan that Lin Dang realized it belatedly.

That's right, the other party hasn't looked for her for a week.

Not once.

Recently, the two of them are not as close as before when they go to and from school, and several times Huo Wan directly excused that something happened, so he left first.

Huo Wan doesn't look for Lin Dang, it doesn't mean that Lin Dang won't look for her.

After officially becoming suspicious of this question, Lin Dang decided to ask the person concerned to find out what was going on.

10 minutes between classes is enough.

After the exercises on the playground, the students of each class walked to their classrooms in groups.

When Huo Wan returned to her classroom, Lin Dang was already sitting in her seat, flipping through the test papers on her desk.

"Oh! Rare guest!"

When Zhao Yangyang saw Lin Dang, he called out first.He pushed Huo Wan, who was stunned, from behind. Huo Wan was pushed staggered by her, and turned his head to stare at him.

It is estimated that he is also sensitive to the unusualness between the two people.

I thought the two girls were arguing.

The two came out of the classroom and walked to the corridor outside the corridor. There were too many people in the classroom and it was difficult to talk.

Huo Wan's eyes flickered, and he didn't dare to look directly into Lin Dang's eyes.

What if her eyes betrayed her?

People say that the eyes are the windows of the soul, and Huo Wan can't control the liking and admiration hidden in her eyes.

"Are you still angry about what happened last time?"

Lin Dang said it