longing for

Silence fit perfectly into the small dormitory, Song Zongyan sat on the chair without saying a word, the phone rang several times, Xia Yunjiao hung up the phone abruptly thinking something happened to him, and was asking anxiously.He calmed down for a long time before taking his mobile phone to reply to the message, with a few concise words: It's okay, you go to bed early.

Having said that, she didn't say anything, Xia Yunjiao threw the phone beside the pillow, and peeled off the mask on her face, revealing an unhappy face full of essence.Song Zongyan seldom reveals his heart to others. In the process of getting along with others, he plays more of a listener role or gives appropriate advice.Song Zongyan seems to be naturally cold, seemingly gentle and considerate, but in fact he always maintains a proper sense of proportion with others. This is the real rejection of others.Otherwise, after so long, why did Xia Yunjiao take so long to make a move to confirm the relationship.But Xia Yunjiao is not in a hurry, she is confident that Song Zongyan will choose her when the time comes.All she has to do now is wait until she goes to college and everything will fall into place.

——But speaking of it, if Wen Qiu was a girl, Xia Yunjiao would feel a little bit in danger.However, everything is uncertain, Wen Qiu's gender destined him to have no chance, and judging by the people present around Song Zongyan, Xia Yunjiao thinks that she has the upper hand.

On the other side, the atmosphere is still anxious.

The subtle turning sound of the clock can be clearly heard at night, and it is a quarter past one in the morning.Wen Qiu has been in the bathroom for more than an hour, but there is still no sound from inside.Song Zongyan sat on the chair with a bad complexion, and there was still the imprint of Wen Qiu's persistent bite on his lips, and it hurt when he sipped it lightly.What happened a few years ago is now revisited, but the person has changed. This kind of "forced" ignoring his wishes made Song Zongyan leave rationally for a moment.If possible, he would leave the dormitory immediately and not stay with Wen Qiu anymore, but it is already early in the morning, it is impossible to go home smoothly or find another vacant dormitory for him to sleep for the night.

The faucet in the bathroom was not turned off tightly, and the water dripped on the porcelain wall of the sink.The dormitory next door seemed to be still asleep, and suddenly started singing. The sound insulation effect of the wall was not good, and it echoed vaguely in my ears.Wen Qiu sat on the washstand, for a while he thought it was an auditory hallucination, his brain was roaring, and it was full of burning heat.Ding Hui used to say that he lacked a fire to keep him going forward, but now he has it, and it is burning in his body, turning his reason into ashes.

There were so many opportunities and ways to confess to Song Zongyan, but he chose the worst one.

The bathroom door was finally unscrewed from the inside, and a slender shadow dragged on the ground.Wen Qiu glanced at Song Zongyan, who had a bad expression on his face, then lowered his head and shifted his eyes to his feet, his voice hoarse: "I'm sorry... I, I drank too much... put you..."

He can find excuses for his sudden forced kiss just now, such as I drank too much and mistook you for someone else.As ridiculous as it is clumsy, excuses are meant to cover up the obvious, and it's better to be exposed than to acquiesce.

But when he saw it in his throat, he swallowed all the remaining words.

Wen Qiu smiled miserably, forget it.The secret he wants to hide is the most easily revealed secret in the world.

——How to hide when you like someone.

"If you feel disgusted, I apologize, I'm really sorry." Wen Qiu took a breath and walked over.

When Song Zongyan saw him approaching, his body obviously retreated, causing the pulleys of the chair to retreat as well, making a sound.Wen Qiu paused, and squatted down a step away from him to pick up the scattered toy car parts on the ground. He lowered his head to pick up the parts while smiling, "Anyways, homosexuality is disgusting, don't they all say that?"

From Song Zongyan's angle, he could see Wen Qiu's hair twirling. He frowned and wanted to speak, but he saw the black filial cloth hanging on Wen Qiu's arm, and the black jacket Wen Qiu was wearing.After Song Zongyan's eyes met the filial cloth, his eyes flickered, and he suddenly forgot what he wanted to say.

Wen Qiu didn't notice his eyes, he was very tired and didn't want to think about anything.After picking up the parts and putting them on Song Zongyan's table, Wen Qiu still didn't look at him, lowered his eyelids, and said again: "I'm sorry."

A word that doesn't mean anything and can't redeem anything.

He rarely apologized, Song Zongyan had hardly seen him say these three words again and again since he met him.

Wen Qiu knew that he probably wouldn't pay attention to him anymore, so he didn't wait for his response, he lay down on the bed, turned his back to Song Zongyan, and stopped talking.

No sleep for one night.

When Wen Qiu went to class the next day, Chu Wenxin said excitedly, "You're finally here."

Wen Qiu saw the neat test papers and homework on his desk: "You helped me clean it up?"

"It's me." Wen Qiu answered the conversation at the same table. This person was very dull. He had been a classmate for almost three years, and Wen Qiu didn't say a few words to him. This time it was rare that the other party took the initiative to speak, "But most of the test papers have been passed. , and the explanation is over, it’s useless to put it away.”

"Oh, thank you." Wen Qiu sat down, with the same tone as usual, "It's very useful, I'll make it myself when I'm free."

"Then I'll keep an eye on you to see if you can do it." Chu Wenxin laughed behind him.

Wen Qiu was helpless: "Woman, why do you always expose me who wants to study hard?"

He was in a bad mood on the face, but he was joking and noisy when he talked, and there were a few people who had a good relationship with him in the evening self-study, and he was no longer cautious: "Wen Qiu, why did you take leave for so long?"

"Going to play." Wen Qiu said.

"Really, I thought you had something to do at home, but it turns out you're really cool."

"Yes."

There was a lot of noise around them, and many people in the class looked over.Someone in front turned around and said to Song Zongyan: "Squad leader, the bell is ringing, and Teacher Ding hasn't come yet, so please take care of the discipline."

Song Zongyan nodded and knocked on the table: "Stop talking, study quietly."

His ending sound just stopped on Wen Qiu's laughter, they all fell silent, but no one looked at anyone else.

Wen Qiu put away his smile and started to do his homework.He put Xiaobu on the clothes inside, and no one could see or say anything when the coat was covered, and there was always that relaxed and comfortable smile on his face.

After that sleepless night, Song Zongyan didn't go back to the dormitory. It was only on Wednesday night that someone noticed that he stopped Song Zongyan who was walking towards the school gate, wondering: "Squad leader, the playground and the dormitory are not in that direction."

"I'm going home." Song Zongyan stopped and answered him.

"How did you get home?"

Wen Qiu happened to come out from behind them, but he didn't stop and walked straight over.

Song Zongyan paused for a few seconds before saying, "There is something."

The man didn't think much of it, waved him goodbye, caught up with Wen Qiu who was walking past, and grabbed his neck from behind: "Hey, hey, Wen Qiu, the squad leader is back home, aren't you guarding the boudoir alone?"

Wen Qiu was as good as he said: "That Yang nobleman, come and accompany me."

"Oh, if the emperor is willing to turn over the name of the concubine tonight, the concubine will dress up immediately." The man's name is Zhang Fengyang, and he is surprisingly hot. I can catch up with a few words, and I am half a friend with Wen Qiu. After knowing that Wen Qiu likes the same sex, I haven't broken up with him, and I am still the same.

Song Zongyan walked towards the school gate without looking back.

Zhang Fengyang glanced back, and sighed pretendingly: "The relationship between you and Song Zongyan seems to be really ordinary now, it was so good at the beginning. Just because you are gay? It shouldn't be so."

Everyone thinks that Song Zongyan is not, Chu Wenxin is, and Zhang Fengyang is, but they really can't understand this.Even Wen Qiu couldn't believe it when he first heard Song Zongyan's disgust towards homosexuality.

"Or is he like that kid Qin Miao, who thinks you are interested in him, and beats you up in terror?" Mentioning Qin Miao, Zhang Fengyang couldn't help but sneer, and overturned his own reasoning, "Impossible, impossible, how could Song Zongyan be like that?" Qin Miao is so weird."

"How can it be impossible?" Wen Qiu's words could never tell the truth, "But he didn't blame him, after all, it was the truth, I was interested in him, so he evaded like a snake and scorpion in fear."

"Really?" Zhang Fengyang stared.

The moon was shining brightly and the stars were sparse. There was an airplane flying across the sky, and round light spots flashed and flashed.

"Fake." Wen Qiu had already walked to the small red building in the school supermarket, leaving him behind, "I'm going to buy drinks."

"Can't you drink more hot water in winter?" Zhang Fengyang shouted to Wen Qiu who had already walked away.

"No." Wen Qiu replied.

He was already hot, silent, eager longing all over him.The boiling is so hot that no amount of ice and snow can be poured into it to melt the longing.

So, Song Zongyan, look at me.