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Qin Huai is good most of the time, but the occasional bad one can always drive me crazy.

Since we reconciled, we have had a good time, a few times like ordinary couples, dating, watching movies, and walking along the lake, but more often, we just hug each other without distinction. Together, then giggle and have a good time.

In order to show his sincerity, Qin Huai respected my opinion on many things, but he ignored my opinion on the matter of marriage, and insisted on taking the earliest flight he could find to go there in the early morning of the day I promised to marry him. Marry abroad.

"Is it the United States, Canada or New Zealand." Qin Huai excitedly jumped up from the bed and began to organize the things we need to stay when we go out.

I stuck my feet out of the bathroom, "Go take a shower" I said to him in disgust, otherwise I will drive you to the living room, but Qin Huai didn't hear me at all.

"America. I'm more familiar with it, and I can take you to many places." He said excitedly. , At that time, we can go to Alaska, Yellowstone Park, the beach, the Statue of Liberty, if you want to go to other places, we can take a global trip, go to the Mediterranean in summer, and return to China to climb Fragrant Hills and see maple leaves in autumn. "I kissed you on the clear sea, Xiao Lin's face was blushing, and she said no or no..." Qin Huai said with a smile.

I am completely silent.I have always known that Qinhuai and I have different life experiences, but I still haven’t thought of the gap between us. The farthest place I’ve been to is the small town where I stayed for half a year. All tourist places are only 500 kilometers away in a straight line from Jiangzhen. Within, City E used to be the farthest place I have ever been to, and later it was when I was traveling with Li Mu and Xiaohua.

I feel guilty, I have very little savings these years, apart from Qin Huai not wanting me to go out to work, my own lack of motivation is also a major shortcoming.Even though I had countless money in my hand, I still hesitated subconsciously: "Qin Huai, otherwise we won't go... It's really a waste. I've never been abroad and I can't speak English..."

Qin Huai stopped talking endlessly: "Ah, Xiao Lin, why do you want to go with me if you haven't gone out? Besides, you have passed CET-[-] in freshman year. Could it be that my Xiao Lin is so stupid that he eats everything he learns? Are you back?" He ruffled my hair.

"No," I said angrily, "don't say I'm stupid, you are the stupidest one, you always like to make me unhappy."

"Yes, yes, yes!" Qin Huai immediately said, "It's all because of my lack of consideration, please believe me." He leaned over, sprayed his warm breath on me, took my hand, and turned the clothes he just put on again. The ring on my hand: "You promised me, don't break your promise." He said, then pinched my face: "Ah Lin~"

I was blushed by him and my heart was beating. For so many years, I have never been able to resist Qin Huai. I used to hate this deeply in myself, but now, it doesn't matter: Qin Huai moved his mouth closer. Recently, he always I asked for nothing, I blocked his eyes and lips with my hands, and greedily felt his temperature, "You never told me, Ah Lin, Xiao Lin, what is the difference from Lin Lin, and my name .”

"I call you Jiang Lin when I'm angry, I usually call you A Lin, and now I call you Xiao Lin," Qin Huai said cunningly, "If you say 'no, no,' a lot, I'll call you Lin Lin, understand?"

"Oh, that's it." I said sourly, then kicked him away, "Go and pack your things, I promise you."

Qin Huai stared at the resume in my hand with hatred, and dared not speak out.

We really went to get married, the wedding of two people, in a gothic chapel, only the priest and Qin Huai and me in suits, Qin Huai always said that due to the reality in China, he really couldn't do it in front of everyone for the time being Give me a satisfactory wedding, actually I don't care, since there are thousands of couples who don't have a real wedding, then there is nothing wrong between us, but it's not that he bullied me to put on a skirt and wipe my mouth and laugh reason.

Our honeymoon plan was well planned, but the facts did not allow us to do so. I had a fever in a hotel worth a month's salary for one night, and my mind was lying in a strange place. The only thing I could rely on was me My lover, I don't want him to leave, not for a moment, just want to hold him tightly, "Xiao Lin." He said heartbrokenly, fed me water and wiped my body with a wet towel: "I don't Well, I didn't notice what you said."

I really said a lot of "don't don't" that day, and Qin Huai really called me Linlin, and then I passed out, and woke up like this.

I slightly opened my eyes, "I'm still very happy, Qin Huai, you are mine now."

Qinhuai is mine now, and we have been to many places after I got better, Hawaii, Hollywood, Venice, Paris, Provence, London Eye, and sometimes Qinhuai is too tired, so I speak Chinese-English stuttering to solve the problem.

During my summer birthday I was sick from time to time and spent half the time in the hotel with a fever.

Qin Huai is crazy, I have seen many beautiful little things, he will buy them one by one, he likes to stuff all the delicacies into my mouth, and then smile at me.It wasn't until July that we were called back by the bombarded emails in China and by Qin Huai's suspicious parents.

"In the future, I can take you to climb mountains." Qin Huai said, "I heard that the scenery in Guilin is very beautiful."

"I'm not going." I looked at him warily, "I don't want to be trapped on the mountainside, you go to work."

Qin Huai was immediately dragged into the abyss.

He no longer has time to take care of me, just let me be at home as usual.

Games and books can no longer satisfy me as usual, and I went to apply for a job as usual. It is not difficult to find a job, it is just a place for salary. This time I carefully avoided the capital control of Qinhuai's friends, and honestly found A job that pays well.

As a result, on the fifth day of work, Qin Huai was finally able to escape from work.

"A Lin, come out to play." He said happily, "Finally I have time."

"I'm working." I told him.

"What? You went out to work again?" Qin Huai dissatisfied, "Why can't you wait for me at home, with such a small amount of money—" Then he realized that he had said something stupid, and suddenly shut up, but it was irreversible.

I squint my eyes in front of my phone.

"Xiao Lin, I was wrong." He immediately faltered, "I'll go see you."

Qin Huai's parents were mad, no doubt about it.Both of us are having a hard time. In the past, our relationship with each other was not harmonious, and now it is even better. The whole city of C knows about us, and even the photos of my women's clothing have been picked up. , Qin Huai and I were the main culprits for losing their family members.

"Well, it looks better than I imagined." Qin Huai said happily, flipping through the high-resolution photos he got from his friend, "When will Ah Lin wear women's clothes again?"

"It won't happen anytime soon." I glared at him angrily.

The life after marriage passed quickly. Compared with the painful and long time before, it was more like someone deliberately set the clock forward. Time passed crazily, and it was December in the blink of an eye.Our affairs are no longer just an after-dinner discussion for everyone. I was so angry that Qin Huai couldn't bear it, so I quit my job and stayed by his side openly, as his assistant.

I did very poorly. Because of my inexperience, I was always full of loopholes. Qin Huai probably just wanted to have fun with me and didn't care about my work progress. Liang Chen still laughed at me until Qin Huai couldn't bear the war between us. It happened that the company Ready to expand the new market in N City, he sent Liang Chen away with a wave of his hand.Now there is no one to stop Qin Huai's unreasonable behavior, he is still so over the top, he even added my desk in his office, then pushed me on the chair, and kissed me as he wished.

Our office romance got busted a few times by other people to the point where everyone snickered at me.

"Qin Huai!" I said unhappily, and raised my feet on his seat: "Pour me a cup of coffee."

Qin Huai's work was interrupted, and he huddled on the sofa aggrievedly, without any anger, he just poured me a glass of water: "Coffee is not good for your health, Ah Lin."

"Oh." I made fun of myself.

The end of the year is approaching, and Qin Huai's work is also idle, so he deliberately took the time to go back to my hometown.

My parents were still the same, I didn't have the face to face them, and I called them later with Qin Huai's encouragement.

"Dad, Mom, happy new year, we came back early this year." I stood at the door and whispered.

Mother led me into the living room, only Qin Huai stayed behind, and brought large and small gift boxes from the trunk. "

"Linlin, are you going to help?" She looked at Qin Huai who was busy up and down in embarrassment.

"It's fine if I'm alone." Qin Huai just happened to finish moving the last things, and upon hearing this, he took the initiative to lead me into the room, and the two of us sat on the sofa in an orderly manner.

My father's white hair crawled up his temples, and the familiar smell of old smoke in his mouth must be because I really didn't take good care of them.

My parents stared at Qin Huai and me holding hands, but couldn't say anything.

"Mom and Dad," only Qin Huai shamelessly raised my hand and pretended to smile shyly, showing off our pair of rings, "I brought Xiao Lin back perfectly, and we got married last spring, Xiao Lin is too shy I haven’t told you all this time.”

I:"……"

Qin Huai's skill at pleasing people is really good. He said a lot of nice things in a decent way, which made my dad look satisfied, and even my mother's expression relaxed a little.

"That's all, that's all." My dad said after dinner, "You just want to be happy."

We lived cautiously in my small room, Qin Huai stopped me tightly, blew into my ear, and smiled at me. "Xiao Lin, I really want to know you earlier."

"Yeah." I said, but I wondered if I would be pissed off if I met Qin Huai first.

The next day we went to Qinhuai's grandparents' house again. As in previous years, their family had a large number of people, forming an intricate network of people. No matter how far away they were, the children and grandchildren would come back tirelessly.

Qin Huai and I were shopping in a panic at the mall, then Qin Huai divided up the gifts and hung them on my hand, "It's all from you."

"I didn't really buy it." I said uneasy.

Qin Huai pinched my face in public: "What's yours is mine."

When I entered the door, everyone was looking at me, Qin Huai's elders, cousin, aunt, uncle, and children.

Qin Huai held my hand tightly: "This is Jiang Lin, my lover."

His rhetoric was really secondary, and I blushed, wearing Qin Huai's favorite clothes, and dressed up like he liked.

Qin Huai's parents are not easy to get angry in front of so many people. It is the first time for Qin's mother to look at me seriously. The beautiful girls, handsome boys, and majestic elders of the Qin family all looked at me. Their eyes made me afraid , Even the formalistic dinner was tasteless.

After the meal, everyone warmed up, and the topic gradually turned to the parents, and they invited me to play cards. They may have done it on purpose. My card skills are not at all comparable to these old fritters who have been around for decades. I lost very badly. Qin Huai's cousin looked at me teasingly.

In the end, Qin Huai finally couldn't stand it anymore, so he came to help me, "Stop, stop!" Qin Huai dragged me out of the wolf's den and took my place, "Don't bully my family, Lin, anymore."

I was thrown into the pile of children of the younger generation. The children of the Qin family wanted to be perverts with high IQs and tried to tease me in different ways. Some people even asked me how I was trapped by Qin Huai.There is also such a careful baby, everyone threw him to me with confidence, I watched him in case he fell off the sofa, and then I was at a loss for him.

"Qin Huai, call...that Jiang Lin to come over." Mother Qin said.

Qin Huai immediately beamed with joy, and kissed me during the break, "Don't be afraid," he comforted, "My mother gave you a red envelope."

Like a sheep thrown into a trap, I gritted my teeth and walked into the house with Mother Qin.

In the evening, Qin Huai was full of wine and food, and the life at home made him indulge. I woke him up from dozing off unhappily, and lost my temper at him.

"Get up!" I said unhappily.

"What's the matter, Ah Lin?" Qin Huai embraced me with a strong arm, imprisoning me in his arms, wanting it again?baby? "

I kicked his calf, and felt that his handsome face was disgusting everywhere, why did I fall in love with him obsessively.

"What's the matter, baby?" He pressed my leg, "Who bullied you?"

I stared at him and tried to make myself very wronged: "Your mother said that she wanted a child, otherwise she would not accept me. She also called me Hu Meizi, and she knew about our affairs again, saying that I was in the cholera company .”

"Well," Qin Huai laughed, "How can there be such a cute little fox like you in the world, who can't be eaten alive?"

Qin Huai really coaxed me very well, and I felt better. I saw him raise his head, his eyes lit up and listened: "You agree? In fact, it's not bad to have a child. He will call me Dad when the time comes. Calling your mother."

I grabbed the pillow and hit him, depressed: "Yeah, I reluctantly agreed, but I'm not a mother!"

"What's wrong." Qin Huai imitated my sad face and said patiently: "Ah Lin, we have agreed to tell me everything in our hearts."

I wasn't happy at all, and sometimes I wish I hadn't been born, I know I'm a bad person, and I don't want to force that on a new life and say, "I can't have kids."

Qin Huai made fun of my innocence: "Did I let you have a baby? We can find a surrogate, a female version of Xiao Jiang Lin, and a male version of me. If I make you angry again, we can let Xiao Qin Huai and Xiao Jiang Lin coax you." gone."

I glanced at him reproachfully, but I couldn't get interested: "You want two more."

Qin Huai said with a smile: "We can send them piano classes so that they can receive a good education. When we are old, we will teach them not to cheat the feelings of boys and girls. We will have a big family."

I couldn't stand that kind of scene, so I had to say with red eyes; "No, you don't understand... I was never that good, I don't want them to go through that kind of life..."

Qin Huai wiped away my tears, I couldn't look directly into his hopeful eyes: "You can tell me the story."

I closed my eyes, lay in his arms, and suddenly made up my mind to tell him about my childhood, my youth, and my lonely life. Qin Huai was right, I really wanted to meet him earlier, In this way, I can have a better life,

Qin Huai is often angry at me for being arrogant and underestimating myself, and uses everything to be jealous, and has a strong sense of my existence, but this time he didn't say anything, looked directly at me and held my hand tightly, just like we have been together for so many years, surrounding me by my side.

"Fool," finally Qin Huai sighed: "We won't have children, leave this matter to me, don't listen to my parents anymore."

"False, you obviously like children." I complained.

Qin Huai leaned closer to me: "I like children, but I like you more. Cheapskate, it's enough to raise one of you. My love is so little that I can only devote myself wholeheartedly to one person."

Qin Huai sprayed his wine-scented breath on my whole body, making it warm. , People all say the truth after drinking, I believe his words, and I also believe his love, Qin Huai under the lights is very beautiful, even with the smoke I hate, it is still the Qin Huai I have loved for a long time.

"Then you can only like me." I said to him.

Qin Huai didn't answer, he was full of wine and food, leaned back, and snored immediately.

I crawled over, leaned against his face and pointed at his ear: "Qin Huai, did you hear that? Just love me."

In his sleep, Qin Huai let out a soft "Mmm", but he didn't know if it was his answer to me.

But that's fine.I carefully rubbed Seri's scruffy beard on his chin with my mouth, then lightly touched his lips, and moved away like a thief for a second.

He still didn't know anything, just raised the corners of his mouth, as if he was having a sweet dream.

There must be me in the dream.